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Fyolai raaaahhhh stomach book and will wood 💕💕💕💕

[lobotomyyahh]

My fanfiction, Lullaby of The Weeping Dove (still in progress):

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

And official playlist for said fanfiction:

[niccono]

It's really a shame to go on Pinterest and see stuff like this as a bsd fan and one who really likes the dub. I can understand that some dub voices may not be what you think it is and it's okay to dislike it, but it really gets to a point like this. There was a pin similar to this way back in 2023-24 but I'm unable to find it at the moment, but it was comparing voices to Jouno's voice and Nikolai's voice and how Jouno's is better than Nikolai's. It's just disgusting to even go as far as comparison voice actors like this. Voice acting is a broad term with a very wide range of levels of voice acting. Some voice actors have a different style of voice acting compared to another. And even considering comparing two voice actors is not just disheartening of the people who do voice acting, but genuinely disgusting.

Not to mention that, as I said, it is okay to dislike the voice. Criticism such as him not having a slavic accent (i.e a term that is around where Russia and Ukraine accent land in, it is also noted that Fyodor's dub va is doing a slavic accent) which is a valid criticism in my genuine opinion. This is a similar case to his Japanese voice, which I argue that both dub and sub have this issue when getting representation right in stuff like in the anime industry. It's very odd to see people complain how his dub doesn't have an accent, yet neither does his Japanese voice well. I have not seen anyone complain about this with the sub (which I hope this is not a double standard situation but it's likely to be the case).

In one of the screenshots, you see a commenter mention his voice sounds like a pedophile. Which I do not have to tell you why this is extremely unacceptable and inappropriate. As I mentioned (again), you can dislike his voice, but by no means is saying a person's voice is similar to a predator who harms real individuals in the real world and has a real effect on real people is acceptable. I can't even begin to comprehend why someone would think this is even okay to say, especially to a human being. I'm all for trying to be open minded for others opinions, but I am reminding that people have no genuine heart when it comes to other people.

In my personal opinion, I think his dub voice fits perfectly for his character. It's always odd for me to see people say Nikolai needs to be silly. Yes he is considered enthusiastic, but by no means is that his entire character. I honestly argue he's probably one of the serious characters that hides it through a positive attitude. Of course, I have my issue with his dub voice but it could be production issues back then with the rush of scheduling but who genuinely knows.

All I'll say is this: never blame the Voice actors. They are just doing their job. There is always a bigger picture that meets the eye. I may or may not potentially make a whole analysis on Nikolai's dub voice and all of the evidence I have for him but as of now, I'll continue to do take a break and work on my other analysis of nikolai for the time being.

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[nikolaieatchildrensin-1983]

LETS LISTEN WILL WOOD RAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

[alisterrm]

I got lowkey lazy with his outfit here

[nikolaieatchildrensin-1983]

reblog this and ill give you a random cartoon/child movie

[v1visection]

writing cryptic strange fyolai is a great activity in my opinion. distracts me from my exams. also yes i am still writing the fic but it's taking me a very very long time since i have a lot to do and i'm lacking inspiration in literally everything these days. sorry about that. maybe this can make up for it ?

INTESTINE ANGELS

"there is a ghost up in the sky, and he’s naked and his pale pale flesh is dancing up in the air, as an angel would. he’s an angel. maybe. his eyes are fathomless like the moon’s. he feels so fleshy and i wanna eat his stupid guts. push my face in his stomach’s cavity. drinking all the soul up in one go. my eyelids flutter- powder’s falling from his dusty hair. we’re beautifully failing each other, i think. now we’re apart, not for long, but still we’re apart and still i have thoughts about death and the moral code of starlight. there’s my fate in his irises, deep inside. i don’t like being dependent in such a way, he’s not painkillers or opioids or alcohol or anything of the sort really. no one’s addicted to angels of meat. well, maybe i am. his light’s out there butchering my brain. scratching an itch. it’s too late again, and once again i dream that i’m seeing you in technicolour. it’s raining (again) and you walk down the marble streets. they’re silent, the wind is warm. you carry an umbrella and we kiss right under it before going to the movies. your lips taste of lithium and cake pops and eyeballs. you roll under my tongue like you’re a wave and i’m the shore, and the shore is made of teeth and pinkish gums. you’re a waterfall and I’m a cutting edge. please don’t look at me- please don’t touch me- let me devour in peace. i caress your legs with a fingernail and you flutter like a flame, like a fly missing a wing. vibrate in my intestines and make me resonate until they can hear me up here in the clouds, like those prayer bowls, resting bells, whatever their name is, you know. i think maybe my atoms could make a similar sound, liquid glass swirling around, bedazzling your skin’s supernovas. maybe i’m once again being too ambitious. angels are electric machines, you are not. that’s the difference between you and them. their blood doesn’t pump in thin golden veins. yours does. i’m eating you- i love you. i. love. you. now please shut up."

SO !! this is only fyolai because i said so. who's talking to who? take your guess :)

[soukokuforthesoul]

nikolai thinks he's fyodor's jester, fyodor thinks nikolai is the most fascinating performer on the stage

[lobotomyyahh]

RIGHT RIGHT RIGHTTTT I LOVEEEE THE IDEA THAT FYODOR FIND NIKOLAI TO BE SOOOO INTERESTING like he’s never and will never meet another person like nikolai he finds his psychology to be so intriguing his philosophy his ideals its all so amazing and wonderful to him because he’s never met anyone like gogol before sighhhhs in a daydreamy way i love this perception of nikolai in fyodor’s eyes

[lobotomyyahh]

I hate the idea that nikolai would pull pranks and stuff and destroy the sly casino cos i’ve seen so many people add that as like a funny thing he would do when they’re writing but like. NOOOOOO i will die on this hill bro nikolai would CHERISH the sky casino because he would be able to be in the sky and look out the window and stuff and imagine himself as a bird and yeah no i dont think he would try and blow up the casino or whatever. pulling pranks on sigma? Hell yeah he would, but not the casino.

[lobotomyyahh]

more bullshitty art of my sona i never feel like coloring

[lobotomyyahh]

GUYSSSSS NEW STOMACH BOOK MUSIC VIDEO DROPPED‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[lobotomyyahh]

me when i draw a bunch of bullshit instead of locking in and finishing my chapter and animatic

[lobotomyyahh]

one thing my friend pointed out that i will never forget is that nikolai doesn’t have his cape on in the cake official art or bathtub official art and how it can symbolize how nikolai trusts fyodor enough to not feel the need to have his ability for protection. I also think theres symbolism with fyodor having his hat off because in many official arts he doesn't have his hat on and he is either holding it or its off to the side but im too stupid to figure out what that means sooo

[lobotomyyahh]

how i feel adding silly happy romantic songs to my fyolai playlist knowing full well they’re at least one of the top top ten angstiest bsd ships

[laced-up-in-black]

A finished Nikolai

Why's it kinda go hard tho

[akuruyjiro]

🐀🕊️🕊️🕊️

[lobotomyyahh]

one of my favorite stomach book covers

[coldsnapz]

i cant sleep because i keep being haunted by visions of evil birds so i drew that fuck ass crusty looking baby pukeko from memory with my mouse in an attempt to ward them off