littlecellogirl

Ashlee | 22 | Cellist ✨✨✨✨✨✨

[affectionsuggestion]

Concept: us sitting on a beach at sunset, watching all the people walk past with their dogs

[allaboutlondon-deactivated20130]

[bektothefuture]

if you see him in the street walking by himself, talking to himself have pity he is playing pokemon go and has spent three hours trying to catch something other than a fucking ratata

[devilishlyoperatic]

Someone has taken David Cameron humming and turned it into a lush fantasy for cello and piano

‘Do dooo… do doo…’ has now become something rather more complex and beautiful.

Oh my God

[dailylmm]

Leslie Odom Jr. and Phillipa Soo with Lin-Manuel Miranda during their final curtain call of ‘Hamilton’ (July 9, 2016)

[berries-archive]

Adult: your hickey is crude and trashy, you should be ashamed

me: 

is a teenager

is living life and having fun

is bothering no one

hasn’t had 3 failed marriages

didn’t ask, martha

[jakegyllenhaal]

me thinking about the continuous progression of time

[setheverman]

american things that are surely fictional:

donald trump

blue raspberry

wearing shoes indoors

texas?????

[songllama]

Actually, I can vouch for Texas, my brother lives there.

[setheverman]

your brother

[thechaipapi]

Why’s it so hard to find people with the same intentions as you

[almondpeach-deactivated20160222]

[whitepaperquotes]

[twitterlols]

[babyanimalgifs]

baby animals blog

[jack-the-lion]

I love how its eyebrows just shoot up when the thing disappears. XD

[michellepsychologist]

Mental Illness Recovery Series

Story # 1  Depression /  anxiety & insomnia

Story # 2 - Bipolar type 1 /  Schizoaffective / Antisocial Personality Disorder & Polysubstance Abuse Disorder

Story # 3   Depression

Story # 4  Depression & Anxiety

Story # 5   Depression & Social Anxiety

Story # 6  Depression

Story # 7   Major Depressive Disorder / Post-traumatic Stress Disorder /  Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Dermatillomania

Story # 8  Depression & Dissociative Disorder

Story # 9  Dissociative Identity Disorder / Depression, Anxiety / Post-traumatic Stress Disorder & Phobias

Story # 10   Depression

Story # 11   Depression /  Social Anxiety Disorder /  Generalized Anxiety Disorder / Panic Disorder & Agoraphobia

Story # 12   General Anxiety Disorder & Panic Disorder

Story # 13 - Depression & Anxiety

Story # 14   Depression

Story # 15   Depression & Borderline Personality Disorder

Story # 16  ADD / Depression / Anxiety /  Insomnia & Identity Issue

Story # 17  Depression & Social Anxiety

Story # 18  GAD /  Social Anxiety & Clinical Depression

Story # 19   BPD /  ADD / PTSD &  EDNOS

Story # 20  Anxiety, PTSD  & Depression

Story # 21  Bipolar Type II

Story # 22  PTSD / Depression

Story # 23  Bulimia / EDNOS / Depression / BPD / GAD / Social Snxiety

Story # 24   Depression /  Anxiety / Bipolar Disorder / ADHD

Story # 25  OCD / Chronic Stress / Depression

Story # 26  Major Depression / Anxiety

Story # 27  Schizoaffective Disorder / Bipolar Type II

Story # 28 Depression

Story # 29  Major Depressive Disorder / Borderline Persoality Disorder / Dysthymia / Anorexia / Bulimia

Short Stories # 30 & 31  Panic Disorder / Depression / Bipolar Disorder

Story # 32  Schizophrenic Depression

Story # 33  Chronic Depression

Story # 34  Depression / Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Story # 35 Bipolar Disorder

Story # 36 - Schizoaffective Disorder

Short Story # 37 -  Depression / EDNOS

Story # 38 -  Anxiety / Depression / BPD

Story # 39 -  BPD / PTSD / Depression / Anxiety / Eating Problems

Story # 40 -  Depression / Anxiety / Attention Defect Disorder

Story # 41 -  Depression / Anxiety

Story # 42 -  Depression

Short Story # 43 -  Depression / Anxiety / EDNOS

Story # 44  BPD / PTSD / Anxiety NOS / DP / DR

Story # 45  Bipolar Type II / Panic Disorder / Agoraphobia

Story # 46  Bipolar Disorder / ADHD / MDD / GAD / PTSD

Story # 47  Clinical Depression / Eating disorder

Story # 48  PTSD / Trichotillomania / GAD

Story # 49  ADHD / GAD / Depression

Story # 50  Autism / ADHD / Social Anxiety

Story # 51 PTSD / body dysmorphia disorder

Story # 52  depression and anxiety

Story # 53  depression / panic disorder / general and anxiety disorders

Story 54 Depression

Story # 55   major depressive disorder - MDD

Story # 56  Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) / Depressive Disorder NOS (DD-NOS) / Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) / Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

