It's Complicated.

Name's Elizabeth Doyle. I go by Lizzy, but anything that's not Elizabeth is okay. My fake ID will tell you I'm 23, so there you go. The short list of things I enjoy include The Breakfast Club, breakfast foods, Netflix, and my friends and family. If you need me, I'll probably be in Landslide, California until I wither up and die. Twitter: @lizzydee ((This is a Landside Effect roleplay account- I am not associated with Ashley Rickards in any way.))

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

I dunno… I… Fuck, I think…

God, I think I just became my worst nightmare. Fuck.

[lizzydoyle]

No, Wes, that was my fault, I'm really sorry. Don't... blame yourself for that, that was me. I'm-- fucking shit. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

It’s okay. It’s okay it’s okay it’s okay, it was just a moment of weakness. We were talking, something felt right, okay? No damage done.

It’s just—well, you’re with Bryson and my feelings for someone else are…complicated right now. It was just a kiss.

[lizzydoyle]

No, god, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have done that, I'm sorry. Moment of weakness or not, it was still shitty. I should... I should go? 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

Shit, shit, shit, shit—

I can’t.

[lizzydoyle]

Shit, no fuck, you're right. 

I don't know why... Fuck, I don't know why I did that, I.... 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

[lizzydoyle]

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

You’ll be okay, Princess. I promise.

[lizzydoyle]

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

Positive.

[lizzydoyle]

That's... Reassuring. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

No—what? It’s fine. I swear. You’re not putting anything on me.

[lizzydoyle]

Are you sure? I feel like all I do is bitch about my life and eat your food. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

Yeah. Yeah, I understand. Completely.

[lizzydoyle]

Yeah-- right, yeah, sorry. I don't mean to put this all on you. I'm sorry. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

It’s not selfish of you. That’s a big adjustment. He’s asking a lot of you. You’d be leaving everything. It’s okay to feel a little…apprehensive.

[lizzydoyle]

All of my confusion over the decision, I just... It's scary, I'm just afraid that I... love him to a point and I know that's so shitty, but... I love him, I do, but I've never had a good relationship before and I'm afraid the distance will only cause more emotional distance. It's hard for me to get close to people. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

So, he’s asking you to move? That doesn’t seem fair. Especially since, it seems like, you’re making good progress. Y’know from when I last saw you. Seems kind of…selfish for him to ask that of you. No offense.

[lizzydoyle]

Bry, selfish? No, god no, I mean-- He's asking me to consider it and honestly, it seems like the only way we'd be able to make our relationship work. He got an amazing job offer in the city and it's only about an hour away, but he'd be moving there and I... I know it's selfish of me to think but I don't want him to go. I'm afraid the distance won't hold well. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

I know. I know it is. But, you want it now, and I think that means a lot more than you think it does. It’s scary but you’re not gonna let the fear win, y’know? There’s something bigger and better in being committed to someone than in being afraid of it.

[lizzydoyle]

I guess. I just don't know if I can uproot my whole life, what I've always known, just to be twenty minutes closer to someone I love. It's so complicated and I've never really been good with that. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

Ha! Thanks, Lizzy. Always good to know my butt gives me a brighter future. I dunno. I wanna settle down. I’m not getting my kicks from hookups, I never did. I don’t want to get tricked into something meaningless. I can’t lose someone else important to me.

Hey, okay. I won’t pry. Not my business.

[lizzydoyle]

I... I used to be into hookups, but now all I've wanted to do for a while is settle down, but it's so hard because... because... I don't commit easily. It's one of my downfalls. I find commitment so lovely and warming, but it's so fucking scary. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

Just…wish I had more to offer than mozzarella sticks.

Well, you’re committed to Bryson, aren’t you?

[lizzydoyle]

Oh-- hey, c'mere. You've got a lot more than fried cheese, Wes. You're a catch. You're sweet and funny and you've got a nice butt. 

Of course. I mean... Yeah, of course, but things haven't been easy and they've been... weird lately. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

Thanks. I dunno… That kinda stuff is all mixed up in my head. I don’t really understand anything except food. Kinda makes everything else harder.

Crazy is great. I love crazy. The crazier it gets, the more there is to go around. I just sometimes don’t wanna wait, y’know, I wanna have that ten years with someone and still love her to death, and have a big huge family with a ton of dogs, and—I sound like a girl, don’t I. Yeah, decisions are…they’re tough. I guess you just have to trust someone enough that you’re okay making a decision you’re not totally sure of.

[lizzydoyle]

You do food well, though, and honestly, that's really all you need to know to snag a girl. We love food. Food is great. You're going to make some little lady very happy with mozzarella sticks some day. 

No, you don't sounds like a girl, I get it. I mean, love is something everyone wants, even if it's just the idea of it. Spouse, kids, golden retriever, white picket fence-- the whole nine yards. At least I've got the dog down, since I'm really horrible at trusting myself enough to make decisions. It's me, really... Stuff's happened to me before and I'm not... very good at committing to one thing because of it. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

That’s just it, I don’t want to try to create something to fit me. Whoever she is has gotta be real, y’know? Like, her own person. Someone I can take care of, sure, but someone who’s not afraid to just, be herself. No hiding anything, y’know?

That’s what I want, though, I want that. I want someone who’s gonna be there and who I can be there for. That’s kinda what love is. I look at my parents, and they’ve been together forever, and they still make it work. My dad says, Marriage isn’t about finding out how much you love a person, it’s about finding out how much you can tolerate hating them. Sounds kind of cynical, but…I mean, if you can’t fight with someone, you can’t love them, right?

[lizzydoyle]

Yeah, I guess you're right-- can't really build-a-bear a girl into loving you. You're not so bad, though, I'm sure you're going to find someone for you. Someone who's not afraid to let it all out. 

You dad's a smart guy. My parents are kind of just... Crazy, but I guess it works for them. They've been together for a long time, too. Still in love. I'm just thinking, yknow... there's some decisions that need to be made together and that take a lot of time. Especially the life-changing kind...

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

I like to think so, but I’m starting to get the idea I’m just too picky. Weird? How so?

[lizzydoyle]

Picky? Well, what kind of girls are you into, then? You can't really build a dream spouse, but you can try. 

Weird as in... Well, you've got to put up with one person thick or thin and support every one of their decisions, no matter what, even if you're not sure if those decisions will really benefit your relationship. I dunno. Love is weird. 

[lizzydoyle]

Is something wrong?

[wesley-sanders]

Ha, guess that explains why I’m still single, huh?

Trying to get canonized before I die.

[lizzydoyle]

You're just waiting for the right girl, don't worry about it. I don't blame you, relationships are weird. 

I'll put in a call to Rome for you.