Thereâs not enough Hanahaki fics.
Warning: Canon character slowly dying from Hanahaki disease. Along with the reader not loving Lloyd back.
As much as I love Lloyd, I unfortunately see him suffering from thisâŠ. Sorry not sorryâŠ
Hanahaki: A disease that occurs when a personâs love is not shared⊠the victim will suffer from the rare flower growing inside them, slowly suffocating the victim. Though it can be treated, it can cause the victim with it, to lose the love they once had for the unrequited person.
Lloyd looked at the results of what he searched, as he came back from a check up from the doctor after coughing up petals one day. He never heard of the disease nor has he had it before for Harumi⊠but nowâŠ.
Out of all the times he had to run into you, it would be infront of a small clinic downtownâŠ.
He quickly put away his phone while putting on a smile that didnât seem to match his body languageâŠ. Tense, perhaps scared you could see through him.
âHeyâŠ. You ok, you seem a bit pale?â
âYeah, yeah⊠Iâm fine just caught a cold is all.â
âI saw you come out of that small clinic just now, are you sure itâs just a cold?â
âUh⊠yeah, they just suggested Iâd take more breaks is allâŠâ
You seemed to pout a bit and flick his forehead.
âTake it easy on yourself. I donât wanna worry about you all the time.â
âI know Iâm sorryâŠâ
The sound of a car honk caught both yours and his attention, a taxi.
âOh thatâs mine. Iâll text you later.â
Lloyd looked at you, you looked so amazing, no matter the day or night, you always seemed to take his breath away⊠so why did it have to be you that unknowingly cause his own lungs to feel suffocatingâŠ.
When did he start feeling this way?
When he finally felt seen by you?
That night where he finally let down his walls and told you how he felt like nothing he did was enough to make up for the past hurt he caused when he was young. Your response⊠you didnât look at him with pity, you just⊠hugged him. He didnât know how much he needed that⊠that small comfort lighting a spark he seemed to never get rid of after that nightâŠ
Every time he met with you after that⊠you seemed to glow in his eyes. Everything you did, big or small made him fall further and furtherâŠ
Why couldnât he confess how much you mean to him?
Why couldnât he say the three words he wished he could say?
Another honk snapped him out of his thoughtsâŠ
âAh⊠I really need to go, whatever you need to say, text it to me, Iâll see you later.â
And just like that⊠he blew it⊠againâŠ
Even in a life or death situation⊠he couldnât do itâŠ
As he returned to the monastery, days seemed to blur.. training became something he dreaded⊠his lungs felt like something was blocking them.
His uncle began to noticeâŠ
âLloyd, even though you wish for them to reciprocate⊠you have a duty, get the surgery.â
âYou canât force me to do something I donât want to do!â
âIâm doing this because Iâm worried.â
âThen stop! Iâm an adult now. I can make my own decisions.â
âSo youâre just going to die because of them??â
âITS BETTER THAN FORGETTING WHY I DID FALL FOR THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE!â
Lloyd and Wu seemed to stand there for a while, the silence tense and uncomfortable.
âFine⊠but just know this⊠as much as you love them⊠you should never forget those who care about you now and after you pass onâŠâ
Wu walks past Lloyd to the slide door, opening and pausingâŠ
âLloyd⊠I may not say it often⊠but youâve been⊠a good nephew.. Iâve.. never been more proud of the man you grew up to beâŠâ
And just like that, he walked away⊠leaving him there.. another bloody cough, another blood soaked petal⊠he wasnât sure how much time he had leftâŠ
After some time, the others seemed to notice Lloyd showed up less and less to trainingâŠ
Worried theyâd check up on him but he wouldnât budgeâŠ
Pixal one day got tired and decided to secretly analyze him while making it look like she was just checking on him⊠when she got the resultsâŠ. She was horrifiedâŠ
Telling the others and their reactions varied from shock to anger. How could he keep something this bad from them?
