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HI GUYS!

I know I was away for a long time, but I had a lot of things I had to deal with (mental health, school, friends etc.) And lately I really got in mood to start writing again here, I’m just not quite there, so if any of you has a request, or an idea or anything feel free to send me and I will try my best I promise.

I actually just got a job, and I’m starting on March 1st, but until then I have a lot of time, so I think this is the best time to get back. And also I’m so great full for all of you (I have 1022 followers, like whaaaat), and I’m truly sorry for disappearing that long.

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No... I’m fine.. *sobbing* yeah I’m fine.. *sobbing intensifies*

ENDGAME?! REALLY?!

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Everyone you love is made of stardust (insp.)

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So as you can see I posted the third part of Soldier Baby two times. Why? I don’t know. One is just totally disappeared and I was so angry, but I could make it again, so I posted that but two days later, the first version just posted itself.

Like what?

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Soldier baby

Part 3

Summary: Bucky and the reader ar together for a while now. They decide they want a family. It didn’t take long for the reader to get pregnant, but the pregnancy is not easy for them. They are avengers, which leads to a lot of danger, and the baby has half of his daddy’s super serum. Request by: @h-ness1944 Warnings: angst, fluff(a lot), mention of sex, little bit sad Words count: 2500 A/N: Thanks for the names it was a big help. I wrote them all down on a paper and randomly picked one and it’s:... You have to read it to find out ;) Btw I liked one a lot so he has two names now.

Part 1    Part2 

“I hold your hand. Every night, I am right next to you. I don’t wanna lose you, I won't. I made a promise to our son, that he can see you, and he will meet you, he will know you, and you will be an amazing mother, but you have to wake up my love. Until then, I will take good care of him, don’t worry, just promise me you will come back.” Bucky told you this every night while holding your hand, whispering.

He also told everything about your son, and what he did today. And he didn’t name it yet. He just wanted to wait for you. He said he is perfect, and he is the happiest person on the whole world, but he really misses you. He told you that the others are really nice to him too, and he will have the best family.

Every morning and night, he took the baby to you and just put him next to you for a little bit. He talked to you both. He thought this will wake you up, but it haven’t worked yet. Maybe the baby can’t show emotion yet, but Bucky could feel he misses you, and he missed you too so much.

Everyone missed you a lot. They visited you daily and just asked you to wake up, but you never did. They felt extremely sorry for Bucky, he had to look out for his newborn son, and he is just learning to be a father, and also he is extremely missing you. But he still was happy, and extremely positive. But when he thought  the others were not around, he sat by your bed every night crying but the other acted like they didn’t know.

Also they tried to help as much as they can. The baby was still really small, just over a week old, so there was nothing much to do with him. Just feeding him and calm him down when he was crying. They all loved him a lot, and even if he didn’t needed much attention, they spent a lot of time with him.

A few more week passed and you were still asleep. The others kinda knew you will never wake up again, but none of them wanted to tell Bucky, he had so much hope in you. It was almost like he saw the future and he knew you will wake up. Bruce and other doctors who examined you said there is just a 5% chance that you wake up, but that didn’t scare Bucky away.

He also found the perfect house for you, and Tony helped him bought it for you. He already started the painting, and some renovating, and also he bought furnitures so when you come everything will be perfect. He knew you so well, he knew your style, and he tried to design the perfect house for you, and the baby.

My eyelids felts soo heavy. I couldn’t open my eyes but I felt awake. I couldn’t move. It was like only my mind is awake and my body is not. I tried to move a little. A few minutes later I was able to move my hand. I didn’t know where I was. I couldn’t think clearly.

Slowly I couldn’t open my eyes. Just blank white. But as my vision cleared I could see some textures. I could turn my head around. I was in bed, in a hospital’s bed. I still had no idea why am I here, or what happened.

As I looked around longer I started to remember things. I slowly grabbed my stomach, and it felt flat. So it wasn’t just a dream. I did really gave birth to my child. I am not pregnant anymore, and I survived it and now my son and Bucky are waiting for me.

I looked out of the window. It was daytime. I must’ve sleep for a whole day. Which I totally understand because I felt so exhausted. But I was ready to meet them. Little bit later I was able to sit up. I didn’t have really bad pain,or any pain, maybe they gave me some painkillers. I kinda felt like i was asleep for a week.

Standing up was a little bit hard and I almost lost my balance, but I was motivated. I wanted to see my son. I wanna see his little face, I wanna smell him, I wanna hold him and kiss him. The room next to me suppose be his room, but it was empty. I looked around for other rooms, but all of them were empty.

I couldn’t understand. He is just one day old and they already took him out? I walked to the elevator and pressed the button to the living area. Maybe it’s because he has some of his dad’s super serum, and when he was born he was extremely healthy, or at least that’s what I told myself to calm down.

—

Bucky sat down in the living room turning on the Tv. He could finally relax a little. The baby was asleep, and Wanda told him she will look out for him. He loved his son, a lot, but sometimes it was really hard, especially the nights.

“Hey Buck” Steve said sitting next to Bucky “I wanna talk with you about.... (Y/N).”

“No Steve don’t start it. She will wake up I know okay?” Bucky said. He already know the others gave up hope un you, but he didn’t he never will.

“I wish, believe me, that would be the best, but what if not..” Steve asked carefully.

“SHE WILL” Bucky had tears in his eyes “I know.. I know..” he whispered. He was not angry, he was sad. Maybe deep deep down he knew you will never wake up, and he should just stop hoping, and face the truth.

“Steve I can’t live without her” he said crying. “She is my everything, and I promised my son that he will meet her. Without her I can’t do it... I can’t.”

Steve hugged his friend trying hard not to cry. “I know pal, we all miss her, but you can do it, okay? You have your son, and no matter what happens to (Y/N) he is yours and hers son, and he is now the most important.”

Bucky nodded still crying a little. Steve was right. Even if the worst happens to you, he has to be there for his son, no matter what. Suddenly the elevator door opened. Both of them looked there, Bucky still crying. You stand there smiling at them holding onto the wall to not fall. Bucky couldn’t believe it, and Steve either.

—

I saw tears in Bucky’s eyes. What did they talked about that made him cry? I knew something is not okay, and I couldn’t help but think at the worst. No, no that can’t be right? 

“Bucky? Whats going on?” My voice was shaky. I was scared, I had no idea what’s happening.

He quickly stand up and ran ip to me. He hugged me and he was a little bit heavy and I almost fell back but thankfully the wall was there. He put his head on my chest and cried even more. He said something, but I couldn’t understand it.

“Bucky, please tell me our son is alright” I grabbed his face and made him look at me. He nodded. I was so relieved. I couldn’t imagine what would I do if something happens to him.

“I-I missed you (Y/N) so much” he said. Kissing my forehead and pulled me close to him again.

“What? I was asleep for like what? A day, how many things happened since?” I giggled and caressed his hair. He looked at me tears in his eye. I was happy that everything was alright, Bucky is here with me, and I’m ready to see our son.

“You were in a coma for 1 month” I was shocked. I almost fell on the ground but Bucky grabbed me. That can’t be true. Yeah, it made sense, but at the same time it didn’t. I just didn’t wanted to believe it.

 “They said you won’t wake up, but I knew you will. I was there every night, talking to you, and our son saw you every morning and night. I knew you will come back, to him, and to me” Bucky looked in my eyes. I was so shocked. I felt the tears flowing down on my cheeks.

“Hey... It’s okay.. You are okay now, I am here and you can finally see our son” He said holding my face, never breaking eye contact. He kissed me, and I kissed him back. We were both crying. 

“Come you have to see someone” Bucky smiled at me holnding my hand and pulling me, and I let him lead me.

We walked into our room. I saw Wanda sitting next to the baby’s bed and using her magic, to make cute animals moving, and playing above him. She looked at me and gasped. She ran to me and hugged me tight.

“Oh my God you are awake. Oh (Y/N) I missed you so much” she said hugging me once agan. “I thought... No, I don’t wanna talk about it.. go.” She smiled and  stepped next to me so I could see him.

I walked to him and I stand next to his bed. He was just sleeping in his bed. He looked so relaxed, and perfect. I already loved him so much, and he really couldn’t be any more perfect. He woke up slowly with a cute little yaw. He looked right into my eye, and I could already tell he had his daddy’s beautiful blue eyes.

