Hi ! My boyfriend and I juste broke up and even if i'm doing my best to concentrate on what makes me happy and let go of the bad feelings that go along with the breakup, I often find myself thinking again and again about what we had together and the lack of it now. I really want him to come back and I don't know what to do in order to feel good and let go since I try so hard and it doesn't work. Can you guide me through this please ? Thank you so much for your blog.
I’m sorry you’re going through a difficult time, let me try to help you a little.
Emotions can serve a process :
The first thing you need to consider is not trying to feel better too fast, or to move away from the bad feelings. Our emotions are messenger, they’re trying to tell us something, and not taking the time to feel them is risking not getting the message.
So here you have your higher self, who looks at everything about you and your experience with unconditional love. When you look at things the same way it does, you feel really good, and it translates with pleasant emotions. When something bad happens and you look at the situation with a stand point that’s not unconditional love, it translate in bad emotions, the ones we call negative and that we don’t feel comfortable staying with for too long. But this emotion is only there because there is a difference between how you see it and how your higher self sees it. It always sees what’s beneficial for you, it always sees the positive things hidden in what you see as negative. It loves no matter what.
So take all the time you need to feel those emotions, don’t hesitate to write down what you’re feeling or to talk about it to a trusted friend who won’t judge you or tell you how you should feel. This way you make sure you can feel all the emotions attached to what happened. While doing that, you may have a lot of negative thoughts coming to you. In the case of a break up, there can be about guilt, blame, regret, worthlessness or many more. Don’t try to avoid the thoughts, but observe them neutrally. It’ll be hard at first, and it’s something you can practice in all areas of your life. The more you observe your thoughts, the more you can decide that they don’t have a built in meaning. A negative thought is just a temporary opinion, it’s never a fact. Because if you remember, your higher self knows everything that’s best for you and looks only with love.
Once you’ve identified those thoughts, you can now know that they’re not really true, and you can begin to turn them around and try to see positive aspects in what happened.
Before I go into this, I wanna say that you can apply the process I just described with any negative events or experience you may have. A big problem we have in our society is we don’t take time to own our emotions, and we carry them around buried with great effort only to find them coming back to bite us later. So better deal with them as soon as we can. We can even revisit previous past negative events where we didn’t take the time to do this process. Please not that in some cases, the emotions can be too strong and overwhelming, and that’s when it’s wise to engage with a therapist or a similar professional.
Now back to how we can find positive aspects to this event. The first question you want to ask yourself is :
Were you being your true self in the previous days or weeks before the breakup ?
By your true self, I mean the version of you that’s pursuing her dreams, acting on what excites her, moving through life with peace of mind, with love for herself and for her significant other. Take time to answer that honestly.
If the answer is yes, and if you have no doubt about that, then there’s little you could have done to prevent what happened. Being your true self is the best way to attract what’s always relevant and best for you, but sometimes that also means having to see what’s no longer relevant go away. It can feel really hard, but if you understand that your higher self always works with you to manifest what’s good for you, you’ll know that after the storms passes, the sun will shine even brighter.
If the answer is no, if you’ve not allowed yourself to be who you really are, to do what excites you, to be your happy and joyful selfs, you can ask yourself what prevented you to be this way. It’s not about finding any for or blame or guilt, it’s about discovering negative beliefs you may have had. Ultimately, there’s never anything preventing you from being yourself other than yourself, it’s never external, it’s all in what we believe to be true. Our negative beliefs will always try and scare us not to do what we want to do. They will try to convince you that your happiness also depends on other people happiness, or that they may judge you, or that your loved one(s) may not join you once you’ve allowed yourself to be truly yourself.
Often in relationships, we sacrifice being really ourselves to make sure the other is happy because we’re not sure they would follow us or still love us if we allow to be who we truly are. That’s even how most relationships begin, with all the flirting and the romantic gestures, until time passes and both parts begin being really themselves and find out they’re not entirely comfortable with what they find about one another. While there’s nothing wrong with dating and starting relationships this way, it’s better to always be your full true self from the start, because that way, the law of attraction will work with you and bring you someone that resonates with that. If the person walks away while you were being yourself, that could mean that there’s someone else who’s a true match for you on his way.
So try to think about the relationship and what your negative beliefs could have been. Identify those, don’t be afraid to dig, even if the answers seem stupid or silly. You will realize they were just there to scare you and there was nothing to fear into being more of yourself.
There is good in realizing this, it’s what we mean we find the positive hidden in the negative. Everything that happens to us is an opportunity to know more about ourselves.
Now, I know you may want to focus on wanting him back, but your real focus should be on being your true self again, and if there’s room for him then, the law of attraction will make sure you two are reunited, ready to discover who you both really are. But don’t insist that this is what should happen, your job is to find what’s preventing you from being truly joyful and excited about life and trust that the universe will support you all the way. You can use your good memories of the relationship to generate good feelings of love if you want, but don’t focus too much on what the future should hold. Be yourself and it will hold what’s best for you !