notes: kinda late but idc lol. inspired by Miss Possessive by Tate McCrae.
The Fendi afterparty was in full swingāgolden lights reflecting off champagne glasses, designer-clad elites laughing too loud, music thrumming beneath the conversations of Hollywoodās most coveted faces. It was the kind of place where power hummed in the air, where influence was measured in glances and whispers.
Chris had his arm around your waist, his fingers tracing mindless patterns against the silk of your dress. He was effortlessly charming, flashing that dimpled smile at executives and fellow artists alike, his Australian lilt melting smoothly into conversation. You loved him like thisāglowing, confident, in his element.
His eyes light up when he spots somebody in the distance, his grip loosening on your hip.
āGonna go say hi to someone real quick,ā Chris murmured close to your ear, his breath warm against your skin. āCome with me?ā
You glanced up at him, catching the excitement in his expression. He lived for moments like thisāconnecting, networking, floating effortlessly through rooms filled with people who mattered. And you loved seeing him like this, loved knowing how easily he fit into this world.
But right now? You werenāt in the mood to entertain small talk.
āYou go ahead,ā you said, offering a small smile. āIāll wait here.ā
Chris hesitated for a fraction of a second, his fingers grazing your side like he was debating whether to push. But he didnāt. Instead, he gave your waist one last squeeze before slipping away, weaving through the crowd with an ease that came naturally to him.
You swirled the champagne in your glass, watching from a distance as Chris greeted the man with an easy smile, his shoulders relaxed, his charm effortless. He was always like this at eventsāengaging, magnetic, impossible to ignore.
And neither was she.
Standing just a little too close to the man Chris was talking to, her arm looped loosely through his, yet her gaze was fixed elsewhere. Fixed on Chris.
You noticed it immediatelyāthe way her lashes fluttered as she watched him, the way her lips curved, not in polite acknowledgment but something softer, something indulgent. She was interested. Not in the man beside her, the one she was presumably here with, but in yours.
The realization settled over you like ice water, sharp and immediate. Youād seen this beforeātoo many times, in too many rooms just like this. Women who thought their status or their beauty somehow made them untouchable, that their interest was a gift, not an intrusion.
She wasnāt even trying to be discreet about it.
You stayed quiet, simply watching, your expression unreadable as Chris continued his conversation, seemingly oblivious. He laughed at something the man said, dimples flashing, and you didnāt miss the way her lips parted slightly, like she was already imagining what it would be like to taste that smile.
Bold.
Your fingers curled around the stem of your glass, the cool surface grounding you. You werenāt the type to make a scene, werenāt the type to claw at Chrisās arm like a warning. Your confidence ran deeper than that.
Chris, as if sensing your gaze, glanced over his shoulder then, his expression softening when he saw you. His eyes lingered, and for a moment, the entire party seemed to fade into background noise.
Then, just as quickly, he was saying his goodbyes, excusing himself from the conversation. You didnāt miss the way she watched him go, her lips pressing together like she was debating something.
Too late.
Chris was already making his way back to you, his attention exactly where it should be. Where it had always been.
āYou okay?ā he asked, his voice low as he slipped an arm around your waist again, reclaiming the space that had never been hers to take.
You let out a quiet hum, lifting your glass to your lips, your gaze flickering past him for only a secondālong enough to see her still watching, her expression carefully composed but not nearly careful enough.
Chris followed your gaze, and something in his expression shifted. Understanding dawned, slow and steady, before amusement danced in his eyes. He huffed a soft laugh, shaking his head as he turned back to you.