I picked him up and hugged him close to me. I tried really hard not to cry but I just couldn’t. He was just too perfect. He couldn’t take of his eyes of my face and I swear he looked like he is smiling at me. He started playfully kicking around, which made me cry even more.

“He recognizes you. He knows you are his mom, and look how happy he is” Bucky said huggin me from the behind and looking over my shoulder. He kissed my shoulder.

“He is perfect” he started to play with my fingers. I giggled and gently kissed the top of his tiny head.

“He is. And he is our son, baby. We are his parents, what an honor” I giggled and Bucky kissed the side of my head. 

Wanda left the room. We were just standing there for minutes. I hold my beautiful son in my hands and we talked to him with Bucky. I couldn’t get enough of him, I never wanna let go of him, but soon he fell asleep. I put him back in his bed, and gently kissed the top of his head again. 

Bucky closed the door very carefully and we walked outside. He turned around and hugged me close to himself whispering sweet nothings into my ear. I couldn’t imagine how hard could it be for Bucky, but he had hope, and he visited me every day, which I think helped a lot. Maybe it was the reason why I woke up.

“I didn’t named him yet.. I wanted to wait for you.” He said looking into my eyes. “I have a few ideas though.”

“Yeah me too” I smiled at him.

“I was thinking about, don’t laugh.... Sam” Bucky said.

“Aww I really like that. But Sam will be really cocky about it” I giggled.

“Yeah maybe... but I still like the name, and I think it suits him. Anyways what’s yours” He grabbed my hand smiling at me.

“I was thinking about Lennon.” I said.He was thinking for a moment then smiled at me.

“Yeah I like that. Its unique” He said. “Samuel Lennon Barnes” he said with a wild smile.

I honestly loved that. I think this name is pretty special so is he. But we will be a pretty special family, so it’s perfect. I kissed Bucky and just tried to stay in that moment for forever. 

A few weeks later we were all like a family. The others were really happy and reliefed to see me, and at first they couldn’t believe I actually wake up. They told me everything about our son and the girls killed me with the cute stories of Bucky and how gentle and amazing and cute he was with him.

The three of us spent a lot of time together. Sometimes me and Bucky just sit there watching as he is sleeping. I can’t imagine his life without a mother, and I couldn’t imagine my life without him, or Bucky.

“Hey (Y/N)” Bucky said hugging me from the behind. He whispered into my ears. “I have a surprise for you, but we have to leave for that, but don’t worry Sam is sleeping and Wanda is looking out for him.”

I winked at him and let him lead me. We got into the car and he drove away. I was a little bit confused. About half an hour later we got to a house. It looked amazing. I whis I could live here. Bucky got out of the car walking towards the door.

“What are you doing?” I laughed and followed him.

When we got to the door I saw him pulling some keys out. I gasped. That’s can’t be real. He opened the door and we stepped into the house. It had already furniture in it, and it was amazing, just as I like it. Everything looked perfect.

“Welcome home” Bucky said from behind me smiling.

“No you didn’t..” I just couldn’t believe it. He nodded. I ran to him, jumped on him and kissed him. “I love you”

“I love you more” he said between kisses. “But let me prove it to you” He said with a smirk.

He walked up upstairs still holding me. We got into a room... to the bedroom. He didn’t stopped kissing me and we fall on the bed, he on top of me.

“I missed you so much” he said kissing my neck.

“Im all yours” I smirked at him pulling him closer to kiss him again.

Living in that house was amazing. Little Sam liked it too, and we could move in in a few days. We are really like a normal family, maybe it’s no that hard after all. But we still have a pretty cool, and tragic past, but now it doesn’t matter. With him both of us could start a new life. He teaches us a lot of things, and even if parenting is really not easy, we love it. Maybe we will miss being an avenger, but everything ends somehow, and now we just can’t imagine our life somehow different, without him.

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Soldier baby

Part 3

Summary: Bucky and the reader ar together for a while now. They decide they want a family. It didn’t take long for the reader to get pregnant, but the pregnancy is not easy for them. They are avengers, which leads to a lot of danger, and the baby has half of his daddy’s super serum. Request by: @h-ness1944 Warnings: fluff (a lot), angst, a little bit sad, mention of sex Words count: 2500

A/N: So first. I put this part in schedule and it supposed to post yesterday, but it disappear and I was so so angry and I also had a mini heart attack, but I had a copy of it so huh.. We are saved :D. Anyways, thanks for the boy names I liked them, all but I couldn’t choose, so I wrote them all on a paper piece and randomly chose one, but I actually really liked one of them so now he has two names which is: .... well you have to read it to find out ;) Enjoy.

Part1        Part2

"I hold your hand. Every night, I am right next to you. I don't wanna lose you, I won't. I made a promise to our son, that he can see you, and he will meet you, he will know you, and you will be an amazing mother, but you have to wake up my love. Until then, I will take good care of him, don't worry, just promise me you will come back." Bucky told you this every night while holding your hand, whispering.

He also told everything about your son, and what he did today. And he didn't name it yet. He just wanted to wait for you. He said he is perfect, and he is the happiest person on the whole world, but he really misses you. He told you that the others are really nice to him too, and he will have the best family.

Every morning and night, he took the baby to you and just put him next to you for a little bit. He talked to you both. He thought this will wake you up, but it haven't worked yet. Maybe the baby can't show emotion yet, but Bucky could feel he misses you, and he missed you too so much.

Everyone missed you a lot. They visited you daily and just asked you to wake up, but you never did. They felt extremely sorry for Bucky, he had to look out for his newborn son, and he is just learning to be a father, and also he is extremely missing you. But he still was happy, and extremely positive. But when he thought the others were not around, he sat by your bed every night crying but the other acted like they didn't know.

Also they tried to help as much as they can. The baby was still really small, just over a week old, so there was nothing much to do with him. Just feeding him and calm him down when he was crying. They all loved him a lot, and even if he didn't needed much attention, they spent a lot of time with him.

A few more week passed and you were still asleep. The others kinda knew you will never wake up again, but none of them wanted to tell Bucky, he had so much hope in you. It was almost like he saw the future and he knew you will wake up. Bruce and other doctors who examined you said there is just a 5% chance that you wake up, but that didn't scare Bucky away.

He also found the perfect house for you, and Tony helped him bought it for you. He already started the painting, and some renovating, and also he bought furnitures so when you come everything will be perfect. He knew you so well, he knew your style, and he tried to design the perfect house for you, and the baby.

My eyelids felts soo heavy. I couldn't open my eyes but I felt awake. I couldn't move. It was like only my mind is awake and my body is not. I tried to move a little. A few minutes later I was able to move my hand. I didn't know where I was. I couldn't think clearly.

Slowly I couldn't open my eyes. Just blank white. But as my vision cleared I could see some textures. I could turn my head around. I was in bed, in a hospital's bed. I still had no idea why am I here, or what happened.

As I looked around longer I started to remember things. I slowly grabbed my stomach, and it felt flat. So it wasn't just a dream. I did really gave birth to my child. I am not pregnant anymore, and I survived it and now my son and Bucky are waiting for me.

I looked out of the window. It was daytime. I must've sleep for a whole day. Which I totally understand because I felt so exhausted. But I was ready to meet them. Little bit later I was able to sit up. I didn't have really bad pain,or any pain, maybe they gave me some painkillers. I kinda felt like i was asleep for a week.

Standing up was a little bit hard and I almost lost my balance, but I was motivated. I wanted to see my son. I wanna see his little face, I wanna smell him, I wanna hold him and kiss him. The room next to me suppose be his room, but it was empty. I looked around for other rooms, but all of them were empty.

I couldn't understand. He is just one day old and they already took him out? I walked to the elevator and pressed the button to the living area. Maybe it's because he has some of his dad's super serum, and when he was born he was extremely healthy, or at least that's what I told myself to calm down.

Bucky sat down in the living room turning on the Tv. He could finally relax a little. The baby was asleep, and Wanda told him she will look out for him. He loved his son, a lot, but sometimes it was really hard, especially the nights.

"Hey Buck" Steve said sitting next to Bucky "I wanna talk with you about.... (Y/N)."

"No Steve don't start it. She will wake up I know okay?" Bucky said. He already know the others gave up hope un you, but he didn't he never will.

