Lily Lived

[lilylived]

No offense, but everytime I see someone overly nice and forgiving and I think to myself... are my own boundaries too strict with people? Maybe I shouldn't be so judgy? 🧐

....but then i get proven right soon enough bc these people end up getting into some truly insane situations

[pmamtraveller]

the crescent moon bridge, in Guangzhou, China.

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[d-d-zero]

[oldpaintings]

The Steps of Les Fourneaux at Melun by Henri Rouart (French, 1833--1912)

[lilylived]

Lol I got into a minor argument with someone bc they were minimizing genocide. Not the gaza genocide, but another one from the past.

I felt a little guilty because I normally don't lose my cool and get into arguments with deaf dumb and blind people anymore. Clearly, I was triggered.

But I had forgotten the gravity of what had triggered me, so I felt guilty for not being perfectly calm.

Then just now, I randomly saw a clip of a muslim reporter from Nov 2023 trying to speak out to stop the genocide... like the shock and horror in her voice while trying to remain calm ☹️

We all saw this coming. And we should have had much more teeth actually. So why would I even feel guilty for speaking up a little too harshly.

[fravery]

Timothy Easton

Evening at the Iris Field

[lilylived]

In between my other weeping duas, trust I am praying for b*n gavwhatever to be humiliated in the worst way

[lilylived]

One of my first ever memories is me sitting on the floor, playing with my boring old toys, then looking at the delectable locking doorknob to the bedroom and itching to play with it. But I knew I wasn't allowed to touch it, so I just stood there staring up at it and tried to exercise a little self control lol. Then the memory fades out.

In reality, when I was about 1 years old, I did play with that doorknob and I accidentally locked my baby brother into the room. Firemen had to come and break down the door bc no one could open it quick enough and everyone was worried about the baby

I was also thinking, who else can comfort adults in these types of moments (when their child dies) other than Allah. The hadith about how Allah loves people more than loving mothers love their children :(

Our family friend's mother lived in the same apartment building at the time and their window was right across from ours.

So while everyone was panicking & the firemen were breaking down the door, she was trying to comfort my brother and keep him calm through her window.

💔

My heart actually hurts a lot but I suppose you can do nothing but just withstand these moments

[vornicheskucamera]

JULY RAINBOW

[delicatuscii-wasbella102]

Artist Mona Caron creates a gigantic flower mural on side of a building in Jersey City

[lilylived]

Yeah, I highly recomend listening/reciting to Quran immediately after any tragedy you experience..

It's almost like it gets the unhealthy beliefs out of the way first (like unreasonable self blame) and grounds you with a much bigger perspective. And then after that step, it's easier to grieve in a normal way. Like a filter for your tears, if you will..

[lilylived]

I love bus drivers who hate their job

As long as you can actually catch their bus, they SPEED through their route in record time.... barely stopping for anyone, dodging all the traffic, no smile, no chit chat

[rpfofficial]

if u pay attention there are themes and motifs on my blog

[lilylived]

I feel like a lot of people go on twitter just to naleesh into the void..... like what do you want me to do about data centers you fool

[lilylived]

The older I get, the more I am glad that I took care of my sister when I did.... like on multiple levels.

It was a pivotal life decision for me and I did it at such a young age, after a huge personal loss, with almost everyone either attacking me for it or just mildly disapproving.

[lilylived]

Interesting, I just saw this relevant hadith:

[lilylived]

The older I get, the more I am glad that I took care of my sister when I did.... like on multiple levels.

It was a pivotal life decision for me and I did it at such a young age, after a huge personal loss, with almost everyone either attacking me for it or just mildly disapproving.

[lilylived]

Honestly who would I even be if I wasnt devestated right now..... it's just what it is.