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jun 18

Heck of a lot less coughing this morning. Still doesn't mean my meat suit isn't finding new ways to physically annoy me tho. So maybe by next week I'll have enough tickets to actually do some of the stuff I need to do around here.

I tried once again to crochet yesterday morning to occupy my hands but it would appear complicated patterns with counting still aren't going to happen as somewhere things didn't quite work. It's the Annies Attic crochet your own Barbie sized doll and I have made one in size 10 thread and the start of one in size 20 successfully.

What ever size thread or yarn you want to use for any crochet doll as long as you use the same size thread and hook for the clothes they should fit. As much as I want to go smaller I also want to go bigger with regular yarn, I should probably get some skin tone to make sure there will be enough and I'm thinking cotton, just to see what I'd get out of it.

I did do a pattern I bought off Etsy in regular yarn and it came out like a slender 1/4 scale fashion doll, not bad. I tell you what, I learned myself quite a bit from that pattern. By the time I got thru the wonky directions the body was so twisted with boobs going this way and hips going that I was super pissed off. I made it again just incase it was me, it wasn't, and spent like a week charting the stitches out, shifting them around, and finally making something I could use out of the pattern.

If you have a general grasp on pattern drafting and stitch gage then you can squish them together in to a pattern to knit or crochet something for a doll. A lot of this still goes bacl to a design your own knitting patterns book.

Thought I had more pictures than this of Taffy in his sweater but I marked each and every stitch on the pattern. It fits him like a glove, it was more a proof of concept than anything else, but it's totally possible. And start at least 1/4 scale if not larger because it's easier to see places, like at the base of the collar, where things need some work.

And the trick to a doll pullover- lace the back halves together with a piece of yarn like a corset. Loosen it to get it on or off, pull together when on the doll, tie in a bow, tuck the ends inside the swearer.

The Ancient Backrooms Theory is one of the things this fandom, and perhaps others, needs.

#the backrooms #ancient backrooms theory #history #Youtube

jun 17

Almost had tickets yesterday. I had more mental whatever than physical. Since waiting until the sun comes up to count physical tickets is sort of the thing now it allows me to try and plan what I want to do for the day without blowing out my back before 6am.

I did get the crochet thread and lace sized hooks out and try to start a crochet Barbie sized doll, I have several patterns of which I've only made one before, only to mentally conk out and lose track of how to count within a few rows so I had to frog. But in general that seems like a plausible occupy the hands for only given amounts of time so it doesn't aggravate the fuckwaffle project.

Making things with string and sewing position is one thing, arting and handwriting position is another but both are limited because of something out of my control 30 years ago. So wear a helmet and try not to fuck your body up too much because it will catch up with you. That also includes excess weight.

Many things tell me we don't hear from miss you don't know what I eat I think I'm a strong woman when I can barely do one or two events because she finally jacked up a knee and is bedridden.

Don't lock your knees out in general walking or standing if you can help it. I'm using a rollator in many situations where I know I'll have substantial walking, brain injury balance issues, and I used to lock my knees out when I reached a certain point where the arthritis in my back would lock up. But if I keep a bit of flexibility in my knees it makes things a bit more comfortable.

Before being sick as a dog these last two weeks I was able to do over a mile at the local mall. Don't know where my stamina would be now but we'd start at the food court which is by the Hot Topic and the store in the dead center you can cut thru incase half a mall is all I can do.

I'll get back there. When we moved in here I had to take a Pain Away every day but just us two disabled women did it all by ourselves. Almost twice in a way because everything was pretty much in storage by then because as it ended up it was nearly a week before the new place was ready because it was one of those this is the complex but it's whichever unit is finished first situations.

Not the first place but hopefully the last where as white ladies we've moved in after a place was trashed, only this time we didn't have to clean it up.

My beautiful lovely absolutely not for sale if you see these photos trying to sell this report it as a scam poodle trash can.

I'd actually like some suggestions on how I can go about cleaning and touching up the can so I can keep on using it. I think it's lithographed steel. Definitely rusty on the inside :/

#cheinco #poodle

jun 16

Just when I was about to say I wasn't feeling worse I stand on the edge of feeling worse as I have to have an ingrown eyelash thing starting on one eyelid. Otherwise I feel capable of activities that use several tickets with rest and nourishment in between.

