[loveyours95]

I’m so sad today, but I’ll get over it. Not sure why I feel like the more I get my feelings hurt, the less I care about the situation. I used to care so much, especially about explaining myself, fixing the misunderstandings, used to care so much about being heard. Now it’s like I don’t even want to try anymore. I feel like I just want to feel all the hurt whenever I react from an upsetting situation, not talk about it anymore, and just move on.

[loveyours95]

I’m starting to see things clearer. Ever since I have been hospitalized lately, I’ve learned to prioritize myself more and more than anyone. I used to do everything for the people I care about but a lot has proved me wrong when it comes to loyalty and supposedly “sincere” friendships.

I know that I’m headed to do great things because I want to and I’m gonna make it happen! I have results for that, just being more self-aware and actually taking care of myself, the food that I eat, the workouts that I go through while having a broken leg, the significant weight loss results that I have achieved and the good grades I have been making in every class. This year, I have proved to myself that I can go through anything, with the Lord God by my side of course.

If someone can’t appreciate me at my struggles, then someone doesn’t deserve to have my time, be around when I have reached my goals and have me at my best. The person who will stick by me through it all deserves the love, the loyalty, the caring and the assurance that I will give.

I’m hoping that things stay good and get better for me and for everyone that I care about. And if someone or a situation fails me again, I know I can and will survive this. It won’t hurt any less. But it will only make me stronger from here on out. And that’s one good reason to flip the negative into a positive. This year, I have been so focused on my self-growth and making sure I give myself some love and self-care. Nothing and no one can break me anymore.