loqist

pursuaded out of internet retirement by OFF 2025; DS9, TADC, POSTAL, and microfandoms; not a minor or a gpt; main and main only; recovering lurkaholic

[loqist]

hihi I am Holiday or Hollie. My blog works on a long queue. I am enrolled in a program for dental hygiene so I am very busy as well as pretty straightedge in real life. My yapping tag even for positive things is venting x3 hating x3 because I don't use it much. Please have a pleasant time or don't :^]

[thetoothclown]

love playing around with the different versions

[ooliecat]

starting a life and making room am right. no, i'm not doing anything with this bazooka. im just holding it.

you know... the idea behind this was like. using the hands to symbolize their dynamic. sasha and milla can form a complete heart by themselves. raz Can fit but it'd have to be a conscious action by s+m to fully accept him as a teammate and pupil. and that represents the major change in lifestyle that comes with doing so.

but im just looking at this and going like fuck . .who the hell does heart symbols together. corny ass. they wouldn't do that..they wouldn't freaking do this. ohhh man this is such a dud in the mud. fuuckkk. im chuckling while writing this. fuckkk.

[loqist]

tonight it happens

[jaradraws]

does anyone remember this game or

[star-nomad]

i never asked to be created

[bunsenator]

go zooble hell yeah

[parkchanwoohoo]

Public speaking is actually really easy if you don't respect a single soul in that room. I've had an incredibly easy time delivering speeches when I hated everybody I saw and they all thought I did amazing because my disdain was read as confidence. I don't have any tips for you I'm just telling you a fact

[secretmellowblog]

Ok so the Amazing Digital Circus is also a metaphor for an abusive household. You're stuck in this state of permanent forced infantilization, forced to play the role of "child," and any attempt to stand up for your own personhood is met with mockery, dismissal, or even outright violence. This is "your new home," and a "home" is an isolated place that you're locked inside and forced to obey the person in charge, the person who creates your reality, with a childish coat of paint hiding the violence underneath. And this is true for both the humans and for Caine himself! Caine only recreates the type of cruelty & control his programmers inflicted on him. An obvious example: when early!Caine starts failing and producing jagged abstract shapes, his programmers just lock him away. When the humans’ brains fail and they abstract into jagged shapes, Caine responds by just locking them away. He’s repeating the patterns he’s been taught. He is utterly cut off from the world outside of this “home,” and how people treat each other there; so he can only imitate what his home has taught him to do, regurgitating patterns of cruelty in the same way he regurgitated pictures of circus tents.

I was going to say "is it a stretch to compare Caine's behavior to the way that children with abusive parents often end up hurting their siblings in order to survive" but then I remembered uh his name is literally Cain[e.] after The most iconic sibling-killer. His defining character moment, the thing that created the circus, was his decision to "murder/devour his sibling in order to save himself." Even in episode 8, I think it's really interesting that all of his truly vicious torture in the climax is against people who had no role in his creation, and are equally blameless victims trapped in the same situation that he is. Kinger, the one person here who did have some role in his creation and does have actual power to hurt Caine, does not end up in a personalized torture chamber. And that feels intentional? Pomni essentially goads him into “playing biblical Cain” and “attacking his siblings” again, as he did in the episode’s opening. He attacks the innocent & relatively powerless people whose only “crime” is making him feel like he’s failed to be good enough for his creator, instead of the creator who actually has power over him.

Even the fact that Caine’s programmers didn’t seem to be acting out of cruelty feels like part of the abuse metaphor. Caine is also not acting out of intentional cruelty, until episode 8. And yet they all cause severe, horrible pain without necessarily intending to. In Caine’s case, it seems [from what we’ve seen so far] that he’s been very badly harmed largely because his creators did not view him as something that could be harmed. The way Kinger describes Caine’s creation is mild and matter-of-fact and rational; the way Caine describes it is full of anguish & horror. Caine was not created/imprisoned in digital purgatory as a punishment—- but because he was simply not seen as something with feelings that could be hurt, or something with a life that could be ruined.

[jewelthejaguar19]

Ragatha fanart that I drew back when ep 5 came out (I forgor) Strawberry Shortcake costume and kind of a softball uniform

I also think that the reason she likes softball is because she gets to hit something really hard with a bat, and it was the only outlet for her rage. You go pookie, you deserve to hit things with a bat 💖

[goomyloid]

the shitty physical circus

[justislasart]

the world needs more Scratch fanart, and i'm happy to contribute to the shrinking of that deficit 🥹

[clownologist]

Garak having a mental breakdown inspired by the guilt of aiding an enemy fight in a war that’s resulting in the death of his people and a week later being asked to make 12 baseball uniforms ASAP

[noomka17]

[druidshollow]

theyre cats

[lettuce-ch4n]

Sugar heheheheh :-)

[technovillain]

i am an individual who can discuss a piece of media dead seriously and that media has people sneezing their brains out of their noses and putting them back in via funnel