((FMA:B Lingfan fanchild rp blog.)) Greetings, all. My name is Lien, I'm twenty years old and a culinary student. I came from Xing on visa to study at the university in Central City, Amestris. After I learn how to run a business, I'm going to open a bakery where nobody cares if I can't inherit anything... just because my mother isn't married to my father. I love them, but they make my life difficult. ((Independent roleplayer. FC is Malese Jow. Tracked tags are littlelovelylien and thatsprincesstoyou.)) Current M!A: none
Accounts are being terminated by tumblr. We don’t know how or why, but every time I tried to e-mail tumblr, they would tell me it was a glitch in the system. I highly doubt that right now it’s a glitch in the system, because it’s happening to a lot of people. The best thing I can currently tell people is to message [email protected] as soon as it happens. The faster you do it, the faster you’ll hopefully get your account back and the faster we might get answers!
"You might have noticed that the posting schedule on this blog has become intermittent, or that nothing has been posted at all since last week. My mun and I are very sorry about this, and there are a few reasons for that."
"The first reason is that my mun is sixteen years old and, as such, in high school. The work and stress levels have constantly increased, until she reaches the point where, after she's finished her time in school and her homework, thinking for any extended amount of time is exhausting and the idea of writing roleplays just feels like too much sometimes.
"Just as sh predicted on her personal blog, junior year is kicking her ass. And then there's another reason."
"For a couple of weeks, my mun has been dealing with some depression struggles, as well as dealing with admitting to having these struggles when she thought that that part of her life was behind her. It's been reasonably mild-not as bad as what's happened in the past-but I'm sure that any of you out there who are dealing with depression, or have dealt with it in the past, can back me up on the fact that even mild depression is a really rotten thing to be dealing with in your life.
"The sense of the world being a huge pile of hopeless, useless nothing is a very unpleasant and slightly scary feeling to have, and when you are dealing with it and trying to figure out how you can feel like you don't care about anything while still feeling sad and scared about the fact that you don't care about anything (seriously, can someone please explain this? It would be nice to understand), the idea of working to write a post in the hopes that maybe two or three people will read it, or to work to continue a storyline, just seems like too much."
"It's easier to just try and avoid thinking, and that's more often than not the coping method she uses-stay on the personal blog and look at pictures and try not to think about anything like how much you hate yourself, or why you can't think of any reason why you are sad other than the fact that you are sad, or if you're not actually having a relapse but actually just going crazy because it comes and goes and you've never heard of depression that comes and goes and are pretty sure no one else has either and you'd think it was just a bad mood except that it keeps coming back and leaves you wanting to completely cease existence. It's basically like the beginning of this story. We're still waiting for the little piece of corn.
"In case you were worried-my mun and I aren't leaving. We're going to stay here, and continue occasionally making posts on a highly intermittent schedule. But it's not going to be regular or frequent until my mun either
a.) gets her shit together
b.) figures out a way to handle a roleplay blog AND school AND a regular blog AND the dull, near-friendless nothing that is her life
"We really, really do love you all. And we don't want you to worry about us. Please, please, do not worry about us. My mun is a big girl and she is working hard to get a grip, and I am a big girl and can handle a little challenge.
We're going to stop now, because my mun says that writing about these feelings makes her think about them and it strengthens them in a vicious cycle of hopelessness.
I'm just going to leave you with one thought that my mun hopes typing will cheer her up:
A million dollars isn't cool. You know what's cool? A basilisk.
Also, I just noticed two unanswered prompts or whatever they're called that you've sent me from those M!A lists...I'm so sorry, I never noticed those! For some reason, my askbox doesn't always notice asks I get on this blog *pouts* ))
Greed: 7 things your character wants badly.
Wrath: 6 things that make your character angry.
Pride: 5 things or actions your character is proud of.
Gluttony: 4 favorite foods of your character.
Envy: 3 things or people your character is jealous of.
Sloth: 2 future scenario’s your character would be happy to settle down to.
Lust: 1 person your character loves, or has a crush on.