"I wish, believe me, that would be the best, but what if not.." Steve asked carefully.

"SHE WILL" Bucky had tears in his eyes "I know.. I know.." he whispered. He was not angry, he was sad. Maybe deep deep down he knew you will never wake up, and he should just stop hoping, and face the truth.

"Steve I can't live without her" he said crying. "She is my everything, and I promised my son that he will meet her. Without her I can't do it... I can't."

Steve hugged his friend trying hard not to cry. "I know pal, we all miss her, but you can do it, okay? You have your son, and no matter what happens to (Y/N) he is yours and hers son, and he is now the most important."

Bucky nodded still crying a little. Steve was right. Even if the worst happens to you, he has to be there for his son, no matter what. Suddenly the elevator door opened. Both of them looked there, Bucky still crying. You stand there smiling at them holding onto the wall to not fall. Bucky couldn't believe it, and Steve either.

I saw tears in Bucky's eyes. What did they talked about that made him cry? I knew something is not okay, and I couldn't help but think at the worst. No, no that can't be right?

"Bucky? Whats going on?" My voice was shaky. I was scared, I had no idea what's happening.

He quickly stand up and ran ip to me. He hugged me and he was a little bit heavy and I almost fell back but thankfully the wall was there. He put his head on my chest and cried even more. He said something, but I couldn't understand it.

"Bucky, please tell me our son is alright" I grabbed his face and made him look at me. He nodded. I was so relieved. I couldn't imagine what would I do if something happens to him.

"I-I missed you (Y/N) so much" he said. Kissing my forehead and pulled me close to him again.

"What? I was asleep for like what? A day, how many things happened since?" I giggled and caressed his hair. He looked at me tears in his eye. I was happy that everything was alright, Bucky is here with me, and I'm ready to see our son.

"You were in a coma for 1 month" I was shocked. I almost fell on the ground but Bucky grabbed me. That can't be true. Yeah, it made sense, but at the same time it didn't. I just didn't wanted to believe it.

"They said you won't wake up, but I knew you will. I was there every night, talking to you, and our son saw you every morning and night. I knew you will come back, to him, and to me" Bucky looked in my eyes. I was so shocked. I felt the tears flowing down on my cheeks.

"Hey... It's okay.. You are okay now, I am here and you can finally see our son" He said holding my face, never breaking eye contact. He kissed me, and I kissed him back. We were both crying.

"Come you have to see someone" Bucky smiled at me holnding my hand and pulling me, and I let him lead me.

We walked into our room. I saw Wanda sitting next to the baby's bed and using her magic, to make cute animals moving, and playing above him. She looked at me and gasped. She ran to me and hugged me tight.

"Oh my God you are awake. Oh (Y/N) I missed you so much" she said hugging me once agan. "I thought... No, I don't wanna talk about it.. go." She smiled and stepped next to me so I could see him.

I walked to him and I stand next to his bed. He was just sleeping in his bed. He looked so relaxed, and perfect. I already loved him so much, and he really couldn't be any more perfect. He woke up slowly with a cute little yaw. He looked right into my eye, and I could already tell he had his daddy's beautiful blue eyes.

I picked him up and hugged him close to me. I tried really hard not to cry but I just couldn't. He was just too perfect. He couldn't take of his eyes of my face and I swear he looked like he is smiling at me. He started playfully kicking around, which made me cry even more.

"He recognizes you. He knows you are his mom, and look how happy he is" Bucky said huggin me from the behind and looking over my shoulder. He kissed my shoulder.

"He is perfect" he started to play with my fingers. I giggled and gently kissed the top of his tiny head.

"He is. And he is our son, baby. We are his parents, what an honor" I giggled and Bucky kissed the side of my head.

Wanda left the room. We were just standing there for minutes. I hold my beautiful son in my hands and we talked to him with Bucky. I couldn't get enough of him, I never wanna let go of him, but soon he fell asleep. I put him back in his bed, and gently kissed the top of his head again.

Bucky closed the door very carefully and we walked outside. He turned around and hugged me close to himself whispering sweet nothings into my ear. I couldn't imagine how hard could it be for Bucky, but he had hope, and he visited me every day, which I think helped a lot. Maybe it was the reason why I woke up.

"I didn't named him yet.. I wanted to wait for you." He said looking into my eyes. "I have a few ideas though."

"Yeah me too" I smiled at him.

"I was thinking about, don't laugh.... Sam" Bucky said.

"Aww I really like that. But Sam will be really cocky about it" I giggled.

"Yeah maybe... but I still like the name, and I think it suits him. Anyways what's yours" He grabbed my hand smiling at me.

"I was thinking about Lennon." I said.He was thinking for a moment then smiled at me.

"Yeah I like that. Its unique" He said. "Samuel Lennon Barnes" he said with a wild smile.

I honestly loved that. I think this name is pretty special so is he. But we will be a pretty special family, so it's perfect. I kissed Bucky and just tried to stay in that moment for forever.

A few weeks later we were all like a family. The others were really happy and reliefed to see me, and at first they couldn't believe I actually wake up. They told me everything about our son and the girls killed me with the cute stories of Bucky and how gentle and amazing and cute he was with him.

The three of us spent a lot of time together. Sometimes me and Bucky just sit there watching as he is sleeping. I can't imagine his life without a mother, and I couldn't imagine my life without him, or Bucky.

"Hey (Y/N)" Bucky said hugging me from the behind. He whispered into my ears. "I have a surprise for you, but we have to leave for that, but don't worry Sam is sleeping and Wanda is looking out for him."

I winked at him and let him lead me. We got into the car and he drove away. I was a little bit confused. About half an hour later we got to a house. It looked amazing. I whis I could live here. Bucky got out of the car walking towards the door.

"What are you doing?" I laughed and followed him.

When we got to the door I saw him pulling some keys out. I gasped. That's can't be real. He opened the door and we stepped into the house. It had already furniture in it, and it was amazing, just as I like it. Everything looked perfect.

"Welcome home" Bucky said from behind me smiling.

"No you didn't.." I just couldn't believe it. He nodded. I ran to him, jumped on him and kissed him. "I love you"

"I love you more" he said between kisses. "But let me prove it to you" He said with a smirk.

He walked up upstairs still holding me. We got into a room... to the bedroom. He didn't stopped kissing me and we fall on the bed, he on top of me.

"I missed you so much" he said kissing my neck.

"Im all yours" I smirked at him pulling him closer to kiss him again.

Living in that house was amazing. Little Sam liked it too, and we could move in in a few days. We are really like a normal family, maybe it's no that hard after all. But we still have a pretty cool, and tragic past, but now it doesn't matter. With him both of us could start a new life. He teaches us a lot of things, and even if parenting is really not easy, we love it. Maybe we will miss being an avenger, but everything ends somehow, and now we just can't imagine our life somehow different, without him.

[loveyoubarnes]

Help

So I’m writing the last part of Soldier Baby, but I need cute boy names, that you guys want. So suggest me a few and I will choose one. 

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Soldier baby

Part 2

Summary: Bucky and the reader ar together for a while now. They decide they want a family. It didn’t take long for the reader to get pregnant, but the pregnancy is not easy for them. They are avengers, which leads to a lot of danger, and the baby has half of his daddy’s super serum. Request by: @h-ness1944 Warnings: Fluff, little angst, mention of blood, giving birth, pregnant reader, mention of sex Words count: 2100

Part 1

After that accident, everything was normal again. Except that I was in pain, more and more, I had extreme cravings, it was not a great pregnancy, but I already loved my son so much, and I would do it all over again just for him. And I also had Bucky. He still kept his promise, and never left my side, and I could always count on him and the other avengers too.

I’m now 7 months pregnant, and I am huge. Everything is hard now, I can barely walk, sometimes I’m still sick, but I’m still very happy. Also one of the great things is that my belly is big enough to put food on it. We sit in the living room with Bucky watching some TV I had some popcorn and chocolate on my belly. Wanda walked in the room. 

“Hey! How is my favourite pregnant women?” Wanda asked as she sat down next to me. “And how is our already spoiled, but yet unborn baby?” She asked putting her hand on my belly. We didn’t had to go to Bruce about every single little thing, because we had Wanda, and with her magic she could tell if he is alright.

“He is strong, and heaaaavy” I said while sitting up. “Not the best pregnancy ever, but I don’t want to complain.” I caressed my belly smiling.

