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𓆩✧𓆪. blog started apr 28 .

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main blog: @inopokai

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hey gang, izzy here. this is my sideblog for ALLLL of my yapping. theoretically, a lot. everything's gonna be a little messy but I'll sort posts with tags:

#dustyizzy ── .✦ fun finds, facts, and content that isn't my original creation (unless it applies to another tag, then i will promptly provide credit)

#dandyizzy ── .✦ life, personal things (experiences, friends, drama, etc....gasp!)

#disintegratedizzy ── .✦ little rants, concerns, the works! don't feel obligated to comment or anything, most of the time it's small things i need

#dizzyizzy ── .✦ OMG love life, crushes, sexuality & such!

#daffyizzy ── .✦ silly things, shitposts, dumb stuf

+ more to come! some tags may be used more than once in a post

dividers found on pinterest.

[sft-haze]

[sailatina3]

Orgasm denial. Orgasm anger. Orgasm bargaining. Orgasm depression. Orgasm acceptance.

[lotuscordial]

i feel like i put a lot of blame on my dad or at least more than i should

[lotuscordial]

wish i could live with my friends forever

[lotuscordial]

lalalalala

[lotuscordial]

there's a lot to complain about but like

its a bit much right now

[lotuscordial]

ughh

[lotuscordial]

sad mopy parent issues warning

i hate that my parents have never asked me "why are you crying, what's wrong?" because theyre the source of my misery and just dont care if i cry

being vulnerable around them is so challenging

theyre not sympathetic at all yet alone empathetic

my relationship with my dad is not doing well

he has absolutely zero sense of humor (cant take a joke) , gets mad at tiny things, and switches up on me so much

theres so many other things he does that are definitely worse but thats an example

my mom is decent but she's kinda idealistic

while she's good to talk to in general she gets lecture-y when i try to express my feelings

[lotuscordial]

might make another sideblog for darker topics i dont want on this blog or my main 🤔

[lotuscordial]

i dont wanna talk to her and for good reason

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[lotuscordial]

a “friend” i desperately want to cut off

I know two other people on here who seriously dislike her lol. Just gonna refer to her as “S”!

So I met S maybe five months ago. I knew who she was because of my sister’s SOR thing that she performed at, blah blah. Shes in my history end english classes. For 2025 and some of 2026 I considered her a friend.

BUT NAH I DESPISE HER SO MUCH NOW! I got way too comfortable and shes generally an inconsiderate bitch who doesn’t know and respect boundaries. Three close friends of mine also do not like her.

She sits with us at lunch but I lwk ignore her a lot. She can’t take a hint though, too busy staring at an egotistical guy whos also a friend of mine. Who she has a crush on. i almost feel bad for her she doesnt know what a jerk he is 😭

I could go on and on about what I dislike her and what she does, but twins u know who you are so like reblog saying what she does that makes her suck boooo! i kinda want to get an idea of what others dislike about her cuz i wanna know if we’re on the same page

i’ll probably end up ranting more about her

AND YES I HAVE MY REASONS FOR DISLIKING HER I JUST NEED TO COMPILE IT ALL.

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[lotuscordial]

Today I was sitting with my friends on these railings during lunch. S was sitting at out table (eugh) and Mr. Doohickey (stole this from Izu) came over to say hi to me. Bro....

Im not even kidding S RAN OVER. And I didnt even notice her running over until she said something in broken Spanish (Mr. Doohickey is Mexican)

and fucking PUSHED ME OUT OF THE WAY

honey i know u like him...but you don't need to shove me aside? Then she proceeded to give me another half-assed, unremorseful apology.

Ugh the only reason she's being a little less of an asshole is because she's always too busy staring at him 😭🙏

[lotuscordial]

a “friend” i desperately want to cut off

I know two other people on here who seriously dislike her lol. Just gonna refer to her as “S”!

So I met S maybe five months ago. I knew who she was because of my sister’s SOR thing that she performed at, blah blah. Shes in my history end english classes. For 2025 and some of 2026 I considered her a friend.

BUT NAH I DESPISE HER SO MUCH NOW! I got way too comfortable and shes generally an inconsiderate bitch who doesn’t know and respect boundaries. Three close friends of mine also do not like her.

She sits with us at lunch but I lwk ignore her a lot. She can’t take a hint though, too busy staring at an egotistical guy whos also a friend of mine. Who she has a crush on. i almost feel bad for her she doesnt know what a jerk he is 😭

I could go on and on about what I dislike her and what she does, but twins u know who you are so like reblog saying what she does that makes her suck boooo! i kinda want to get an idea of what others dislike about her cuz i wanna know if we’re on the same page

i’ll probably end up ranting more about her

AND YES I HAVE MY REASONS FOR DISLIKING HER I JUST NEED TO COMPILE IT ALL.

𓆩✧𓆪

[lovernisca]

I wear off shoulder things a lot cuz yk

Im hot asf we know this heh

But I am NOT her friend and I get so pissed at her cuz she blatantly disrespects my friend "A"'s NUMEROUS comments and requests for her to stop. Fucking. Touching them.

She never asks, she just does, and she used to be very, very clingy.

My friends and I talk about politics often too, and she said a very wrongly educated view (not too big of a thing, but when ya HATE someone, every little thing they do pisses u off)

And once, yk my sweater today was like just above my chest so showing like full shoulder up, and I wore it a few weeks ago

And

No warning. Completely silent. She hugged me from behind, her hands on my BARE SHOULDERS.

Dude.

I love physical affection but. From someone I dont like.

Touching.

My.

Bare.

Skin?

My back, shoulders, and almost collarbones.

Uhm.

