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My anxiety has been soo bad this past week and I had a bad anxiety attack the other day

Idk what’s wrong but my head is all over the place

Feeling like I’m not good enough for anyone and having existential crisis

I also miss you and us and our family but I have to put myself first

I’m tired of life

I miss you and us so much, but it’s for the best

I hope you’re healing and bettering yourself

I feel like you were the one, but you couldn’t treat me the way I want to be treated and not the person I wanted you to be

Maybe we’ll find each other again in another lifetime and that we’ll both be right for each other

aidashakur

Forgive yourself for staying in places & situations longer than you should have.

One of the hardest things was losing you as my best friend. But I’m learning to put myself and my happiness first. I will always have so much love and care for you despite everything. I wish things didn’t turn out the way they did and I wish that everything would have worked out. I hope you’re taking care of yourself and find your inner peace. Pls don’t hate me for everything, I only wish the best for you

don’t you just love when you randomly feel sad and lonely and just cry out of no where hahahahaha

brandoblack

i overthink, overlove, overfeel and overstress

looking back at my old simp posts on my old twitter account and tumblr and god i was so in love with him. i completely forgot that’s how he was and how we used to be, it’s not the same and i wish it stayed the same. i forgot what the old him used to be like that i didn’t recognize him. rereading them gave me a small glimpse of joy but i know it won’t be like that anymore and i gotta move on. I miss how in love we used to be with each other

id never imagine that I would cry to mom at 24 years old over a damn boy questioning my self-worth and what I did wrong. I’m heartbroken af

I don’t even fkin use this app anymore.... It’s 4:30am and I have nobody to talk to... even then everybody will just tell me what I already know and it’s to leave him??!!!! Idfkkkkk I worked a graveyard last night and I haven’t slept since then/ I hate myself and him so much

Why did I fucking put up with this shit for so many years. I swear I have a big heart and I’m so forgiving.... to be giving him so many chances after for him to just to constantly make the same mistakes and cheat on me all over again. I do so much shit fir him just to be treated like this. 6 years means fkin nothing I guess. I feel like a fucking piece of shit and this is why I’m so insecure bc of him. Am I not pretty enough??? Am I not funny enough?? I take care of this mf just for him to not appreciate anything and take advantage of me and talk to another girl behind my back. I hate myself so fucking much I wish I killed myself back then. And it just sucks that I don’t have friends and I literally just vent to whoever will listen to me. I just wanna drive my car off a cliff or somethinG.... I fkin swear that November is always my shittiest month for it being my bday month. I always tell myself that I was probably a bad person in my last life to be living this life like it’s karma.