Lover Of Dream

Lover of storytelling, adventures, and nature. Aspires to spread as much light and love as possible.

[loverofdream]

Life Lately: ‘’Post Grad/Unemployment’’

It has been over a month since I got my college degree and everything has gone smoothly-- I was able to do the things that was never apart of my routine during the hell week of college to know that I have all the time in the world to do all these things is the beacon of hope for every Fresh Grads whose confusion towards the career path to partake is a little vague and to continue a path after their College Degree seems to be an unsettling decision for anyone who feels scared, tormented, and worthless. 

I hope that whatever this heavy feeling in our chest goes away and if it’s true that this is just a plain old phase which is a transition between being a student and now an adult who has debts to pay. We’re all allowed to feel clueless-- to not know what we have to do after college is normal so you don’t have to make yourself feel bad for not having the list of things like your colleagues. 

  Stop discrediting your success. You’ve worked hard enough just like everyone. Even if it takes a little while to figured the life you aspire for yourself it’s okay you’ll get there. We’ll all get there. Together.

[loverofdream]

Dear Emiko,

  I’m writing this letter to you because I’ve been worried lately. I would say it out loud but I would cry too much. This is probably going to be the deepest thing I’ve ever wrote to you and I’m going to try and make it because I want you to know how much I care and I know you know that  but if you ever forget it, then you’ll have this.

Emiko is the most nicest human being (besides the numerous times, she tries to be a bitch but she ends up failing) Don’t mess with her unless, you don’t want me to throw a brick at your ridiculously annoying face.

She’s the definition of a wallflower.

She cries easily like a sweet little infant.

And there are no words to describe how much I need, love and care about you.

  This is my friend. We’ve been friends for almost a year now. Let me just tell you a little bit about her.

My  friend is so incredible. I don’t know how I got so lucky to have a friend who is determined to help me see the best of me.

When I have bad days- she brightens them.

When I have ugly days- she reminds me that I’m perfect the way I am, that God doesn’t make mistakes, she makes me look in the mirror and love myself.

When I have the “hating myself” days- she reminds me of who I am, the person that I have lost sight of.

When I feel like the world is ending- she reminds me it’s not, it’s just another climb

When I feel alone- she is always there for me

From this past few days, you’ve been completely cranky. I miss you so much, you simply have no idea. I want to talk to you in school but you always seem so angry so I just distances myself from you… everyone also said it would be for the best so I did that.

I miss everything, this is why i agreed to write you a letter.

I just don’t wanna think about you leaving and going to another country. The thought of you leaving makes me scared.

We fight over silly things. That what makes our friendship stronger.

To her future suitors/boyfriend:

Please don’t ever take her for granted Please be honest Please listen Please remember how much you miss her Please don’t give up on her Please cherish her laughter and her smile Please just love her with all your heart

You may not see it but without you I’d be lost. I think without you, my life would be no where close to what it is and that’s why I’m glad I have you. Every moment I have spent with you, whether good or bad, I have cherished because that’s what makes us friends. You’re the only one that I can truly tell anything to and I know you won’t judge me for it. You literally mean everything in the world to me. So now here’s where we get deep like a submarine. I can’t stand to see you hurt and sad, it crushes me inside and I don’t know what to say or do that can make it better so that’s why I’m writing this. You’re  absolutely beautiful on the inside and out (as cliché as that sounds it’s true.) and when you say  people don’t like you well fuck them if they don’t because it’s their loss.

I love you with all that is left of my broken soul. You fixed me. You saved me. And I took you for granted. The time I spent without you destroyed me as much as it destroyed you. I would have given my life for us to be close again. And here we are. And my life is yours, always. I love you more than I could even begin to explain.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                     Love,      

 Karanina. <3

                                                                                                                                                                                                                       (p.s. stay strong and smile more.)