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[longing2btiny]

TW: ED

Fresh Start 13 dec 2022

This will be updated at each goal listed for me track my progress

5’8

Start weight: 144lbs / 65 kg

Start BMI: 21.8

Start waist measure: 28in / 71cm

Goal weight: 127lbs / 57kg

Goal BMI:

Goal waist measure: (n/a whatever it is at goal weight)

Periodic goals:

140lbs / 63kg by 01/08/2023

135lbs / 61,2kg by 02/28/2023

130lbs / 59kg by 04/20/2023

Maintain / until 5/10/2023

127lbs / 56,7kg by 06/05/2023

Maintain forever <3

(Maintenance periods are included to re-acclimate my metabolism and avoid suspicion both of ed and drug use)

Hard Caloire limit: 1100cal / day

(Daily calorie goals vary from 500-1100 including some liquid fasting)

Exercise goals:

Exercise is a challenge because of my chronic illness I try to jeopardize my health as little as possible (for submitting to my ED) and i will not set strict goals for regular exercise although I will likely end up exercising much more than this

-1 hour of yoga a week

-Short walks as often as I can

-ab workouts once a week

Progress:

13/December/2022 - 146.4lbs

04/January/2023 - 137.8lba

18/January/2023 - 145.6lbs

25/February/2023 - 140.7lbs

01/March/2023 - 138.5lbs

05/may/2023 - 132lbs

Maintenance check in:

17 September 2023 -

[longing2btiny]

Me when i disappeared and lost 7lbs new meds make me sick so i can barely eat its been 3 weeks and im so much smaller its so good also new job is labor intensive so im working out all day on work days now

[longing2btiny]

Napping>eating

[longing2btiny]

Always start fasting if you reach or breach 1000cal smh

[longing2btiny]

Eating a light healthy Breakfast and holding myself accountable, i lost 7lbs was back in the 130s because of a dr^g binge and ofc i was stupid and belived it was real and withdrawl binge eating right back where i was and feeling crazy trying to get back on track for real ~stop giving in hunger passes

[dollydi3t-deactivated20230417]

♋️ The hottest month of the year calls for your smallest outfits. ♋️

Fellow Cancer Cuties 🦀 and general ED babes we have a little under 4 months till summer that is more than enough time for major goals to be appointed and achieved. With NO excuses we will be skinnier, lighter, and closer to if not at GWs. Allow yourself the ability and confidence to ditch that oversized hoodie and joggers this summer. Regardless of how your goals for then vary, work for it and it will be yours.

[tinykitchenvegan]

Creamy Vegan White Bean Chili

[longing2btiny]

Fucking i am slaying back in the 130s weighed in at 138.5lbs this morning i am so proud of myself seeing the numbers go down this week from 142 to 140 to 139 to today 138.5 tomorrow i should be down to 138 even and so on ive been losing a pound every few days and im so so motivated

[longing2btiny]

Reminding myself that this is the only way to achieve my happiness the only thing in my life that i want to change is my size i just want to be tiny and even though its hard i have to think of how happy ill be when im no longer thinking about how big my body is how people see me when i am at my goal weight i will have no fear this is important and worth all the effort

[longing2btiny]

Been doing good still off from my goals but i think im breaking my plateau lost 5lbs the last two weeks i picked up skateboarding which is exercising that i really enjoy and can do for like hours without hating it it feels freeing and ive been bareley eating bc my boyfriend and i have been doing so much Ac*d this week

[longing2btiny]

Not living my best life rn

[longing2btiny]

I want to die my stats for the last 2 months is only 1.2 lbs net lost bc i keep regaining kill me

[longing2btiny]

I feel like the tags i use and the followers i have etc are “safe” for not having to tw before all my posts its exhausting to have that tought before i make a post and i want to just have my posts and not have to format ir with a tw so im not im an ed blog all my followers know all my tags are 100% ed community related unless its somthing thats particularly triggering im not gonna tw every post for ed content

[longing2btiny]

TW: ED

Started taking pics of everything i eat February 1st and i feel so hot for this being three days of food also my stocked fridge dont judge my run down fridge i live in a slum poverty is real haha but for real ive been super anxious posting pics of food and such bc theres very few backgrounds in my house that dont show that im fucking pooor

[longing2btiny]

TW:ED

This plateau has been the bane of my life for like 4 months now i been stuck in the low 140s(lbs) tickling the 130s once in a while. I had a lapse of binge eating in the start of January but didnt gain too much im back to pre lapse weight at least but fucking christ restrictions arent working metabolism boosts dont help its fucked im going back to intermittent fasting every day at least 18 hours

[longing2btiny]

TW:ED body✅

Currently 140lbs clothes i ordered some fit some dont but like an inch off my waist and im golden

In these pics im wearing some new clothes very happy with how they fit i was very anxious top is size small pants are size 5 (US) 29inch low waist measure !!

[lemonsugar]

me when im plateauing