here's to a long life & dead friends

my body is a temple and today there's another funeral.   indie child!kanda yuu from d gray man.  written by sky.

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Bold What Applies to You

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BASICS

I am male || I am female || I am neither male Nor female || I am under the age of 18 || I am 18 or older || I am straight || I am gay || I am bisexual or pansexual || I am trans

FRIENDSHP

I have two or more friends || I have one friend || I have no friends || I have/had a best friend || I am close with my friend(s) || I spend a lot of time with friends || I have a crush on a friend || I hate a friend || I wish I had fewer friends || I wish I had more friends

RELATIONSHIPS

I am single || I am in a relationship || I am married || I am a virgin || I often date || I prefer to date extroverted people || I prefer to date people who are like me || I prefer to date people who are unlike me || I take relationships very seriously || I have high standards || I date people who are overweight || I date people who are skinny

NEGATIVITY

I have/had depression || I have cried myself to sleep || I have/had anxiety || I am often lonely || I keep a lot of emotions inside || I am scared of talking to people I want to talk more to || I have an eating disorder || I have low self-esteem || I often feel I embarrass myself || I have been abused || I feel people consider me dumb or don’t take me seriously || I am quickly jealous || I feel people want me to be someone/something I’m not || I have been sexually assaulted || I have experienced discrimination/racism

POSITIVITY

I have become a better person || I have gotten out of a bad period of time || I am confident || I am looking forward to something || I have enjoyed myself over the past week || I have met a famous person || I consider myself a kindhearted person || I am currently feeling relaxed and comfortable || I appreciate the little things in life || I have nobody in my life whom I hate || I have achieved something large this year || I am part of a religion that brings me peace || I have lost a lot of weight || I have a movie/game/song that cheers me up

I…

…get scared from watching horror movies || …play a sport || …read a lot of books || …have allergies || …feel shy around the opposite gender || …am a feminist || …believe in love at first sight || …own an instrument || …can draw || …am listening to music right now || …value romance and friendship equally || …have sneaked out of the house || …am outgoing || …respect people’s comfort zones and personal space || …am deaf || …spend money on a daily basis || …want to write a book || …can ride a horse || …am asexual || …put my hands over my face when I’m flattered || …like the colors pink and yellow || …own an xbox || …shop at least once a week || …have a drivers license || …drink alcoholic beverages || …would like a friend of the opposite gender || …get scared by unsettling imagery and screamers || …eat fast food at least twice a week

LIKES & DISLIKES

I like parties ||| I dislike parties ||| I like perfume || I dislike perfume || I like “so bad it’s good” movies || I dislike “so bad it’s good movies” || I like playing video games || I dislike playing video games || I like chocolate || I dislike chocolate || I like having a busy schedule || I dislike having a busy schedule || I like laughing at my own jokes || I dislike laughing at my own jokes || I like compliments || I dislike compliments || I like heavy metal music || I dislike heavy metal music || I like snow || I dislike snow || I like taking walks with someone || I dislike taking walks with someone || I like people who aren’t very talkative || I dislike people who aren’t very talkative

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@nuorii liked the call

     “i thought i said stop following me?”  kanda snarls the words out, rounding back on zuki.  she’s not alma.  she’ll never be alma, not as much as kanda is reminded of him when he watches her.  that just frustrates him even more, so it leaves him SHAKING IN ANGER.

      “just leave me alone.”

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OOC.  small starter call.

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elfen-archer:

Claire puffs her cheeks into a annoyed pout, “ It’s not like I WANNA BABYSIT YOU. “ She says, her hands sliding down her face. She let out a breath and crouched so she could be eye-level with Kanda. “ Look, maybe. “ She put her hands up in an almost surrendering manner, “ Maybe we can…..figure something out that will…help both of us. Okay? “

Please let this kid just so okay. Claire thought babies were hard to deal with. This kid is TEN TIMES WORSE THEN ANY TODDLER. 

      kanda just glares after a moment, although it’s softened now into another look.  he’s appreciating that claire is trying--it’s just that KANDA IS SO ANGRY HE CAN’T STAND HIMSELF.  so he merely shrugs after a moment, before he snarks out,  “what, LIKE YOUR IDIOT ASS HAS ANY IDEAS?”

     not that it’s the best idea, to antagonise those who want to help you, but it’s not like kanda feels he has any other choice in the scenario.

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mugenborn:

┘刀┌  A simple sigh pushed past the elder’s lips after hearing the younger’s words, a hand raising to rub at the back of his neck in an awkward fashion before kneeling down to be eye level with the younger form of himself. ❛You probably have questions,  what would you like to ask me?❜ While this was still strange and Kanda did not understand how something like this could even happen, he would not deny a child their curiosity.

     “do you ever get better?”  it’s the thoughtless question of a child--of someone who is immensely worried about being able to communicate.  “like--do the nightmares stop.  DO YOU GET A FULL NIGHT’S REST, WITHOUT WAKING UP, SCREAMING ABOUT ALMA.  do you ever get days where it doesn’t feel like you’re walking in a haze, days where you can’t remember the day happening, because it doesn’t feel real--”

     “do you ever get better than how i am?”

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OOC.  small starter call.

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"It's when you make a small space out of blankets and beds!"

     “that sounds DUMB, alma.  why would you do that?”

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Yanks Smolnda over as he sleeps. Shhh. It naptime for smols.

     naptime it is!

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Do you feel lonely?

     “no.”  said automatically, for kanda denies any want for companionship.  but then, a beat, followed by,  “not all the time.”

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Alma just grins. "It's okay! This is a blanket fort!"

      “what’s a blanket fort?”

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This is fine, he gonna get snoot kisses tho.

     he’s gonna blink twice.  “huh?”

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When Smolnda wakes up, everything's black. Why? bECAUSE SMOLMA BUILT A BLANKET FORT AROUND THEM OF COURSE-!!

     kanda.exe has crashed, give him a second.  he’s never seen a blanket fort before.

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taintedangel:

So this is how yuu wanted to play? Fine! Smols gonna punch his dumb face! “What the hell yourself, you pulled my hair first!”

     kanda half-yells, proceeding to punch alma in the stomach.  “yeah, well your hair was in my face!!  so there!!”

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taintedangel:

“OW!” And smolma’s just gonna pull right back on Kanda’s hair.

     he’s just gonna headbutt alma.  “what the hell?!”

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     pulls on alma’s hair.

@taintedangel

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silverwanderer:

So he had seen that, good, he was as sharp as they had said he was. Fingers flex, bending as a normal hand should, three joints, all down. “My hand functions as it should-” still it moves normally, but just so slightly it seems to change, fingers just too long, too thin, “The talismans I have in place help it to keep it’s shape.”

Now it’s abnormal. Too long fingers slowly bend backwards now, each joint bending opposite how it should and just as easily as it bent forward now her hand closes backwards. No sound of breaking bones or popping joints, no apparent discomfort on her end. Satisfied in her display the hand returns to what should be normal and again takes a slice of the apple and pops it into her mouth.

“I function as I should, the same way you do.”

     so she’s something like him, that the order built together IN AN EFFORT TO WIN.  or at least, that’s the only conclusion kanda can safely draw, despite how accurate it may or may not be.  he taps his hands on his thighs, wondering about it.

     but he doesn’t ask--because he doesn’t need to know.  doesn’t need another reason to nurture this growing hate within him, because all it will do is frustrate him, agitate him, && KANDA DOESN’T NEED THAT.  so he asks no questions, merely watching lilya with confused look for a few moments.

     “i see.”