āSimon āGhostā Riley Headcannons: Part 19ā
Boyfriend (After Toxic Ex) Edition:
Letās say you and Ghost were friends while you had a toxic boyfriend. Obviously he wouldnāt know the details because youād be smarter than telling him. The dudes a war criminal and doesnāt take abuse to his loved ones too lightly. If you had any bruises, youād hide them from him. It wouldnāt be until you finally had enough that youād confide in Ghost and ask for advice, which would be when heād tell you pretty simply that you need to leave the relationship or heāll end it for you. If he knew the physical abuse was there then heād take a joy ride to have a ātalkā with him after you ranted about everything you canāt take anymore.
After thatās said and done, a little while down the road after your vulnerability is gone then youād get a bit wiser and realize how Ghost is pretty much the perfect guy, even with his flaws. How he always protects you, is always there for you, understands you, doesnāt judge you or make you self conscious like your ex would. Youād realize you feel safest when youāre with Ghost and you know without a doubt that heād have your back to whatever end.
When it got to the point where you and Ghost end up together, heād be taking it very slow. He wouldnāt rush into anything intimate, he wouldnāt even hint that he wanted it even if he was incredibly horny one night. Heād practically worship you to show you what itās like to be treated right. He would be terrified of messing up and wouldnāt want to hurt you by any means.
He would take you out, cook for you, cuddle with you, hold you on his lap while he did paperwork and dote on you hand and foot. Heād be the complete opposite of what most people see him to be. The best part would be you know heās only that way with you. It would give you butterflies every time you notice his cold attitude with everyone else, which is normal, but five seconds later heād pick you up and kiss you through his mask while whispering āthatās my girlā in your ear.
He would allow you to talk about your ex as well. He wouldnāt be the type to get annoyed because chances are theyād be more like rants anyway. If you talked about missing him or something that would be different of course but talking about how bad about yourself he made you feel, how much different Ghost is than him, those sorts of things he would have no issue with. If you needed reassurance, heād give it to you. Any insecurity your ex left you with, Ghost would actually want you to tell him so heād know exactly what to spend a little more time on telling you everything he loved about it.
The communication, on your side at least would be amazing. He wouldnāt talk too much about himself, little things here and there would be a rarity but he wouldnāt be overly closed off either. Certain things heād talk about, other things would take more time or he just wouldnāt mention it. With you, though, you would feel comfortable enough to be an open book with him. Heād never make you feel judged by any means.
When it came time for you being ready to be intimate with him, the first time would be slow, passionate, and make you feel like you were a virgin again if you werenāt before. If you were, then youād be instantly addicted and wouldnāt want it to end. Heād compliment every inch of you, kiss you all over, not leave one part of you untouched or unloved. Anything you were insecure about, heād praise and spend a little more time on. His pants wouldnāt come off until you already came twice and he made sure you were in fact ready. Chances are heād make you beg a bit before finally taking them off.
Heād do consent checks, especially your first time with him. Heād maybe degrade you a little bit your first few times but not much and the praise would definitely overrule it. It wouldnāt be till later on when you were much more comfortable that heād pull out the heavier degrading and getting rougher and things like that.
He would be well aware that he could crush your skull with his bare hands. He knows his size and strength so he wouldnāt accidentally scare or hurt you. He has immense self control as well. Heād remind you constantly that if you want him to stop for any reason, even itās just so you can get a drink of water, you can tell him and he wonāt get upset. Heād even tell you heād only get upset if you didnāt ask him to stop when you wanted him to.
He would also be the type to make little jokes here and there which would make you more comfortable and it would be more enjoyable. It wouldnāt be all that serious. Just pure love and intimacy with each other. Of course you two wouldnāt just be dating, youād also have a deep friendship which wouldnāt be overlooked or forgotten.
Aftercare would be like nothing you experienced before. Heād have no problem carrying you to the shower to wash you up, then heād change the sheets and youād end up in one of his shirts to sleep in. Heād get you some water, make you any food you felt like eating, then end up holding you in his arms all night. Heād praise you even more, tell you how perfect you did, and how much he cares about you. The L word wouldnāt be said for a long time but heād hint at it. Saying things like āyou mean the world to meā, āI trust youā, āyou fit so perfect in my lapā or āyouāre the biggest annoyance in my lifeā. Chances are the last one would be said the most but you know damn well he wouldnāt keep you around unless he absolutely adored you.
The morning after, heād check in again. Ask you if you were sore, remind you how good you did, ask if there was any regrets. Heād hold you a bit longer in the morning before getting up so you guys could eat breakfast. Heād definitely give you back hugs and neck kisses throughout the day after, ensuring you werenāt at all self conscious after the previous night. Heād call you beautiful or darling more than you could count. Honestly you probably wouldnāt have even known he was capable of being such a sweetheart but heād go out of his way to make you feel like youāre the only woman on earth.
