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Too much within the last 3 years has made me realise what on earth was u thinking! It's changed me... Some for the good but I've been killing myself without the realisation that it doesn't look nice or healthy, it destroys your thoughts, overtakes ever last thought you have, controls your decisions and plans. Makes you angry when someone inter ones with your schedule in your head... Suppose it's just a click and thought that you will one day wake up and say enough is enough. Won't be easy but it will happen. It's taken me 3 1/2 years to get to this point but the fact my physical appearance changed dramatically and now my health and teeth have gone to nothing, I've had to make the decision. There's still a voice saying I don't want to but another saying you'll die if you don't
