⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠ
Pairing: Lando x Fem!Driver
Summary: Finding out what Lando really thinks about you.
Note: This is the first thing I've ever written so I hope it's not completely awful! Bit of fluff (some angst and swearing).
⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠ
Media duties were one of the most tedious parts about your job as a Formula One driver. Every race week, you were forced into doing hundreds of interviews, shuttled in front of one camera and then another. Today was a driverâs panel, and there were a select few of you in a room full of reporters waiting to ask questions. You sat on the edge of the stage, with Alex, Zhou, Lando and Valtteri filling the remaining seats.Â
âLetâs open up to the floor for questions.â The host of the session states.Â
Instantly, every reporter shoots their hand into the air, starting their voice memos, checking through their notes. Just as the actual racing is competitive, the media around Formula One is especially cutthroat. You need to fight for attention in these types of events. One woman in the second row stands out in particular, and the host singles her out to ask the first question.Â
âMy question is for Ms Y/L/N.â The reporter states. You lean forward in your chair, smiling at the woman. Reporters often direct their questions to specific drivers, and you were frequently asked questions about your experience being a female driver, or something similar to that general theme.
âIn Formula One, they say the higher you rise, the sharper the knives. As your car is particularly competitive this year, have you found that rivalries with other drivers are also being felt off the track?âÂ
It was an interesting question. It was true that politics were constantly rife in the paddock, but you never felt that scrutiny on a personal level. You smiled politely, and held the microphone to your mouth to answer the question.Â
âI wouldnât say so, no. Itâs easy to think that with the amount of drama that happens during the races, it will follow us to the paddock. But in the end we are professionals, and we can handle the competitiveness maturely. Even with my toughest rivalries, I can assure you we are friends off track.â You smile, setting down the microphone to signal you had finished talking.Â
There were murmurs of agreement in the audience, and your fellow drivers on stage nodded to affirm your statement.
âBut,â the woman starts again, âcurrently, there is a battle between you and Lando Norris for third in the driverâs championship.âÂ
You nod, staring expectantly at the woman, wondering where she is going with this.Â
âYesterday in an interview with Sky Sports, he went on record to say,â she paused to look at her notes, before saying ââWith Y/N Y/L/N, I wouldnât say what we have is a friendship, no.ââ She finished.Â
You feel your heart breaking into pieces.
âReally?â you ask, genuinely surprised. You look over to Lando across from you, noticing how he isnât even looking back at you. Heâs staring at his shoes, motionlessly. He couldnât even look at you.
âRight⊠noted.â You finish, voice laced with venom.
Another reporter stands up.
âWhat do you think about that, Y/N?â He asks.Â
You quickly snap out of your intense stare at Lando, turning to face the reporter on the other side of the room.Â
âWell,â you say, forcing a laugh to diffuse the tension in the room âmy feelings are hurt.â You shrug, maintaining a fake smile for the cameras. Thankfully, the room doesnât linger on the moment for long, the host moving onto a new question.
You slouched in your chair, wishing you could just melt away to nothing. Your cheeks were burning a shameful red, which you hoped wouldnât show up on the hundreds of pictures that are currently being taken of you.Â
âNot friends?â The question swirled in your mind, plaguing your every thought. You couldnât understand why Lando would say that about you. Everything seemed fine between the two of you. You never argue, you hang out whenever you can. And when you canât, youâre texting or FaceTiming each other. You just didnât get it.Â
The rest of the room blurred in your periphery as you played with your hands in your lap. You felt a burning sensation in your eyes as tears threatened to fall down your face. But just as quick as the tears formed, they were quickly washed away by a strong sensation of anger taking over your body. All the time you spent together meant nothing to him.Â
As soon as the host called the session over, you put your microphone down and got up to leave. You were the first to go, storming out of the room as elegantly as you could. You exited into a service corridor, knowing that you could sneak around any media personnel looking for more questions from you here.Â
âY/N!â You hear a voice call from behind you. It was Lando.Â
âY/N!â He calls again, footsteps picking up in speed as he races to get to you.Â
When he catches you, he gently takes your wrist, using the motion to turn you around to face him.Â
âIâm sorry, Y/N. About what happened back there, Iâm sorry she embarrassed you like that.â He said breathlessly
âOh, she was the one who embarrassed me?â You spat at Lando
âIt was out of context, Y/N. I didnât mean it like that, I swear.â He said, desperately trying to reason with you
âThen why didnât you say something? You just sat there, staring at your feet.â You shot back at him
âI shouldâve.â He sighed, searching your eyes for forgiveness.