I still don't really have any motivation but I never have that.

I know I'm on the road to recovery because the tics and intrusive thoughts feel well enough to get back to you could at least tell me what I supposedly did so I could learn from the experience and understand why I have to keep putting up with bold of anyone to assume my pileated woodpecker like intrusive thoughts need any help reminding me how awful I am. Some times it gets so tiring I just agree and follow up with "So?" or "If you're so smart what do I do to remedy it?"

On one hand you think about starting a local group on Facebook looking for local high functioning probably high masking spectrum disorder women age 30 and up and suggest we sit near each other in a cat cafe and organize by current hyperfixations and interests to have infodump clusters. That way if you don't feel like engaging you can enjoy the presence of cats and coffee while feeling out potential acquaintances.

The other hand then tells you that in this modern day and age some asshat will think it's a place to date, or it's a place to dump their high needs autistic for babysitting, or that just because Chrischan says he's a goddess and Jesus we have to let him in.

All we want to do is have coffee, enjoy the company of cats, and be around kindred spirits who understand what it's like to just want to get in to the minute details of calico, torbie, torbico, and tabico genetics.

We've already had a life time of not being allowed to be ourselves and/or being kept from social situations by people who don't get where we're coming from. Not everything is for you.

And this is the Backrooms review video I want to get back to. It explains that the handful of places where the movie doesn't feel scary or gel with the rest is studio interference and explains how they would have fucked it up and will inevitably fuck up future Youtube to mainstream horrors https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GeZKw25pgUE

jun 15

Finally a good night's sleep and I feel like I have some tickets today but I can't really spend them until I find out if we're going to the store today or not so I don't tire myself out.

Or basically this is the first place I've ever lived with air conditioning and I'm used to doing any physical work early in the day so I'll be finished and cleaned up before it could get hot.

All I really have to do is scootch the bed, and change the bedding, then move my books and art supplies to the opposite end of the room they're currently at, and throw in some vacuuming if I can. Not much for an average ticket day but a sizable amount for someone who hasn't had any tickets for a couple of weeks because of a cold.

A cold for which I even took several things I normally don't because I literally had to prove they don't work as intended for me and fortunately I didn't have anything I had to responsible about because I was beyond The Hat Man, beyond Doug (we can tell it's you because your fingers fing), and like Robert Bob basketball is busy, Robert Smith is busy, will Robert from Puppet Up's sketch Show Us Your T*ts work? He's got time.

And I was still coughing.

Someone in psychology please 'splain like you're Wendigoon why the child who never lied was always treated like they did to the point of being punished while the one who was "just telling stories" was allowed to run the household in many situations and indulged.

Not that I didn't lie, I just learned to hide things to the point where I'd bet strangers on this emotional support hellsite and an AI who read thru all my blog posts could know more about me than my smother.

Start listening to The Cure if they complain about Robert's "whiney ass voice", keep listening because they're good.

jun 14

It would appear you can't get caught up in any lingering unpleasantness of memories as you put a hard moratorium on those of that most unpleasant five years ago and those over three years ago begin to pack themselves up if you've spent most of the month under the weather.

We're down to the lingering guess which type of asthma I have cough part of it. Feelings about nose drops aside, and when I do use them it's at night so I can hopefully breathe, rest, and not cough as much, last night's first use in a week has either helped clear up the nasal passages a heck of a bunch or when the twelve hour mark hits in five minutes breathing will once again be over rated.

It's the general exhaustion and messing up any stamina progress I might have been making that is pissing me off the most. I can't remember the last time I went anywhere but I know it was for groceries and couldn't have been more than a full week because we still have bananas.

It's that lack of being able to do many of the things I would like to do, mentally and spiritually, that irritates me. I should do one of my puzzles but I need to find a place to put it as none of the chairs in the house are tall enough to reach the craft table comfortably and I don't want to spend too much time aggravating my neck fuckwaffle by assuming work around positions.

And the next time you're watching Sha Na Na guess which one left to become an orthopedic surgeon. Go ahead, it'll change how you retroactively see him.

jun 13 but not a friday

Meanwhile in the lingering cough and no energy in general stage...