āYou know,ā he murmured, leaning in so only you could hear, āyou donāt have to pretend youāre not annoyed.ā
You tilted your head, feigning innocence. āWho said I was annoyed?ā
Chris grinned, giving your waist a squeeze. āYouāve got that look,ā he teased, voice full of knowing. āThe one where youāre pretending not to care, but youāre already making up ways to subtly ruin her night.ā
You exhaled a soft laugh, finally turning your full attention back to him. āShe was looking at you like she wanted to take a bite.ā
Chris let out a low chuckle, shaking his head as he pulled back just enough to look at you properly. āYou do realize that was his wife, right?ā
You barely blinked, lifting your glass to your lips. āAnd?ā
Chris grinned. āAnd maybe she was just being friendly.ā
You arched a brow, unimpressed. āChris. She was practically undressing you with her eyes.ā
His dimples flashed as he grinned wider, but before he could say anything, you tilted your head, considering. āOr,ā you mused, voice dripping with amusement, āmaybe theyāre into that sort of thing.ā
Chris choked.
You watched with no small amount of satisfaction as a flush crept up his neck, his usual effortless confidence flickering for just a second. āWhatāā He cleared his throat, shifting slightly. āYou thinkāā
You shrugged, all faux nonchalance. āWouldnāt be the first time a couple tried to recruit you.ā
Chris groaned, tipping his head back dramatically. āJesus. Donāt remind me.ā
You smirked behind your champagne glass, watching as he rubbed a hand down his face like he was trying to physically erase the memory.
āWhat was it that one guy said to you? Something about how he and his girl would ālove to explore your energyā?ā
Chris visibly shuddered. āI am begging you to never repeat that sentence again.ā
You laughed, letting your fingers trail along the nape of his neck. His skin was warm, the heat creeping up from his collar, and you couldnāt resist the way he reacted to you, how easy it was to pull him in when you wanted to.
You glanced over his shoulder, catching sight of her again. She was still watchingāher gaze dipping once more, as if mapping out his body, as if picturing all the ways she might get closer. Bold, but ultimately useless.
Chris was already here, with you.
You decided to prove the point.
With deliberate slowness, you let your hand slide lower, fingers pressing into the small of his back as you leaned into him, your lips grazing just beneath his ear.
āYou know,ā you murmured, voice soft enough that only he could hear, āif I was annoyed, Iād have a much better way of handling it than ruining her night.ā
Chris inhaled sharply, and you felt the way his body tensed under your touch. His grip flexed on your waist before settling firm, almost possessive. āYeah?ā he muttered, voice lower now, rougher.
You let your lips brush the edge of his jaw, just for a second, just enough. āMmhmm.ā
Chris exhaled slowly, his hand shiftingāsliding down, fingers pressing into your hip in a way that felt like both a warning and a plea
His fingers dug into your hip, just enough to make his point. āCareful,ā he murmured, voice rough at the edges. āYou keep this up, and weāre leaving this party early.ā
You smirked, entirely unbothered by the threat. āWhat a shame that would be,ā you mused, dragging your fingers just barely under the hem of his blazer. āMissing out on all this networking.ā
Chris exhaled sharply through his nose, his grip flexing againālike he was reminding himself where you were, who was watching. But his eyes darkened, and you knew he wasnāt entirely in control of himself anymore.
You had him.
His tongue darted out to wet his lips, and his fingers slid just a little lower, his palm pressing flush against the curve of your hip. His body shifted, subtly angling you away from the rest of the room, from prying eyes, but you caught itāthe way she was still watching, her expression unreadable, her lips pressed into a careful line.
You smiled. Slow. Sweet. Possessive in a way that didnāt require theatrics.
And then, just to seal it, you leaned up, brushing your lips against the shell of Chrisās ear, making damn sure she saw the way he shivered.
āBaby,ā he muttered, like a warning, like a plea.
You pressed your smile against his jaw. āMmhmm?ā
Chris exhaled through his nose again, steadying himself, and when he finally pulled back to look at you, his eyes burned. His amusement was still there, but now it was tinged with something else, something hotter.
āIām getting you another drink,ā he said, his voice low, steady. But his fingers lingered on your waist, like he didnāt actually want to step away.
