i; acquiesce.

indie vanitas of the kingdom hearts series. performed by halley. 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑔𝑔𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑦

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leaving this blog up but its no longer active, so unfollow

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     out. is is common knowledge that xehanort is ‘no heart’ with an x? my friend told me when we were out today and that was a shotgun blast 2 the cranium i wasn’t ready for

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     out. enya and gohan both finished tg and made blogs while i was asleep

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          thing is tho, he canonly would

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PUNCHES YOU IN THE FACE >:/ WHEN WE GON DO SHIT MANG

     out. WHEN WE… PLOT SOMETHING, MARS, RUBS MY FACE??

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wakinghearts·:

               『♔』― THE CONFIDENCE of Sora’s sinister look-a-like frayed his nerves. His heart beat an uneasy staccato in his chest as his brow furrowed, cobalt hues finding the floor. How much of the light… was his own? The question rattled in his brain like a set of dice, bringing his uncertainty to the surface. The visage of his island friends flickered across his memory. What if… Vanitas was right? He so steadily announced that his friends were his power, so what if that was true of the light in his heart? What if the only reason he had light at all was because of them? The very thought made him tremble, hands clenching into fists.

❛ SHUT UP! ❜ he screamed, voice cracking in a fury that surprised him. He flung one hand to the side, the other clutching his chest. Vanitas was successfully getting under his skin, and Sora couldn’t stand it. ❛ What do you know about light, Vanitas?! Maybe.. the light in my heart does belong to my friends. But that’s even more reason to protect it! They are my strength, it’s true. Without them… I.. I’m nothing.

But I’d never expect someone like you to understand that. ❜

     ❛ 𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐈𝐍 a position of power, sora. ❜     he leaves where he’s standing to trace a loose and slowmoving circle around the other, wide and unobtrusive, yet cornering with its repetition. still commanding some attention, lest one find himself a sitting duck.     ❛ uniquely so. ❜

     ❛..see, i was never told this, but when dealing with hearts, half-full or not, you come to learn a thing or two.          ――turns out, you have some pretty fetching ace cards up your sleeve. ❜     he presses on, hinting at the extraordinary with an absent tone neglecting the strangulating magnitude of his presence as he tightens his wandering circle. black arms fold. he walks like he’s killing time; like someone untouchable. hard amber barely acknowledges sora, ever, in fact falls on anything but the other, as each footfall kicks dirt up off the dry earth.       maybe this is a lesson best taught through example, as vanitas is one of only two currently conscious enough to tell of this tale, and the other - xehanort - he supposes sora will never listen to. if nothing sinister, then perhaps a morbid curiosity compels the raven to goad him further; see what happens, not that it matters personally. vanitas will be gone before the husk ventus’ reunited heart leaves behind decides what to do with itself, yet the devastation one can so readily bring to this fragile heart proves far too galvanising a force to pull away from indulging in. 

     he slows his circling to a stop behind sora, features now divested of their unfocused front and now sharpening into something deep and bleeding. the heart rots, yet it has its answers. perchance it is only from that lonely island of insanity does one ever witness the truth and the end of these stories; choking up black water, around that formless, unfeeling knowledge.      ❛ just what do you think happens to a heart once it’s ripped apart,                                 like yours is soon to be? ❜

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name : halley nickname/s : nothing’s coming to me but i’m sure they’re out there height : .. 5′3″ nationality : british & canadian  favourite fruit(s) : pomegranate & watermelon favourite season : summer favourite scents : citrus fruits, airplanes, my favourite people favourite animals : dogs, sea turtles, elephants tea, coffee, hot cocoa : green tea, i’m on like 5 cups a day jjJGD average hours of sleep : 2-8 when my blog was created : december 18 / 19th - i remember i was still very anxious about my portrayal until a full month later, however random fact : i’m the most introverted person i know, but with certain friends with whom i have a distinct and longrunning friendship, i can stomach talking nonstop for 12-20 hours at any one time, which is unheard elsewise. we actually head back to mine to sleep for a couple hours in between just to recharge before doing it all over again the next day lfkgjf favourite food : ice,, pops. or popsicles. it’s basically frozen juice but it counts favourite t.v. shows : i don’t watch tv ! but game of thrones, true detective, history / culture documentaries, and anything serial killer-y favourite movie : hosoda’s wolf children, inception, & end of evangelion favourite vine : i need to make a compilation just to give potential new friends the shortcut to my sense of humor because this always changes BUT FOR NOW.. this one & this one sexuality : forever either pansexual or asexual, no in-between pronouns : he / him favourite book series : i don’t follow series, but i really enjoyed lolita, shutter island, and .. i need to read more favourite video game(s) : BLOODBORNE, kh2, ffxv, original spyro trilogy, abe’s oddworld / exodus, LoZ OoT / MM, dark souls 1/3, the last of us, undertale, far cry 3 / 5, i’m forgetting a ton favourite band(s) : the voidz, imagine dragons, frou frou, onerepublic. i don’t follow bands gjjg favourite subject : psychology, english, history guys or girls : girls emotionally, guys sexually. idk what i’m being asked LLL last time I cried : indoctrinating someone into ‘the last of us’ two days ago. they were doing their nails so i had to play through the intro before handing over my controller (and reputation) what I should be doing : working on art and my personal canon, creating shu bases for enya favourite fandom : kingdom hearts for the sheer amount of creativity and content, not the people so much. tg for the people but there’s very few of them. ff was fun! the oc fandom’s next.

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flamereign‌:

@rrivn hey I just wanted to say ily, you beautiful mofo.

