Diary Turned Into A Supernatural Blog

24•She/They•Chicago• Started as a journal but evolved into a Supernatural blog with a little of my life sprinkled in.

[lovealwayssay]

I know I'm crazy and need to stop thinking about the Supernatural finale but I can’t because I was so focused on how shitty the finale was to Dean that I hadn’t truly gotten mad about how it treated Sam until now and I hate myself for that because SAM!!! Sam, who had been through almost nonstop trauma since he was born, who started the show losing the woman he was in love with, who had his bodily autonomy violated over and over again, who spent at least 180 years being tortured by Lucifer, who died and lost and grieved and bled for the entire show, was supposed to just lose Dean, his brother, the one constant in his life, after losing Cas, who he considered family, and Jack, his child, and be able to move on and live a happy life? Sam deserved so much better. He deserved to grow old with his brother and Cas, marry Eileen, and raise their kids with Jack as their older brother. The ending they gave Sam is what Season 1 Sam would have wanted, not Season 15 Sam. They ignored everything he had been through, everything he had endured, everyone he had met, and all his growth, so he could satisfy his 22-year-old dreams. There is no universe in which this was a happy ending for Sam and I’m so heartbroken about it. 

[lovealwayssay]

My bar prep mantra is ‘you’re living Sam Winchester’s dream’ because its the only think keeping me from giving up

[vraxhis-visceris]

Dean deserved to pull Cas from the Empty, the obvious reason being the parallel to their first meeting and their arc coming full circle, but also because Dean deserved to tease Cas with "I dragged you out of angel-hell, I can throw you back in".

[casmick-consequences]

i just needed a scene where after Dean pulls Cas out of the Empty and Cas is in a very hazy state, like he just woke up, and he looks at Dean like: “Where am I? Who are you?”

And Dean just looks at him and deadass responds: “I’m the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition”

And then Cas “wakes up” and sees Dean and they hug and hold eachother tight and kiss and never let go.

WE DESERVED THIS

[itsgonnabeanofrommedawg]

dan and phil publicly forgiving their audience for ripping their private life apart. chronically closeted dan following that up by asking "phil do YOU forgive me for years of dealing with my bullshit?" and phil saying he doesn't need to forgive him. literally peace and love on phanet earth

[tastywormfood]

This is directed at Dan

[legalisecatboyss]

dan thanking phil for being patient with him for so many years and phil going, “that’s okay!” without missing a beat…

[rockstarsatan]

Sam's sexual trauma is so important to me actually. let's all talk about how his relationship to sex changes over the course of the show with new violations and information about past violations <33

[trainsgengar]

of course dean would call cas his partner it makes it sound like they're cowboys

[lovealwayssay]

They should’ve orpheus-and-eurydice-ed Dean and Cas at least once. Like imagine them in that scenario

[lovealwayssay]

I’m almost in tears on the way to work because I started thinking about the Superman movie, and just how much 8-year-old me would have absolutely loved that movie, and how my dad literally made me a Hawkgirl mask and mace when I was 8.

[lovealwayssay]

Just bought the $100 Supernatural complete DVD set because I heard a rumor that Supernatural is leaving Netflix sometime this year and I can’t function without my emotional support homophobia show

[lovealwayssay]

I have Spotify playlists dedicated to Sam, Dean, Cas, and Destiel. Please listen to/follow them if you’d like. Forewarning, they’re about 20% Taylor Swift, 15% Pheobe Bridgers, and 10% Ethel Cain.

Sam

Dean

Cas

Destiel

[lovealwayssay]

Someone I’m sort-of dating asked for my Spotify which lead to me having to admit I’m both a Supernatural fan and a Swiftie at the big age of 24

[lovealwayssay]

50 First Dates but its R2-D2 and C-3PO every time C-3PO’s memory is wiped

[easytiger-xo]

[atrenchcoatwithwings]

A small reminder that Samuel Winchester is a beautiful soul who deserves better than what he gets most of the time. 

[lovealwayssay]

I can’t believe i used to think Season 11 was the worst season of Supernatural. I was so blinded by how stupid the whole Darkness plot was and being upset about the lack of Destiel that I completely ignored the whole Sam-Lucifer plot. Its so interesting

[lovealwayssay]

I'm rewatching Season 11 and I completely forgot about Sam praying and having visions again and thinking they're from God when he has every reason not to. The last time he had visions, they were because of the demon blood in him, something bad and impure. But still, ten years later, despite everything bad that's happened, he wants to believe he's good, and that God cares. He still wants to be worthy, and to believe that inherently he is good, despite everything that's happened to him, and I think that just sums Sam up.