I used any possible tickets I could have to switch places between my bed, a twin on a metal frame so it scootches easily, with my desk, a craft store "drafting table" which scootches easily with furniture scoothers, to get it away from the east facing window and the heat ofthe morning sun and no regurts.

As much as I would like the desk by the window for nice light when I am arting the whole room does light up well enough for most of the day and it's no where near as hot on this side. Also this will set me up to be able to see the dollhouse when I put it on a short wall next to the window where the sun can't reach it. In about a year when I get my tickets back.

I'm helping daddy!

~insert video of Lol and Grey Tollhurst playing A Forest together~

I don't know how to explain it's a dry, extreme fire hazard, don't even fart in the forest version but they played it. Had the bass player ever heard the song before or were they just sight reading? I also can't explain how Lol and Budgie's version of A Forest also seemed to... It came across as one of those orderly managed all the trees in a row forest.

I would just like enough mucus out of my brain to be able to think enough to "do" something. I want to occupy my time pleasantly to help with my recovery but the fog of fighting off what ever this is takes up too much of it.

The five minutes I have of mental clarity is almost up so I'll see y'all later.

But home made red lobster cheese biscuits and casserole made with cream of celery soup don't work. Could have told someone that but they don't listen to me. Fortunately we're food secure and not under the finish the leftovers or go hungry umbrella.

Before you get involved with something, and especially before you make it your entire identity, you should do your best to investigate if it's a "free hat" situation.

On South Park the boys had a cause and to get people to come to their rally they offered a free hat. A literal free hat. When the townspeople showed up they thought it was a rally to free convicted heinous criminal Hat McCullough. People made excuses for his crimes and victim blamed and were rejoiced when Hat was released. He immediately asked for a victim and was ready to commit the crime in the open in front of everyone.

Try to look at both sides and see what's going on. There might not be a "right side" of history but there will be future people looking back and struggling to wrap their minds around what happened.

#activism

jun 12

I lay down and try to sleep at my usual bedtime, and spend a good hour or so coughing, but too tired to try and stay sitting up for a while longer, but if I can I might fall asleep sooner/easier/whatever. But it's something that on the rare occasion as an adult I do get something that makes me cough that will linger for awhile as I was finally told in my early teens that I actually did have coughing asthma and needed an inhaler but it was too late to tell all the teachers who put it down as an attention seeking behavior.

Or not a single cough suppressant in the house has done anything for it, even when someone else watches me take it so they know I've taken it and done so correctly, and especially when one of them sends me past The Hat Man, past Doug, and probably past Robert. Xavier over there is mine, he's come to get me.

Side effect of coughing asthma is ~insert schadenfreude here about how I was contagious with what would become crippling bronchitis when a bitch of a mother at the last theater thing I ever did on stage had to get in my face ha ha~ that a steaming cup of coffee or tea is a way to help sooth a fit. My manipulative bitch of a sister who could never stand to see me get any attention that wouldn't directly benefit her would go on to fake coughing attacks so she could get a soda.

The thing is when you're coughing your brains out and trying to catch your breath the last thing you need to do is drink anything so it doesn't go down the wrong pipe, thanks evolution, but inhaling the hot steaming beverage steam might help. Good reason to carry around mint tea with you.

Hot honey and ginger tea has been helpful. Hot broth, but good broth or bullion like the kind that comes in a carton or can, not as much the powdered MSG unless the kosher one is made different.

Each day I generally feel better, except the day after are you sure you don't do well with dex cough syrup, I knew it was a hallucination when the words started repeating because the exploding head syndrome sounds don't do that. It was either whichever robot in Daft Punk whispers Steam Machine or whichever call me papa that Tobias Forge is today whispering "creepy" over and over in one ear. Or their possibly half holy love child, pending on the robot.

jun 11

I think I found a bit of a solution for the fan. The way my personal section of the dwelling is shaped the closet and sink and the rest of the bathroom are down a short hallway so if I put the freshly cleaned fan in there it can circulate the air in the rest of the room without being in my face.

