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occasional yapping

[yuri-pdf]

“go to hell” is basic. “i hope the guy you have a repressed homophobic gay crush on spends days and nights that blur together dreaming up impossible things with you and then leaves the moment he’s gotten what he’s wanted to run back to the hetero rich guy you joke about him fucking except maybe it’s not a joke because he keeps choosing him over you again and again” is real. it’s possible. it’s terrifying. it happened to my good friend joseph kavinsky

[livingcallanity]

i don’t think i’m autistic but it wasn’t until a few years ago that i realized my elementary teacher had been exaggerating when they said that any instance of “you” in a story means it’s in second person pov

[dytihfay]

“and it feels good to be known so well // i can’t hide from you like i hide from myself” is about pynch, but this verse literally screams adansey and the repugnant scene

[prlssprfctn]

dear graphic novel, it is a good time to remind you that joseph kavinsky was canonically described as pretty. please. when i see frames with him, i shall see a pretty and sickly european face. keep that in mind.

[miraitrunks]

Treasure Planet pick your own path adventure comic - Disney Adventures magazine December 2002

my dad got a printer recently so i was able to scan these pages! this magazine included a 9 page choose your own adventure story. i’m not sure how many people have actually seen this comic, but it’s pretty cute and interesting to see the movie in such a style… i love it :’)

[kidcataldo]

[jyae23]

Ronan grabbing shirtless, drugged up Kavinsky by the neck and tossing him over a car was...a moment. Definitely something for sure!

[afurtivecake]

thinking about the horror of kavinsky killing his friend and creating him anew, of kavinsky calling prokopenko his favourite creation. how similar is the copy of prokopenko to the original? does he know he's a copy? is he attached to kavinsky because he's always been kavinsky's friend, or is the attachment and obedience a part of being made from kavinsky's dream? horrifying if kavinsky knows the answers to those questions. possibly even more horrifying if kavinsky doesn't.

[dykekarkat]

the dream thieves rlly is my favorite book in the series like ugh kavinsky ur swag too much. ur homophobic vibes too faggy. ur situationship too slay. they're gonna kill u kavinsky.

[antonymeanonyme]

kavinsky being ronan's narrative foil. ronan who is riddled with self hatred, not knowing who or what he is, missing home, etc etc. kavinsky who is riddled with self hatred, but has accepted that. the only way he can deal with it is to hurdle forward. a car crash. the world is a dead thing to him, he is a dead thing too.

ronan "would you stop if you knew it was destroying the world" kavinsky "god that would be awesome"

he dies at the end of the story, but he was already dead in a metaphorical sense at the beginning. like antigone who stares at you and says she will die and you are complicit. kavinsky dies because he was fated to; he is the dark mirror ronan looks into, the person he couldve been if he hadnt, ultimately, made the terrifying and harrowing choice to like himself. to choose the world. ("it's just you. why do you hate you?" "i don't")

"life isnt just sex drugs and parties" "mine is".

kavinsky who stares death in the face with that riotous, hungry smile of his and dies in literal flames, by the hand of the creature he made out of all his anger and hatred. "ronan could feel it, how the creature hated him. hated kavinsky. hated the world". ronan and kavinsky who both make stalking figures out of their self-loathing, and only ronan escapes that pattern, like the albino terror tearing out of his dream.

the dragon has eyes of fire and brimstone, and under that, more fire, more brimstone. kavinsky who is dead over and over and over. born dead to a dead family, died when he killed his father, died in his dreams, died in the beginning when he knew himself dead in the end. "dying's just a boring side effect"

he is always described in terms of hunger. his concave chest, his ribs like roads, raised veins like the streets he races at night. a refugee's eyes. a hungry smile. they're all hungry, always, but his is a desolate, restless kind; the third horseman, Famine. "the creature had teeth, but those were irrelevant" because it's damnation itself. anger. loneliness. "you're either with or against me, ronan" "is that was you thought it would be? you and me? it was never going to be you and me" "with me or against me" ronan doesnt answer. "i'm going to fucking destroy you". he tries.

he killed his own father. he is alone in the world, and he saw ronan, and he saw himself in him, and he decided he wanted him.

"i know what you are"

"is that what you thought it would be?"

"you don't get it man. all i wanted was this" as he's watching their dreams clash and fight. all he wanted was this. seeking a punch because your body only knows that kind of touch. seeking the burn of acid and asphalt and searing tongues because that's all the warmth you think you deserve. once you eat too much salt everything is bland otherwise. so he pours the whole packet in, swims it it, it burns in his open wounds.

ronan calls him to shelter. kavinsky doesn't look back. "ronan thought of all of the times he had looked through the window of his bmw and seen kavinsky looking back" kavinsky doesn't look back. but he is, still, looking at ronan. looking at the dreams fighting in the sky. "it's you, why do you hate you?" "i don't" "it knew what ronan wanted. it wanted exactly what ronan wanted" and kavinsky is looking at the terror.

"is that what you thought it would be? it was never going to be you and me"

"the difference between kavinsky and us is we matter"

"it was never going to be you and me"

"the pair of white sunglasses lay in the dust besides ronan's toe. he didn't take them"

"it was never going to be you and me"

[angryracoon92]

No one at this firework knew that dying is a boring side effect

[kaey-q]

"Ronan could kill Kavinsky. If he stopped Kavinsky, the dragon stopped. But it was one thing to know this solution. It was a very different thing to look at Kavinsky, his arms stretched over his head, fire in his eyes, and think: I could kill him.

And most important, it wasn’t true.

Ronan couldn’t kill him."

my slightly incoherent ramble in remembrance of K's day.

no way ronan would kill kavinsky bc K is him. a mirrored reflection. the rage. fury. the impulse to destroy everything. let the world burn. all of it. he had it too. and maybe he didn't do it. but that doesn't mean he doesn't want it. so no he can't kill k. bc he is everything he could be if not for gansey. shit. yeah. gansey love. deep love. unrelenting even is what has saved ronan since forever. and K doesn't have that. and he hoped ronan would be his saving grace maybe. but ronan has his love. loool. this is why people burn the world to the ground sometimes isn't it. bc no love has ever saved them. it's heartbreaking to show someone else the very heart, the cruelty through and through you share and them to turn around and go. it's like I'll burn this fucking world bc of that. I'll show you. you'll have to stop me. if you have the guts then kill me. but you'll have to come to me. one way or another.

[kidovna]

happy birthday, adam parrish, army of one (close ups below)

[kidspawn]

"pride month is over" yeah but now its kavinsky summer 2025 be the man you wish you could be. dream yourself a friend group. do drugs and be no homo three balls gay. crashout over your situationship and kidnap his brother then blow up and die. change the trajectory of their lives.

[kameisturtleinjapanese]

rip Joseph Kavinsky

you could have had an amazing character development

you could have healed

you could have had actual friends

you could have been so so much more

[hayleysstark]

treasure planet writers: parental abandonment is a wound that never truly heals. it shapes a child in a very specific, very painful way. it leaves them longing for love for the rest of their life and, even worse, it convinces them they are intrinsically unworthy of that love. they feel they must beg and bargain and work for every ounce of affection and attention they receive. many children are plunged into poverty in the wake of the abandonment, causing them to fall even further through the cracks as their life becomes about survival. some of them internalize their anger and shame to the point that they become self-destructive, shutting out their loved ones and sabotaging their own success. in short, the effect of abandonment upon a child cannot be overstated.

treasure planet audience: hell yeah space pirates

[harlotsforcinnamon]

In the name of karmic balance and reparations I think the graphic novel writers should make Kavinsky Worse. Let him call Ronan a faggot