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the only way to get through it is to get through it.

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sept, oct, nov & dec be good to us

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Expecting the biggest plot twists

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I hate how much of myself I gave away just waiting for people. Waiting for a text, a call, a name on my screen that would make me feel seen for a second. It’s pathetic how I let their attention decide if my day was good or bad. And when they stopped showing up, I stopped existing too. Like I had no identity outside of their words, like my worth only lived in their notifications. It’s sick, really. Because now I can’t even tell if I miss them, or if I just miss the version of myself that felt wanted. And that’s the part that stings the most—realizing I’ve been outsourcing my happiness to people who were always free to walk away.

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only want to be around people who don’t spike my nervous system.

With my sister on a gap year, I've got a good reason to go home more often than usual in Zambales.

Beach ofc! The sunset was nice that weekend.

We just played lots and lots and lots of Scrabble throughout the day (even while working lol) until we sleep hahaha. Grabe, we got nice sessions of brain exercise that week.

Our tita treated us to a fancy dinner in SBMA. We had croquettes, a charcuterie board, pickled vegetables, carbonara and wine.

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hinatid na namin sa airport 'yung best friend ko who was also my roomie for more than 5 years dito sa Pasay. he's in Denmark now. honestly, it has been so overwhelming this month for me—him leaving, a heartbreak, busy work weeks and not having a proper work space. i decided to stay in Zambales for a few days kasi i felt like i needed the change of environment for a bit and the family pill.

i was anxious to go back to an empty apartment and so sad knowing that he won't be there anymore. aside from this, i still care for my ex and i just prayed and prayed na sana pagbalik ko i won't feel so alone tsaka pagod na ako magbreakdown haha. anyway, i had to go back kasi konting damit lang 'yung nadala ko pauwi dahil wala akong dalang car and may lakad din ako last thursday.

pagpasok ko ng apartment amoy niya agad 'yung bumungad kasi tanda ko he sprayed so much perfume before we left for the airport that day haha. well, hindi naman ako umiyak but i miss his presence. i'm so happy that he succeeded this time, kanyang kanya na 'tong opportunity na 'to. i admire his courage kasi mahirap and although he has a relative naman in Denmark, it would still be quite a change of environment for him pero i believe he can power through.

i guess since it has been so overwhelming, i was also looking forward to some alone time. i couldn't believe na after driving for 6 hours (dahil sa traffic), nagka-energy pa 'kong ayusin yung beds namin and set up my new work table in my apartment. i am living solo now and surprisingly, i feel so much better na and not just distracted dahil ang daming aayusin dito. so, i've cleared up space for my work desk and bought an air fryer. i actually feel excited but want to move slowly lang. it just feels so nice to end the month embracing a new era.

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