struggles and victories

my personal experiences of living by myself with ADHD occasionally functional adult. blogging my random rambling from Belgium. #MyAdhdChronicles

[livingthatadhdlife]

Sometimes when I'm stressed about finances for the month, I'll divide the money I've got left by the amount of days and then multiply it by seven. That way I know how much my weekly budget it.

Like next week I'm going to a birthday where I'll need 60€ for my food and train ticket. And then family dinner so two more traintickets and maybe some flowers. (I thrifted mom's mother's day gift). And then internet bill. So I might be over budget that week so I'm hoping I can compensate this week by spending less.

[livingthatadhdlife]

Does anyone else feel like they're not allowed to make as many mistakes as others?

I don't know if it's my adhd or my facial paralysis which has people judge me harsher. I just wished I could fix it

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Sorting through tote bags to get rid of a few isn't easy when you get emotionally attached to every single one of them

[livingthatadhdlife]

I've recently felt very bothered by generalisations about ADHD. It's always followed by some shitty ai generated "fix ur adhd in ten steps" bullshit.

So I want to make it abundantly clear. Anything and everything I post is how I experience my adhd. You can still have ADHD while being financially healthy and you can impulse buy shit and be neuroptypical.

[livingthatadhdlife]

I have a new closet.

It's great. It got delivered Saturday

I took down my old closet. Donated my dresser. And now I have a new closet with enough space to finally fit all my clothes.

Except

It's not yet assembled.

So currently my living room and guestroom are taken over with clothes. And I am in waiting mode until my dad can come help assemble it this weekend.

But. I have a new closet and it was a lot of money but I'm happy to finally have a decent one after 8 years... Almost.

[vereel]

what tv show is it

supernatural

Smallville

Voting ended onMay 6

[livingthatadhdlife]

I wish I was the one hobby kind of girl, my home would probably be way less messy.

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Excellent

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ADHD hack

Dinner and lunch.

Recipe from the mealime app

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How often do you check your bank account

once or several times a day

few times a week

only when I have to pay something

Voting ended onMar 16

I find myself constantly checking my bank account. I don't know if that's a normal thing.

[livingthatadhdlife]

Okay so. I've not been updating much. I know.

It's been rough. This week for the first time in way too long I've had some energy to clean. Mostly bc work deadlines made me procastri-clean.

Now. I've been very much focused on food prep lately. And I don't mean meal planning. I just try to buy certain things (like meat) in larger quantity when it's on sale and then freeze it. (Thank you vacuüm machine obsession). I have organized my freezer into "ingredients", "prepared meals/ready to eat) and desserts and snacks.

It's very nice to finally feel like I have a grasp on it. At least for as long as it lasts.

I cleaned my fridge as well. I found a small ranch packet that had expired in 2024. And that was pretty bad. But other than that, it's okay I guess. Now the fridge is clean.

I've been living on my own for almost 8 years now. And it's frustrating how there'll be moments that I feel like everything might be fine and then suddenly everything is really difficult and then a few months ago I was checking something and I realized it's all bc of my fucking menstrual cycle.

Turns out all those moments that I feel I can't get any fucking things done, is in fact pms and the luteal phase and it turns out it affects me massively.

I'm thinking maybe discussing with me psychiatrist to up my adhd meds during those times bc damn.

Yes I'm rambling. You know how it goes.

Currently I'm in my fanfiction writing phase again. So obviously I've written 21 fanfics in the last 2 and a half months. (40k words in total).

It's very much all consuming as is the adhd way.

Financials are going well. As in. So well I keep checking bc I think I forgot to pay a bill. Waiting for that other shoe to drop I guess.

Anyways.

What is going with all of you.

Give me some updates

[livingthatadhdlife]

I finished the work mostly

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I took some extra meds to get my work done so I'm on a double dose right now and for the first time in weeks I finally feel like I can get things done. It's frustrating bc obviously I can't do a 60mg daily, but the difference is just so noticeable. Is this how neuroptypicals live?

By extra meds I mean I took them so I could work until later on the day and the doses overlap for an hour or two. I did not just take two pills

[livingthatadhdlife]

I have developed the habit of taking off my socks in bed and then putting them next to my pillow so I don't forget to put them in the laundry so now I'm just sleeping next to dirty socks.

Good thing I don't have sweaty feet I guess

[livingthatadhdlife]

Full adhd hyper fixation in progress.

First level: watch the tv show

2nd: read the books

3rd: watch behind the scenes and interviews with cast

4th: read fanfic

5th: write fanfic

6th: get a tattoo.

I am on level 5

[livingthatadhdlife]

When I say fucked up sleep schedule I mean that, for the last two weeks, I've mostly slept from 5am until 1pm

Which means that right now it's 4.40 and in two hours I have to get up for work.

So anyways.

Wish me luck

[isaiahomega]

I was there 2 weeks ago, good luck my friend. Take the strength I didn't have(couldn't sleep the night before until right before I was supposed to work and this didn't)

[livingthatadhdlife]

I did not sleep before work. At some point the clock turned to 6AM, and that's when I realised that it was not going to happy.

Luckily enough I had a colleague drop me off at home after work so I didn't have to brave public transportation.

I was okay, as much as you can be.

[livingthatadhdlife]

When I say fucked up sleep schedule I mean that, for the last two weeks, I've mostly slept from 5am until 1pm

Which means that right now it's 4.40 and in two hours I have to get up for work.

So anyways.

Wish me luck