花樣年華 𓇬 Youth is never coming back.

‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎☆ 𝙸'𝚖 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚊 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕... 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚞𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚍. ☆‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎꒰ঌᐢ. ˬ .ᐢ໒꒱ “𝙸’𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚜𝚘 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗?”

[lilvanillamb]

Welcome to my virtual diary, let's talk about me!

credit to @mochilly for the lamb png.

I DONT INTERACT WITH NSFW BLOGS, LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

“Nostalgia is the suffering caused by an unappeased yearning to return.”

“We are all strangers in a strange land, longing for home, but not quite knowing what or where home is. We glimpse it sometimes in our dreams, or as we turn a corner, and suddenly there is a strange, sweet familiarity that vanishes almost as soon as it comes.”

꒰ঌᐢ. ˬ .ᐢ໒꒱ 𝒮𝓂𝒶𝓁𝓁 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝓇ℴ: I have multiple nicknames but usually people call me Tete, i'm a 04's baby and my birthday is in January 13th, i have adhd and Cats+Hannibal NBC+The Phantom Of The Opera+BTS = special interests, my favorite colors are yellow, blue and green, i don't really care about having a gender but i'm a girlblogger in my soul so any pronoun will work.

꒰ঌᐢ. ˬ .ᐢ໒꒱ 𝒯𝒶𝓈𝓉ℯ 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓊𝓈𝒾𝒸: (BTS, Red Velvet and Orange Caramel are my bread and butter) Indila, Lamp, Ichiko Aoba, Ayesha Erótica, Ghost, ABBA, Lana del rey, Evanescence, Melanie Martinez, Bossa Nova, Mitski, Aurora +. I listen to a little bit of everything.

₍ᐢ •⌄• ᐢ₎.

꒰ঌᐢ. ˬ .ᐢ໒꒱ ℳℯ𝒹𝒾𝒶𝓈: Supernatural (SPECIAL SPN BLOG HERE) , I believe in unicorns (comfort movie), Lisa Frankenstein, Black Swan, The Love Witch, The Virgins Suicide, Girl, interrupted (comfort movie), The perks of being a wallflower, !!!Everything Everywhere All at Once!!!, The phantom of the opera (almost all of them), Clueless, Legally Blond (1&2), Twilight, Teen Beach Movie (1&2), Alice in wonderland, Smiling Friends ( i´m literally Pim), Yellowjackets, Hannibal NBC, JOJO´S Bizarre Adventure, Percy Jackson (books and series), Gumball's amazing world,The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Dinner in America and Yuri!!! On ice.

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Please, attention:

If your profile has ed and stuff keep in mind i wont interact with your publications as much as i could, i'm in a recovering process. I have nothing against you.

[irlitgirl]

[heartmadebyangels]

can i catch a break

[stargirl6969]

I believe in unicorns

[yukiyu4]

[royaldoll444]

⊹ ˚. ♡. 𐙚 .♡ .˚ ⊹

[hunterthedeer]

[lokisasylum]

Demian quotes throughout WINGS films and MVs

Intro: BOY MEETS EVIL

“My scene was not necessarily this or that, but it consisted of having shaken hands with the Devil. The Devil held me in its clutches, the enemy was behind me.”

피 땀 눈물 (Blood, Sweat & Tears)

“He too was a tempter. He too was a link to the other second, the evil world with which I no longer wanted to have anything to do [with].”

Begin (Jungkook)

“The realms of day and night, two worlds coming from two opposite poles, mingled during this time.”

Lie (Jimin)

“My parent’s house made up one realm, this realm was familiar to me in almost every way– mother and father, love and strictness, model behavior and school.“

First Love (Yoongi/Suga)

"There are numerous ways in which God can make us lonely and lead us back to ourselves. This was the way he dealt with me at that time.”

Stigma (Taehyung/V)

“That was the first fissure in the columns that had upheld my childhood, which every individual must destroy before he can become himself. Such fissures and rents grow together again, heal, and are forgotten, but in the most secret recesses they continue to live and bleed.”

Mama (Hoseok/Jhope)

“With a face that resembled her son’s, timeless, ageless, and full of inner strength, the beautiful woman smiled with dignity. Her gaze was fulfillment, her greeting a homecoming. Silently I stretched my hands out to her.”

Reflection (RM)

“The other realm, however, overlapping half our house, was completely different. A loud mixture of horrendous, intriguing, frightful, mysterious things, including slaughterhouses and prisons, drunkards and screeching fishwives, calving cows, horses sinking to their death. Tales of robberies, murders, and suicides.”

Awaken (Jin)

“The bird finds its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Who would be born first must destroy the world. The bird flies to God. That God’s name is Abraxas.”

[waterclreyes]

[cemeterysai]

I wish I could die for like 10 seconds to see everyone's reaction

[lilvanillamb]

A ghost age.

I don't feel like i have 22, most of the time i feel 15 even when is undeniable that a lot happened to the world and to myself since 2019. Sometimes i can feel the changes that happened during this time and sometimes i can't making me feel like a truck runed over me when my youger cousing complains to me about being 15 ( how are you 15 if i'm 15 and i was born way before you?) or when i simply notice the passage of time in the details of my life that evolved.

Fuck, the time does pass.

[littlemisslacey]

[angleshavew1ngs]

The rain has my heart

[lilvanillamb]

The oasis.

There is something magical (almost poetic) about finding that little oasis of peace in your twenties.

And what a phase your twenties are.

Usually, you don’t know who you are or what you want to do with your life, you see acquaintances getting pregnant or married, some with great jobs and living in their own homes, while you wonder how the hell that’s even possible. I used to worry about getting good grades in school, then about getting a grade good enough to get into any college since the four years spent trying to pass that big as exam my country has nearly drove me insane. I got into a decent one that i didn't even wanted that badly, and then one day, i found myself saying something i never imagined would cross my grumbling lips:

I was actually kind of liking the way things were going. It had such fun classes.

People say I seem more mature and composed, even though i don’t feel any different since i still worry about college, but i’ve accepted that being average is sometimes necessary even if it brings a sense of failure, i also worry a lot about not having a job and the way i spend my whole day waiting for class to start (i have night classes), not knowing what to do with myself. I feel like i should be more productive, but studying is really important, too.

Even when things are calm, my brain always finds a way to feel conflicted so what can i do? Find my oasis.

Lately i’ve grown fond of bedtime since it’s the time i’ve set aside to take care of myself. I like to take a hot shower, apply my sweet-smelling baby-scented moisturizers, and spritz a little baby powder scent around my room. Then I lie down, spending long minutes watching videos on my TikTok account consuming only content made by women on my tablet, sometimes i like to read, other times, I hang out on my BTS fan account on Twitter while listening to a random Spotify playlist where Kate Bush and ABBA make my night, i really like looking around my room and imagining I’m a fictional character, analyzing from the outside what every corner and detail would say about me. In these small moments, i allow myself to feel a little happiness something that eluded me during years of battling depression and mental illnesses.

I am happy to be alive, and I wish I could share the microscopic details of my life with others so they could see that things really can get better and if they get worse again later, that’s okay too because i know i’ll find another oasis to refresh myself in the heat of the chaos.

[dearliv18]

rip your pads loudly and fix your bras in public to assert dominance ladies

[angelgirlxxxxxxx]

[serenisleepy]