“(Y/N), you are pregnant. With a super soldier baby” She whispered the last part looking for a moment at Bucky. “You can complain as much as you want, because that doesn’t mean you don't love him or you are not grateful okay?” I nodded. She always knew what to say.

Natasha walked in the room. “Hey Wanda do you wanna go workout with me?” Wanda looked at me and I nodded and mouthed ‘go’.

“Okay I’m coming” She said happily.

“Hey (Y/N), soon you can join us too.” Natasha winked. I can’t wait to workout again. I just miss it so much. I used to train a lot with Natasha, and Bucky, but since I’m pregnant I can’t.

The rest of the day went as the others, nothing special. Bucky was there for me always, helped me when I couldn’t walk anymore, helped with my cravings, and most importantly, loved me. At night in the bedroom I was watching something while Bucky was showering. He walked out with just a towel hanging down on his waist. I bite my lips.

I’m pregnant thats a fact. I’m in pain that a fact too, but I am really horny. There were times when we literally didn’t left the bed for a whole day, and now, we didn’t had sex in 7 months. I missed his, hands all over my body, his lips on my hot skin, but what I missed the most what his...

“You are staring baby.” He said laughing. He gets in bed next to me. “What are you thinking about?” He said smiling down at me.

“I miss you. With this pregnancy we didn’t had sex in months, I'm horny.” Bucky laughed and kissed me.

“I know baby, me too, but just wait a little bit more, okay?” I nodded and kissed him. He kissed me back and caressed my belly. “Man, I can’t wait to see your cute little face.” He said looking down.

I smiled at him. He is gonna be a great father. I can only wish to be as cool and great as he will be. “Are we gonna move out?” I asked him.

He stopped and looked at me. We looked at each other yes. None of us really wanted to leave, especially, the others, and our job, but we knew with a baby everything will be different. We talked about moving out, but we never actually had a real talk, and since the baby can come anytime now, we have to talk about it.

“Yeah I was thinking about it too. And I think that’s still the best choice. We will all be safe.” He said a little bit sad. I grabbed his hand.

“I know.. I don’t wanna leave either.. but maybe when he’ll be older, we can do it again, and he’ll understand that his mommy and daddy are heroes, and they have to save the world.” He smiled at me and kissed me.

The next few days I was barely able to walk, and as much I loved my baby, I kinda had enough of this pregnancy. I just wanna see his little face, and hold him in my arms, before he destroys me on the inside. At the same time, I wasn’t sure that I’m ready for an actually small living being.

When I went to Bruce for some check ups, he told me that I’m maybe just 7 and a half month pregnant with him, but he is growing faster (thanks to his daddy), and now he can come out any time. I was happy and scared at the same time. At dinner they started to talk about what is going to happen when it’s time. They were extremely sweet, and everyone ‘had their job’, and everyone know what will they do if I’m gonna give birth, and I couldn’t help but cry a little, but now they are used to it and they know it’s just happy pregnancy tears.

A few days later I woke up in the middle of the night because of pains. I didn’t really paid to much attention to them. It was not the first time. Thats true that it was different than before but still. In the morning I felt them again, but nothing else. I didn’t wanted to tell Bucky, because he would panic I’m sure, so he kissed me and left the bed.

“Where are you going?” I asked him holding his hands trying to pull him back.

“To the gym with Steve. You know I need to get ready for holding the baby all day, I need strong arms” He winked at me, I laughed. I let him go.

“Alright, have fun” I waved him.

“Just tell friday if you need m, I’ll be there in a minute, and don’t give birth without me” He said before stepping out of the room.

Bucky left for like 10 minutes and I started to have pains again, this time it was worst. I stand up and walked around a little. I was panting because of the pain. I didn’t know if it’s a false alarm or it’s really happening now. I asked Friday for Wanda, she can tell me whats going on.

Wanda rushed through the door. The pain is getting worse and worse and I couldn’t stand anymore. I sat down on the ground, Wanda sat in front of me on the ground holding my belly. She looked at me in shock.

“What?” I screamed in pain.

“I think it’s time. Alright relax let’s go down” I nodded and stand up. I practiced ‘giving birth’ and I learned that walking is actually good, and helps me and the baby in labor.

We walked down to the hall, where I felt like I couldn’t do it anymore. I grabbed Wanda’s arm, and almost fell on the ground in pain. Wanda called for Bucky and told him to get here ASAP. I couldn’t really hear or see, I could only pay attention to my pain.

Then I felt something weird down there. Something warm was flowing down on my legs. I looked down and I saw my water just broke. That was the moment I realized I am giving birth, and I panicked. Wanda saw it too and we both started to panic. Suddenly I felt like I’m not ready yet, and I want to stop this now.

Luckily Thor was right there and saw us, and he rushed to us, and easily picked me up. I squeezed his arms in my pain, but he didn’t even care.

“Alright lady (Y/N) everything will be alright just breath, and try to relax.” He said starting to walk.

Just in time Bucky was there with Steve and we all run down to Bruce. Thor puts me down on the bed, and Bucky quickly sat next to me giving me his hand. I squeezed it as hard as I could.

“Ouch, baby just let my hand go for a second” Then he gave me his metal arm, so I won't crush his other hand. 

The five of us were there, I tried to breath, and not die in the pain, but Bruce was nowhere to find. Suddenly Peter rushed in the room. He started to say something about Bruce when he saw me, and literally passed out on the floor. I couldn’t really pay attention because it hurt so much, and because of the tears in my eyes, I couldn’t see clearly. 

“Great now we have to take care of him too” Steve said picking up the kid.

“Friday where is Bruce?” Wanda asked.

“He is not here at the moment, do you want me to call him?” Friday asked.

“YES!” Wanda Steve and Bucky screamed in synchronously.

“(Y/N) don’t worry everything is going to be alright, just breath, I know it hurts, I cant imagine it how much, but you are so strong you can make it believe me.” Bucky said, and as much as I wanted to scream at him, that ‘I don’t wanna do this because its way to painful, and I’m really scared’, his words really touched me and I started to believe I can really make it.

Then Tony ran into the labor. It was a chaos. Peter was lying on the bed unconsciously, Steve trying to help him, Wanda was on her phone trying to reach Bruce, Thor was just running around trying to help, and there was me giving birth, and Bucky just looked at him like ‘please help me, and her’

“Oh my god..” He slapped his hands together, and in a second he changed into some surgery outfit. “Okay I’m gonna help you give birth (Y/N)” I looked at him worried. He saw all the blood and other things too..“Okay... never mind.. I cant sorry.” 

Nothing was going like we wanted, it was really a chaos. I thought I will never gave birth to my child, and I was already suffering for more than an hour now. It was horrible worse than I could imagine. The next ones who came in was Natasha and Clint. I never saw Natasha panic before until now.

Clint looked around, he was the only person in the room, who wasn’t freaked out. He put on some glows and looked at me. “Listen (Y/N), I saw my wife giving birth so I kinda now everything, but since Bruce can’t be here for at least more 2 hours, I’m gonna help you, and you just have to do what I say okay?”

I nodded trying to not scream from an another pain wave. Clint asked everyone to leave the room expect Bucky. Clint was actually really helpful. He told me what kind of position should I be in, and told me to relax, and breath. Another hour passed, and I kinda get used to the pain, but sometimes it was still unbearable. 

After 3 hours Clint said that soon I can start to push. I panicked a little. I never gave birth before, and it’s sounds easy to push and everything, but how to do you do it exactly. What if I can’t do it? Bucky caressed my head, and I could see he hates to see my like this, and he just wanna help me, and stop the pain, and also he was scared too, just like me.

The door opened again and Bruce stepped in.

“Thank god, just in time” Clint said and stepped away. 

From now I didn’t really care who is helping me giving birth, or if I’m on my own I just wanted to finish it. Finally see his little face, hear his voice, and hug him to me. Bruce told Clint and Bucky to make everything ready for the baby, to get towels, and warm water, etc. So Bucky had to go, but quickly kissed my head and told me that I can do it and he loves me.

“Okay, push now!” Bruce said and I did as he asked. I couldn’t believe it could hurt more, but it did, it was like hell. I didn’t care, I screamed in pain and squeezed everything near me. “Okay I can see him, a few more push.”

