Transman Badass

My goals are to be happy and get shit done. Writer, reader.

[transman-badass]

Hey y’all! I’m Coffee, and I’m a badass. You may, theoretically, know me under my pen name, Vincent Lore. I am an indie, self-published author who writes fiction, mostly starring trans man MCs. From romances to gothic horror to the Cthulhu Mythos, and more, I'll try writing it all. [And yes, I’m trans too, if the url didn’t give that away.]

About me: I’m 34 years old and live in the USA. EST timezone. I love music of many different genres, cats, nostalgia/kitsch, roleplaying, and food. I am often inspired by horror video games, which I’ve enjoyed since I discovered Fatal Frame in my early teens. My current obsession is Bloodborne. I’m physically disabled and have audhd. Despite this and my depression, I’m gonna keep going for as long as I can, and I hope I can help you keep going too somehow.

On this blog, you can find a bit of everything: writing advice and inspiration and memes, a little bit of current events, mutual aid [both tagged when I remember to, please feel free to remind me] and of course, cats. You obviously can find information on my own fiction here as well. I can try to help with writing problems, just send an ask! If I can’t help, I’ll direct you to someone who can.

My current big fiction projects:

Runner Owen: A queer gothic fantasy series with detectives, thralls, princes and vampires in a Victorian London inspired setting. You can find more of it on my sideblog @runner-owen

Pharaoh Syndicate Investigations: A hardboiled take on the Cthulhu Mythos, set in 1930s Arkham. Fans of Malevolent might like this.

And a lot more that are on the smaller side! You can find them under [insert tag here]

PUBLISHED WORK:

Friend of the Damned (Runner Owen 0.1) a short story on D2D and Itchio.

Lock the Last Door (PSI 0.1) a short story on D2D and Itchio

Honoria: A Runner Owen Short Story (Runner Owen 1) on Itchio and Kobo

Both stories, and future stories most likely, are available PWYW/free on Payhip and my Kofi. You can review my stories on Storygraph. (I can't figure out how to get them on Goodreads yet... 😓)

You can find me on Bluesky too!

Here is my Ko-fi if you’d like to support me.

Here's my Buttondown newsletter [inactive as of 7/26]

Good luck out there!

Dividers made by @dividers-are-us and @bunnytoppop

[lizardsfromspace]

[bluerose5]

Thank you, Black people in fandom spaces. Thank you, Black creators and Black lurkers. Thank you Black artists, Black writers. Thank you, Black bloggers, Black influencers. Shoutout to those Black characters, both canon and original. Thank you, Black people, both queer and cishet.

Your perspectives matter. Your representation matters. You are not bothersome for demanding equal treatment in fandom. It is not your responsibility to make fandom more welcoming and inclusive to you. It is not your sole responsibility to create all of the Black-centered content. You are not "ruining" anyone's fun for demanding better for yourself, and anyone who says otherwise can go fuck themselves. Any fandom worth being a part of should have no room for racism in it.

Black people in fandom, you are wanted. You are needed. You are loved and appreciated. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

And since they don't get told it near enough, thank you, Black women especially!!!

[murfpersonalblog]

You are not "ruining" anyone's fun for demanding better for yourself, and anyone who says otherwise can go fuck themselves. Any fandom worth being a part of should have no room for racism in it.

[lastoneout]

I know it's more nuanced than this but I think having a hard policy of thinking anyone who genuinely hates one group of queer people for their identity might as well hate all of us and thus I should block any queerphobic queer person I see can do a lot to save you from believing anything exclusionists say.

"bomb that kills all-" "I just don't get bi women bringing their-" "pansexuality isn't a real thing-" "all lesbians-" "trans men really are the men of the-" "theyfabs-" "pfft aroace people are cringe-" "nonbinary people are actually all-" Instant block. Goodbye. Not listening. It's for both solidarity with your fellow queers AND to protect yourself, because once a person is convinced to hate one group for their immutable traits they can be convinced fairly easily to hate another too, and thus I do not trust them.

