Creating my own Sunshine.
I have a confession. This year is off to a bland start for my hands on random activity stuff. Now you might be thinking how can that be, you draw all the time?
It happens, trust me.
I didn’t decorate for Valentines Day, or St. Patty’s Day, and here I am Saturday morning just dying our Easter eggs. I love holidays and I have let them slip by me. My birthday was a bust as well, I spent the whole week bawling my eyes out. I had a crazy amount of birthday wishes, but I seriously felt like the loneliest person on the planet. Then Yesterday, I was so panicked because I couldn’t figure out instagram for the life of me and this girl from etsy (Lemonlimecreations) reminded me what I had forgotten: The little things in my life that make me me.
Its funny, how being a parent and trying to keep your own business afloat can change your focus on a lot of things. Most days you want to give your kid 110 percent of you attention, those days are filled with constant attention and huge messes filled will love and creativity. Then the days come by, when you are battling for your own independence as a person and you get unimaginably frustrated, because you just want to have a day of freedom.
(I know this sounds selfish, but sometimes I just want to pee. By myself. In complete silence.)
So, what happens is I haven't made time in my life to take pictures, or do the cool stuff anymore. I have been going through the motions. When the bad days do pop up, I spend them like Eeyore, when I could be using that time to dive into the beauty around me. I have been Breathing, but I haven’t been living and I let a lot of the things that I like doing the most slip by me.
I want travel more, photograph more, love more, be a little more reckless, I want to geocache, I want to have a water balloon fight, I want to let a big bunch of balloons go outside. I don’t want to be scared I am losing time anymore, because that is causing me to loose time.
I want to take my son fishing, and do more science projects.
I am going to let the small things roll of my back, be selfish and show my kid why and what we can do while we are still here.