I really thought I’m gonna die there. The pain was something I couldn’t describe. I actually felt like I’m gonna rip in half. I used all of my energy to push and I felt like I have no more. But if I really die now, I just wanna see my baby’s face.

“You are doing great just one more” He said and I pushed again using literally all of my energy, and I felt him coming out. Then I heard the baby crying, and that was the last thing I can remember.

[loveyoubarnes]

Soldier baby

Part 1

Summary: Bucky and the reader ar together for a while now. They decide they want a family. It didn’t take long for the reader to get pregnant, but the pregnancy is not easy for them. They are avengers, which leads to a lot of danger, and the baby has half of his daddy’s super serum. Request by: @h-ness1944 Warnings: angst, fluff, pregnant reader Words count: 2500

Being pregnant is not easy they say. Now try to be pregnant, from a super soldier. Right? Just imagine that it’s like a normal pregnancy but two times harder. When I first find out I am pregnant, I never felt happier, and I just couldn’t believe, I’m growing a living being in my body, from the man I love the most. Bucky Barnes.

We are together for 2 years now. I became an avenger just a few months after Bucky did. Therefore we quickly became friends, then easily lovers. We had a lot in common, and Bucky really trusted me, and also he was super sweet, and caring, so it was not hard to fall for him. For me the whole group is like a family, and I love every single one of them, but Bucky means everything to me and I love him so much.

After two years, we did think about having a family. We both wanted kids, but our work made it kind of impossible. I was an avenger, and he was too. Our work is already hard, and sometimes we barely have time for each other, and we couldn’t really just have a ‘family leave’. Then we knew Clint did it somehow,  and actually we couldn’t stop thinking, and talking about it.

So we had a deal. If I get pregnant from the first three tries then we will have a baby. We talked about everything that will happen if we will have a baby. Until I’m pregnant we’ll stay here, because it’s safe here, and we will search for a safe house, then when the baby is born we move to there, and for a few years, I won't be an avenger, and Bucky will be with me in the first two years. There was a slight change that in that case we will never be avengers again.

And if I don't get pregnant then we wait a little bit, maybe a few years, when we are really ready. Or maybe just think about it again, because maybe it’s not a good idea, especially for us. Actually, it’s kind of impossible to imagine two avengers, living a normal life, with a family. And if that happens, maybe that’s the best for us, and for everyone.

And well... No one thought it will be successful on the first try. When Bruce told me the great news, I asked him, to check it again, because I couldn’t believe it. Bruce also said, that probably because Bucky has super serum, therefore, it’s not that unbelievable that I got pregnant from the first try, but still I felt extremely proud for myself.

From the moment I told Bucky he couldn’t stop smiling. I never saw him happier before. Also he was really sweet and gentle with me. I had the craziest cravings, and even if I woke Bucky up at like 2 am he still went and get me what I want. Also he read a lot of books about pregnancy and kids, when he thought I’m not watching. He is really amazing.

But as weeks, and months passed, my pregnancy got really bad. I was in so much pain, and I throw up all the time, and craved at the same time. Also I couldn’t work out anymore, and it made me really sad, but Bucky was there for me, and our baby was in my belly, which was still unbelievable for me. The rest of the Avengers always visited me, and spend a lot of time with me.

One of the hardest and best time was when I was 5 months pregnant. Best because we could see our baby for the first time. I remember that first it was just the two of us and Bruce. Bucky couldn’t wait to see our baby finally. When I asked him if he wants a boy or a girl, he said, he doesn’t care, he just wants to see it. I thought it’s extremely sweet, and I was pregnant, so I started crying. He thought he said something wrong, but I told him it’s fine and he was just sweet.

Then Bruce showed us our baby. It was a boy. I was so amazed, and I literally, couldn’t say anything. I just watched him as he was chilling in my belly, moving a little. I heard sniffing, next to me. I looked over and I saw Bucky in tears. I grabbed his hand and smiled at him. He smiled back, and wiped off the tears, and kissed the top of my head.

After we both cried for a little, we let the rest of the group in to see him. The boys started to ‘fight’ about who will be the uncle, and the girls already started to think about what kind of toys, and clothes they will buy for him. Everyone was so supportive, and extremely nice. This baby, will have an amazing family for sure.

But there were some bad things too. I am not as tall as Bucky, and definitely not as heavy, and strong, so for me, having a baby with super serum was really challenging, and hard. When the baby kicked I felt like someone just hit me in the stomach with a baseball bat. I literally visited Bruce every other day, and he told me that the baby is fine, he is just really strong, and lets hope that my body can take it.

When he told me this I was laying there in shock. He said it was just a joke, and everything will be fine, but probably it will be more painful, than for other women, which I already knew. And I couldn’t stop thinking about giving birth. What if he will be too big and I literally can’t push him out?

But this was not the only bad thing. For some reason Bucky got a mission. A four day mission. He didn’t want to go, because he wanted to be with me, every day through the pregnancy, and help me, but I convinced him to go, because it’s his job and they need him. And also I had Steve to look out for me.

Before Bucky went for the mission he gave Steve a list of what should he do when I... .And the list was really long. I remember one time I was laying in bed, and Steve was sitting in a chair next to me reading, and I told him that I am hungry. He grabbed the list and started searching like crazy. I started laughing so hard, that he got scared, that I will hurt the baby.

“Don’t worry, he is stronger than you think, thanks to his daddy.” I said when I finally stopped laughing caressing my belly.

“Oh.. okay. And what do you want to eat?” He asked me.

“Hmm” For a second I thought he will search on the list again “Apple”

“Just an app..” He asked

“With peanut butter” I cut him off “And some oreos too please. And pickles, with some leftover pizza. Oh and apple juice please” I said.

He nodded trying to process everything. “Anything else”

“Umm. No thank you” I said smiling.

Steve walked out and I leaned back on my bed turning on the tv, to watch something. Finally I found a good series I can binge watch. I was in the middle of the episode, when I realized Steve is still not back. I paused the episode, and sit up. I listened maybe i could hear something, but I didn’t hear anything. I got out of bed, to go and look after him. 

“Steve?” I asked as I opened my door. There was no-one there, but it seemed like something is not right. It was way too quiet. 

I was about to ask Friday when suddenly I heard a loud noise. I looked over where the sound came from and I saw a guy with a gun in his hand. He flew through the door, and now he is in the room. For a second we both looked at each other in shock. He was quicker than me and he grabbed me holding the gun to my head, right when Steve ran through the door.

I tried to stay calm. Steve was shocked seeing me in his hands, with a gun next to my head, and he put down his shield, and raised his arm in the air. I already know Friday, alarmed everyone, so I will be fine. At least that’s what I said to myself to stay calm. The guy asked Steve to kick away his shield and he did as he said. 

I didn’t wanted him to do this, and I would sacrifice myself anytime for any of the Avengers member, but now it was different. It’s not just about me, I had living being inside of me, that I have to protect no matter what, even if it costs my life, but now the only way I can protect him is to stay alive. I heard heavy, running steps coming from the hallway. The guy stepped back with me. I already knew who is coming.

Bucky ran into the room with a gun in his hand. He just came back from the mission, and ran here. He looked in my eye, and I could tell he wants to calm me, but he was just as terrified as me. He looked at Steve for a second and then back at us. He pointed his gun at the guy.

“Let her go” He was angry and really scared, but I knew he could kill him with his bare hands, because he was so angry.

“Or what? I want informations, all the datas, everything.” He said, not easing the grip. I was looking for ways, to get out, but all of them was way too dangerous. 

“Let her go and you’ll get everything.” Bucky said without a hesitation.

The guy looked at me and Bucky back and forth. “Aah. I understand now. But no. She stays with me until I get what I want. You have 10 minutes, or...” He said pointing the gun at my belly.

Now we all panicked. I saw a tear in Bucky’s eyes, and stepping one step closer, but quickly realising it would just make everything worse. My tears started to flow. “Please no..” I pleaded. The guy didn’t even listen to me. Steve told everyone to get the datas, and infos.

“Now that’s what I like to hear” The guy said.

A few minutes passed, and I almost thought I am going to die, but then I saw Bucky looking behind me for a second, but quickly looking back. It was almost impossible to see that, but I knew him well. Help is right behind me, and I hope the help is named Natasha Romanoff. I could relax a little and hope for the best.

