love-alec:
Jamie,
Well, I am happy that I unintentionally flustered you. Or maybe it was a little intentional…
Oh god no…wasn’t that just wife beaters? Cause that is definitely not my style. I’d look weird as fuck in just a wife beater and jeans. Not saying why, just I would. I will never wear high heels or a boa…I mean, if I’m drunk and someone puts a boa on me then maybe it’ll stay cause I have a feeling drunk me just won’t care. So just hell no to the heels. It would be very hard finding heels in my size anyways.
Maybe they just seem gay cause of always talking about their dicks. Granted, I don’t do that and I am definitely gay. So who knows. Any time a guy brags about mind-blowing sex, you know he’s making shit up to sound cool. Especially in high school. You’re welcome. So could I find you by looking for the guy singing Poker Face? Wow, fuck you. That song isn’t even good. At least I gave you Lady Gaga. You gave me a really bad song with a catchy beat and impossible to leave head lyrics.
If we make t-shirts that’d be one way to find out who the other was in person. Also a way to out ourselves. But it is totally normal that we bond over this. It’s really nice having someone that understands this cause my friends definitely wouldn’t get it.
Hey, that sounds like a lot of fun! Probably way more fun than any college will ever be. Plus I’m sure there’s plenty of hot European boys looking for small flings ;) That felt so weird to type out, those European boys also made me a little jealous? Which is as weird. Oh damn…not going is cool too. Fake sick or something if your friends decide to give you shit. Don’t we already do that like daily? We do go to the same school after all. It is comforting though. Knowing at least one person at this school understands me. Yeah, it’s the perfect place. No one will know me and so nobody will have these expectations of who I am. I can basically be whoever I want to be. I mean, I guess I should also come out to my parents eventually in case I ever get a boyfriend and want to bring him home or post on facebook. So I’m excited for the prospect of coming out in college. What about you? Do you have that same feeling about coming out when no longer living with your parents?
-Shurik
Shurik,
Well, you succeeded. And now I’m blushing.
Wife beaters and sweatpants. You’d have to admit: you’d be comfortable as fuck. Are you the type of drunk that you just kind of let things happen to you while you’re drunk? Let me guess: you’ve had a dick drawn on your face at some point while being blacked out. Oh… So, you have big feet, huh? 😏 Kidding, kidding. Maybe.
You’re not wrong about the lies of the aforementioned “mind-blowing sex.” Personally, I don’t see anything involving straight sex to be considered mind-bowing other than the fact that they can conceive another person that way. Aside from that? Don’t get it. Dude, if I want to pass as straight in school right now, the last thing I’d be doing is singing Lady Gaga. It’s what you deserve for giving me not one but TWO songs that wouldn’t get out of my head for days. Call it even?
You’re right. Let’s put the t-shirt idea aside for a later date. Do you think your friends would say anything about you being gay?
Oh, really? Well, don’t worry. The hot European boys don’t stand a chance right now. Mostly because I’m too far away, but also because I’m not entirely interested. ☺️ You’re smart; has anyone ever told you that? I might end up doing something like that if I decide I’d rather not go. And it’s true that we do that daily, but for all I know, we’re in entirely different classes or eat lunch in different places or have never once walked by each other in the hallway. But then there’s the chance that we do have the same classes, eat lunch at the same spot, and we have walked by each other at least once, and wow. That just made it all the more real. I like the sound of that - new place, no expectations from you. I’m really excited for you and your future, Shurik. It sounds like it’s going to be awesome.
As for me, well… I don’t know. Even when I’m out of the house, I still will likely keep in touch with my parents. We’re all very close. And I don’t know if I’d be comfortable telling them and risk ruining our connection because they can’t just accept me for who I am. My dad, he’s super strict and rigid and hardly ever smiles. But he’s not a cruel man, and I know he loves me. As for my mom, she’s sweet and fiery and strong. She shaped me to be who I am today. And I love them both so much. I want to stay the same kid they know and love and raised, but coming out to them would be hard. Even harder than filling out these college applications, which suck so hard. Ugh.
Jamie.
Jamie,
How cute, even if I have no idea what you look like it’s adorable in my mind. I just imagine you’re an adorable person. Maybe that has to do with your stellar personality.
That’s true but that style is not for me outside of my house. I am way too white for that and I hate working out. But you may like it if you can see the outline of my thing, don’t you like that or is that only gym teachers you like seeing that? I don’t actually know, to be honest. I’m not much of a drinker. So I have never had a dick drawn on my face...yet. I just feel like I wouldn’t stop my friends from putting a feather boa around my neck. Maybe I imagine I embrace the gay in me while drunk? Wouldn’t you like to know ;)
KIDDING, KIDDING!!!
Same. It seems kind of gross to me. Anytime I attempted hetero porn I was always turned off by the females loud moans. Which were probably fake but it just never turned me on. I don’t get why straight guys want it so bad. But I also don’t see myself with a female in any way, so that could be it. I mean, you have a good point there. It’s also played on the radio a lot and is super catchy. I have definitely heard my best friend who is very straight humming one of her songs before. Poker Face is perfect for us considering the song is about hiding the fact you’re into the same sex. I guessssss. Even if I just now was able to get that song out of my head.
Good idea. Maybe graduation. Just announce we’re flaming homosexuals as we walk across the stage to get our diplomas. I don’t think they’d like stop being my friend but they might question why I never told them. It’s just hard because I don’t want them to see me differently, as I’ve said a million times. What about you?
Oh? You’re not interested in hot European boys with hot accents? That makes my jealousy go down quite a bit. Thank you. I’ve been told I’m a genius once or twice. Happy to help you get out of painful school dances. I’ve really never seen the appeal of prom. But that’s just me. Maybe it’s only girls that truly give a shit about that type of thing? That’s an insane thought. For some reason I never thought you could be a person I actually interact with, probably because I like to feel like I’d know. The way you talk and the natural connection I feel towards you. But all I know about you regarding the only in person connection is that we’re both seniors. Thank you, I only hope it’s as awesome as it is in my head.
I completely understand. I think coming out to family is even harder than coming out to friends. I hope one day you can tell them you’re gay and they are completely accepting and don’t treat you any differently. Which I wish people wouldn’t considering you’ll still be the same person they know and love, you just happen to not like the expected opposite gender. And I also hope you can fill out your college apps without dying.
Shurik.