Once, in a life time of opportunity. You may arrive at a space of unwitted knowledge of two foreign outcomes. Once a simple decision, can create a feeling of wrong, disapproval of self, an internal storm.
I wonder the outcomes, the simple truths of each moment creating a reality more complex than moments before. Or operating within a knowledge and recognition of truth and acceptance of what is, what could be, what actually exists.
And some times, the difference of existence and nonexistence is so similar, so unclear. As if the promise of right and wrong cannot be differentiated between what lacks of existence or has a base in reality.
And what is an interpretation of what has happened, what is merely a notice of what is perspective. So much of our lives are determined by what we perceive as good/bad, and our memories based themselves within these moments of recognition.
So much of our lives are in recognition of emotions, thoughts, feelings. All of which do not exist within a real platform. The words we use with one could be easily placed with another. One you may know, one may be a stranger; One a long friend, one a new lover. These identical words hold different meanings depending on the level of vulnerability.
The strange thing, however, is a new lesson. That vulnerability and strength, regardless of mental assumption, are triggers. From the amount of respect and trust you have for one, can waiver at times. Making something much more intimate, or much less.
As far as I can tell, the relation to vulnerability is not timeless, as is love, as is affection, as ability. It’s interesting the migration of thoughts and feelings, through time, effort, forgetfulness.
It’s the interesting moments of thoughtfulness and appreciation where we recognize the alternatives of each passing feeling, whether from years or days ago.
An interesting perspective on our own personal evolution in regards to thoughts, experience, moments and apperception. The times we can recognize the amount of effort we put into unknown, unreal ideas and perspectives, maybe we should re-associate the amount of time and effort into the reality rather than focus on the emotions.
Or maybe we should focus more on the nonexistant and unknowns, rather than focus our energy towards the pressures, responsibilities and possibilities of reality. As our perspective, as it grows, becomes more varied in response to collaboration and identity.
Just a Monday afternoon thought.