I heard a grunting behind me and the guy suddenly let me go. Bucky ran to me and held me close to himself, then turn me around to shield me with his body, if the guy somehow shoots us. Natasha was quick, and good. He kicked the guy and he fell on the ground, and dropped the gun. Before Nat could kick it away the guy quickly grabbed it and pointed it at us.

He shoot at us, but Bucky shield us with is metal arm. He almost shoot us again but before he could pull the trigger, Steve threw his shield at him, and he dropped the gun on the ground. Then Natasha kicked his face so hard that I could hear his nose break. Maybe he was still alive, or he was dead I didn’t care.

I hugged Bucky as close to my as the baby let me. He hide his face in my neck and I relaxed in his arms. He whispered me, to calm me down and it worked. I’m safe now, the baby is safe, and that’s what really matters. Natasha ran out to help the others, but Steve stayed there with us.

“You can go. I’m here for her, I’ll protect them.” Bucky said.

Steve nodded and ran after Natasha. Bucky picked me up and take me to our bedroom. He put me down on the bed and grabbed his knifes from the drawer just for safety. Soon we heard, the sirens of the police and we knew we are safe now. I hugged Bucky again.

“I never said welcome back..”  I whispered to him.

“It’s okay. You are safe now, and I’m here to protect you. Both of you. I’ll never leave your side again. I promise” I smiled at him and kissed him. He kissed my forehead and I leaned on him, and soon fell asleep.

Someone knocked on our door, and we both wake up. We were tangled up, and I used Bucky like he was my pregnancy pillow. I giggle and got off of him.  Bucky gave me a quick kiss before he walked to the door and opened it. Steve was standing there nervously. 

“I’m so sorry, everything happened so fast, and they captured all of the others... I should’ve stayed here and protect her. I’m really sorry.” He said, and I could see he is extremely sorry, and worried. “But the baby okay right?”

“You did what you had to Steve, and nothing bad happened. They are both fine, and safe now.” Bucky smiled at him and let him in. Steve stand next to me and Bucky sit next to me.

“He is fine, I don’t even think he reali....” I suddenly stopped. The horror sits out on Bucky’s and Steve’s face. I don’t know what was going on in their mind, but it was scary. I think they were both ready to take me to labor, or helping me give birth right here.

I quickly grabbed Bucky’s hand and he was even more shocked and scared. I put his hand on my stomach and waited for his reaction. Bucky looked at him, and he was so worried. Steve just stood there not understanding what’s going on.

The baby kicked again. I smiled up at Bucky. He gasped and put both of his hands on my stomach. He kicked once more and he giggled, and I could see a few tears in his eyes. He leaned down to kiss my belly, and put his face next to it. I caressed his head and smiled down at him.

“He just kicked for the first time.” I looked up at Steve. I felt like I’m the happiest person on the planet. Steve relaxed, and smiled at us. He kissed my head and left the room. We stayed in the same position for a while.

I could see the tears in Bucky eyes, but it was happy tears. We both enjoyed our little baby kicking. Then he kicked his daddy’s face. I laughed and Bucky played like it hurt so much. He put back his head and got kicked again. We played this for a while, and I could tell he will be the best father ever.

“God I love you both.” Bucky said kissing me but his hands never left my belly.

Part 2

[chuuzus]

welcome to the age of female superheroes

[theshellcollecter-deactivated20]

Oh god. Im crying at this. Im legit sobbing over it.

[loveyoubarnes]

Writing prompt

A/N: So I still writing my series, but I decided I want to do something else, so here it is. You can choose as many as you want, and you have to choose a character, and if you want to you can write a plot to it. I’m waiting for the requests. 

Who I write with: Mostly any marvel character, Dylan O’brien, Stiles, Sebastian Stan, Chris Evans etc.

1. How can you put so much french fries in your mouth? 2. Right now I really want to hug you. 3. Don’t blame me, your clothes are softer than mine. 4. Actually I think you are way more better than any of my pillows, so from now I’m gonna use you instead. 5. I love you, but I love my bed too. 6. Why are you under the bed? 7. Stop it I need to work. 8. You can’t just come into my apartment like you live here. I tough you were a robber and I almost hit you with my bat. 9. Please just forget me. 10. Do you think a panda is cuter than me? 11. Sorry I didn’t mean to touch your butt. 12. I vote, today be a pajama day. 13. I’m gonna lay down and die for like half hour okay? 14. I’m fine stop asking. 15. Are you ready? Because I’m not. 16. Can you do me a favor? I mean you don’t have to but don’t forget how many things I did for you. 17. I ship us. Like a lot. 18. You know what? Let’s just forget that it ever happened. 19. Please… I’m looking at you with my puppy eyes. 20. Is this suppose to look like this, or should I start worrying. 21. Why don’t we just get in a car and drive away? 22. Come on, give me a good reason not to jump in the lake. 23. I don’t care it’s 2:00 am, we need a pie. 24. I’m not a princess. I am the queen. 25. I thought  there was a guy in front of me but it was my own shadow.

[loveyoubarnes]

Pool party

My blog is 2 year old today!!

Summary: It’s a hot summer day, and you just come back from a mission, while the others are playing, in the pool. You join them, just to see your crush playing in the pool all handsome and everything. For weeks now, you two were flirting with each other, but you can’t wait any longer, Words count:1500 Warnings: fluff, maybe a few curse word (thats all)

A/N: This is not the best, Im so sorry

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I come back from a mission with Nat, and Sam, and as I stepped into the house I heard loud laughing, screaming, and splashing. It was the hottest day of summer. The mission was brutal, because of the heat . I could barely concentrate. But being an avenger is not like the other jobs. You can’t take vacation on a hot summer day.

I walked towards the sounds. Outside the others were playing in the pool. I just wanted to jump in right there and then. I looked back at Nat, she nodded and we headed to change into swimwear.

“Hey! how was the miss...” Steve asked me, but I cut him off.

“No! Don’t ask about the mission. I just want to be in that pool, because it’s so hot here and I feel like I’m gonna catch on fire” I turned back but I bumped into someones, muscular chest.

“It’s a fact, doll... You are hot” Bucky looked down at ,e with a smirk on his face. I felt like a tomato and I just hoped I don’t look like one. Natasha rolled her eyes and grabbed my arm pulling me inside. 

For almost months now, this was happening. He was flirting with me, I blushed. I flirted with him, he flirted back. But nothing more than that, and I started to become confused, and irritated. Sometimes, I would just be angry at him, because he doesn’t do anything, then I am sad because I feel like he doesn’t like me, then I’m are confused.

In the room I changed into my bikini while Natasha searched for one in my closet. She finally found it and quickly picked it up. “So?” I raised my eyebrow. “With you and Barnes.” She said it like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

“Oh.. well, I don’t know” She sighed, and I felt the storm is coming. 

“I don’t know? (Y/N) he is flirting with you! He likes you. It’s so obvious that even a blind person can see it.” She said opening the door for me. I opened my mouth to say something, but looking at her I closed my mouth.

Back in the garden I could wait to get in the pool. The temperature of the water was p e r f e c t. We played, and we talked, it was fun. We really needed that. Sometimes Avengers needs to have fun too. Tony made some cocktails, and Sam put on some music. It couldn’t get any better. I thought.

Suddenly I felt to large hands on my thighs. Before I could look down Bucky came up, and I was sitting on his shoulders. I laughed at him. Steve did the same with Nat, and we started fighting. Natasha almost knocked me down, but Bucky hold me tight. It was hard to concentrate when his hands were so close to my..

Then Natasha with a sudden move knocked me down. I didn’t expected that, so my nose filled with water, and I felt like the water washed out my whole head. Bucky pulled my up, and I couched a few times.

“Are you okay doll?” He asked me trying to hold back his giggles. I nodded and looked back at Nat.

“I was distracted, so that wasn’t fair.” I was trying really hard not to look at Bucky. Natasha put her hands on her hips, still sitting on Steve’s shoulders. “Oh yeah? And why?”

I gave her a dead look, then we decided to play another one. His hands were on my thighs again, but now I won’t let her win. After a few minutes, I could finally knock Natasha down. I high fives with Bucky, then he with a sudden moment, throw me away in the water. 

