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Tianshan nation… here’s some of the fic I’m writing that takes place during the recent chap (minus censorship and plus lots of communication!!) 🫶

It all unravelled so easily. All of Mo’s built up anger and frustration, and all of the tension in his body. Every bad feeling started to dissipate with just one tender kiss to his forehead. A kiss just like the one Tian gave Mo under that willow tree all those years ago, when he first tried saying goodbye….

Mo desperately wanted to hang on to his resolve, to demand He Tian say something or listen to how much pain he’d put Mo through by making him believe he might never return. Mo wanted to shout and hit Tian—he already had—but by now he was so tired, and just a hint of that old sweetness they'd shared as teenagers proved enough to make him weak all over again.

He went quiet at the gentle brush of Tian’s lips against his skin, resisting the urge to close his eyes and sink deeper into the mattress, then maybe even pull Tian down to lay with him. But then the contact was over, and Tian was still hovering just above him, quietly looking.

He couldn’t know for sure, but Mo was almost certain Tian’s intense eyes and flushed cheeks mirrored his own expression. He didn’t understand why Tian left him for so long, but with each passing moment it was becoming harder to ignore just how much Tian still cared about him.

They were gazing at each other now with a palpable mix of desire and heartache in the air. As much as Mo wanted to push Tian away and protect his heart from being shattered again, having Tian back and looking at him like that—with all the desperate love they built up as inexperienced kids—made refusing this impossible.

And then Tian was really laying on top of him, lazily nuzzling into his cheek. “Lil Mo,” he drawled. “Just one kiss….”

This will soon be posted on my ao3 which is @sun_monsterz ! I hope to finish writing this fic later this week 💕

bakibakideemon

So about the latest 19 Days chapter. Specifically Momos box. I noticed he also taped the note under the Polaroid with He Tian.

It’s the same Polaroid that Tian gave with the guitar. And momos taped the part that read

“Do whatever you like to do. I’ll support you.”

Like for context - the guitar was the first time someone told momo (and he took it seriously) that they’ll support them. That he can also live for himself.

momo sees a guitar in a window of a shop but ignores it. Because life. Tian notices and buys it for mo. Eventually gifts it to him. At that point mo says “you don’t understand.” (Referring to the bad hand he was dealt with and living through it every day). And Tain tells him this:

Like this is the point where momo wanted to change wanted to dream. Like he realized he could do all of that and the world wouldn’t end. Maybe not immediately but the seeds were sown here. Because before that mo didn’t think twice about his wants/ his hobbies/ he never explored who he is. He was never allowed to (partly due to his circumstance and in part because of his own self).

One of the previous chapters there is a text conversation between the two. See how momos all practical? “Waste of time and money?”

Fast forward a few chapters and we have this scene:

We know momo kept the guitar. like he still is following his heart- a point to tian because he showed momo the light. To be unafraid to follow his dream and that lesson stayed with momo.

But for Mo it was also being unafraid because tian will always be there to support him. He’s got his back. But then he left… the implications are clear. We see it in the reaction. Tian knows it

But, at the end of the day, momo still kept that guitar. He still kept that promise to change. To live for himself. And that’s beautiful.

liprik0n

ganen-cheese

Little Mo! Was I good?

Just a silly thing based on the last chapter. He Tian fooling around as usual but this time it turns out to be true….

natsumi19oneday

I love them sooo much!!

corvusphobia

Sorry!

Well, hope that makes a lot of people happy or angry or whatever. Btw thanks for 300 (almost 400 at this point) follows, dunno how dead this gonna be when my motivation dies, but as long as everyone having fun Here is a gift, hope you enjoy it, I am sure some of you would

motianz

This chapter is still in the future and doesn't advance the plot but STILL, we got so much from it!!! So much "reciprocate feelings Mgs"

First of all little Mo's working on luxury cars!!! I'm so happy for him, he obviously loves cars/bikes like this

Second, Mo called He Tian handsome UNPROMPTED, TWICE. First a little to appease Ht, second because when his Bf turned his face Mo found him so handsome he couldn't help but say/think it again!!!!!

Third, as we know Ht smokes when he's stressed/in a bad mood, and the first thing Mo does is reach out to take away the cigarette. AND this looser loves and feels so attracted to He tian, that he blushed after Ht pulled him close and blew smoke in his face