MY TESTIMONY
MAY 2020.
Before I met Jesus, although outwardly I looked like an ordinary regular girl, inwardly my life was a mess. When I was 9, my parents filed for divorce, since then my dad never really came home. When I was 10, my family sold our flat and had nowhere to stay except my aunty’s house. We moved house to house, living temporarily under somewhere we could not call home. When I was 11, we rented a flat, time and again, we had no electricity or enough food and money to survive. When I was 12, i quarrelled with my classmates and went through a bit of cyber-bullying, even teachers approached me back then.
At that age, I felt so helpless as I watched my family fall apart, my friends drifting away from me. I thought the best thing I could do was to work hard in my studies and escape to secondary school and try to have a positive mindset. In secondary school, no matter how well I did, I still felt empty. I looked for various ways to fill up my heart temporarily, compliments from people, the approval of people, friends, their opinions on me and relationships but that only left me even more torn. And then someone invited me to church. Church? I thought I knew who Jesus was but I really had no idea. I was so bored and had nothing better to do at home so I agreed.
There I experienced an unexplainable peace and I knew it was God. I rededicated my life to God once again and became a Christian. As I continued going to church, the love of God healed me of my hurts. In one service, God spoke to me that regardless of my background, He has a great purpose for my life. God showed me that He loves me even at my lowest point and my life was precious to Him, so I couldn’t just waste it away by fooling around with my life, seeking happiness in things that would only fill my heart temporarily, since it would leave me in more hurt than before. After knowing God and my church friends, I found a place of refuge, a place I know I belong, a place where I feel loved. A place I cherish the time spent more than any other place. I am able to share all my problems and people would encourage me, my leader never fails to provide a listening ear and be there for me. When I needed a nudge to grow in my character, they spoke the truth in love to me, my church was my spiritual family. Church became the home I never felt like I really had.
Being a “Christian” isn’t about just doing good works. He made it clear that I do not have to earn my salvation or His love, I am far from perfect today, but I know that God will forgive me, and I am grateful. Now, I have a greater purpose in being a leader in church and living for others! I spend my time bonding with my youths and ceegee members, being by their side and journeying with them, helping them grow in their faith and their character and mine as well! Today, I lead and believe in others just like how my leaders led and believed in me.Â
Living for something greater than myself filled the emptiness in my heart. Till today, I am still in awe of how God found me and led me to church, even before I became a Christian, I am very sure that God has a destiny for me here. My past does not define my future, and who I am. I’m thankful to see how far I’ve came to in this journey which I definitely could not have done it without God in my life.


