You tilted your head, gaze steady. āI donāt need another drink.ā
Chris huffed out something that was almost a laugh, but his fingers flexed against your waist like he was hanging onto his last shred of composure. His jaw tightened, his tongue darting out to wet his lips, and then he shook his head, exhaling sharply through his nose.
āNo,ā he said, voice rough. āYou definitely do.ā
You arched a brow, lips twitching. āOh? And whyās that?ā
Chris ran a hand through his hair, exhaling through his nose as he took another step away. āBecause,ā he said, voice rougher than before, āif I stand here for one more second, Iām gonna forget weāre at a party.ā
You smirked, watching the tension in his shoulders, the way he practically forced himself to step back. He needed the spaceāneeded to pull himself together, to break the spell youād so effortlessly cast over him.
Chris was disciplined, always the one in control, always the level-headed leader who could charm his way through any situation. But right now? Right now, his composure was cracking at the edges, and you loved knowing you were the reason why.
He cleared his throat, dragging a hand down his face before glancing toward the bar like it was some kind of lifeline. āIāll be right back,ā he muttered, already turning.
You didnāt stop him. You didnāt need to. Because the second he put even a step of distance between you, he hesitatedājust for a fraction of a secondābefore shaking his head, like he was trying to clear you from his system.
You didnāt look away.
Not at first.
No, you let her stare, let her sit with it, let her marinate in the realization that whatever fleeting fantasy sheād entertainedāwhatever sliver of hope sheād foolishly clung toāhad never stood a chance. Because this? This wasnāt a maybe. This wasnāt an opening.
Chris had already made his choice.
So you lifted your glass that Chris had just handed you, slow and deliberate, meeting her gaze with something just a touch too sweet, just a shade too knowing. And thenābecause you couldāyou raised it in a silent toast.
A petty, razor-sharp little acknowledgment.
I see you.
Her expression barely flickered, but you caught itāthe subtle shift, the way her fingers curled slightly at her side, the way her lips pressed together in something that wasnāt quite a smile. She didnāt like being caught. Didnāt like that you knew exactly what she had been thinking.
Didnāt like that she had lost before sheād even started.
You took a slow sip of your champagne, savoring the moment, before finally, lazily, turning your attention away. Because that was the thing, wasnāt it? She didnāt matter enough to keep looking at.
Chris did.
And Chris? He was watching the entire thing unfold, his gaze flicking between the two of you, amusement flickering beneath something darker.
"Youāre insufferable," he murmured, voice low enough that only you could hear.
You tilted your head, all innocence. "What ever do you mean?"
Chris let out a breathy laugh, shaking his head, but you saw the way his fingers flexed around the glass in his hand, saw the way his jaw tightened as he leaned in, voice just for you.
"That was mean."
You shrugged, unfazed. "That was mercy."
Chris huffed out a quiet laugh, shaking his head, but the way his fingers curled around your waist said he wasnāt entirely unaffected. His grip was firmājust shy of possessive, like he needed to ground himself in your presence, like he needed to remind himself that no amount of fleeting attention from anyone else could touch what was his.
"Youāre a piece of work, you know that?" he murmured, eyes still dancing with amusement.
You smiled, slow and sweet. "And yet, here you are."
Chris exhaled sharply through his nose, his dimples flashing as he tipped his glass to his lips. "Yeah," he admitted, voice low, warm. "Here I am."
And that was it, wasnāt it?
You didnāt need to stake your claim, didnāt need to sink your claws into him in some desperate display of ownership. Because Chris wasnāt looking at anyone else. He wasnāt thinking about anyone else.
And the way his hand slid lower, fingers pressing into the small of your back like he couldnāt help himself? The way his eyes softened, darkened, like you were the only thing keeping him tethered in a room full of noise and flashing lights?
That said everything.
So you let the moment settle between you, let the warmth of the champagne hum through your veins as Chris traced absentminded circles against your hip, his fingers slow, lazy.
