Just Keep Breathing

My name's Jess, I'm 25 and this blog is mainly dedicated to Demi Lovato and my recovery. For the past 12 years I've been dealing with self harm and I'm slowly on my way to recovery. If you ever need to talk I'm always here. Stay Strong

[lovatoswiftlove]

I hope you feel better <3

thank you <3

[lovatoswiftlove]

I cut a lot today. I’m so sad and miserable. I just want this loneliness to go away.

[secret-mind]

If you need someone to talk to, just message me or send an ask :-)

[lovatoswiftlove]

Taylor

So I’ve been thinking a lot about the reputation stadium tour since it happened. No, I haven’t been a fan since day 1, but Taylor’s been someone who I would listen to on occasion. Now for over 12 years I’ve struggled with self harm, depression and PTSD. This is not a sob story or anything but I need to put that out there to go with what I’m gonna say next. At Gillette, I saw Taylor live for the first time. The night before I relapsed badly on my leg. I”ve been anxious all summer because my substitute job at an elementary school ended and I have been eagerly waiting for a call about a job for this upcoming school year. I have not stopped talking about how amazing the show at Gillette was and how much fun I had. Taylor is an incredible performer and after seeing her, it really made me appreciate her and all she does for her fans. She sang change that night and it was in that moment that I closed my eyes and sang along and felt it in my heart that everything was going to be alright. Well, the next week, I got a phone call about an interview for a first grade position and I GOT THE JOB. I honestly can say that Taylor helped me feel calm and okay with the present and I feel that it was in that moment I was able to breathe and know that everything was going to be okay, with recovery, with a job, and with life. 

[noitssena]

❝ one day we will be remembered ❞

[feelwithswizzle]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[likemelodrama]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[noitssena]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[tayswizlove]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[noitssena]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[taylorswiftannika]

My heart always with you

@taylorswift

[d-r-e-s-s-blog]

My heart always with you

@taylorswift

[jenchrry]

My heart always with you

@taylorswift

[illusionistswift]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[thearcherandtheprey]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[missamaricana]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[crxwlingforyoyhoney]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[busy-dancing]

My heart always with you

@taylorswift

[newromanticsswiift]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[agodforsakenmess]

My heart always with you @taylorswift

[lovatoswiftlove]

my heart always with you @taylorswift

[lovatoswiftlove]

Taylor

So I’ve been thinking a lot about the reputation stadium tour since it happened. No, I haven’t been a fan since day 1, but Taylor’s been someone who I would listen to on occasion. Now for over 12 years I’ve struggled with self harm, depression and PTSD. This is not a sob story or anything but I need to put that out there to go with what I’m gonna say next. At Gillette, I saw Taylor live for the first time. The night before I relapsed badly on my leg. I”ve been anxious all summer because my substitute job at an elementary school ended and I have been eagerly waiting for a call about a job for this upcoming school year. I have not stopped talking about how amazing the show at Gillette was and how much fun I had. Taylor is an incredible performer and after seeing her, it really made me appreciate her and all she does for her fans. She sang change that night and it was in that moment that I closed my eyes and sang along and felt it in my heart that everything was going to be alright. Well, the next week, I got a phone call about an interview for a first grade position and I GOT THE JOB. I honestly can say that Taylor helped me feel calm and okay with the present and I feel that it was in that moment I was able to breathe and know that everything was going to be okay, with recovery, with a job, and with life. 

[emdawg18]

I hate when I meet someone for the first time and get all shy and awkward, like no this is not me I swear, just wait

[lovatoswiftlove]

does anyone take antidepressants and feel like sex is such a chore rather than something for enjoyment? It drives me crazy. 

[grawly]

I’m goin back to 2010 y’all want anything

[demetrialovato-lover]

[lovatoswiftlove]

Unfortunately, I relapsed the other day. Recovery is a bitch. I know I can get back on track though. 

[lovatoswiftlove]

You’re beautiful and I love you

Thank you so much, I love you too whoever you are, I’m sure of it. 

[lovatoswiftlove]

On Monday, I will be celebrating my 8 months clean. Recovery has been an ongoing battle for me these past 12 years and I know I will have to deal with it the rest of my life. As terrifying as that is, I know I’m getting to where I need to be. For those of you who have followed me for years, you know I’ve struggled immensely with self harm and dealing with emotional abuse at home. Well, in two months, I am FINALLY moving out of my house and onto a new chapter of my life. I’m going to be free. The chains will be broken. 

[demirares]

[maybe-you-need-this]

Come lay with me. I wanna talk about nothing with someone that means something.

Unknown (via maybe-you-need-this)

[lovatoswiftlove]

Gotta say, Taylor swift has helped me so much with going through a break up. I genuinely thought I was gonna marry this guy and it sucks but her music and songs about break ups have been keeping me sane.