I swam up laughing and splashing him in the face. He grabbed my hands to stop splashing water in his face. Then we just looked into each others eyes. I totally forget about everything and everyone else. I never wanted this moment to end. I totally lost in his piercing blue eyes. Maybe I just imagined it, but it felt like he is leaning closer to me. 

But Sam (of course) ruined our beautiful moment, by jumping next to us. I laughed trying to hide my disappointment, and smiled back at him before heading out. I sat next to the girls, talking and drinking a little. Wanda was talking about something, but I was busy watching the winter soldier’s abs. Nat waved her hand in front of my face.

“Earth calls (Y/N)” I snapped back into reality, paying attention to them, but I still watched Bucky from the corner of my eyes. A few hours passed, with talking, playing, and drinking. Finally we had fun. I decided to just relax a little, and enjoy the warm sun, but I fell asleep. 

When I woke up, the sun was almost down. I stretched and, looked at the sunset for a moment. It was beautiful, but I was still sleepy, and for the next 5 minutes, I had no idea where am I, and who am I. It was still warm outside, and the pool looked really nice. So I stood up, to swim in it once more.

As I was stepping in the pool, when someone, behind me said my name. Since I was still sleepy a little, I did not expected that, and I fell in the pool. It was colder than I thought, but at lest it woke me up. I jumped out, and gasped. I felt a hand on my shoulder. 

“Oh shit, I’m sorry doll. Are you okay?” Bucky asked, pulling me closer to him. I didn’t answer, just started laughing. He sighed and joined. “I didn’t mean to scare you.”

“It’s okay Bucky” I looked up at him smiling, just to realise our faces just a few inches away. I felt the butterflies in my stomach, and my face turning red. I quickly looked back at the water tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. We were silent for a few seconds than I looked back, but as soon as our eyes met, I forgot what I wanted to ask.

“ummm.... do you.. do you want to join?” I asked him. He raised an eyebrow at me. I pointed at the pool. He smiled and jumped in the pool. I in too and swim to him. He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer to him. I was too small, and I couldn’t stand anymore, but he could, so I hugged his torso with my legs. Now we were in eye level. 

“You are beautiful” He said it smiling. I laughed, and playfully splashed him. “I mean it” he laughed. “I don’t want to mess up our friendship, or anything, but you are really special to me. All the others, are like... sorry for me, and they act like I’m a child, expect Sam, but let’s not talk about that. But you, you just look at me like another normal person. I don’t feel like I’m a monster with you. But what I’m trying to say is... I really like you, and I get it if you don’t like me back, or don't want to ruin our frienshi...”

I cut him off by crashing my lips into his. I’ve been waiting for this moment, for so long, and I couldn’t wait anymore. He didn’t kissed me back first, maybe because of the shock, but then he hugged me closer, and finally kissed me back. We were out of breath, and we parted away, but our temples were still touching. 

“Wow” he sighed and I laughed, giving him another quick kiss. He looked at me in the eyes, and I swear that I never saw this much love in someones eyes. I grabbed him a little tighter, because I didn’t wanted this moment to end. “Oh you are freezing” I didn’t even realized until he said it. The sun went down, and it was getting darker, and colder.

“Oh.. yeah.” We walked inside, but nobody was there and it was dark. Probably everyone is sleeping. But I wasn’t tired anymore, since I slept for like a two hours outside. While I was thinking about what should I do instead of sleeping, I felt Bucky’s metal arm with my hand, and I grabbed it. He tensed for a second, but I didn’t let go off him.

“Do you wanna do something? I mean I’m not tired.” I said without looking at him, scared of rejection.

“Of course. What do you have in mind?” His voice was deeper, and he leaned down, and whispering the last part into my ear. I laughed and pushed him a little. 

“Nothing like THAT” He looked at me like he is a 5 year old and I just stole his favourite toy. “Maybe we can watch something?” He smiled at me, and kissed my forehead.

“That will be perfect.” 

We went to my room and watched movies, and series till like 4am. But mostly we didn’t really payed attention, we were just talking, about everything. Then Bucky fall asleep in my bed, so ‘unfortunately’ I had to sleep with him in one bed. I was half asleep, when I felt a hand sneak around my waste and pulling closer. I smiled to myself and fall asleep.

[petersspideysense]

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[loveyoubarnes]

Hi! I’m really sorry that I haven’t post lately. School is really hard for me now, but this is the last week and I’ll try to get back on track again. Unfortunately I have a little writers block, but I have a few idead with other characters. Also if you have a request feel free and text me😊. I cant promise you that i will post it the next day but I will try my best. And also I almost have a 1000 followers. That’s crazy. I love you guys❤️

[peterismymans]

So,

You don’t feel so good.

[melodramatic-fratboi-deactivate]

What did I do to deserve this

[loveyoubarnes]

The mission

Summary: You are an assassin, but not just a simple one. They only use women, for a certain reason. You are one of the best one, and you love your job, but what happens when they send you to kill someone but you can’t do it? You never had any kind of emotions, or feelings for someone, will it change? Warnings: smut, angst (a lot) Words count: 2800

There was another mission again. I’ve been on a lot of missions before, but that’s happens when you are one of the best in your job. I didn’t mind doing this, and I actually love working alone, there was no one to look after, or be worried about. It’s just me, no problems with others, and I can follow my own plan so there was no problem with that either. I just can’t work in a team. But sometimes it’s a little bit tiring. Even I need some break.

But actually this mission isn’t that bad. I am in a really fancy hotel, waiting for my target to arrive. I even get a really nice dress to “seduce” our target. The room was really fancy too, and I rarely get to be in hotels like this. Most of the times I’m in a bar, or a not so good hotel. There was a big bathtub and I had to try it and just relax a little bit before the mission. Then I made my hair and makeup, while listening some Beyoncé in my room. I put on my beautiful long, red dress and I hide my gun, and my special small dagger in the room. I like guns a lot, but I am so much better, with knifes and daggers. I looked in the mirror one last time before i walked out confidently.

I walked to the bar, and looked around, not to conspicuous. He wasn’t there yet so I ordered a drink until then. In the corner of my eye I finally saw the man. He had a nice suit on, (not even talking about his metal arm,) standing there with some other men. I grabbed my drink and turned towards him. It seemed like he doesn’t have any weapons, which is good. Not like he needs any, with that body, and with that arm. He also seemed calm.

I looked him until he looked back. His blue eyes met mine for a moment. I had a few tricks to how to get a man follow me, so I used them. I looked back at him with a different expression slightly tilting my head to tell him to come with me.I walked away from them looking back one more time, and I saw him making an excuse to follow me. I turned back with a smile on my face heading to my room.

 I love doing what I’m doing. Maybe because that’s what they taught me all my life, or I really did enjoy it. I never knew if I was the ‘good one’ or the ‘bad’ one. I guess it depends. I did my job really good so the world doesn’t even know I exist, which makes my job so much easier. But it’s not the best job either. It’s not a good feeling to be used, and never actually know if you do the right or the bad thing.

Meanwhile I arrived to my room and played with my keys for a few moments until I heard the steps coming from behind from me. I opened the door and as I stepped in I turned to face him. He stand just a few inches from me and he looked deeply into my eyes, biting down on his lips. I closed the door behind him, and he pushed me to the wall, looking at me one more time before he kissed me. He is a good kisser I have to admit.

Unfortunately I am not always this lucky. This time, my target is really good looking, and he is also a good kisser thankfully. My targets are usually older, so I don't let them this far. As soon as they step in I play with them a little bit, but then I kill them. But with him. I want to play with him a little bit more. Especially since because of my job I don't have time for things like that.

I grabbed his hair pulling him closer and he groaned, then picked me up. I smiled into the kiss, and he walked to the bedroom dropping me on the bed. He looked at me for a moment hungrily, then he practically teared off his shirt and climbed on top off me, and kissed me again. His hand slowly sneaked down to my back and pull down the zipper. He was a real gentleman which really surprised me. Then he took of my dress, and soon his pants followed it too.

It didn’t take long for us to get out of our underwear. Before he could do anything else I climbed on top of him. I like to be in charge. I leaned him up and slowly sat down on him, and feeling him filling me up. He felt good, and I never had someone like him, he was big. I ride him until we both were really close, but he suddenly turned us and he was on top again. I didn’t really liked it, but at the moment I couldn’t think. I let out a moan, then bite down on my lip, trying to be quiet.