Just block these people the second they pop up, they aren't your allies and nothing they have to say is worth listening to.

[lastoneout]

These types will often try to guilt you into defaulting to their judgement by citing their own identities but that's bullshit. You can, should, and must completely ignore them. A bigot is a bigot, and if you wouldn't listen to a cishetperisex one then you shouldn't listen to a queer one either.

[lastoneout]

There is no queer identity that gives you the right to blanket hate another queer identity, it's just bigotry, and there'a also no amount of suffering or injustice you can go through that makes it okay for you to be a bigot.

I expect my non-queer allies to have enough of an understanding of queer theory and politics to know a queer person saying "you have to listen to me because I'm x identity, and I say it's perfectly fine for me to hate everyone who is y and use slurs against them, and if you disagree you're the bigot, actually bcs the suffering I've dealt with means it's wrong to hold me responsible for any harm I might do to other queer people" is someone who should be ignored.

Identity means nothing when what they're saying is indistinguishable from the garbage that comes out of the mouths of republicans.

[lastoneout]

I think if you wanna be a good ally you have to actually independently study queer theory from multiple sources and develop a personal political framework to draw on when you're confused or someone's being hateful. But y'all don't, you just repeat what the last queer person you spoke to said and pretend it's the same thing or giddily start being bigoted yourself and pretending it's okay because you're defending trans women or lesbians or whatever but idk as a trans person if someone was defending me by being bigoted, I'd hate them.

Listening to any queer person who's being bigoted and pretending it's praxis is like listening to a female republican politician about women's rights because you believe in "listening to women" and then started kicking the shit out of black and trans women. Would you listen to a physically disabled person who thinks everyone with mental illness should be put in a work camp? No? Then queer bigots should be treated the same. And I cannot stress enough the kind of rhetoric I'm referencing is quite literally that nakedly hateful and they STILL refuse to see it bcs they're too scared to be bigoted to see that they're already being bigoted.

Sorry , been ranting for a while now, I've just been mulling this over and finally figured out the core of the issue, I do not trust anyone who hears a bigot speak hate and decides it's okay and they're right and it has made me so incredibly angry I can barely contain it because it REALLY is that simple. I really have to live my life constantly confronting the reality that so fucking many queer "allies" are too fucking lazy?? I guess?? to think for themselves and recognize bigotry when it's in front of them, and they will gleefully enact violence against aro ace people or trans men or enbies or intersex people bcs a trans person who writes well convinced them it's how to be a good person. And there's basically nothing I can do about this shit happening every two years with a new group of marginalized people.

This really does prove that a concerning amount of progressives don't think bigotry is wrong, just impolite, and they have no qualms about being a horrible evil shithead if some asshole told them it was okay and they don't feel the need to learn enough theory and history to be able to tell the asshole is lying and bigotry is wrong even when directed at someone shitty because they, as much as the right, confuse their feelings for facts and prefer when things are black and white and give them an innocent person to harass.

They think "I'm a good person and I always have been, so I just innately know what's right and wrong and don't need to actually have a real political framwork bcs that's boring and I'd rather just go beat the shit out of a marginalized person like I've always wanted to" and it's disgusting. And why I hate when people respond to "what radicalized you" with "um...I just knew what was right bcs it's obvious" like okay well! That's not true!! Your ignorance of any real theory or education in favor of just knowing is immature and why SO FUCKING MANY of you fall for hate movements pretending to be progressive.

With allies like these...

[treasuredplanet]

in hindsight sending the number one digit at a time created the funniest half second of either of our lives

[transman-badass]

*kicks open the door*

HEY I JUST RELEASED A NEW BOOK

SWORD AND SORCERY NOVELLA WITH AN OLD MAN MC

THERE'S VIOLENCE! AND RUINS! AND VIOLENCE! AND EVIL MAGIC! AND VIOLENCE! AND A GOD-TWINK! I'm not kidding about the violence. I write horror primarily and you can tell.

