Its Okay To Not Be Okay

Eating and blogging my feelings.

[o-alien-o]

The Smiths -  Unloveable 

[realredowl]

Straight FACTS. :)

[chin-up-and-drown-slower]

It’s hard to not feel like a burden and that you’re worth something when the people in your life treat you otherwise. Over. And over again.

[xxxblackreaperxxx]

[marluna98]

I would really like to know what exactly is wrong with me, that makes me so unlovable?

I‘m really curious.

[bipolar-dream-girl-deactivated2]

Tbh don’t even know what to do besides lay in bed and be numb

[crystals-to-dust]

My sister in law needs to grow the fuck up. This shit is rediculous.

[lovehurtssoletsfoegetit]

Terrible wife. Terrible daughter. Terrible person. Why am I so terrible. Why does everyone hate me. My husband, my mom, my dad. Everyone hates me. It’s crazy how lonely on person can feel, how hurt, how misunderstood by everyone who is supposed to be close to them. No one cares. No one understands. No one loves you.

[lvchd-deactivated20170404]

[pisces-prncss]

I’m her

[vermilion-soul]

This is the fourth time I've been cheated on, and I'm tired of it happening but I'm also tired of hearing a few other things:

 "I’m sorry" - I know you are, but maybe you should have thought of that before you cheated. I don’t care how sorry you are, it loses its meaning after you’ve heard it too many times.

“I was being stupid” or “I was drunk” - yeah, I know you were. Being drunk is not an excuse. Just being stupid or “just making a mistake” are not excuses. You knew what you were saying.

“You’re amazing” - you bet your sweet ass I am, but that doesn’t get you off the hook. If you knew I was so amazing this whole time, why did you cheat?

“I want to earn your trust back” - so did every other guy who cheated on me before you. And guess how many of them earned my trust back? None.

“I love you” - yeah, that’s great. I love you too, but the difference between my love for you and your love for me is that I would never cheat on me. Maybe my love for you is stronger.

I’m just tired and sad and angry and a total mess right now.

[divinepoem]

He says yes and her mind goes quiet.

The strong women in her life told her never let someone hurt you;

Never let a boy make you cry.

She never really listened to that-

She was the sensitive type-

But this was the boy meant to keep her heart whole.

He said yes and she fell apart into his arms.

Sobs of distrust,

Cries of a broken heart,

And the inaudible breathing of a girl who felt the entire world lie to her.

Love is supposed to be easy,

But what do you do when your love breaks you in half?

What happens when Love steps out of the front door

And holds someone else for an hour,

A day,

A year?

Love isn’t easy then.

Love becomes tangled and irritable,

Filled with petty bitterness and anger,

Mixed with the tears of the crushed.

She doesn’t sleep for two weeks,

Even after she forgave him for the hurt he brought her,

And forgets to eat sometimes.

It’s not so bad when your mind becomes distracted by your neglect.

He’s none the wiser to her pain anymore.

He said yes,

But she never left.

[lostwanderingsesrching]

I knew I was worthless the moment you cheated on me.

[young-dumb-and-broken16]

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to trust again

[apikaliaa]

“If you love two people at the same time, chose the second. Because if you really loved the first, you wouldn’t have fallen for the second.”

— Johnny Depp // Excerpt from a love story that doesn’t exist #25

[welcometoyouredoom]

[solounarosa]

We weren’t in love but the betrayal stings so sweet that I forget sometimes.

solounarosa

[divinepoem]

“i. separate yourself. discipline is key. remember you’re better than him. block him. text your best friend instead. and turn the pictures around. ii. lie to yourself and say that the good times weren’t that good. repeat this until the voice that’s arguing against it is silent. iii. delete the screenshots. you won’t need them. iv. cry. a lot. it’s okay. cry with your friend. cry alone. cry to your family. it’s okay. v. get angry. you’re allowed bitterness. vi. spit the putrid taste of his lips out of your mouth and onto the ground. curse his name until it is raw on your tongue. scrub your skin so you are clean of his touch. vii. replace him with that friend you haven’t spoken to since august. it’s worth it. viii. reject the phone call. that one, too. ix. smile. force it if you have to. smile at strangers. and at children. and at your mother. and at the “other girl”. and at yourself. x. forgive if only you wish to.”

— ten essential steps to moving on