One day Lloyd came out of his room for some water only to find everyone in the living room, door open and everyone was quietâŠ
âUh⊠hey⊠why is everyone so quiet in here?â
âLloyd⊠we need to talkâŠâ
Cole closed the door behind LloydâŠ
Lloyd felt like he just fell into something he shouldnât haveâŠ
âAbout you killing yourself.â
âLloyd⊠we know about⊠the diseaseâŠâ
âOh god⊠this is what this is? An intervention?â
âLloyd⊠weâre worried about youâŠâ Zane said.
âDonât be, Iâm fine..â
âYouâre clearly not. Look at you, your breathing is getting difficult day by day, along with how pale you look. You seriously think we wouldnât notice?!â
âThis isnât something for you guys to worry about.â
âNo, donât pull that bullshit on us. Youâre dying and we canât just sit around and let you do this to yourself.â Cole said.
âThen what do you suggest then?â
âI said no! How many times do I have to say it?! First Wu, now you guys?!â
Cole and Zane stood at the slide door.
âThis is ridiculous.â
âNo whatâs ridiculous is you killing yourself over a crush that doesnât even love you back.â
âNo, Nyaâs right. Lloyd you need to listen to us-â
He hadnât snapped like that before⊠the others were stunnedâŠ
âIâm sorry⊠but Iâm not going through with it.. Iâve decided⊠and Iâm sticking with itâŠ.â
Lloyd shoved past Cole and Zane, heading back to his room, forgetting about why he came out in the first place.
âWe⊠we canât just let him do this⊠right?â Jay asked.
âLegally we canâtâŠâ Zane replied.
âI donât care about legal shit, I care about Lloyd!â
âNya, we canât let him do thisâŠâ
âWe canât force him either⊠perhaps⊠if we find out who he likes and try to-â
âYeah! What about that?â
âWhat if they donât love him back?â
Silence yet again⊠this time, it stabbed into them like a knife. The thought of losing Lloyd weighed heavy⊠they watched him grow up⊠just to see him die due to a disease he refused to get rid ofâŠ. They had to tryâŠ
They couldnât let him die like thatâŠ.
They searched, but Lloyd never said anything⊠not after the failed intervention⊠they looked for clues until one night⊠it came to them.
âGod this is pointless⊠thereâs millions of people⊠we canât find the one person he likes?!â Jay said frustrated.
âWe have to, weâre running out of time!â
âLook not now⊠we-â
âI know youâre probably busy.. but uh.. you havenât met me yet.. im Lloydâs friend⊠I was wondering if he was doing ok⊠I havenât seen him since I saw him outside a small clinic a month ago⊠Iâm worriedâŠâ
Jay and Kai looked at each other.
âHow close are you two?â
âOh! Well⊠I wouldnât say too close⊠but I hope weâre friends, I mean⊠it would be awkwardâŠâ
Yep⊠by how they reacted, that was definitely the person Lloyd liked.
âWeâve actually been looking for you.â
âHuhâŠ? What for? I didnât do anything bad did I?â
âNo, itâs just Lloyd-â
The buzz on the com interrupted Jay as Kai answered.
âGuys not right-âŠ. What?â
Jay tapped on his own com to listen in, his face going pale with fear. Turning back to you.
âYou need to come with us now!â
âWha- why?! Whatâs going on?!â
You didnât need to be told twice, you dropped everything and followed them to the hospital. You felt your heart sink⊠what happened? Why was Lloyd in the hospital? Did he get seriously hurt? What was going on???
âWe think we found them.â
âYou think or you know?â
âWe donât have time for this, Lloydâs life is on the line!â
Everyone turned towards you, making you step back a bit before you shook off the unease.
âWhat do you mean his life is on the line?â
ââŠ.He never told youâŠâ
Silence again, until Nya spoke up.
