lita's spaceship

older than ur mom | side blog | i'm gonna get real weird with it

[litas-spaceship]

This is my pinned post. There are many like it, but this one is my own.

Call me Lita, I am >30 years old, and I interact from @litaloni. I started this side blog to shield my mutuals and enjoyers of my fanfic from my more delusional and deranged thoughts.

Loki, in many if not most of his various forms and interpretations, has my heart. He has for a very long time actually, but I have only recently begun treating these feelings seriously and contemplating what it means.

I am still not entirely sure how to describe my relationship with this character but I do think "self shipper" summarizes it fairly tidily.

I am questioning whether/where I may fall on the aromantic spectrum and I don't know if I like the label "fictoromantic." I might post about this self-discovery process here sometimes.

I am new to all of this so please be patient with me.

I have no problem with sharing Loki with other self-shippers, and would actually love for us to be friends, as long as we can both agree on one or both of these points: (1) Loki has any number of variants and it is not likely that your Loki is also my Loki, and (2) even if my Loki and your Loki are one and the same, he deserves whatever makes him happy, and if that's both of us, that should be okay.

I do have a problem with seeing Loki shipped with canon characters. Please don't mention your ships to me. If you post untagged "Lotis," "Lokius," "Sylki," etc., I will unfortunately have to block you. I have those tags filtered for a reason.

I do not participate in "pro" or "anti" bickering. I decline to call it "discourse" because discourse implies some degree of nuance. This blog will be NSFW at times, and will sometimes include discussion of things you may find "problematic." I do not care what you find problematic and this is your only warning. You should block me proactively if this is an issue for you.

This blog is absolutely not appropriate for minors.

With all of that having been said, I look forward to getting to know you.

[willowcrowned]

love when a dynamic is like. this would be deeply toxic for anyone else but considering the people involved this is actually far and away the healthiest option

[cattableabby]

My Marvel Rivals main 💚💚💚

I think Loki should be allowed to have his hair down in his base skin

[litas-spaceship]

The Lady Loki skin in Marvel Rivals and now the forthcoming summer skin are the bane of my fucking existence.

Why does she fucking look like that if this isn't a setup for Sif? Why am I gonna have to instalock faster than a bunch of men who for NO APPARENT OR OBVIOUS REASON suddenly want to play a character who has been nerfed almost to the point of uselessness?

I'm not tagging this because I genuinely do. not. want. to talk about this with people who aren't equally as deranged about Loki as I am (or more deranged). I already tried talking to other people about it. It did not go well. You must be at least this mentally ill to ride this ride.

[maxxie-or-smth]

no one else twists the knife as good as u come over

[feral-ballad]

Vikram Seth, from Summer Requiem: A Book of Poems; “Sonnet”

[theshatteredsilhouette]

there’s something about Loki and stars 🌟

my art tag

[litas-spaceship]

Millennials with F/Os, please rise for our national anthem

[litas-spaceship]

I just love this version of him. Unironically. I love when he does schemes and plots 💚

[lesbianralzarek]

"i could fix him" yeah? well i could accept him as he is. you don't like the murder? grow up. the atrocities are part of him and ive decided they're funny

[litas-spaceship]

Bla bla blah

It actually makes me kind of sad when I make some friends who are generally accepting of this whole fictoromantic/self-ship thing (or whatever it is), but they make a whole big thing about referring to Loki by feminine pronouns only.

That's just... not him.

I do not think Loki would care very much about pronouns. I think he would take "she" in stride because, yes, he has at times been a woman. I am not offended by the offhand "she." That is perfectly fine.

But my perception of Loki is very much informed by his depiction in the classic Thor comics. And also just in general the ones prior to Agent of Asgard, which (to my knowledge - correct me if I'm wrong) is the first time Loki is outright presented as gender fluid, or non binary, or whatever he is (I don't think he would use or has used that terminology to describe himself? But again correct me if I'm wrong).

And it's been a while but if I'm remembering well, that general era also presents us with multiple versions of Loki. You know, the Ikol of it all.

Prior to then, he did inhabit Sif's body while Sif was trapped in the body of a comatose woman (and yes it is possible I am misremembering this - for a third time, I do not mind being corrected). Not exactly the same as feeling very strongly in any way about gender, and more about getting what he needs/wants out of the situation.

And if you go way back, he's actually kind of a misogynist/wife-beating philanderer. Not exactly the ideologically pure character the people around me need him to be in order to identify with him.