His hand slid lower, a warning, a promise, before he took a slow step back, eyes still locked onto yours. "We should go," he murmured, voice rough. "Before I forget how to behave."
You hummed, pretending to consider it, even as your body leaned into his touch like it already knew the answer. āThat bad, huh?ā
Chris let out a low chuckle, his fingers tightening against your waist, his breath fanning warm against your cheek as he dipped closerājust close enough to make your pulse stutter. āYou have no idea.ā
You knew exactly what was running through his head, how tightly he was holding the last threads of his composure, how close he was to losing the game he always played so well.
So you tipped your chin up, gaze steady, letting your lips just barely graze his jaw as you murmured, āThen what are we still doing here?ā
Chris exhaled sharply, like he was physically restraining himself, before shaking his head with a breathy laugh. āJesus Christ,ā he muttered, already slipping his hand into yours, already leading you through the crowd with a singular purpose.
You let him. You followed, matching his pace, feeling the heat of his palm against yours, feeling the weight of his gaze every time he glanced down at you like he was already thinking ten steps ahead.
in which your friend felix introduces you to his friend group. you immediately know you're not going to get along with their leader. he's arrogant, controlling and becoming your number one enemy. but neither of you can deny the deep-rooted desire for each other.
mdni!
warnings: heavy sexual themes, enemies, fem reader, jerking off, mentions of porn, name calling (bitch/whore/slut), a little sprinkle of degradation, deep throating (choking on his cock), use of toys (vibrator), oral, fingering, marks (hickeys/bites), bondage, safe words, spanking, unprotected sex, breeding (let me know if i forgot anything), mentions of food
wc: 9.6k
based on this drabble
felix should have warned you before introducing you to his group. instead, he had only grinned the entire drive over, one hand lazily drumming against the steering wheel while saying things like ājust donāt let chan scare you off.ā as if that could have prepared you for what would happen.
but you understood the second you walked in. the room shifted around him. conversations paused when he spoke. people looked at him before making decisions. even sitting back against the couch with one arm slung over the backrest, chan carried himself like he owned the place and everyone inside it.
and apparently, everyone let him.
your first impression of him settled quickly: arrogant. controlling. the kind of man who expected obedience simply because he existed.
his first impression of you formed just as fast. too observant.
he noticed the way your eyes tracked everything, the way you watched interactions instead of trying to force yourself into them. most people met him and got nervous. eager to please. careful with their words.
you didnāt. worse, you looked at him like something didn't sit right.
felix introduced you with an easy grin, entirely unaware of the tension that sparked the moment chanās gaze landed on you.
chan leaned back slightly, eyes dragging over you once before he gave a curt nod. āheard a lot about you.ā you smiled politely but your tone sounded anything but. āditto.ā
a few people in the room choked on their drinks. felix looked between the two of you like heād just realised he accidentally lit a match near gasoline.
chan's eyes narrowed almost imperceptibly. and that was the beginning of it.
after that, it became a pattern, predictable in the most irritating way possible. every time you showed up, chan noticed immediately.
it didnāt matter if he was mid-conversation, or across the room pretending not to pay attention, the second you walked in, his focus shifted. like some invisible thread pulled tight between you.
you noticed it too. the way his eyes found you first. always. and somehow, every single interaction between the two of you turned into a fight.
āweāre ordering from rossiās,ā chan announced one night from the kitchen, barely glancing up from his phone. ārossiās is awful,ā you said immediately.
a silence fell over the room. han muttered, āoh, here we go.ā chan looked up slowly. āawful?ā
ātheir pasta tastes microwaved.ā
āitās italian. one of the only italian places around here."
āthat doesnāt automatically make it good.ā
he stared at you for a second too long before scoffing softly. āyou always this difficult?ā
you leaned against the counter. āyou always this bossy?ā
his mouth twitched, like he was trying not to smile.
that shouldāve warned you. because after that, he started seeking you out. deliberately.
if you sat somewhere, suddenly chan needed that exact spot. if you disagreed with something, heād argue just to keep you talking longer. if someone else interrupted your banter, he looked annoyed by it.
and the worst part? you kept engaging. every single time.
