Local Wizard

Changing this to an online journal of my expirences in the occult and magick. Instagram: @Local.Wizard

[local--wizard]

Today is December 24 of 2020. And I feel like I’m losing the battle. It’s getting harder and harder to pick myself up every morning and do what I have to do. I really don’t have the strength anymore to continue On But I have no other choice. If I didn’t wake up in the morning I would honestly be OK with that. I’m in a really dark place right now, and the loss that I feel and what I have lost is vast. I’m not sure how much more I want to continue on.

[local--wizard]

December 10th, 2020

While I was at work doing my job an unexpected spirit came by to chat with me. They spoke about the basics, as I hadn’t been active in my growth they continued to remind me of where I come from. We spoke of my growth, and lack there of, and the path I should be taking. We spoke for nearly two hours as I’d interject my own thoughts and get scolded for taking away agency for them, and to keep my mind in track. At first they wouldn’t reveal their name, but did so as they left. They advised me to keep it to myself or else it would come off as something other than I intended. Since they knew I was going to write about my expirence, and they didn’t care much for me doing that on a public platform. Too much ego within that.

[local--wizard]

September 18th, 2020

It started off as a normal day. Had a few friends over and played games. Typical Friday evening, nothing out of the ordinary. Yet towards the hours of early morning things started to change around the garage.

First came the loud slapping and banging from outside the garage. It was always random and loud as if to draw my attention to the triangle by the window.

After the loud banging came the noises. Subtle at first like the sound of whispers to almost audible words I just couldn’t quite make out.

Then there was the presence. It was intimidating and bold, felt like it was trying to provoke a response. I sat by and ignored it all, and commanding anything that was in the garage to silently leave.

Then the box was moved and pushed to the floor. I though it was the dog when I realized, he was already outside.

[local--wizard]

June 30th, 2020

As I sat here meditating I felt the pull Within my mind nudging me towards a thought. And there I sat witness to the beginning and end of creation at the same time. As I had asked many times before to view creation finally it was given to me, and it was terrifying to behold.

It was made abundantly clear to me than I am myself, but I was not is. Everything was shown before me on what it was that I do, and how I used my free will and still can, but it’s not me but a shadow. The entirety of my life is but a memory And that I am only perceiving it as the now while everything else sees it as it is.

The illusion of time was manifest before me, and my eyes beheld all the sights Of it to be seen.

I understand now why they say speaking with Demons will drive you mad. When you can have all of the answers there is nothing left but madness.

And as I sit here writing this down in my notebook I feel a sense of nihilism. That nothing matters at all, and that whatever choice I want to make was already made so it’s not even mine to be had. I am the observer to the past that is happening right now. And it all seems so pointless.

I have seen the face of God, and it is horrifying. I wish I never asked those questions.

[local--wizard]

June 27th, 2020

First time in a bit I’ve taken the time to speak to the universe. While we have been at odds in our communication we joined up like old friends. Through the triangle around the eye it was all explained in a way I could understand.

I’ve been scared of being something other than my self. The ego holds on tight to its domain; and because of that grasping how I’m apart of everything has been difficult. Sure I grasp the concept, but understanding how it’s true has been a different story. I’ve had the clarity to know that this form I take isn’t me, but a part of me; Yet the whole time I’ve worried about nothing more than trying to maintain this identity (ego) instead of who I truly am.

I was shown the model in which we exist, and the method of our individuality as well as the means in which the divine is omnipresent within our day to day lives.

Because of this all the pieces finally fell into place and I could grasp and understand the information I’ve previously been given, as well as the new facts.

The God, The false god that we worship, and our own divinity has been laid out. And for the first time I accessed the tools in which to Sieze an appropriate reality.

Here’s to the unification of understandin.

[local--wizard]

April 10th, 2020

Worked through some basic meditation preemptively before doing ritual. Cross/lbrp using new formatting.

Called upon RAUM today for the first time in years, seeing as I needed some work to be done. No visible presence in the mirror outside of distorted moving shapes going around the outer edge of a mirror.

Worked out an agreement for two months after a bit of communication. Though we're not super friendly towards one another it didn't feel threatening, or anything heavy. After the works were done I burnt some incense in Raum's name.

[local--wizard]

April 2nd, 2020

Started off with my main proscess. Work better on the cross visualization wise, as well as a new method on the lbrp.

Spent some time gazing upon Alloces' sigil and faced East. Was a calm night.

