On a night like tonight, most people would be contempt with being nuzzled into their couch watching a movie. And as the rain clobbered me walking out of Penn Station, I too was yearning for the endearment of my cozy couch. But, I’m looking for something, I don’t know what it is. Some sort of meaning? A striking symbolism? Maybe I’m looking for art and performance to tell me about myself or possibly the world around me. Maybe that’s why in the last three weeks, I’ve made three trips to the McKittrick Hotel.
This night is yearning to dampen my spirits both literally and figuratively. Rain drops steadily pound the pavement as I battle to save my umbrella from the swirling winds. Unfortunately, I’m not able to seek solace and enjoy the warmth of The Lodge as it is closed for a party, so in vain I look for a place to hang my hat until The Heath opens. As I walk from bar to bar, they are all packed to the brim with those seeking refuge from the relentless rain. In defeat, soaked to the bone, I settle to wait by the door, and then my luck transforms, the Heath opens a little early.
The Heath, is foreign to me. This is my first time straying into this section of The McKittrick. The Bar is empty, so I grab a seat, order a bourbon neat, and strike up a conversation with the bartender, a conversation that alters my perception of the McKittrick Hotel entirely.
Simply, are the Inhabitants of the McKittrick Hotel trapped in a temporal loop? A sort of Groundhog’s Day, but with Macbeth instead of Bill Murray? And are they aware of their tragedy?
But the minutes are fleeting, and It’s time for me to take my business to the Manderley Bar. I negotiate my way through the transition from soggy wet streets the the Manderley Bar, shedding the burdens I carried with me, all my problems are behind me, and I’m joyfully greeted by Maximilian as I emerge from the darkness.
Like most of my previous trips, devising a plan would be done in vain. It’s my eighth visit, my first being one year prior. Sure, I’ve become accustomed to a great deal, but the majority of what occurs inside these walls still seems foreign and unexpected. I haven’t gotten a grasp on who the actors are,except for a few, and I still mistake certain characters. So why fight the powers of the McKittrick, instead I embrace it, letting it guide me, much like a Ouija Board.
My card is called, I don my mask, the elevator doors clank open, and my journey begins. I can hear the rules, but my mind just hopes that the other guests are truly listening. The Elevator comes to a halt, and I’m the first off and onto the fifth floor, the sixth floor is not in my cards tonight. Walking off the elevator is jolting, and I fight the urge to burst through the set like an animal freed from their cage. Instead I take a deep breath and walk around for a bit and head down to the candy shop to grab a mint or two.
The Town of Gallow Green is deserted, not a soul strolling down the street. Suddenly, “BOOM” a door slams behind me, and I’m no longer alone in this small town. Who is this person? He carries a certain bravado, and has emerged from the Funeral Parlor, which I don’t know much about. Unsure of who my new companion is, I join him, and I soon identify him.
J Fulton was nothing short of a mystery before we united tonight. I follow hastily, as we make our way around the sleepy town of Gallow Green. J Fulton carries a confidence, which seems to be sustained by his unwavering faith in God. That is however, until the supernatural is present, and I can sense his vulnerability. I soon grow to respect Fulton. He is the bravest soul trapped in the McKittrick Hotel, the only one fighting not for himself, but for the protection of all those who stroll through the town, including me. And that protection was made clean as he secured the windows and doors to the Funeral Parlor so that no one else could enter, it was just him and I. It’s only fair to the Fulton that I keep what happens behind these doors between the two of us. And then as quickly as our journey started, it ends, and I’m left on the wrong side of a locked door, my new friend deserting me.
From that same door emerges The Speakeasy Bartender, an individual I learned from my experience with Fulton, I did not trust. Nonetheless, I follow him. The Barman strutts around with a sense of cockyness, but it is clear that underneath this arrogance he is not in control, it must be Hecate who pulls his strings. And it doesn’t take much time to realize, maybe someone is pulling my strings as well. Maybe the Barman and I aren’t that different, and we share a shot.
The sweet taste of whiskey drives me back down to the Manderley Bar, and I am once again greeted by Maximilian and to my surprise Annabella as well.
Truley great performances don’t intentionally deliver a message, but let the audience see the message that they long for. Great performances speak to you, and you can hear what you need to hear, and see what you need to see. Much like the Tarot Cards that Annabella are tuning in front of me. Tarot cards can’t see my future, but Annabella knows what I need to hear. The message that needs to be delivered, I’m subtly and unconsciously revealing to her. She turns the last card, my future card and whispers, “All of your dreams will come true.” This is not a message that I can take lightly. She continues, “What this means is, all the things you are working on, will come to fruition. So keep doing what you are doing.” I’m stunned, and I’m sure visibly so. Annabella hugs me, and I take the last sip of my cocktail, put my mask back on, and head back into the darkness.
I can’t shake my premonition, It is completely occupying my mind as I stumble through the shadows. I need a moment to just sit, and take this all in. The perch that hangs over the Ballroom is a perfect place to find solace. I make my way to the ballroom and grab a seat.
Characters maneuver through the darken ballroom, but I’m only partially in the moment, there is a lot to take in. These same characters are stuck here, forever cursed to re live the same day over and over. But how is that different than my life outside of this place? Wake up, go to work, come home, sleep. My corporate paystubs are their Kings nailed to a wall. Maybe I break the loop from time to time, but overwhelming I aim not the one in control of my own life, much like my friend The Barman. Maybe faith in myself, like the faith J Fulton bears, will give me the courage to pursue my dreams and break the temporal loop of life. I’ve wandered down to the Ballroom floor lost in thought. Eyes lock with mine, the eyes of a beautiful, bald, witch. And we dance.