GET AWAY FROM ME? IVE NEVER FELT SO DISGUSTED

[lotuscordial]

i am a VERY jealous friend lemme just put that out there.

i hate it when she hugs my close friends like they’re her best friends. we don’t like her. i want to cut her off but her parents are friends with my parents :/

[lovernisca]

yk what. Im a damn jealous person too. Its. A slowly healing habit but I dont even get jealous of her

I just get mad. I eas originally jealous because "A" had a lot more in common with her, but I thought it was good because honestly, A and I are drifting apart a bit because im changing in who I hangout with

But. Then she started disrespecting his boundaries. And I got pissed.

Theyd tell her to stop touching them multiple times in one lunch period, even getting snappy and hes Never snappy.

I hate her.

[lotuscordial]

she’s been disrespecting a lot of people’s boundaries (including mine as well). she hugged my friend M on multiple occasions. everyone in our friend group knows that M does not like to be hugged. i told her to stop. she did it again.

not to mention that in english she talks to completely different people? not like i want her to talk to me but then she still sits with us and gets in the way. idrk how to word what i’m feeling about that but uh yea. I’m so sick of S. i wish she would take a hint and just stop forcing herself into me and my friends’ lives.

i’ll definitely have to tell her off sometime soon. there is no fucking way i’m gonna let her keep being like this after summer. or around promotion/field trip time. especially field trip time i would HATE for her to be around forcing herself into my friend group then.

[lotuscordial]

a “friend” i desperately want to cut off

I know two other people on here who seriously dislike her lol. Just gonna refer to her as “S”!

So I met S maybe five months ago. I knew who she was because of my sister’s SOR thing that she performed at, blah blah. Shes in my history end english classes. For 2025 and some of 2026 I considered her a friend.

BUT NAH I DESPISE HER SO MUCH NOW! I got way too comfortable and shes generally an inconsiderate bitch who doesn’t know and respect boundaries. Three close friends of mine also do not like her.

She sits with us at lunch but I lwk ignore her a lot. She can’t take a hint though, too busy staring at an egotistical guy whos also a friend of mine. Who she has a crush on. i almost feel bad for her she doesnt know what a jerk he is 😭

I could go on and on about what I dislike her and what she does, but twins u know who you are so like reblog saying what she does that makes her suck boooo! i kinda want to get an idea of what others dislike about her cuz i wanna know if we’re on the same page

i’ll probably end up ranting more about her

AND YES I HAVE MY REASONS FOR DISLIKING HER I JUST NEED TO COMPILE IT ALL.

𓆩✧𓆪

[lovernisca]

I wear off shoulder things a lot cuz yk

Im hot asf we know this heh

But I am NOT her friend and I get so pissed at her cuz she blatantly disrespects my friend "A"'s NUMEROUS comments and requests for her to stop. Fucking. Touching them.

She never asks, she just does, and she used to be very, very clingy.

My friends and I talk about politics often too, and she said a very wrongly educated view (not too big of a thing, but when ya HATE someone, every little thing they do pisses u off)

And once, yk my sweater today was like just above my chest so showing like full shoulder up, and I wore it a few weeks ago

And

No warning. Completely silent. She hugged me from behind, her hands on my BARE SHOULDERS.

Dude.

I love physical affection but. From someone I dont like.

Touching.

My.

Bare.

Skin?

My back, shoulders, and almost collarbones.

Uhm.

GET AWAY FROM ME? IVE NEVER FELT SO DISGUSTED

[lotuscordial]

i am a VERY jealous friend lemme just put that out there.

i hate it when she hugs my close friends like they’re her best friends. we don’t like her. i want to cut her off but her parents are friends with my parents :/

[lotuscordial]

a “friend” i desperately want to cut off

I know two other people on here who seriously dislike her lol. Just gonna refer to her as “S”!

So I met S maybe five months ago. I knew who she was because of my sister’s SOR thing that she performed at, blah blah. Shes in my history end english classes. For 2025 and some of 2026 I considered her a friend.

BUT NAH I DESPISE HER SO MUCH NOW! I got way too comfortable and shes generally an inconsiderate bitch who doesn’t know and respect boundaries. Three close friends of mine also do not like her.

She sits with us at lunch but I lwk ignore her a lot. She can’t take a hint though, too busy staring at an egotistical guy whos also a friend of mine. Who she has a crush on. i almost feel bad for her she doesnt know what a jerk he is 😭

I could go on and on about what I dislike her and what she does, but twins u know who you are so like reblog saying what she does that makes her suck boooo! i kinda want to get an idea of what others dislike about her cuz i wanna know if we’re on the same page

i’ll probably end up ranting more about her

AND YES I HAVE MY REASONS FOR DISLIKING HER I JUST NEED TO COMPILE IT ALL.

𓆩✧𓆪

[lotuscordial]

Psst quick do math what’s 5!

Type out how to get the correct answer also

fym 5 😭😭

the absolute value of 5 is 5 and 5 is the correct answer, because 5 is 5 from 0 as well as how -5 is 5 from 0, which means that the only way 5 can be 5 is that 5 is 5, so we find 5 by utilizing 5 and factoring the 5 to find that one factor is 5, allowing us to determine that the answer is not 5 but 5

[lotuscordial]

another weird F U C K I N G dream

After I woke up around 12:50 AM and went to the room of the resting (half-awake and with pins and needles in my left arm) I think i returned to my room and slept again

And vaguely, in my dream for whatever reason the 🥕 had a Tumblr and thanked Umi for not attempting to kill him. And then the dream went to something about the lesbian kandi i found in my room and what to do with it.

Also my E V I L dog jumped on my bed, S A T on me, and then F A R T E D. This morning.

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