Hey there, cunts darlings! It's me, Lixxie. You can call me Lix for short. Or you can call me Felix if you hate my guts and want to skin me alive :3
I'm a cute lil demon catboy! Catgirl! Cat...enby! Gender is a plague, but I usually go with catboy. And yup, I'm a kodo. ;P
You may know me from my system. Let it be known - my views and my system's views are not the same and should never be treated as the same. They are not responsible for me. They'll be responsible because they think they have to, but they aren't.
I don't have a DNI because I'm so starved for attention, I'll devour anon hate. Also, this is kind of a "safe" space for me, and that space can and will also include other transID users, supporters, radqueers, proshippers and "disgusting freaks". Don't come into my home and start bitching, unless you wanna be on the menu programme.
I use this blog to mainly talk about cannibalism, paraphilias, conabuse and other stuff. Anything more tame will typically get redirected to @itzlixxie because I need to appear 'palatable' to the masses or sth.
More info for those who want it under the cut.
I'm a pseudolittle alter of a median system. You could call me a persecutor or prosecutor, but I've grown tired of those terms nowadays. People just use it to say mean things about others and deny them their power. Besides, I have new ways to describe just what I'm capable of. ^^
I don't like anti-endos, but I am traumagenic/traumaorma (and one of few headmates split purely from trauma).
I'm an attention-seeking bitch ;P
I am (as umbrella terms) transage, transhateful, transharmful, transharmed and transabled. I have complicated views on transIDs in general. Some I give full support (like transage and what others call "harmless transIDs"). Some I'm iffy on (like certain transhateful IDs like transn*zi -> censoring because I don't wanna be shadowbanned again). And some I am downright against (like transintersex). Feel free to ask about any specific stances. Note that I'll interact with people even if I don't like their transIDs.
I love being worshipped, manipulating people, making then treat me like a god whilst I encourage them to do awful things to themselves, before I eventually cannibalise them and whatever else may follow. I fucking love conabuse dynamics. I hate humans and I don't hide it. I often go on about things like these in my posts tagged "lixxie's hateful rants" and "lixxie's canni rants". Block those tags (and/or "cw organs") if you don't want to read any of that. None of this is directed at anyone not into stuff like that. I mean, it would be, but then I would be breaking too many boundaries for my safety and that would be bad.
I am hypersexual, a paraphile (some are listed in my bio) and a fantaAAM by technicality, though I consider myself a bit more of a MAM. I have a weird relationship with sex and it's better you don't ask questions because I will not be detailing my trauma to you.
I used to ID as an autololi/autoshota. Not sure if that's still true.
I can shapeshift. I actually could choose a more adult form, but I actively choose to be a dirty kodo instead.
We knew it!! We’re a switch too. Depending on the alter and etc will determine our position. At the moment we’re very into the thought of fighting for dominance.
A joke label based on the “pay me for my origin” system term, this time for when people just won’t stop asking for your stance on something and atp if people wanna know they gotta give you at least 20 dollars.
This goes for stances on contact, certain transids, literally stances on anything
Made my own bingo!!! (*≧∀≦*) Ive seen so many beings do it and I wanted to make my ownnnn! Sorry it's not the normal bingo shape... That was an accident I'm too lazy to fix ╥﹏╥
why is it that whenever I hear about aam x map stuff, the aam is always the "uwu, I'm so small and vulnerable!" and the map is "heeheheh.. I'm gonna groom you.." like,
what if the aam was the creep?
"You're so much more older than me but I don't care! I want you so badly haha.. Your name is even engraved on my thigh!" and the map is the " no.. This is wrong! You're way younger than me and it'll look bad on my resume if I have 'child predator ' on my resume!! "
everyone get more pervert aam and in denial map NOW
catgirl going "if I fits I sits" before spending ten minutes struggling to fit your cock in her ass before she mutters out a "whatever.." and sniffles and walks away
I was interested by your statement that your lack of knee-jerk repulsion or avoidance in response to your uncommon subjects of fantasy is something you feel makes you less “human”……. “human” in that more abstract and philosophical sense doesn’t exist. It’s an empty box people fill with accepted narrative, statistical commonality, their own image. You can imagine psyches like snowflakes if you’d like, modern psychology groups them for efficiency based on shared traits and stuff, but they are all unique in ways and share a common “blueprint” to some degree in others. Any instinctual feeling-based responses to things as your prev anon described are the results of the natural evolutionary prioritizations of impulses that aid health and survival, these are echoes of our animal ancestors that might resonate differently depending on the cranium or not at all. If you get what I’m saying. For example I always find myself interested in folks with a solid draw to or repulsion from things like this…….. for me it’s all practical concerns. I can see the appeal, objectively. Opportunity for freedom and lack of it are dominating forces in nearly all sexual fantasy :)
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this was thought provoking, thank you. i think when i say human i moreso mean "normal." which i know is even more subjective.
i sort of feel like i'm wearing a human suit. like i'm playing pretend and sometimes it's obvious.
without digging too much into that, because i think we would be here all day and night, my fantasies aren't the only thing that make me feel less than human. they're simply the most obvious. most properly developed people would be at least a little put off by thinking the things that i do. i've seen many posts on here where people talk about feeling a sort of shame, maybe something deeper than that, about having the thoughts that come so naturally to me.
i understand your point about psyches being similar to snowflakes, but i don't just think my brain is different, i think it's wrong. and that sounds like i'm disturbed by it but i'm not, and i never have been.
i think some wires got crossed or something went wrong developmentally in my younger years that caused this. simply because i cannot fathom any other reason. i cannot picture a reality where there is no real reason for me to be the way i am. unless i am subhuman. which comes back around to my original point. and i'm not disturbed or distressed by that notion, it is simply my reality.
this is a bit of a ramble and much different than my typical posts but i do enjoy digging into the way my brain functions, so i don't care.
I hate medical porn videoss because almost allll of them are just…. “Oh doctor I’m sick and the cure is to blow you” or just a guy in gloves and a mask but fully unclothed….. I want hours of footage of obscure stuff. Both staying clothed, a normal medical examination where even if the subject is clearly turned on the doctor doesn’t acknowledge it. They ease in needles instead of dick and coo praises and compliments. No stupid subjects that play dumb about being fingered, they know it’s wrong but the doctor doesn’t seem to phased as they do it. Feeling and exploring before pulling away, disinterested in allowing release….
“i want an adult to take advantage of me” ❌ overplayed , boring , perpetuates stereotypes of YAPs and minor’s ability to consent
“i want to take advantage of a grown adult man who’s twice my size and can’t fight back because he feels bad about maybe hurting me and i threatened id go to the police if he touched me” ✅✅✅✅ hot.
