The Medicine of Writing

Sharing my thoughts mainly for the love of writing and with some hope they may reach someone who has that 'me too' feeling. #You'renotalone 💙

[lovetowritelove]

Better

There's this crazy thing

That's been haunting me

For what seems like forever

At least.

They call it anxiety

But for me it's reality

I don't know any other way to be.

I say it's haunting me

Because that's how it feels

To be gripped in the fear

Of being in your own mind

Is all too real.

It seems there's no escape

The only thing left is to break

To give up the fight

Admit to yourself that happiness isn't a right

And this could be the rest if your life.

Thanks to Pandora there's this thing called hope

A lifeline

For me it makes me choke

It enhances the fear for next time

When I wander that precarious line

Not daring to believe I'm free

For that is what would make me happy

To be better, to be me

[lovetowritelove]

An ordinary day.

Overthinking

Day dreaming

Heart hurting

Head pounding

Lungs gasping

Sweat pouring

Breath catching

Room spinning

Thoughts simmering

Boiling over

Into everything

So that nothing is as it seems.

[lovetowritelove]

All I Need

I'm a fantasist. A dreamer. A love lyric believer. I stare at what once was blue Hoping one day soon You'll find me staring at the stars And you'll join me under our midnight canopy Because you know it will be you and me That's destiny, you see. From then on you'll imagine All the ways I smile Because those lines Are as familiar as the laughter in your eyes To me And, crazy as it seems, That's all I need.

[lovetowritelove]

Raw

I'm not a child anymore I know your words can't break me If I let me protect me So I'm finally locking that door. You can throw me all you want I'm set out to prove to me I'm strong You can tell me I'm nothing I want to be But there in front of me is that brick wall. You can use your hammer, You can beat me down, I'll get up. I'm not going to lose this battle You can't see my armour In this silent war. And what you don't know will hurt you Did I forget to mention? I've fought empires before. Your words are pinpricks Where I've pulled out daggers. My shield reflects your ugliness, You don't matter Because I'm healed where I once was raw.

[lovetowritelove]

Black Mirror

I need a black mirror Like a sea into my soul So nobody sees my reflection They only see me glow They can't decide the colour That they want me to be They only see the darkness And in the black glass there's me No sunlight or blurred edges Or rain distorting this view Dust won't destroy this image Because what you see is true The comfort of this vision Will bring me only hope That nothing will be the same again With this new window to my soul You'll see what you want to see If I let the rays shine down on me So to save myself from sadness With this black mirror I don't deceive.

[lovetowritelove]

SHE

She hid behind the curtains

so scared of what she'd see

It was so long since he'd said that she was beautiful

that no longer did she believe

She tried to peek around them

to see from the world's eyes

but she found she couldn't do it

She just couldn't shed that light

She didn't want to know

She wished she didn't care

She wanted to believe everything would be okay

as long as he was there

The harder she tried to believe it

The more apparent it wasn't true

because the longer she spent studying

She picked out more and more faults, new

She wished he would hold her tight

Make her feel like a princess once more

because eventhough she saw love in his eyes

Those curtains were still drawn.