Everything is fine.

Just a dude who loves to yap and has dropped pretty much every other social media platform This user has absolutely nothing better to do 31, disabled, trans, black, depressed Living in the woods and enjoying the sound

[crybabysatan]

Okay so I think I need a new intro post.

Hi. I’m Cri. Or Satan. Or Baby if ya nasty.

I’m an old school yapper from the before times(I’m in my 30s lmao) but I’m also a professional lurker so participation is new to me. I don’t really have any specific thing this blog is about so fair warning, but don’t expect anything too bad and I will tag common sense stuff. If I forget anything my asks are open, and asks are open for general nonsense as well. If you’re rude I’ll just block you. I ain’t got the time lmao.

Some stuff about me, uh.

I’m black. I like Naruto. I’m a trans man. I like wolves. I’m a hinge in a polycule. I’ve been homeless recently. I live in the woods. I yap about stuff sometimes. And I’m kinda funny ig.

Cat.

[luxiomahariel]

"im a misandrist but not in a terfy way"

theres no feminist way to be a misandrist that doesnt bleed into terf ideology.

[luxiomahariel]

if youre a misandrist, then i dont trust you not to be racist towards men of color.

if youre a misandrist, then i dont trust you not to be ableist towards disabled and/or neurodivergent men.

if youre a misandrist, then i dont trust you not to be intersexist towards intersex men or intersex people that look like men.

if youre a misandrist, then i dont trust you not to be transphobic towards trans women who don't want to pass or cant pass for whatever reason.

if youre a misandrist, then i dont trust you not to be transphobic towards trans men.

if youre a misandrist, then i dont trust you not to be exorsexist towards nonbinary men or nonbinary people who might look like men.

if youre a misandrist, i dont fucking trust you. you are not an ally to me or to marginalized people.

[crybabysatan]

I get pretty sick of talking about my experiences in life as a black woman cause people only see that I present as a man now. I’ve only been out as a man for two years. I grew up and lived my life as a woman for 28 years before I finally changed my name and pronouns. Which means I do in fact know what it’s like to be a black woman in America. Which means I do actually get an opinion when it comes to things women go through. Reproductive rights? Bro I still have my original parts. The ways women are treated in the workplace? Yeah been there, still there actually since I have the added bonus of if I didn’t work with a bunch of queer neurodivergent gen z, I’d probably have to defend both my masculinity and my femininity like I did in my last job. Discourse between black and white women on tiktok? Scathing looks and “what would you even know penis haver?” Like ??????????? I don hab pendis?????????

But like here’s the thing. I don’t feel comfortable in spaces meant for men. I don’t. Those are spaces meant for “real men” and I don’t belong there as I am an “imposter.” I’m not a “real man” I’m just a little girl who shops in the men’s section at Walmart. And that is not fucking fun or safe for me, who struggles to participate anyway.

I may not identify as a woman now. But I will always identify *with* women. I will always be a grown ass man with all of the trauma of a teenage autistic girl who didn’t have many friends and didn’t know why people didn’t like her.

It’s just really fucking frustrating. Being treated like my identity is a betrayal, like I’m a traitor to women because I flipped sides. Like bro I still cry and throw up when a small enough animal is present. I still delight in morning teas and soft light in my window. I still crave all of those things that are inherently “feminine”! I simply cannot enjoy it fully in its entirety with these massive fucking tits I didn’t fucking want!

There’s really no point to this rant it’s just painful remembering that my best friend wouldn’t let me meet her new boyfriend because she wanted to double date and wanted “a guy friend for him to hang with”. Like I’m not a guy now and haven’t basically been one in spirit since we were five. We don’t talk anymore.

[crybabysatan]

Sigh.

[manuciruja]

awww the like button turns into a rainbow when you press it! that's so cute...hey staff what's with all the trans women you keep nuking?

[manuciruja]

i think we should be ridiculing them more for this. you don't get to try and go all "queer website" when your staff likes to go on nuking sprees targeting the trans fem users

[smadsel]

would be remiss not to mention that the rainbow notably straight up just removed the trans flag colors from it. like they’re gone. it’s the progress flag minus the trans flag colors.

[smadsel]

that’s not the whole flag, now is it

[manuciruja]

hey staff what the fuck

[villainessbian]

hey staff don't you think you're being too on-the-nose

[shrodingers-catgirl]

HEY STAFF DONT YOU THINK YOU'RE BEING TOO ON-THE-NOSE

[satan-offical]

everything is going smoothly so far, as long as 10 million fireflies don't show up then I'm good

[sashayed]

has anyone figured out how to turn off the thing where you love your pet so much it slides inexorably into grief-borrowing

[boomstab-papa]

[your-cosmic-creature]

“For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”

[crybabysatan]

Happy Pride yall, sorry I’m a minute late I was hitting my b-

[crybabysatan]

Anybody want a kitten he’s a year old, very sweet, incredibly loyal and perceptive, and discovered his voice recently which means HE HAS EVERY MF THING UNDER THE SUN TO SAY AT ALL HOURS OF THE FECKIN NIGHT-

[full-moon-phoenix]

Roommie got the Slywalker OG. I asked him if I could Obi Wan that Skywalker. And by Obi Wan, I mean

hehe

Set it on fire

[crybabysatan]

The weed in my bong

[busket]

both trans men and trans women are punished for our proximity to both feminity and masculinity. people decide when we are men or women based on what is the WORST option at the moment. we both get treated like women only when someone needs to infantalize us or call us bossy, bitchy, stupid, vapid. we both get treated like men when someone wants to demonize and paint us as violent, predatory, abusive, perverted. NONE of us are benefiting from any gendered privilege, because we are always treated like the worst of either gender depending on the scenario. this is something all trans people experience, regardless of agab, both trans men and trans women. so why do we assume that the other side has the opposite experience as us?? why do you think that because your life as a trans man or a trans woman is painful, that a trans person of a different gender must have the opposite experience?? like i just dont get the preschool level understanding of gender like "well boys and girls are opposites so of course our experiences are opposites too" we are living the same transphobia and if you cant see it you need to listen to other people more

[satan-offical]

*looks up* I can feel something...a...shift in power... *looks at calendar* *gasps* it's here

[transf-g]

forcemasc but in a punk way. Buzzing a guys hair or giving him a mullet. Putting him in shitty eyeliner while blasting 70s punk in the background. Bringing him to a concert venue that reeks of cigarettes, sweat and alchohol. Making out as two men instead of girls.

[crybabysatan]

This is the forcemasc I wanna see

[sawyrrrr]

ftmt4t blogs be like "horny weed and tshot and older dude and physicality" and i be like hell yeah every single time

[sailermoon]

this is how new yorkers @ mamdani

[sailermoon]

[krismasdreemurr00]

[witheringsapphic-deactivated202]

please reblog this until i find my true love. i am so alone

[tables-but-with-a-very-long-name]

Made it poly friendly

[witheringsapphic-deactivated202]

oh hell yeah even better

[courtjester69420]

Made one for aromantic trans people 👍

[queen-mihai]

Reblogging for poly people, mono people, and people who need their keys

[crybabysatan]

If you’re gonna make a statement about trans people not being invisible to you, maybe don’t let the publisher censor the word trans.

[northshorewave]

Handing the Google executive currently chained in my basement a piece of paper that reads "Shall I end your torture?" with one checkbox that reads "No" and another that reads "Maybe later."