@lonelyxgamer - Tumblr Blog

I'm sooo in love with this angelfaced bitch🥰

Its been so long

Its been 4 years since i met her.

4 years since we said we were friends

4 years since i tried to distance myself

4 years of parties, face timing each other coming over to smoke with each other taking silly pics and netflix

4 years and i can't take my mind off her

4 years of friends...

Friends grow

Friends change

Friends drift apart... i don't wan't us to drift apart

Is it bad that i want more than just friends ? Is it worth the risk ?

I'm starting to think it is...

I'm starting to think if i don't try ill never achieve

I'm starting to realize friendships are worth more than gold

I'm starting to question who i'm friends with and why.

I know why I'm friends with her

I know want to be with her

I know she makes me feel like I've never felt before

I know If i fuck it up i can never go back ❤

Is it weird that i have a platonic relationship with this girl who ive be crushing on for years but shes an amazing friend. I have a strong feeling she might be crushing on me back. Idk im just a piece of shit i dont wanna share my shitty life with someone because i need to work on myself ? Or because i know that she can do better and i might hurt her in the end ? I really dont know...

And people have asked me if she's my girlfriend or if im her boyfriend 😢 it hurts to say no. What am i suppose to do ? I know I'm a piece of shit that will never change...

Fuck this hurts

I really don't know what to do anymore

I'm So lost

Where ?

How?

When?