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When I first saw your blog I was honestly intimidated by you and the way you wrote, but since then I’ve realised I’m an idiot and you’re one of the sweetest people I’ve met on here. I haven’t known you for too long but I can see you being someone very important to me. Your writing is top tier, you capture Vani’s muse damn perfectly and you inspire me to try harder with my own. You are awesome and funny and I love having you around. ✨

anon opinions  /  (forever accepting) 

     out. intimidating--- ah, i’m glad you finally saw the light LLLL there’s nothing to be intimidated of at all, i’m more afraid of you than you are of me, like a spider. 🕷     thank you so much for your words - i appreciate them a lot and hope that since we’re blatantly friends ooc, i get across my love and adoration of you  ( because i feel that i know who this is )  in a way that is obvious and heartfelt. you’re very kind and considerate, and i love you. ♡

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I think that we used to be friends and that I miss ya, but that I also hope you're doing well, and that I think you're doing what you need to be doin' for yourself and your own health, and that's always the most important. Love you lots and I hope you have a good day today!

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     out. use to? hm. you seem unsure so i’ll go ahead and say it’s probably hanging in a limbo state / my fault, since i’m not the greatest nor most consistent with talking. can’t blame it all on mental health or living conditions: sometimes i literally am just unreliable. i hope i haven’t hurt your feelings though - you seem supportive. love you too.

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I think you are truly wonderful and have been so awesome to know. I admire everything about your writing and your portrayal of Vanitas, I think you are super funny and charming and overall it’s really nice seeing you around on my dash.

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     out. that means a lot, and i’m sure it’s entirely likewise, since i’m assuming we’re ooc friends. that’s a beautiful thing to say, and i hope you feel appreciated and loved when in my company, because it’s true, whoever you are.

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with the soft-bristled brush in his hand raised high above his head, ven makes chase after vanitas’ fleeing form. whether his counterpart likes it or not, /this is happening/. affection cannot be avoided!

swipes at from atop the fridge  /  @wingbladed​

     𝐎𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐀 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐕𝐄𝐋, if only in his own mind, for once vanitas is dwarfed into a retreat at speed, features wholly shirked of all resolve or tact and instead showcasing blind fear as the other ambles madly behind him, loudly insisting he succumb to this fate.      quick thinking affords him a way out and he snatches it, stops immediately in his tracks, and ducks, bracing himself for the impact of the blonde’s legs as they crash into, and then tumble over his folded form. not even a passing glance is spared to see if he survived, nor a huff of apology, before the raven scatters to flee in the opposite direction, leaving ventus in a heap.

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victini‌:

*puts my hand on your shoulder* listen. I DID mean to make you upset and i DO think your opinions are shit

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LKSGJLSD

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*drops rrivn in here and flees* :3c

send me urls // @rrivn hehehehe~  ( not accepting any longer )

My Opinion on;

character in general:  in all honesty i never really had much of an opinion about vanitas other than the fact that he was an annoying little shit to fight ( enya vc: too slow?? TOO SLOW?? COME BACK HERE SO I CAN KICK UR A— ) and he liked to talk trash and tbf, the fandom’s various interpretations ( read: meme-fications / woobifications ) of his character didn’t exactly help ://. i mean, he was only ever there as an antagonist to stir the pot, so to speak and to Bring Angst Onto Ventus, so most of his scenes just had me like “ ugh you again yeah ok x-blade, blah blah, ur darkness, whatever, “ BUT i will also say that being on the dash and reading metas have made me come to appreciate his complexity a lot more in the last few months – like the way he was created and how he is is actually quite tragic if you think about it, he’s literally nothing but negative emotion and can’t feel / induce anything but that despite having a heart and his ending is like a poignant message that not every heart can or wants to be saved, despite the fact that he’s a victim of xehanort’s machinations much like everyone else. 

how they play them:  every time you talk about vanitas, and every time i see your writing on the dash just makes me appreciate the character more and more. i really, really love that you don’t redeem him, that you stick to his essence of willingly choosing the darkness and you write that in such a visceral, raw way i can’t help but be a little bit in awe —- and more than that, it doesn’t come off as tropey/caricaturist at all. he has depth, he has motivations, he has multiple well-thought out facets and just ghhhh i love.  coming from someone who loves writing irredeemable assholes and dark stuff, it’s really tough sometimes to write one in rp without softening them up in favor of interactions and yet here you are, executing it flawlessly.  plus all the eldritch elements you’ve added to your vanitas interpretation just pleases me immensely and now i literally can’t see him as anything but eldritch tbh ……. 

the mun: you indulge my eldritch/bloodborne cravings and like writing the same fucked up shit i like so, you’re kinda stuck w/ me forever. 

Do I:

RP with them: after months of talking about wanting to write,,,, yes,,,, we’ve finally made it! we have a thread and a plot and it’s gonna be awesome. want to RP with them:  uh yes. anything. all of it. you know i don’t shy back from much. if you ever bring your OC to the dash, throw him at me too. 

What is my;

overall opinion: c’mere, lemme devour you ; )

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“I’m sorry, but you can’t live like this.”

@crayolasiren

     𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄'𝐒 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐇 𝐓𝐎 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓, but he does well in asphyxiating that garbled swan song under the layers and years of all that's brought him to this very encounter. though quickly stifled, the sentiment sculpts a tension in his shoulders, daisying down the length of his arms like lightning—leaving behind a ruination on the nerves.

     ❛ —— that so. ❜     that unease beckons an ambiguous curl to his lips; questioning, almost. morbid interest. kicks out a skeptical noise against white teeth, ultimately unbothered, tone flat.       ❛ then i'd invite you to do something about it. ❜