āmove,ā he told you one evening when you stole his usual seat on the couch. you looked up from your drink. āthere are six other places to sit.ā
āthatās my spot.ā
you scoffed, āsounds made up.ā the room went quiet again. felix was already grinning into his drink.
chan stepped closer, towering over the couch while you refused to move even an inch. āyou enjoy testing me.ā
āyou enjoy acting like a fucking dictator.ā
āsomeone has to keep order around here.ā
you snorted. āorder? how dramatic."
his eyes narrowed. yours sparkled with amusement.
and there it was again, that awful little pull between irritation and entertainment that neither of you seemed capable of escaping.
because no matter how much chan acted annoyed by you, he kept looking for reasons to provoke you. heād throw comments your way from across the room just to watch you snap back.
he learned exactly what got reactions out of you. the fastest way to make you glare. the quickest way to make you roll your eyes. the comments that made your lips twitch because you were trying not to laugh.
and god, he loved when you laughed. especially if it was usually at his expense.
āyou know,ā you said one night after he interrupted somebody for the fifth time, ānormal people let others finish speaking.ā
ānormal people have useful things to say.ā
you groaned in annoyance, āsee? this is exactly why i canāt stand you.ā
āfunny." he drawled, eyes fixed on you over the rim of his drink, āwhy do you keep talking to me then?"
your stomach flipped annoyingly hard at that. because he was right. you looked away before anyone noticed the heat crawling into your face.
but later that night, while everyone else talked around him, you caught chan watching you from the other side of the room, completely focused, making it feel far more dangerous than the arguing ever had.
chan realised something was wrong the first time you followed him without actually being there.
he was at the studio, headphones hanging around his neck while he stared blankly at the unfinished track glowing on the monitor in front of him. one hand tapped impatiently against the desk. the bass loop repeated. and repeated. and repeated.
all because his brain kept replaying something stupid youād said three nights ago. āyou always act like youāre in charge even when nobody asked you to be.ā
he could still hear the smugness in your voice. could still picture the look on your face when youād said it.
āfor fuckās sake,ā he muttered under his breath, dragging both hands over his face. it was ridiculous. you were ridiculous. annoying. argumentative. impossible.
so why the hell was he thinking about you while trying to work? even worse, why did the thought of you make his chest tighten strangely?
he shoved the feeling away immediately. hatred. obviously. that had to be what this was.
except hatred usually didnāt make his pulse jump every time his phone lit up with a message in the group chat, secretly hoping it was you.
hatred shouldn't make his cock hard. and it definitely shouldn't make his thoughts slip to you when he was jerking off.
hatred shouldnāt have made him notice your absence the second he walked into felixās apartment friday night.
he asked about you before he could stop himself. felix looked up so fast it was almost suspicious. ādamn,ā he said slowly. āyou didnāt even say hi first.ā
chan frowned immediately. āi was just asking.ā felix smirked at that, āsure you were.ā
he ignored the grin spreading across felixās face and scanned the room again anyway. you werenāt there. and suddenly, the night felt off. quieter, less entertaining. he hated that most of all.
and once he noticed it, he couldnāt stop noticing it. every room he entered, his eyes searched for you automatically. every conversation felt slightly duller when you werenāt interrupting him halfway through it. every joke landed flatter when it wasnāt making you roll your eyes.
it got worse after that. at the gym, he caught himself thinking about the way you looked at him whenever you argued, so... unimpressed. like you enjoyed challenging him just as much as he enjoyed provoking you.
this was the first time he felt the pressing need to jerk off. to the thought of you.
he rushed home from the gym, cock already half-hard in his pants. had been for the past hour. even an ice-cold shower did nothing.
he dropped his gym back to the floor, making his way to his room immediately, dropping onto his bed. he ran his hands over his face, grabbing his hair.
