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Sometimes I dream of finding an older man who will be a father figure to me.

#older men #daddy issues #father figure #dream

The state is so bad that I'd rather be fucked unconscious. It’s a kind of masochism, ig

Memory loss doesn't look like what I thought it would. I spent several years convinced I could have a dissociative disorder primarily because I "didn't experience memory loss". I wasn't waking up in a strange place unaware of how I got there. I wasn't having people I'd never met come up to me and call me by a different name. I wasn't finding things I'd bought unintentionally or projects I'd done with no recollection of doing them. But I was, not remembering why I was upset in the middle of crying. Finding journal entries I didn't write. Suddenly not liking music I saved on a playlist named 'my favorite songs ever'. Randomly wanting to make drastic changes to my appearance and then forgetting why I wanted to look like that. Not knowing what day of the week it was, or how many days it had been since I did something (was that this morning or 3 days ago). Having friends tell me I was acting differently when I thought that was how I always acted.

The worst feeling is when you hate and love someone at the same time

#hatred #love

Why do I make an appointment with a psychiatrist, only to have to fill out four pages about physical health issues💔

#psychiatry #psychology #mental health

marriso11

i fucking LOVE jealous severitus pls give me more of it

like give me Snape shooting daggers at sirius not (only) because of their past but because he thinks harry trusts him more than himself…starting more arguments with snippy comments….and of course the

*harry struggling with something idfk*

“Oh, let me help you with that for you harry!!”

*SHOVE* ”No need Black, let the more competent rise to matters they can easily consume themselves with.”

lolitqdr

I freaking ADORE jealous severitus

Didn’t sleep the whole night. Now I gotta survive the whole day…

#i need sleep

lolitqdr

Nothing can make me hate you, Severus Snape

lolitqdr

Btw as 5teen y.o. Severus Snape IS and older man for me even though he died at 38 and I always wanted him as my father figure(my father is 33 y.o. himself)