So, yes, he is capable of being what he wants. If that's a woman or neither a man nor a woman, he can do that. He can do whatever the situation calls for. Because he is Loki. But for most of his life he has been male. Call him she/her if you want but making a big fuss about it, insisting that that's the *better* way to refer to him, it frustrates me.

Anyway yeah I'm going to be silent about it and maybe just take some space from these folks for a bit. Right now I feel like this was directed at me and like it was some kind of acid test to determine if I am morally pure enough about gender issues but hopefully I'm wrong and this is about someone else's need to see themselves in this character. But to go on and on about it and make it a point of emphasis felt very... directed.

Especially after me saying "hey this is very dumb and unreasonable but it super annoys me seeing Loki shipped with canon characters," and someone asking me directly "what do you think of this ship?" and then having to laugh it off, because it truly is not that serious, and it's only serious to me due to whatever mental illness/stress/interpersonal issues are driving this clinginess I feel with Loki. Why do that? It's so easy to just... talk to literally anyone else about that.

Whatever man. I shouldn't care. I just wanted to make friends. But opening up about this aspect of who I am is kind of just resulting in more hurt now. It's bad enough to be made fun of by people who don't understand how deep these feelings run (because I would never tell them), or told that I should not display pictures of Loki in common areas of my own home (another issue for another time).

This is probably why people don't like me. I push them away over stupid shit.

Oh well.

[litas-spaceship]

Update: I am over it. My thoughts about Loki and gender remain the same, but if he wouldn't give a fuck then I shouldn't either. I also just shouldn't let tiny little things like that bother me so much and maybe that's the downside of self-indulgence.

[nilovalentine]

no! healthy relationship will kill the character! he needs an unhealthy codependent romance with a side of power imbalance to live

[the-bar-sinister]

Villainous F/O making you kneel down in front of them and kiss their rings.

[filmzsource]

TOM HIDDLESTON as Loki Laufeyson

[xxthedeadgodxx]

snapewives walked so selfshippers could run.

[litas-spaceship]

Bla bla blah

It actually makes me kind of sad when I make some friends who are generally accepting of this whole fictoromantic/self-ship thing (or whatever it is), but they make a whole big thing about referring to Loki by feminine pronouns only.

That's just... not him.

I do not think Loki would care very much about pronouns. I think he would take "she" in stride because, yes, he has at times been a woman. I am not offended by the offhand "she." That is perfectly fine.

But my perception of Loki is very much informed by his depiction in the classic Thor comics. And also just in general the ones prior to Agent of Asgard, which (to my knowledge - correct me if I'm wrong) is the first time Loki is outright presented as gender fluid, or non binary, or whatever he is (I don't think he would use or has used that terminology to describe himself? But again correct me if I'm wrong).

And it's been a while but if I'm remembering well, that general era also presents us with multiple versions of Loki. You know, the Ikol of it all.

Prior to then, he did inhabit Sif's body while Sif was trapped in the body of a comatose woman (and yes it is possible I am misremembering this - for a third time, I do not mind being corrected). Not exactly the same as feeling very strongly in any way about gender, and more about getting what he needs/wants out of the situation.

And if you go way back, he's actually kind of a misogynist/wife-beating philanderer. Not exactly the ideologically pure character the people around me need him to be in order to identify with him.

So, yes, he is capable of being what he wants. If that's a woman or neither a man nor a woman, he can do that. He can do whatever the situation calls for. Because he is Loki. But for most of his life he has been male. Call him she/her if you want but making a big fuss about it, insisting that that's the *better* way to refer to him, it frustrates me.

Anyway yeah I'm going to be silent about it and maybe just take some space from these folks for a bit. Right now I feel like this was directed at me and like it was some kind of acid test to determine if I am morally pure enough about gender issues but hopefully I'm wrong and this is about someone else's need to see themselves in this character. But to go on and on about it and make it a point of emphasis felt very... directed.

Especially after me saying "hey this is very dumb and unreasonable but it super annoys me seeing Loki shipped with canon characters," and someone asking me directly "what do you think of this ship?" and then having to laugh it off, because it truly is not that serious, and it's only serious to me due to whatever mental illness/stress/interpersonal issues are driving this clinginess I feel with Loki. Why do that? It's so easy to just... talk to literally anyone else about that.

Whatever man. I shouldn't care. I just wanted to make friends. But opening up about this aspect of who I am is kind of just resulting in more hurt now. It's bad enough to be made fun of by people who don't understand how deep these feelings run (because I would never tell them), or told that I should not display pictures of Loki in common areas of my own home (another issue for another time).

This is probably why people don't like me. I push them away over stupid shit.

Oh well.

[loki-god-of-menace]