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Everything I do is wrong and it’s so tiring

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No one will ever hate me more than I hate myself

[loathe420]

After all this time I still miss it And I’ll never have it back

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I don’t deserve what others have because I am not human I am a fucking stupid fat pig

[loathe420]

I’m so tired of feeling this alone. I took a walk today and looked at all the people who live in my neighborhood... there’s so many people and yet i am so alone, and tiny, and unimportant, as I’ve always been, because I’m so weird and unnatural and I will never belong anywhere

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I want to drive a knife into my leg and watch the blood drain

[loathe420]

It doesn’t get better it gets worse and worse and then you kill yourself

[loathe420]

I would do anything for someone to care

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I’m so invisible

[loathe420]

I want to kill myself

[loathe420]

what about me

[loathe420]

everyone’s moved on and dont even think about me i wasn’t relevant to them i wasn’t important but they saved my life and they snatched it away and now i’m back and stuck here and they don’t even think about me and my every thought is them and i just want to die and nobody cares i don’t want anybody to care when i die because i know it’s a lie they never cared for me but why do i care so much still why does it hurt why is it my every thought why every time they speak it’s all i can think about what about me what about me what about me what about me

[loathe420]

and i want someone to talk to and to spend time with and to tell every thing but i can’t trust anyone everyone hates me i know it i know it i know it i deserve to die i deserve to die i just want to kill myself and die i want to kill myself i want to die i hate myself i hate myself so much i hate myself i deserve to die

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i can’t live i don’t belong i’m so weird and annoying and can’t talk right and everyone hates me i can never do the right thing i deserve to die i deserve to die

[loathe420]

i want to hide from everything

[loathe420]

i want to hide

[loathe420]

i hate myself more than anything in this entire world i hate myself so fucking much i just want to hurt myself until i die i just want to die i just want to die i just want to die i just want to die i’m so tired of this i hate myself i just want to die i ant to die i want to die i want to due i want to fie i want to die i want to die please i just want ro go home i dont want tl leave my room ever