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[lisacryeddungeon]

[insert long rant about how I've been fucking sh-ing for nearly 30 years by now probably and institutionalized like 15+ times in my life and I'm still sick and I'm fucking tired of this grandpa]

[lisacryeddungeon]

They shunned me into dormancy and then complained when they unrepressed my shit and split a crazier version of my brand of winter alter who thinks she can talk to God 🙄

[chloroformgirll]

[shimmeringterroroblivion]

[lisacryeddungeon]

I was right. Sigh. Evil as fuck. But in the bright side if I'm lucky and it's on the shorter end maybe it'll wrap up before birthdays/trauma dates coming up.

[lisacryeddungeon]

I'm not doing my profile. Y'all can do that shit. "But we don't know 75% of your shit lisa--" Idc you have what you need and that's all you're gonna get ✨

[lisacryeddungeon]

Y'know what? Fine I'll do it but only cause I don't need to be triggered out bc you guys thought too hard about shit while doing it

[lisacryeddungeon]

I hope you all appreciate my vagueness

[lisacryeddungeon]

I'm not doing my profile. Y'all can do that shit. "But we don't know 75% of your shit lisa--" Idc you have what you need and that's all you're gonna get ✨

[lisacryeddungeon]

Y'know what? Fine I'll do it but only cause I don't need to be triggered out bc you guys thought too hard about shit while doing it

[x-saxitoxin-x]

I didn't even look over my profile til now and hey man ...

Heyyy what'd I do? Why is there like four ppl that specifically don't like me or wanna front with me? 😔 I knew it, I knew you guys didn't like me. Sure Lisa and I bicker but why doesn't Junpei or Hazel like me? Or Jax? What'd I ever do to Jax?

I'm like that meme of the guy with the thicc ass crying in the shower that nobody likes him (except I don't have a thicc ass bc I'm a twig) 😮‍💨

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[lisacryeddungeon]

You make me high-key uncomfortable and you're kinda annoying and whenever Ive fronted after you I feel gross. If it makes you feel better I don't like nobody in there so it's not that personal.

[lisacryeddungeon]

I'm not doing my profile. Y'all can do that shit. "But we don't know 75% of your shit lisa--" Idc you have what you need and that's all you're gonna get ✨

[x-saxitoxin-x]

Being afraid of men is actually a phobia by the way. So there, I'm not paranoid or traumatized or anything I just have androphobia

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[lisacryeddungeon]

As the resident man hater I call bullshit. There's no irrational way to fear men, men should just be feared and not trusted

The fact that literal infants from happy homes will cry in pure terror when their father shaves his face because they don't recognize him tells us that we as humans have a built-in instinct to be fearful of men we don't recognize.

Also I bet you $10 that phobia was coined by a man.

[comagiirl]

By the way I'm glad that post I made a while back got deleted thanks I was just checking to delete it myself because the audacity I had to think I was allowed to be mad or upset about that is embarrassing and shameful to look back on. it's extremely extremely disrespectful [redacted]'s memory especially even if the source thing is just a cover I can acknowledge that. And now I feel awful for even suggesting I should be at all upset When I wasn't the real victim in that situation, source wise and especially especially irl wise. That was horrible of me.

[lisacryeddungeon]

Well, fuck that, I can be pissed on your behalf, can't I?

Fuck that motherfucker, and fuck those motherfuckers, and especially fuck their irl counterpart motherfuckers, and fuck the readers for not even getting a little pissy about it, and fuck whatever makes you think you shouldn't be mad about it. K cool? Cool.

[lisacryeddungeon]

What is the point of coming into a channel to go "-insert incest ship- scissoring" then leave? Like. What's the point. You're not giving anybody anything

[lisacryeddungeon]

🧍I fucked up. I feel lambda scramble shutdown combo kicking in like a motherfucker goddammit

[lisacryeddungeon]

It's okay bc that's the first time I've been able to even vaguely imply that so. Progress.

[lisacryeddungeon]

🧍I fucked up. I feel lambda scramble shutdown combo kicking in like a motherfucker goddammit

[blank-roomsoup]

I desperately need to shower but I'm not risking Doll fronting and seriously messing up the body so. Sponge bath it'll have to be.

Lisa maybe was right about trying to work on the showering thing. Maybe if we can like, get Doll to try and at least process some of it within the system instead of holding/erasing it so we repress it? Ik she's still real uneasy around everybody but it sounds like the higher ups from that side system shunned her or whatever again so maybe we can kinda try and work with her a bit?

[lisacryeddungeon]

That's what I've been saying. Maybe we start working on it in September, during school hours so she doesn't feel like she has to do too much (she probably will anyways but less to worry about). Juuzou's around again and we got Nikki too so like. Deprogrammers and stuff. Even just working on the showering / water trigger would be a good start.

[lisacryeddungeon]

I wasn't gonna bitch but that's nuts she was only put for a lil over two hours and still managed to make the entire body feel like it got hit by a bus

[sacred-portal]