After a while of calling he came almost begrudgingly, and I asked for some assistance with Planetary Magic since he teaches that, but he knew I wanted something else so he pried untill I told him. That stupid bitch caused me some grief and he asked if I'd like the situation handled, since he was so eager to do that I gave in to that over the magic request. He seemed more interested in causing her some problems over teaching anyways.

Gave the request to cause her as much grief as she caused me and he wasn't satisfied with that response and asked to do a lot more instead. After some discussion I agreed that he could do all but directly kill her. I could feel the smile he made like a shiver down my back. He didn't ask for much in return, we settled for 2 incense cones to be burnt immediately, and two more each day for a week. As well as public thanks when the work was completed.

I gave him lisence to depart and he left promptly. I don't think he apperciated the triangle, though he made no mention of it.

[local--wizard]

February 18, 2020

Haven't progressed much as the concious mind has been demanding much of my attention away. I have been gifted a new set of cards, the mystic Monday tarot. Love the cards and artwork and they feel Fab in my hands.

Haven't had time to just sit down at peace and meditate. I lack so hard at that. I should make the time but I'm constantly letting myself be distracted by things I'm using to fill the void. I should focus on me during that time but I've instead went with the physical realm.

Clarity comes through effort and a willingness to view both the present and the past as a means to perceive the desired future. What goals am I making towards those ends?

[local--wizard]

January 28th, 2020

Decided to get to the bottom of what it was that decided it didn't appreciate my visit at the barn. Basic circle, cross, and banishings. Scryed the area asking for said Spirit to appear and converse with me. A raw almost primal feeling came upon me immediately and I spoke to it through the mirror.

Asked what the problem was and was informed it didn't appreciate the smoke I gave off in the tac room. It said it was given the barn. I told it that nothing belongs to it, that it stays by my good graces alone, and that if there was a problem I should have been spoken to before any action occured. I did state I'd no longer smoke in the tac room, but at the wash stall, to be considerate. It was appreciative of that. I told it that any further hostile action would result in imprisonment inside an object, and I'd drop said object in the lake so no one would ever lay hands again on it. It complied.

Almost immediately after speaking to it Valac made an appearance and said I should just call upon him should it go wild, that since it was a spirit of Earth he could easily handle the problem. I told him should it do so again he has free reign to destroy said Spirit. He laughed and said his goodbyes.

[local--wizard]

January 25th, 2020

It came on suddenly I noticed it as I stood there in the doorway. I was box breathing, and just starting to let everything come in when I noticed it there behind me. I could feel the overwhelming emotion coming from it that was directing me to leave. As if it didn't want me there anymore.

So I left the barn and headed up towards the house. I felt like I had to pay attention to the barn and I couldn't take my eyes off of it, but I elected to do so anyways because nothing is going to try and intimidate me. So I turned my back on the barn and walked up towards the house. About the time I got up to the garage I felt like I was struck 3-5 different times in my back.

It was at that point in time I turned around and directed a ton of energy at the barn and visualized it being literally nuked. I erased it from existence with sheer power and envisioned it being blown up in a mighty blast.

As I settled into the garage my eyes were drawn towards the Black mirror, and various sights were there to behold. Within the mirror there was a presence that had three faces. A frog, a cat, and some old man with a white beard that was closely shaven to his face. He spoke but I heard no words in his mouth moved and contorted into shapes of displeasure. Because he was unwilling to communicate I dismissed him immediately. About that time my phone fell off of the table, and the idea to use it to ghostwrite came to me.

In my usual fashion of ghostwriting I just let it go and was greeted by many spirits, which gave off a feminine energy. They called me UuuJuu, and identified themselves by a different name. They seem to be very displeased with the certain situation involving women. They also seemed like they did not want me to give any attention to any female, and seemed rather possessive of me. I asked them if they were a specific individual, and I asked them what their name was specifically, and I asked what type of spirit they were and all answers were ignored. So I directed them to the door and firmly demanded they leave.

I was not impressed by this experience, and the following day I was texted by my mother the following image.

*As a note on the picture, we don't have any pine trees within 1500~ feet of my place*

[local--wizard]

January 15th, 2020

And so the news came.

As I worked at my job, doing the mindless work that is being a General Manager entails I seen my boss doing some paperwork and making phone calls. This in of itself is nothing new to me but the forms I seen her fill out she printed off at my desk. Usually any paperwork she had ready for me or the store, but this time she was contacting someone for them and printing them off as they came.

