my heart feels heavy thinking abt it but i dunno my dudes !! i feel like jordan might just finally be done yknow. i’ve written this bab for 5 years & she’s developed & went through so much & i just ?? feel like she’s /done/. i’ve gone through the revamps, the blog moves, the story changes, all to keep her going just awhile longer but thinking about doing it all again is seeming more & more futile. & as a writer that both makes me happy & sad. happy bc look what I’ve created over this span of time !! i’m so proud of her it kinda makes legit tear up a little?? she’s been such a beacon of light in so many lives & i’m so fucking happy for that. sad bc well– i feel like i have no where else to take her. i feel like i’ve turned the very last page in her 5 year long adventure. that’s heavy. she’s been a mom. she’s been flesh eating monster. she’s been a space mechanic. she’s been a criminal. she’s been a tattoo artist. a college student. a witch. she’s been through about a dozen different apocalypses. she’s died a few times. she even cussed out robocop once ... that was a good one. i know i’m always gonna have so many fond memories of her but i feel it y’know-- i think she’s done. :/