âHanahaki⊠Lloyd is suffering from Hanahaki⊠and⊠itâs due to unrequited love⊠we think⊠from youâŠâ
âWhat?⊠Lloyd⊠loves me? No.. that cant be right⊠Iâm just⊠a normal person⊠why would he-.â
âThat doesnât matter⊠what matters is heâs suffering, and refuses to get treatmentâŠâ
âW⊠what did you say?â
You couldnât believe what you were being told⊠Lloyd.. the green ninja⊠loved you⊠but refused to get rid of a disease that could kill him⊠just to protect his love for youâŠ
âDo you love him too?â
You looked at Pixal⊠you desperately searched for anything you thought could count as you loving him back⊠but⊠there was nothingâŠ
You only saw Lloyd as a friend⊠nothing moreâŠ
Kai said as everyone saw your expression⊠this meant their search was for nothing⊠they couldnât force someone to love Lloyd⊠and they couldnât convince him to get surgery⊠the feeling of dread was in the airâŠ
And the facts settle inâŠ
They were going to lose himâŠ
ââŠI know.. I probably shouldnât ask.. but⊠could I⊠see him..? PleaseâŠâ
âWhat? To reject him to his face-â
Despite Kaiâs anger you went into Lloydâs room. The smell of disinfectant and the sound of a heart monitor beeping as you saw him there. You couldnât help but put a hand to your mouth in shock at the state of your best friendâŠ
He looked so pale⊠and blood seemed to stain his lips and the clothes he was given by the hospital. He looked like he was sleeping, or perhaps not⊠he opened his opened his eyes when hearing your slow footsteps.
A small look of shock seeing you there, along with some disappointment⊠perhaps at the fact his friends found you even though he tried so hard to hide youâŠ
âLloydâŠâ you felt tears prick your eyes as you saw him.
âI⊠didnât want you to see me like thisâŠâ
âYou idiot⊠why didnât you tell me?â
âIf I did⊠I donât think youâd love me the same way I love youâŠâ
His voice sounded rough and weak⊠his breathing slowed⊠he let out another cough, you noticed how his hand was stained with his own bloodâŠ
âLloyd⊠why do you have to be so stubborn..? You donât have to suffer like thisâŠâ
âIf I forget⊠I think Iâd be losing somethingâŠâ
ââŠLosing all the things that make me love you..â
He looked at you, his eyes seeming to shine with the love heâs held back for who knows how longâŠ
âThe way you smile, the laugh you make, the way you always seemed to make me feel⊠normalâŠâ
â..I made you feel that way?â The tears were starting to fall.
Lloyd though weak got up and tried to wipe them away⊠his smile never leaving his face.
âEveryday I was with youâŠâ
He pulled you in, you could hear his heart beating slower⊠along with his lungs inside making his breathing slower due to the buildup of the flowers that refused to leave himâŠ.
âI donât regret loving you⊠not one bitâŠâ
All you did was cry into his shoulder, his friends overhearing the conversation, they couldnât help but grieve⊠grieve for how he was practically dying in the next room and couldnât help him in anyway without doing something he didnât want toâŠ.
The flowers dripped with water as you finished watering them. You sat down, across the stone⊠you were alone⊠and you tried to stay composed. Every time you were here, you broke down⊠the memories of it all⊠and then you started to think of what you couldâve done differently if you hadnât gone to that taxi⊠or waved it away and just⊠listenedâŠ.
Your voice was a bit shaken, as you tried to keep it together.
âWork was⊠tough today⊠I couldnât stop thinking about hanging out with youâŠ.â
The wind seemed to blow, causing the wet flowers to flick water onto the tombstone.
âEvery time I do⊠I have to remember youâre not exactly available anymoreâŠâ
You tried to wipe away some tears that were now threatening to fall.
The sun was setting right above the stone⊠a beautiful sightâŠ
âI know Iâm⊠too late now⊠butâŠâ
You leaned in and gave a small kiss. Hoping in some way, if there was still an afterlife, heâd receive it.
ââŠI love you tooâŠâ
This time you couldnât stop them⊠you let your tears fall freely⊠a love that was too late⊠and love you wished arrived in timeâŠ
He wouldnât have wanted you to join him early in deathâŠ
He wouldâve wanted you to smile.
He wanted you to be happy even if he wasnâtâŠ
Heâll always love youâŠ
He hopes you know thatâŠ