After she finished, she pulled me aside. She wanted to talk my Salary. I figured, oh great she intends to lower it seeing as it started yesterday and I'm fairly new to being a General Manager, but I was in for a shock. She gave me a raise.

Mind you, I've never been a GM, let alone one in the food service industry, and because of that I had to negotiate a good salary. King Paimon gave me the gift of rhetoric and so I was able to negotiate a high salary even though I had no expirence in the position. So when she told me that she gave me a $4000 raise on it (Putting me as the second highest paid GM in the company, only being paid $1000 less than the top paid who's been with them six years, I was rather shocked.

I did ask for the continued flow of wealth to be given to me. Again it persists.

[local--wizard]

January 12th, 2020

Woke from the dream with full recollection of it. Took the bitter grass before sleep.

The dream started off outside and then sestrel home that felt like home to me yet I don't remember this place at all. There is a male and female figure there with me but I couldn't see them. This home looks like it had been burnt down or damaged in some sort of accident or catastrophe but was still accessible. Caution or warning tape was across the doorway blocking me from entering and I was scared to enter because it looked and felt unsafe to do so until the two people that were with me walked in and shown me it was safe to go. I walked around the home checking everything out until I found chest full of baubles and gold coins, but they immediately felt fake to me. They didn't seem like they were worth anyting until I got to the last item I found was like a register drawer full of money $20 bills $100 bills it was thousands and thousands of dollars which I took everything of. I searched around the place some more and found a stairway I could use to go to an upper floor but I had to climb up a ledge since the stairs were destroyed. I remember making a conscious decision and thinking about if it was really worth making the effort to climb up that and if it was safe enough to do so and come down when I was done. Ultimately I decided it wasn't safe so I didn't go to the next floor.

My friend explained my dream to me through his view points I'm going to copy here for reference.

"Well, the levels is a big key, you had male and female guides (mother and father archetypes, trustworthy yet hidden) an old familiar house where you dug and found baubles, but the gold and treasure seemed worthless (meaning you were looking for something deeper, something further down the hierarchy of needs)

You also saw danger and destruction in it, like it had been destroy, a subtle hint and head nod to the stroke.

And possibly the damage with family"

I feel like that was way better than the interpretation I had. How I perceived it was that there was something dangerous up ahead. that I would gain wealth or my wealth would be gained through personal loss, something that would be hit close to home and be devastating. wouldn't be complete loss as it was still some ruins and treasures there to be found but the real treasure was hidden beneath all of the fake. And that all of it would come from ruin.

[local--wizard]

December 14th, 2019

I seen it again in my dreams. The green cobra returns. It dove in and out of the water and struk at me but never found purchase. Researched my dreams as they are becoming a frequent part of my life again. It's been ages since I've had many, now they are frequent. I believe the ward against negativity is holding solid.

Meditation hasn't been a solid practice in my works. The conscious mind has been doing all it could to distract me and take me away from my walk. It's as if it's against me and against me progressing.

Learning the hard way though that the continuous flow of wealth and prosperity may include working 50 to 60 hours a week. I should be more specific in my works from now on.

Worked the candle meditation to speak with my subconscious mind as well today. I put my thoughts in my voice out there so it can interpret my intended will.

The lectures number 93 and I'm barely 28 deep. I find myself wanting to start the series over again to listen to them after I've gained new perspective so I may see what I may have missed previously.

The background loop track within my mind plays new words as I progress. I've come to feel confident that it's the ambient thought now. I control my thoughts, I control my mind, I am free, I am happy, my magic is strong, my magic is true.

My coworkers notice the energy I bring into the store. I'm constantly told it's a good vibe, or it's a real positive feel. All I can do is smile as they don't have a clue that it is the exact intention I had. If thoughts manifest reality then I want my reality to be good. If something displeases me I have to evaluate it and understand why I'm letting something inflict this emotional damage to me. Because ultimately all roads point back to me. So if I want to say that I'm Divine the change that I want has to start within myself. It's nice to have other see what I'm trying to do.

[local--wizard]

November 20th, 2019

These past few days have been difficult on keeping up the work. Haven't meditated much (5 min?)

(Nothing is true, everything is permitted)

Remember this ^

I've done some reading and listened to some lectures on topic. I believe the BG loop track for me is at least solid.

