There Will Be No Further Explanation

27 | NY | ♀| tired af

[lovelikesongbirds]

Wow- looking back at this blog after not logging on in so long is a trip.

I spent a wild number of hours organizing tags, reading fandom analysis, and god knows what else.

Now I’m like...a 27 year old adult with a career whose free time is spent watching reality tv and being bummed over unrequited love. I guess some things don’t change...

[pillowprincesslexa]

[lovelikesongbirds]

hi lmao, so i know you're probably not gonna see this buttttt.... do you remember selfie anon? that's me! i was just going through the tag and i gotta say.... thank you so much for putting up with my 15/16 year old bullshit lmao, not many people would have done it. it's so nice to be able to look back on my idiocy! i hope all is well with you xxx

I haven’t logged into this account in A MINUTE so I’m not sure when you sent this, but hi! Nice to have the mystery of selfie anon revealed. Hope all is well with you as too, especially during this crazy time.

[normvndy]

The woman I loved…is…dead.

[swan-heda]

Sorry to ask and it's totally okay if you don't feel like answering, but why haven't you coming out yet? Are the people around you unsafe to come out to?

I left this ask in my ask box for a very long time because I didn’t know how to answer it until now. I’ve really been struggling trying to figure out why I haven’t been able to come out. The answer is definitely multi-faceted.

I always thought that the reason I was waiting to come out was because I had nothing to “come out” about. 1) I had never actually dated or been with someone of the same sex, so how would I know if I was actually not straight? What if I just think I like women but actually don’t once I experience what it’s actually like? (Spoiler alert past me: You’re definitely not straight…). And 2) I didn’t even know what I self identified as - it’s hard to come out when you don’t know what the heck to come out as.

Cut to today where I know for a fact that I am so not straight and I’ve finally found a label/identity that feels comfortable and true for me (bisexual), and I still haven’t found the courage to come out. After a lot of thought (and therapy - side note: therapy is the shit yo), I’ve come to realize that the reason I haven’t come out yet is because I haven’t really accepted the fact that I’m not straight. A very small part of me is still actively trying to fight it. Internalized homophobia is rough man.

I spent a very long time denying the fact that I wasn’t straight and it’s only in the past few years that I’ve actually admitted I need to start accepting it. But it is so fucking hard to accept. Acceptance is something I’ve been struggling with for a while. What will my family and friends say? Will their opinion of me change? How hard is my life going to be if I have to constantly fight battles for rights and continuously re-out myself not knowing how people will take it? I am very reluctant to shed my straight-passing privilege. And then there’s the religious aspect. I was raised Catholic and we all know how they feel about the gays…I don’t identify as religious, but it’s hard to un-train years of thinking a certain way. It’s been a constant struggle for me to be comfortable with myself and to accept myself. It’s something I’m working on currently and hopefully I will figure my shit out soon because it 👏🏼is 👏🏼fucking👏🏼exhausting!!!!! The closet is getting pretty stuffy and claustrophobic. I am ready to be frrrrrrreeeeeeeeee.

[wonderswoman]

You are so brave and quiet I forget you are s u f f e r i n g. (requested by anonymous)

[fy-alyciadc]

Alycia Via @KingofBingo

[superdevio]

that’s the mood, sis.

[lovelikesongbirds]

Black Mirror: Which type of cereal would you like?

Also Black Mirror: BURY OR CHOP UP THE BODY!?!

[habeenkimoved-deactivated201903]

rb this with how long you’ve been on tumblr and what ur blog was initally about vs what’s it about now

[nyctoheart]

people who made blogs before 2012 are the Ancient Gods talked about in fantasy

[kleksuh]

“why do you still run a clexa blog if your ship is-”

(x)

[commanderlexaofthegrounders]

What It’s Like to Wear CHANEL Couture for the First Time (coveteur.com)

[fy-alyciadc]

“We are the only OG’s left. We have to have each other’s back” (x)

[lovelikesongbirds]

Doesn’t Alycia wear contacts in every role? Because she needs them to see? Or am I dumb and missing something lol

I mean yea but it’s cute to think of it in the world of the shows….like how did lexa kom trikru aka commander of the grounders get her hands on contact lenses in the year 2150?

Are they reusable? Is there a grounder CVS where Titus had to go to buy eye drops? Does her nightly routine not only include putting on grounder glitter but taking off her contacts???

Same for Alicia. Girl can barely find food yet she’s still got contacts (and a sick wardrobe).

[lovelikesongbirds]

Not sure why, but I love spotting Alycia’s contacts in all of her post apocalyptic roles.

[lovelikesongbirds]

hey angel! how’s it going? post a selfie please n thanks??? -selfie anon

Helloooo......nope :)

[commanderlexas]

#FearTheWalkingDead