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I'M BACK!!!

I took a hiatus to figure some things out. And I think I got my life together. So I'm back...not as a video editor but as a writer, commentator and all around girl. I'm doing okay. But I won't be afraid to speak my mind....so don't push me. See you around!

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sup i hope youre ok

Thanks, I'm doing just fine. In fact I couldn't have been better. 

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Reblog if you actually give a shit about anyone who's suicidal or depressed.

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Uh, yeah. I'm actually struggling with depression and I was having suicidal thoughts. So yeah, I do give a shit.

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Okay, I'm trying to get Kittyprydex1's attention and get her to talk to me...

it's not working. It's almost as if she's running away from something. Or she's pissed at me for no apparent reason...

Kitty, sweetie...just because you didn't handle the situation like a good moderator should doesn't mean I'm going to attack you. I'm just trying to rectify this situation. 

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NOBODY'S PERFECT, GUYS! (ESPECIALLY ZEWY)

NOTE: THIS IS NOT A FLAME OR INSULT TO ZEWY! THIS IS JUST TO CLARIFY SOME THINGS. SO THINK BEFORE YOU RESPOND TO THIS POST.

  Recently, some of OoZewyOo's followers made it apparent to correct me on some facts that involve him, myself and another tumblr blogger, Lilarbria. They believe she was hating on Zewy on my behalf and I correced her to do it. Some believe that she's trolling all by herself. Others probably think I'm acting back to my old ways and got Lilarbria to insult Zewy. Really???

Let me tell you what happened:

I didn't know Lilarbria before she stood up for me. 

One of my supporters told Zewy that I was contemplating suicide and Zewy said that he didn't care and I deserved what came to me...in short he didn't want to hear anymore about me. Lilarbria was a follower of Zewy but when she heard that, she quickly responded and unfollowed him. I expressed my thanks to her.

Zewy and I made up on Facebook and I told Lilarbria that I did so. Apparently it's his friends that still have a problem with me. Like Mori, Silence and ResidentMaria.

I haven't said or done anything to Zewy. I haven't even been on Tumblr until now when all of these anons came at me with this drama. 

Lilarbria said she acted alone when she put the "Assholes" comment on Zewy's page. 

In short, all of you that follow Zewy who think I still have a problem with him, I DON'T ANYMORE! I'm trying to atone for my mistakes and seek forgiveness for anyone I insulted and wronged. I know it's going to take some time but starting drama by digging up crap from the past won't solve anything.

Lilarbria is a sweet girl who stood up for someone who was literally at their low-point. You don't know how much I needed someone to stand up for me when all I had was backlash, hate and more hate. I was actually thinking about killing myself. Nobody is perfect, guys. We all make mistakes some bigger than others. Does that give us the right to hold it over their heads? And contrary to popular belief, Zewy isn't perfect either. So don't put him up some high pedestal. He's bound to make a mistake and let you down. 

So Please, do not come to me with "facts," insults, or trying to insult someone saying that I have to check this person. I don't have time for that. I have a life. And LEAVE LILARBRIA ALONE!

She probably did went off on Zewy but she hasn't followed him for quite some time. She made a mistake, just like the rest of us. What she did was G-Rated compared to what I did. So, let bygones be bygones and let it go.

Just let this whole thing go. I'm tired of having my past mistakes over my head. 

Thank you for understanding.

Queeny.

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I'm LAUGHING AT ALL OF ZEWY'S FOLLOWERS AND ITS HILARIOUS THAT THEY LITERALLY CAN'T HANDLE SOME PEOPLE NOT THINKING HES PERFECT. and to that most recent anon, unlike them, I have a life, I don't follow zewy, so I missed it. And I think one person asked me about it. I find it hilarious that these people literally find it necessary to go through my blog. I am really really sorry that people think you made me criticise zewy when actually I was acting by myself. ❤❤❤

I'm really sorry about all this...I didn't mean to for you to get dragged in this. Obviously, people missed the drama Zewy and I were giving each other, they want to terrorize someone else's. 