You can get Island of the Baboon God on Itchio! And a few other places but it's on Itch first. I'll put it on Kofi and Payhip later. Just let me yell first, okay?

It's $4.50 USD but if you send me an ask off anon, I'll send you a copy in exchange for an honest review anywhere you want.

Island of the Baboon God by Vincent Lore

A sword and sorcery adventure

COME SEE!

[transman-badass]

It's the big day. Release day. Still got a lot to do but the new story will be out by afternoon.

And then, I hope, I can rest.

[everaftyr]

Self-Care Checkpoint Task Paralysis? What is ONE small thing that you can do to begin that task you are stuck on?

[apoemaday]

Ars Poetica II

by Charles Wright

I find, after all these years, I am a believer — I believe what the thunder and lightning have to say; I believe that dreams are real,                                                       and that death has two reprisals; I believe that dead leaves and black water fill my heart.

I shall die like a cloud, beautiful, white, full of nothingness.

The night sky is an ideogram,                                                       a code card punched with holes. It thinks it’s the word of what’s-to-come. It thinks this, but it’s only The Library of Last Resort, The reflected light of The Great Misunderstanding.

God is the fire my feet are held to.

[prophetic-writer]

Having confidence in your writing abilities is just as much a skill you need to cultivate as actually writing is.

It's normal to doubt yourself, it's just important to learn how to look past your doubts and recognize that letting yourself worry about the possibility that your writing sucks will never make you a better writer. The only thing that will make you a better writer is writing, so stop worrying about whether you're any good and WRITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[thebibliosphere]

How's writing going today, you ask?

Well, I've made two weeks' worth of gluten-free waffles to go in the freezer, a batch of gluten-free potato scones, forty-eight meringues, used the leftover custard to make ice cream, and chopped and prepped every last vegetable in my crisper drawer to make soup with this weekend.

I also deep cleaned the oven.

Help.

[transman-badass]

Tomorrow is Freyjrulf Friday

Are you ready to fight a god?

[bovid-beauty]

"Fascism"—New Federal Rule Would Require Federal Funding Recipients To Deny Trans People Exist

The rule could have heavy impacts towards trans people across society.

Last week, the Trump administration quietly released a sweeping new federal rule that would use funding threats to force institutions across the country to reject transgender people. The 400-page proposed regulation would codify the administration's anti-trans executive orders into binding federal policy, imposing a blanket prohibition on federal funds going toward "gender ideology"

The proposed rule, formally titled "Regulation for Federal Financial Assistance," rewrites the government-wide framework governing all federal grants across every agency. Among its most consequential provisions, it requires that before a federal grant recipient can receive money, the award must pass a "pre-issuance review" conducted by a political appointee—not a career expert or peer reviewer—to ensure it is "consistent with applicable law, Federal agency priorities, and the national interest." The regulation explicitly instructs these appointees to screen for "denial by the recipient of the sex binary in humans or the notion that sex is a chosen or mutable characteristic." [...] An institution that acknowledges transgender people exist—through its policies, its training, its healthcare, its bathroom access, its HR procedures, its name-change processes—could be deemed to "deny the sex binary" or to “support the notion that sex is mutable” and have its federal funding blocked.

Importantly, the gender ideology prohibition has no age limitation—hospitals could be targeted not just for providing care to minors but for providing gender-affirming care to adults, because prescribing hormone therapy to a transgender patient of any age could be deemed promoting the belief that "sex is a chosen or mutable characteristic."

[junequeer]

THIS IS OPEN TO COMMENT UNTIL JULY 13, 2026

[featherandstorm]

This is all very bad and horrible, but I want to be clear that it’s worse and more sweeping than just eliminating trans research.

This torches everything. And I do mean everything.

A very abbreviated list of its ramifications include (but are not limited to):

ending funding for ALL DEI related initiatives

allowing the government to terminate grants at any point for any reason

preventing researchers from publishing, going to conferences, and being part of academic societies

requiring that topics must support the president’s agenda.

