Dwell.
They say it is wrong to dwell on something that is not there anymore, but I will never regret scrolling through some photos and reminiscing the memories I had.
Because of this quarantine, it has been my hobby to look at the ‘on this day’ feature of Facebook and Instagram. It’s fun to see what I was up to ten, five, or even a year ago! It’s amazing how things seem to go so low yet everything is passing by too fast.
In my mind all these people I met and hang out with plus all the memories and laughter we shared are still fresh. Even the pain and pressure I felt during some times, even the sadness! It’s amazing how I went through all that without even noticing, thinking how impossible i’ll get through some of it - but I did! *pats self*.
That’s when I realize that it is somehow okay to dwell on things even if they are not there anymore. I choose to be the person who chooses not to forget. I just prefer putting these memories on a different lane my - ‘thanks this happened but it’s okay if it won’t happen again’ tab. I choose not to hate people for leaving or not treating me the same after what we’ve shared. Because maybe that’s life right? we outgrew people, we lose some along the way, but the memories we had with them will be with us forever, and that’s it. But not being with them doesn’t mean forgetting.
I just wish our minds have the on the this day feature as well, so we can specifically look back, share, and laugh at the things we’ve been to since we were kids - wouldn’t that be amazing?
I hope this quarantine is also making you realize the importance of being alive, of appreciating what you have! Because there’s a reason memories are made, there’s a reason we dream - and it’s your choice if you want to forget or you want to hold on to it.