I'm going to make a MAJOR POST about this and hoping this will die over. And I'll talk to Zewy about not taking it out on me. Hopefully, he'll listen.

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Hi Liztopia. I think you got your facts wrong. On January 21st Lilabria sent Zewy an ask saying just 'Asshole', people then sent ZEWY ask's and fanmail giving him support. No one sent Lilabria anything. At least not anything that she posted for the world to see. And if you and Lilabria is such good friends, then I find it very strange that she made such a post/ask to Zewy. Wouldn't she had know that you two had made up? Please check Zewy's archives if you don't believe me. And also Lilabria's!

Sweetheart, I don't know what you're trying to accomplish by starting crap and digging up more crap. But it won't work.

I already told another anon the real facts and what happened. Idc what Lilarbia did to Zewy, she doesn't deserve to be insulted for standing up for me. The person who gave Zewy hell in the first place!

What she did was G-rated compared to what I did.

And for your information, I already told Lilabria that Zewy and I made up. Hasn't it occurred to you she made that post after Zewy said that he didn't care that I committed suicide???

You need to check your facts. Zewy isn't perfect nor a saint so don't put him up some kind of pedestal. But I don't care anymore. THIS IS OVER, STOP TALKING ABOUT IT. AND STOP HATING ON LILABRIA!!! 

I find it really sad you have to tell me this so anonymously. If you really cared that I know the facts, you would've shown your face. So, unless you're writing to send me support and encouraging me to post more things, DO NOT WRITE TO ME AGAIN!

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I hope you're ok in the big world, and I look forward to when you start regularly posting again. And btw, no one actually sent me hate mail, just zewy's followers seemed to have a panic attack because, gasp!, he isn't perfect. Thank you so, so much for saying such kind things. They made me cry. You are my role model in that you have stuck through so much crap, and you're still kind and sweet. Don't ever change a thing about yourself. You're already absolutely perfect.

Thank you for being yourself! Just plain awesome! 

And don't worry, you'll see me soon.... ;).

Much Love!

Queeny

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Hey Queeny, just some views from the other side- lilarbia was randomly hating on Zewy, not knowing you's forgave eachother, and people stood up for him. It's no ones fault, people's wires just got crossed

Actually, Anon it was like this:

An anon told Zewy that I was thinking about killing myself and Zewy told everyone that he didn't care about me or what I do and he could careless that I'd off myself. It was then lilarbia defended me and told Zewy off. After that, Zewy agreed to talk to me and we forgave each other.

You're right, it's no one's fault here...especially lilarbia's. She was defending me just as Zewy's friends were defending him. She stood up for me when I was rock-bottom and people were giving me crap. 

So, I please DO NOT spread ANY HATE for lilarbia whatsoever. She did nothing wrong. If anything, lila's a wonderful, sweet and courageous girl who took all of that hate Zewy's friends threw at her with stride. 

So, no more hating, pointing fingers, backstabbing or taking sides. 

As far as I'm concerned this war between myself and Zewy IS OVER! Tell his friends. 

Thank you. 

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I hope you're okay sweetie. IM getting a bunch of hate bc I stood up for you, but I DONT CARE. Have Zewy and his friends apologised to you yet? I hope you're okay. I really do. You are a beautiful, sweet person. You don't deserve this. I honestly can't fathom what you must have done, kill their mothers? I hope you'll come back soon. I miss you a lot.

I'm doing okay, Lila. Just spending some time in the real world for a change. My moods are a lot better and I've been visiting my doctors regularly. Just want you to know that Zewy and I have come to an understanding and we forgave each other. Can't say much about his friends. 

I don't appreciate, however them spreading hate on YOU because of me. What I did was bad, I insulted them but I'm trying to make it right. You shouldn't get insulted because of me.  If you want, I will let whoever it is know not to do that again. Just tell me their names.