Seen 4 unicorn references

11:11 noted

Caught myself making multiple thought judgements, working on my thoughts and stopping myself from judging. Something to think on is my craving and aversions, and why I react?

(Know thyself. He who knows himself knows the universe.)

Anything dealing with reacting isn't me it's my emotions. Need to observe myself to understand myself. Every emotion stimulated is a reaction to associations made.

[local--wizard]

November 16th, 2019

Ask and you shall receive. Through the whole proscess of finding a new job I have asked King Paimon to assist with this matter. Seeing as I've been blessed with the gift of rhetoric by him I figured it wouldn't hurt to see if he could assist me in this matter. I was not expecting the results to be so rapid.

I had applied for a position at Little Ceasers as an assistant manager. Spoke to the RGM during the interview proscess and nailed the job. Just had to wait for the call back for my start date. All was good I thought, he helped me land this job and get this management position easily. I got a call today saying something different than I had hoped for. The RGM of Little Ceasers out here asked me if I'd be interested in a different position. At first I was like "oh great here's the bad news train coming to town" but then she spoke the position and it all stopped. She offered me my own store, as a general manager. 401k, insurance, stock options, bonuses, and a pretty decent salary to boot. Thing is, I'm no where near qualified for it but she told me she felt like she had to offer this job to me.

"Let the flow of wealth and prosperity be continuous" and "Open up the door for great opportunity and success" were what I asked King Paimon for and again he delivered it.

How much more can be done if this was so easy?

[local--wizard]

November 15th, 2019

Know thyself was the message given today. Understand that if I want to be a god in all aspects of my life it has to start from within. That the shadow work is the important part of the journey. So much information was given it was overwhelming. So many things to take in, but to start the proscess I was given two tasks. Control my thoughts, and meditate daily. That it was the key to success. Willpower manifests, I'm well aware that it does, but I've never tried harder than needed for spell work. It's a simple task anyone can do, and I really feel this is the path. I don't want to be a background character, I'm not going to be driven by the thoughts I didn't think. For if it's not my thoughts manifesting my reality can it ever be the reality I want?

So before bed I started the practice of repeating specific thoughts in my head in a loop. If I'm to break the cycle and start a new path it begins with me.

I Controll my mind, I Controll my thoughts, I am happy.

I meditated for the first time in ages, truly meditated. I felt the energy Pierce me, I felt the connection, I felt it all wake up like an old slumbering machine waiting to be used again.

[local--wizard]

October 24th, 2019

I don't even know where to begin. So this guy reached out to me on Discord about this website. It was in Polish I think but it was like a Polish version of the spirit I work with name. my Discord name happens to be the same name and this person just messaged me asking for some help. Well first they messaged me about that website, and I didn't know where to begin with it because when they messaged me it showed up on the top of my phone but when I click the button up there the chat was empty.

So we got to talkin about that for a little bit and they straight up asked me if I worked with the Goetia, to which I responded Yes. So we exchanged some information on that as they had some words they can't understand the definition or meaning in since their version was just the one book out of the three book set and it was in Polish so the translations were a little off. So I look through my references in my resources and I found the answers they were seeking so I went ahead and gave it to them.

Then they went ahead and talk to me about magic, and how they're not having any good success anymore and they feel like they're on a downward spiral. So I walked in through to a few spirits they can contact to deal with the situation they have at hand and then of course recommended my favorite Spirit of all to assist another matters because as per our agreement I must keep his name upon my lips. so they spoke about having this blockage above them in their crown chakra and they asked me if I could scry over and look at them and see what I could see.

I explained to them that I have absolutely terrible success with scrying. The only time I've ever seen another human being when scrying was when I accidentally witnessed my attorney fucking some dude. she was on my mind at the time and I shouldn't have looked in the mirror. So I explained to him how unfortunate is when I scry but he convinced me to go ahead and give it a try.

Meditated staring at a flame and cleared my mind. I then proceeded to spend the next half an hour giving it my all trying to scry him. I witnessed many different things flash before my eyes as they usually do since I don't ever get stable images. after I was done I sat down and spoke to him about what I seen his blockage and how I thought it was. After that we said our goodbyes because it was getting kind of late and he informed me that I was very beneficial in helping him. He explained that what I seen was correct, and validated every one of my images.

I have never felt so validated in my life. I have never had this kind of success when it comes to this ability, and so this needed to be taken into account.