“I like it, don’t stop” He said. Not just his body was perfect, but his voice is amazing too. I moaned again, this time he sent me over the edge, and he buried his face in the crock of my neck moaning. For a moment we were both panting. He get up and shoot a smile at me before he walked in the bathroom. I quickly get up and get in my lingerie and I grabbed my daggers and gun. As he stepped out he had a cloth in his hands, what a cutie. Anyways I pointed my gun at him slightly smiling.

He looked like he knew this will come, so he just placed down the cloth and walked towards me. I shoot him, but he quickly shield it with his metal arm. I shoot a few more times, but I didn’t really get him. So I grabbed my daggers and start to fight with him. Finally he was not one of the old ones who didn’t know how too fight, and so easy to kill. This time I had to fight for it and i liked it. He grabbed me and pulled me close.

“I thought you will attack me sooner.” He had a smirk on his face. He enjoyed this just as much as me. As I tried to cut him we get in a new position this time my back was at his chest. His face dangerously close to mine.

“I wanted some fun before” I answered. He grabbed me and with an easy move he throw me on the bed. I dropped my dagger, and in a few seconds he was on top of me chocking me with his metal arm. I tried to get out, but he was slightly stronger than me, and my dagger was too far. Finally I could kick him, and I sit on his chest, quickly grabbed my dagger ready to stab him, when I heard a shot. He hold his arms in front of his hands to protect himself, but peaked out at the sudden sound.

I heard footsteps coming and I just sat there waiting. Then two men ran into the room. They looked us for a moment, trying to figure out whats going on, then they both grabbed they gun. With his metal arm he grabbed me and we both fall on the ground, while they tried to shoot us. My gun was in front of the bed, but if I’m quick enough I can get it and then hide behind the table. I looked at him and he mouthed a no, but I did it anyways. He tried to stop me, but this time I was quicker. Then one of them almost shoot me.

“Give me the gun” He sad. I raised one of my eyebrows not believing what he just said. “You have a dagger, I don’t have anything” I didn’t really cared. My mission is to kill him, if someone else kills him thats just helping me. “I shoot the left one and you stab the other one.” Now that was interesting. I hesitated, but I throw the gun to him. He nodded and at the same time, he shoot and I throw my dagger at the right one. It went right between his eyes. I smiled satisfied and slowly walked to the guy to get my weapon back. But then I heard more shoots and more people coming.

“We have to go now” He throw a coat at me, since I was still in my lingerie, and pointed out of the window. “My motorcycle is right there. We can get away with that.” I was a little bit confused. I just tried to kill him, and now he is helping me. I can kill him, after I’m safe I guess. I picked up the coat and climbed out of the window after him, just in time, before more men came into the room.

I sat behind him, and he handed me a helmet. I hugged his chest and he started the motor, and drive away. I felt like I failed the mission. I tried to tell myself I can still kill him anytime, but I felt like there will be no more changes. Also he was different than any of my targets. Not just because he was not a disgusting old man, he didn’t begged me to not kill him. He fought but he seemed like he doesn’t really cares if he dies or not.

Unfortunately I never know why I have to kill my targets. Sometimes it’s good sometimes it’s not. It does make the job easier, but sometimes I have a feeling, that I just killed an innocent. But I also get it. Maybe someone did a horrible thing and they send me to kill him, but what if I personally think that that’s not even that horrible and I won't kill him. I never said my job is easy.

I didn’t even realised, we stopped. I take of the helmet and gave it to him. He placed them on the motorcycle and held his hand out. “I’m Bucky by the way” ‘James Buchanan Barnes’ I corrected him in my mind. I knew who he is. I grabbed his hand and shake it, “(Y/N)”. He shoot a smile at me. “So, since I saved your life...”

“That doesn’t mean anything” I cut him off.

“I know. I know you have mission, and everything, but I’m not who are you think I am.” He doesn’t sounded desperate, more like it was the hundredth time he has to tell this to someone.

“I don’t know who are you, except your name.” He confusedly looked at me.

“Then why do you want to kill me?” He asked me, more curiously than worried.

“It’s my mission.” I stepped closer to him, holding my dagger tightly behind my back. “Nothing personal” I was about to stab him, but he grabbed my hand, with a smile on his face. He take my dagger away, and before I could hit him, I heard police sirens not so far from us. He grabbed my hand and he lead me in a small dark street. Then we stopped in front of a (not so good looking) house and he grabbed his keys to oped the door but, the police was getting closer and closer. “C’mon”

“I’m trying, I’m trying! Okay I got it” Before the cars were in the street we get in and we ran up on the stairs. He stopped in front of the 17 door, and grabbed his keys again. I rolled my eyes but this time he was quicker. Inside it was really dark and I couldn’t see anything. He switched the lights on. I didn’t expected it to look this good. The house and this whole area is horrible, but this apartment looked kinda nice.

I knew this is the time for me. I know it’s not really fair, since he saved me for the second time today, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have to do what I have to. The mission is the most important no matter what. He walked in the living room and he has my gun and dagger in his hand, this time I decided to go for the gun. I walked behind him slowly, and with a quick movement, I tried grab my gun, but he was quicker, again. I felt irritated now. It never took me this long to kill someone. And now he is driving me crazy. I am not bad at my job, but he seems like he knows me for ages now, and knows when I’m gonna do something.

“Can you just stop? I won’t let you kill me, since I saved you. Twice. You should thank me.” I huffed and walked away. This whole thing was so absurd. “There is some clothes in the bedroom, and the bathroom is next to it” I walked in the room he was pointing at. It looked normal and there was a king sized bed also. I opened the drawer and grabbed the first shirt on top. Then I walked in the bathroom to take a quick shower.

I put on the shirt, not wearing a bra, and walked out to the living room. My hair was still wet. He was doing something in the kitchen, but as he heard me coming he looked up. He looked me up and down then in my eye, but I had to look away. There was something in him.. something different. He gave me a plate with a sandwich on it. “I guess you are hungry” He said and sat on the couch in the living room.

I stand there like an idiot holding that plate. I was more than confused, I was surprised. No one ever in my life was like this with me. I barely met my boss, and my trainers, are really hard on me. Except them I don’t really know anyone. I don’t even know my own parents, and I don’t have friend either just some ‘colleges’. I sat next to him, and we sat there quietly while I ate my sandwich.

“So, you don’t know why you have to kill me?” I shake my head. “So you just follow blind instructions?” I hesitated but nodded. I never thought about them like that. “What if I’m innocent?” He asked curiously and leaned back.

“Than it sucks.” He laughed and I smiled a little. “It’s my job. I can’t ask anything and they won't tell me anything. I’m just doing it, so they won't kill me.” He suddenly turned serious and leaned back to look into my eyes.

“Why do they want to kill you?” He asked “What did you do?”

“Nothing. It’s just, how they make sure I work for them.” I  answered and looked down. I never actually thought about this. How much they use me. “And I’m a no one. Actually I don’t even exist, there is no papers about me, I don’t even know when is my birthday” At his face it seemed like it’s a bigger deal than I thought. “My mom worked for them also. Then she got pregnant, and when I born, they killed her. And about my father I know nothing.”

He grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I had a tear in my eye I don’t even know why. I never talked or thought about these things, but now he asked me about it. This whole thing is so different for me. Nobody ever asked how I feel, and therefore I mostly avoided any kind of emotions, but now I feel like all of them is coming out now. I wiped off my tear, and tried to get myself together. I have to concentrate on the mission and I can’t let my emotions control me.

“I can help you.” He sad softly “I know it’s weird for you. Someone is actually care about you, i know. But let me help you.” I just couldn’t believe what he is saying no matter how much I wanted to. People always promised me things, but never actually did it. I can’t trust anybody, I learned that. “I really know what are you going thru.” He seemed like he is telling the truth, and he will really help me, but deep inside of me I was getting ready to get fooled again. I mean, I just tried to kill him an hour ago, how can I trust him. How can he trust me?

Before I could respond I heard the phone ringing. It was his home phone, so I knew who is calling. Bucky seemed confused, but I stand up and I walked there picking up the phone and for a moment just waiting there silently. Then I answered.

“Agent 3 where are you? Where is the target? You are late. If you don’t come back in 24 hours, you know what will happen.” A tear run down on my cheek as I put back the phone. I have to do it. There is no other choice.

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