"fuck you." he said into the empty room before grabbing his hard on through his shorts, squeezing it.
he didn't want to do it, jerking off to you. his pride, his ego, screamed at him to stop. to not do this with you on his mind. he grabbed his phone, unlocking it with one hand while his other slipped into his pants.
porn should do it. watching any other chick, hearing her moans instead of your fucking laugh in his mind. porn used to be his remedy when his mind wouldn't shut up about you. but right now it did nothing. he only saw you. only heard you.
he groaned in frustration, closing the tab on his phone, forcing his hand to stop working his cock. it twitched desperately in his fist, demanding more.
he wanted to text you. to tell you to stop invading his thoughts. tell you how much he hated you. for being so fucking mouthy. for making it impossible for him to jerk off properly. to demand you to do something about it. but he knew you'd only mock him for it.
his thumb moved on its own as it opened his photo gallery. he didn't notice what he was searching for until he found pictures of the last time you hung out with the group.
he loved the shirt you were wearing back then. loved how it made your tits look. fuck. suddenly he was thinking about your tits, wondering what they'd feel like in his hands. he imagined you arching your back, leaning into the touch as he grabbed them, squeezed them, pinched your nipples until you were whimpering.
his hand started moving on his cock again without him realising. his mind was too far gone. he thought about swirling his tongue around your nipples, sucking on them, wondering what your moans would sound like.
but he didn't only want to suck your nipples. he wanted to suck the soft flesh surrounding them. sucking, biting until it left a mark. right on your precious tit. he'd cover you in them, leaving marks all over you. fuck, you'd look so beautiful when he was done with you.
he noticed his fist jerking his cock only when he groaned involuntarily, his eyes fixated on the screen, on the picture of you. he wanted you. needed you. so bad it made his balls tighten.
he felt his orgasm approaching. fuck no, he couldn't cum to the thought of you. no matter how many times he thought of you while jerking off, he always managed to distract himself enough, think of anything but you when he found his release.
but right now he couldn't stop. couldn't stop imagining leaving his marks on you. he wanted to spank you until your butt cheeks were all red and covered in his handprints. finally making you realise who was in fucking charge.
the thought of you surrendering to him, to having his way with you, finally made him come undone. he gave his cock a few more strokes, tearing his gaze away from his phone, head thrown back against the pillow. and he blew his fucking load to the thought of you, whispering your name into the dark room.
after that, chan started gravitating towards you unconsciously. if you were in the kitchen, suddenly he needed a drink. if you were outside, he somehow ended up outside too. if you sat on the couch, heād lean against the wall closest to you without even realising it. and then there was the hugging thing.
god, he hated the hugging thing. you hugged everyone. felix. the other members. friends arriving. friends leaving. everyone except him.
the first time he noticed it, irritation flared so fast it startled him. the second time, it became impossible not to watch.
youād grin at somebody, arms wrapping around them casually while chan stood nearby pretending not to care. pretending not to notice. pretending he didnāt immediately wonder what it would feel like if you touched him like that. if your tits pressed against him. your scent surrounding him.
it got even worse when someone else made you laugh. especially men.
one night, seungmin had you nearly doubled over at the kitchen counter, laughing so hard you grabbed his arm for balance.
chan felt something ugly twist in his chest. before he even realised what he was doing, he crossed the room. āwhatās so funny?ā he asked flatly.
your laughter faded slightly as you looked up at him.ānothing youād enjoy.ā
ātry me.ā
"you donāt have a sense of humor.ā
seungmin laughed awkwardly before quickly excusing himself the second chan looked at him.
coward.
you narrowed your eyes immediately. ādid you just scare him off?ā
āif he got scared that easily, thatās his problem.ā
āyouāre unbelievable.ā
āthen stop talking to me.ā he said quietly, stepping closer.
the words settled heavily between you. your expression flickered for half a second. and christ, that was another problem entirely.