âOh. So youâre not only not my friend, youâre also spineless. Good to know, Lando.â You reply, shaking your wrist from his grip.Â
Lando stands there, dumbfounded, watching your figure retreat down the hall. He wants nothing more than for you to look back at him, just for a moment, just to see your face. But you wonât, and the noise of the exit door slamming behind you snaps him out of his stare.Â
âIâm such a fucking idiot.â He whispers to himself.Â
Throughout the rest of the weekend, Lando tried desperately to get you to notice him. He would watch you longingly as you fulfilled media duties, got in your car, out of your car, walked around the paddock, took pictures with fans. He would appear randomly while you were eating, or taking a break. He would include himself in conversations you were apart of.Â
You rebuffed each of his attempts for attention with an incredibly polite cold shoulder. You were hurt, and he actually hadnât apologised to you yet. He had texted you a few times asking to talk, but this race was too important to focus on resolving petty drama. Youâd call him once it was all over. Maybe.Â
Well, thatâs what you had been telling yourself all weekend. But now it really was over, and you still hadnât called him.Â
The good thing about racing in Monaco was that you could actually sleep in your own apartment during the weekend, which was a rare and welcomed occasion. It was late, but you couldnât sleep, your mind coming back to Lando every time you tried to close your eyes. It felt weird not talking to him, you kept each other sane during times like these. But now he wasnât here for you, as he had been for so long, and you felt like a piece of you was missing.Â
As you crawled out of bed to watch something on TV, you heard a sharp knocking at your door. You were hoping it was just someone at the wrong door, until you heard the knocking again. It was more desperate now, the rhythm becoming more sloppy.Â
âHello?â You called out, receiving more knocking as a response.Â
You mutter obscenities to yourself as you put on more appropriate clothing, and trudge to the door annoyed.Â
âYes?â You say, swinging open the door.
It was Lando. He looked dishevelled. His curls were tousled and his eyes had deep bags underneath them. They were slightly puffy, as if heâd been crying.Â
âY/N, I canât do this.â He exclaimed, stumbling into your apartment. You let him in, closing the door behind him.Â
âCanât do what Lando?â You ask, crossing your arms across your chest.Â
âI canât fight with you like this. I canât not talk to you, I canât be apart from you.â He stumbles over his words, and you see his eyes well up with tears. You instantly soften your gaze, pulling your arms from their defensive position.Â
âLandoâŠâ Your voice trails off. You take his hand in yours and lead him to your couch to sit down. Even when you are both comfortable, he doesnât let go.
âI am so, so sorry Y/N. I was so stupid in that interview, I got way too carried away with what I was saying.â He says slowly.
âWhat were you even trying to say, Lando?â You ask gently, appreciating finally receiving an apology from him.Â
âWell- I meant what I said. What we have. It isnât really a friendship, is it?â He responds, voice gaining confidence.Â
âSomething less?â You question, and he smiles in disbelief.Â
âSomething more, Y/N. We are so much more than friends.â You sit back in your seat, but he moves closer to you.Â
âWhat- what do you mean?â You hesitate, watching Landoâs warm brown eyes glimmer in the moonlight.Â
âYou know exactly what I mean.âÂ
Something inside you clicked. All these years, there was an electricity between the two of you. You never let yourself think that way about him, worrying how a relationship with him would affect your career. But right now, you donât care. You just want him.Â
You didnât say anything, but leaned towards him. He leaned in further, gently cupping one hand around the side of your face, and placing the other arm around your waist to anchor himself. His broad figure covered you completely, and you closed eyes while trying not to smile. His lips were so soft against yours, the scent of his cologne making you feel dizzy. His body felt warm as he pressed his torso against yours. You bucked your hips up, making him groan against you. He pulled his hand up, running his fingers through your hair as he moved down to kiss your neck and collarbones. You giggled at the tickling sensation, and he tentatively pulled away from you, taking a chance to fully admire your face.Â
âI like this way more than being friends.â