Story # 57  anxiety & seasonal affective disorder (SAD)

Story # 58  depression / rape recovery

Story # 59  obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) & Schizophrenia

Story # 60  borderline personality disorder

Story # 61 BPD / anorexia / anxiety / depression

Story # 62  panic disorder & depression

Story # 63  clinical depression / dysthymia / social phobia / borderline personality disorder / narcissistic personality disorder / post­-traumatic stress disorder / gender dysphoria / dissociative disorder not otherwise specified

Story # 64  SAD-Seasonal Affective Disorder

Story # 65  Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder / agoraphobia / GAD

Story # 66  clinical depression / chronic anxiety disorder / PTSD / panic disorder / sleeping disorders

Story # 67  GAD & Depression

Story # 68  social anxiety /  panic disorder / depression

Story # 69  anorexia nervosa

Story # 70 depression / anxiety disorder / emetophobia: fear of vomiting

Story # 71 Borderline Personality Disorder

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[inkdot-deactivated20200219]

no shit.

This weekend I was told a story which, although I’m kind of ashamed to admit it, because holy shit is it ever obvious, is kind of blowing my mind.

A friend of a friend won a free consultation with Clinton Kelly of What Not To Wear, and she was very excited, because she has a plus-size body, and wanted some tips on how to make the most of her wardrobe in a fashion culture which deliberately puts her body at a disadvantage.

Her first question for him was this: how do celebrities make a plain white t-shirt and a pair of weekend jeans look chic?  She always assumed it was because so many celebrities have, by nature or by design, very slender frames, and because they can afford very expensive clothing.  But when she watched What Not To Wear, she noticed that women of all sizes ended up in cute clothes that really fit their bodies and looked great.  She had tried to apply some guidelines from the show into her own wardrobe, but with only mixed success.  So - what gives?

His answer was that everything you will ever see on a celebrity’s body, including their outfits when they’re out and about and they just get caught by a paparazzo, has been tailored, and the same goes for everything on What Not To Wear.  Jeans, blazers, dresses - everything right down to plain t-shirts and camisoles.  He pointed out that historically, up until the last few generations, the vast majority of people either made their own clothing or had their clothing made by tailors and seamstresses.  You had your clothing made to accommodate the measurements of your individual body, and then you moved the fuck on.  Nothing on the show or in People magazine is off the rack and unaltered.  He said that what they do is ignore the actual size numbers on the tags, find something that fits an individual’s widest place, and then have it completely altered to fit.  That’s how celebrities have jeans that magically fit them all over, and the rest of us chumps can’t ever find a pair that doesn’t gape here or ride up or slouch down or have about four yards of extra fabric here and there.

I knew that having dresses and blazers altered was probably something they were doing, but to me, having alterations done generally means having my jeans hemmed and then simply living with the fact that I will always be adjusting my clothing while I’m wearing it because I have curves from here to ya-ya, some things don’t fit right, and the world is just unfair that way.  I didn’t think that having everything tailored was something that people did. 

It’s so obvious, I can’t believe I didn’t know this.  But no one ever told me.  I was told about bikini season and dieting and targeting your “problem areas” and avoiding horizontal stripes.  No one told me that Jennifer Aniston is out there wearing a bigger size of Ralph Lauren t-shirt and having it altered to fit her.

I sat there after I was told this story, and I really thought about how hard I have worked not to care about the number or the letter on the tag of my clothes, how hard I have tried to just love my body the way it is, and where I’ve succeeded and failed.  I thought about all the times I’ve stood in a fitting room and stared up at the lights and bit my lip so hard it bled, just to keep myself from crying about how nothing fits the way it’s supposed to.  No one told me that it wasn’t supposed to.  I guess I just didn’t know.  I was too busy thinking that I was the one that didn’t fit.

I thought about that, and about all the other girls and women out there whose proportions are “wrong,” who can’t find a good pair of work trousers, who can’t fill a sweater, who feel excluded and freakish and sad and frustrated because they have to go up a size, when really the size doesn’t mean anything and it never, ever did, and this is just another bullshit thing thrown in your path to make you feel shitty about yourself.

I thought about all of that, and then I thought that in elementary school, there should be a class for girls where they sit you down and tell you this stuff before you waste years of your life feeling like someone put you together wrong.

So, I have to take that and sit with it for a while.  But in the meantime, I thought perhaps I should post this, because maybe my friend, her friend, and I are the only clueless people who did not realise this, but maybe we’re not.  Maybe some of you have tried to embrace the arbitrary size you are, but still couldn’t find a cute pair of jeans, and didn’t know why.

[teenscoolest]

[spelldealer]

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