What ever is going on in these are what real seizures look like land it's like perhaps the coffee will calm me down? I'm keeping to my regular lay down and usually be able to sleep time. I feel like I'm physically almost asleep but the brain is having physical dealings with whatever over the counter substance was taken to try and mitigate enough of the coughing and sinus shenanigans to try and get some rest.

If you know or highly suspect you have temporal lobe seizures just stay away from the dex cough suppressants if you can. I still don't feel right in that aspect. My time dilator is still not back to relative normal for this meat suit. I can feel it crawling.

I don't drive or do anything that could affect the safety of others and try to keep minimal risk to myself.

But you want a fun sensation? Get epsom salts with mint in them and while you're sitting in the bath wet your chest and rub a bit of the salt on it. It's a nice cooling sensation.

Ocean Spray is missing out on a campaign showing females, cranberry juice does discriminate go fuck yourself, dealing with common situations where they might worry about the health of their UT.

Get flavorless gelatin and you can make cranberry flavor without chemical dye or added sweetener. It comes out with a mild cranberry flavor but not as sweet as the canned sauce. Add spiders for garnish.

The last game is a real killer!

#em august #1800s #fun and games #Youtube

jun 10

Had to take some some cold pills with that dex shit in them last night to try and at least slow down the coughing enough to try and get some sleep last night and I still don't feel right.

The only reason I'm not asking the dex based entity where's the regular guy, where's Doug has to be The Cure poster and selection of slightly haunted dolls in the room. I can feel every hair that has ever grown on my arms and my teeth want to chatter.

I mean, at least back in the day I could have made a living as a sha(wo)man being able to see the Hat Man at the mere thought of taking a Benadryl.

Really feeling how stuffy it is in here without that fan so I might have to find a way to get it to circulate the air but without the histamines.

Ocean Spray saw an opportunity and took it.

posted for future scientific use

#for future scientific use

jun 9

The doll board is lucky I don't demand a shrubbery.

Did my first round of user blocking and spam deleting this morning and at most it added about 15 minutes to my time there once I found the button. It found some old contest posts that if they are hit again I'll consider locking because the contests are more closed than the pool on the Queen Mary.

Suddenly spiritually feeling much better this morning and physically a lot better so I need to pace myself.

Fuck you post nasal drip.

And fuck greedy rock starts because the Grammy award winning and Rock and Roll Hall of Fame members The Cure just let a couple of full sets be broadcast in quality picture and sound for free.

Because while your kid couldn't bother to turn up to rehearsals to fuck up the lion king The Cure's collective eldest practiced, worked hard, and earned a rightful spot in the band and they wanted everyone to see.

So tell me again, rock stars, why you don't want anything to do with your kiddos when you could be bonding over how much you hate Lovecats?

If spirits and health points in the house go one way I would like to get some provisions and wears and such, if not we're good to get by for some time longer. We're jsut out of Cream of Donkey soup is all.

jun 8

To start things off on a positive note how fucking adorable is it that Eden Gallup gets to play on stage with his father in The Cure? The few times he played with the band here and there it was taking his father's place while Simon dealt with whatever, and Eden is his roadie so it was quite logical. Rehearsals are one thing but stepping out on stage and playing together had to be something else.

Still not feeling my best but the spirit is feeling a bit of cabin fever while I know the body is nowhere near being able to go out.

Did discover if you have dry mouth try a spoonful or two of pectin. Yeah you'll discover why all the recipes call for sugar, unless you're in to that super sour not quite lemon flavor, but it does the job naturally.

And to rant because I really need to see another repost of President Dipshit jr's post where he complains the "other side" doesn't get it while also displaying how he doesn't either.

The price of groceries and gas are too high and those guys are running a distraction campaign but it's nothing you guys didn't do towards their side. And some of the things you pointed out like open boarders and transgenders (always male to female if you've bothered to really look) do matter to people, otherwise there would have been more pushback from average people not septum pierced blue haired they-thems.

I might not have any children but I'd really love it if my hypothetical daughter found her passion in sports and practiced faithfully wanting only a fair competition in her division only to lose out on that to someone with an unfair biological advantage who whines that their feelings are hurt because they aren't as good in their proper division.

And don't get me started on living in a boarder state, growing up dirt poor, and having to vie with immigrants for services only to be told they deserve it more than me because I was born here.

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