But thanks for the encouragement. I'll be back soon...

Liztopia

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u ok?

Yes, Anon. I'm still here. But it's been a pretty bummed out Christmas season last year. I wanted someone to do some uplifting videos to Florence + the Machine's "Shake It Out" or the Gym Class Heroes "Fighter" but no one wants anything to do with me....

So this year, I plan to start a clean slate, be nicer to the friends I do have and don't sweat the people that hate me right now. 

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My Wishlist!

Here's my Wishlist for Christmas....

I want to be forgiven for all the wrong I've done this past year

I want my friends back

I WILL NOT be judged by my mistakes

A redemption/forgiveness video to "Shake It Off" by Florence + the Machine or "Fighter" by Gym Class Heroes.

Some positive comments by some former BFLS members and my friends. 

Acknowledgment that I have changed. 

Not to be lonely and alone......

Someone PLEASE REBLOG THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I was going to drink it, but couldn't find the will to do so. I eventually got a bit better, but.. I wasn't the same. Hell, I had to sit at my grandmothers funeral ON MY BIRTHDAY. And then started puking that night. So, yeah. But now I'm happy. I won my crush back as a friend, and now we're actually dating. 7 Months on my birthday. And I can't be happy, because I have my friends back. I know it's hard, but I believe in you. I'm in BFLS, but I don't judge before I get to know you. Stay strong.

Anon, I give MAJOR Hugs to you for sharing this story with me. I'm glad that you're doing better and it gives me hope that one day my friends will come around eventually. That's why I put up the Suicide Awareness MEP, not to draw attention to myself but as a moving piece to people who are going through what you and I went through.

We're going to have highs and lows...I have good days and bad days. Just learn to take one day at a time and take the good with the bad.

You're more braver than I ever would be. :)

Hopefully, you will participate in my MEP Project. It's up on my YT Channel...and I need some support. 

Thank you for this moving story. 

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I'm sorry you are currently going to depression. I, too, have had my fair share of depression. A story similar to yours. I had a large group of friends, and was very happy and bubbily. But one day, that all came crashing down. In one day. My best friend/crush left me and said I could rot in hell, all my other friends left and said the same, and I was alone along with my family hating me. I even sunk so low as to try and end my life with chemicals I found under the sink. -- I'll resubmit

I can't wait to hear more of this....

:'(

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BEHOLD!! My new MEP for Suicide Awareness is NOW ON YOUTUBE!! 

I need some help with this....major help. It has sixteen parts. So feel free to comment on the video or send me an post here on my Tumblr page. Here are the rules: Dedicate your part to someone who's either committed suicide or had thoughts of it..and portray them as a character (any character from any fandom) going through this but came out triumphant. 

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD!!! A SUICIDE MEP IS ON THE MAP!!! 

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Hello there! I just wanted to ask you why are you still holding a grudge against BLS especially Kitty and Zewy? I'm mean your idea was rejected, i understand that, but everyone's ideas at some point in life will be rejected and if everyone did what you are doing the whole world would be a crappy ass place. I don't truly believe that you are being fair to everyone else by making BLS, kitty and Zewy look bad. What's to win from that? I hope you let go of this and just move on with life

*laughs hysterically* Someone's BEEN MONTHS LATE IN THE GAME. 

Look, Sweetie, I'm over that now...BLS wants to be robotic, let them. Not my problem anymore..don't want anything to do with them. As far as Kitty and Zewy are concerned, Zewy and I have come to an understanding. I no longer hold a grudge against him. Kitty, is a different story. I don't like how she handled the situation and I expressed it to her multiple times. She has a problem with me. Not my fault she sucked at handling the crossfire. But I wish her all the best.

I hope you let go of this drama and move on with life because I already did, okay sunshine? Here's a cute photo of Jackson Rathbone.

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“That’s a lot of information to get in thirty seconds.”

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Best Thanksgiving Scene EVER!!!