identity v | eli clark / luchino diruse | 100 words
prompt: are you sure about that ♡ for #ficwip discord's drabble challenge
tags: implied sexual content, angst, hurt no comfort, first time, unhealthy coping mechanisms
No vision could've prepared Eli for the moment he stepped willingly toward his damnation.
Exhaustion. Loneliness. Fear. They can push good men to do the unthinkable. And Luchino, persistent, had been circling him for days.
Guilt wasn’t strong enough to stop him. Not that night.
“So you’ve finally decided, then?”
The mockery should’ve stung, but desperation left no room for pride. Only the selfish urge to choose for himself, even if it ruined him. If his mouth was the only way to silence him, if his body was the only way to forget what awaited him… then so be it.
Frank Ocean // Queering the Map // Frank Ocean // Quora // Lemony Snicket // Marina Abramović // Charli XCX // Beach Bunny // Queering the Map // JP Saxe // Adventure Time
1. I care for you still and I will forever / that was my part of the deal, honest
2. Screenshot from Queering the Map: “We fell in love here, sneaking around your parents and dropping hands every time they came to take food we made or get coffee from the kitchen. We paddled around your lake, we had picnics, we had fun. I don’t miss you anymore, I hope you’re doing well and have found something and someone who makes you happy!”
3. I will always love you how I do / let go of a prayer for you / just a sweet word / the table is prepared for you
4. Question from Quora: “What does it mean when he says ‘You have a special place in my heart?’” Response: “It means that no matter what happens, even if you both are apart, even if you can’t see each other anymore, even if you both have someone in your hearts- your memories and deeds that you have given him will forever be remembered and cherished within him/her.”
5. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday.
6. GIF of Marina Abramović and Ulay at The Artist is Present
7. I know in the future / we won’t see each other / cold just like December / but I will always love / I’ll love you forever
8. Even when we fade eventually to nothing / you will always be my favorite form of loving
9. Screenshot from Queering the Map: “We had one of our very last dates at 82 Queen. While you were holding my hands and gazing into my eyes, you told me how much it meant to you to be in public with a girlfriend, and not be afraid that anyone would see. A few weeks later, I came out to my mom, and spent the next months on lockdown, stuck alone in my house. I had to end things b/c of it, but I will always treasure that night at 82 Queen. How beautiful you looked, the lovely sound of your laughter, and the way your eyes looked when you looked at me. I miss you.”
10. You weren’t down for forever and it’s fine / I know, you know, we know / we weren’t meant got each other and it’s fine
11. Picture of the treehouse from Adventure Time with text that says: “Time is an illusion that helps things make sense, so we are always living in the present tense. It seems unforgiving when a good thing ends, but you and I will always be back then.”
wintersong, s. jae-jones / orestes, euripides / bloodsport, yves olade / antigone, sophocles / mess is mine, vance joy / x / forever winter, taylor swift / x / x / x / aaron o'hanlon / the best day, taylor swift / the seven husbands of evelyn hugo, taylor jenkins reid / cat on a hot tin roof, tennessee williams / the song of achilles, madeline miller / dancing with our hands tied, taylor swift / h of h playbook, anne carson / mouthful of forevers, clementine von radics / caption: radiate, harbour
Wanted to make gyjo buttons, here’s the little doodles I came up with, not too sure if I like how Johnny came out (which sucks bc hes my fav </3) Might redo it later :3