What this means, and if anything I’m under selling it, is the death of science and research in America. It allows the government to restrict any topic they please at a whims notice, putting officials who have no background in the topic in charge of deciding funding continuity. It controls what gets researched and if/how researchers are allowed to share their discoveries. There are no books to burn if the government never allows them to be written. This is fascism plain and simple.

Please, if you only ever write one public comment, this is the one to do.

[transman-badass]

I love you, you're amazing. Dont forget that

🫂🫂🫂 thank you. You're super kind to send this and it means a lot to me.

[mookimooks]

This whole writing thing is bullshit, why do you people do it?

[syntheticdesign02]

Yesterday I wrote 1k words and then hated them so much that I deleted all of them so honestly idk 🥲

[manorofshepard]

Because I like my own worlds even when its a pain in the ass and I'm a masochist when it comes to my own writing

[transman-badass]

Because I'm struggling to find the community I used to have in the average fandom and will apparently do anything to get that feeling back, even if it causes mental or physical pain

[youtube-privacy-union]

Google says all music uploaded to YouTube is legally theirs to use to train AI on

YouTube Terms of Service Allow AI Music Training, Google Says in Copyright Lawsuit

Google says YouTube’s terms of service grant a “broad license” for AI models to be trained on music uploaded to the platform in response to

Tl;DR:

Google is saying that any music uploaded to YouTube is legally theirs to use in AI training.

This was to try to throw out a copyright case where the victims were trying to sue YouTube for allegedly using their music to train their AI

full discussion

“A new court filing claims that when indie artists upload music to YouTube, they grant a "broad license" that covers the AI initiatives of parent company Google.”

“Google says in a new court filing that YouTube’s terms of service grant a “broad license” for artificial intelligence models to be trained on music uploaded directly to the platform.”

“This argument came in Google’s Monday (June 8) motion to dismiss copyright infringement litigation filed earlier this year by a group of independent artists, songwriters and producers.

The lawsuit claims that Lyria 3, the AI music model launched by Google in February, was trained on songs ripped from YouTube without compensating artists.”

“The case is among dozens that have accused AI companies of illegally training their models on copyrighted sound, text and images in recent years.

In most of these lawsuits — including ones brought by the major record labels against AI music generators Suno and Udio — tech companies have argued that the so-called fair use principle of copyright law allows them to create transformative works without licensing the training data.”

Instead of making a fair use argument, Google is saying “they actually do have a license to train AI with the songs uploaded to YouTube by these indie artists.”

Google says there’s no evidence for Google using their specific works, but also that they have the right to use

the motion cites a clause in YouTube’s terms of service that states, “By providing content to the service, you grant to YouTube a worldwide, non-exclusive, royalty-free, sublicensable and transferable license to use that content (including to reproduce, distribute, prepare derivative works, display and perform it) in connection with the service and YouTube’s (and its successors’ and affiliates’) business.”

“if Google’s argument is accepted by the court, the company would be legally permitted to train AI models on and otherwise utilize that content for “derivative works.” However,

the situation might be different for music distributed through YouTube pursuant to licensing agreements with labels and publishers.”

Music usually has licensing that protects them from copyright issues

[asterisadisaster]

There is a severe lack of trans masc representation in romance books

Im always on the hunt for a spicy or feel good romance book that has includes a trans masc or nonbinary mc! But i also don’t want to read about teenagers ya know? Im an adult i wanna read about adults falling in love. But also they are gay and trans! But also the whole plot isnt about transness or transphobia! Feels like there just isn’t enough of these kinds of books and it sucks!

[queerliblib]

we may be able to help!! these all have trans masc or nonbinary character(s) & a romance: some sci-fi, some contemporary, some historical etc..

A Shore Thing by Joanna Lowell

World Running Down by AL Hess

Coffee Boy by Austin Chant

Frankissstein by Jeanette Winterson

Chef’s Choice by T.J. Alexander (& others, ex. Second Chances in New Port Stephen)

The Chromatic Fantasy by H.A.

Love and Other Disasters by Anita Kelly