Iāve gotten so used to having minimal (to none) social life during my time at community college that Iām having difficulty adapting to my new college life where I actually have a social life to maintain. When I was at Grossmont, I spent a huge majority of my time dedicating to school work and my part-time job because I simply had nothing else to do. I think another reason why Iām having a hard time maintaining and/or improving my social life at UCSD is because I am constantly trying to catch up with all the school work and study. It has gotten to the point where I would feel guilty doing anything else thatās not school/career related. I think there are multiple reasons for this, though. For one, itās certainly that impostor syndrome - I feel inadequate compared to the average student here. I know that Iām wrong though, because I did get accepted here so technically, Iām still just as qualified as anybody else. But even if I know that, I still feel inadequate deep within my soul and so I bust my ass just so I can at least aim to meet the academic standards and rigor here. Second, I think Iāve adapted the mentality that what Iāve done before worked (i.e. have zero social life and study 24/7 worked because it got me to where I wanted to be), and so this is a tried and tested method, I must do what I did then to yield the desired results. So now, Iām trying to do (or even improve) whatever work ethic I had in community college to get accepted to summer research programs and ultimately an MD/PhD program. However, I know that just because it worked then, doesnāt mean it would work again. I mean, most likely, it would. But Iām constantly spending time investing in my future and Iāve neglected to live in the present. Someone told me that I canāt make schooling as a āphaseā thatās independent from the rest of my life and i should weave school as part of my life. And itās true, I really canāt dedicate every second of my life for the next ten years studying (especially with the career path Iām heading towards). Iām sure there are a myriad of ways to improve my school and life balance, but I think, at this point, Iām too scared to approach any of them.
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