because lately, every time you looked at him, he forgot for a moment that this was supposed to be hatred at all.
a few days later, a heavy summer storm hit the city. and it had gotten bad fast.
rain hammered against the streets hard enough to blur the city lights, thunder rumbling low and heavy overhead while you hurried towards the studio building with your jacket pulled uselessly over your head. you and felix had made plans to go out for dinner after the studio tonight.
by the time security let you upstairs after recognising you as āone of felixās people,ā you were completely soaked. your shoes squeaked against the floor as you pushed open the studio door with an exhausted sigh already forming, only for it to die immediately when you saw who was inside.
chan sat alone in the swivel chair in front of the mixing desk, one arm resting against the armrest while music played quietly through the speakers.
of course. you sighed dramatically. āyouāve got to be kidding me.ā
he glanced over his shoulder lazily. ānice to see you too.ā
āwhereās felix?ā
ānot here, obviously.ā
you rolled your eyes, already pulling your phone out.āhelpful as always.ā
āi try.ā but when chan turned fully in the chair, whatever sarcastic response heād been about to make stopped short.
his eyes dragged over you slowly. rainwater clung to your clothes, your shirt damp enough to stick to your skin, droplets still sliding down your neck and disappearing beneath the fabric. his dick twitched. for once, chan looked genuinely speechless.
your stomach flipped annoyingly at the expression on his face. ātake a picture,ā you muttered.
his jaw tightened immediately, like heād just been caught doing something illegal. before he could answer, your phone buzzed.
felix: Ā« stormās too bad. roads are fucked. canāt make it tonight sorry šĀ»
you stared at the message in disbelief. āyouāre joking.ā
āwhat?ā
āfelix bailed.ā
chan snorted softly. āsmartest thing heās done all week.ā
and then the power cut out. the room dropped into darkness instantly. you jumped hard enough to knock your knee against the couch beside you. āshitāā
a laugh echoed through the dark. āyou scared of a little darkness?ā
āabsolutely not.ā
āyou literally jumped just now.ā
a flashlight flicked on a second later, illuminating the room dimly from below as chan leaned back in his chair, looking entirely too entertained by your suffering. the lighting made him look unfairly attractive. which only irritated you further.
āwhat, no candles around?ā you asked dryly. ācould make this whole thing a little cosier.ā
his brows lifted. āthis is a fucking studio.ā
āand?ā
ānot exactly a place that calls for romance.ā
you snorted. āpity. you probably bang a lot of chicks here considering youāre basically married to the studio. couldāve at least provided them with ambiance.ā
chan barked out a laugh at that. an actual laugh. "trust me,ā he said, eyes glinting in the flashlight glow, āi donāt need romance for that.ā
āoh, iām sure your personality alone does all the heavy lifting.ā
āyou saying iām charming?ā
āiām saying youāre bossy. probably sucking up to people if you want something.ā
he shook his head slowly, still staring at you in that intense way that always made your heartbeat feel uneven.
outside, thunder cracked loudly enough to rattle the windows. you crossed your arms instinctively, suppressing a shiver.
unfortunately, chan noticed immediately. his eyes narrowed slightly as another tremor ran through you. āyouāre freezing.ā
āiām fine.ā
āyouāre shaking.ā
āwow,ā you deadpanned, āyour observational skills are incredible.ā
he rolled his eyes before reaching behind him blindly, grabbing a black sweater from the couch and tossing it towards you.
it hit your chest. you looked down at it suspiciously. then back at him. āā¦you own sweaters? wow. didn't expect that with you always running around in your stupid tank tops." you loved the stupid tank tops.
āhilarious.ā
you held the sweater between two fingers. āthis thing probably reeks of ego.ā
āput the fucking hoodie on.ā
you snorted softly, still not moving. āi think iād rather suffer.ā
āchrist,ā he muttered, dragging a hand down his face. āstop being so fucking stubborn.ā
āmake me.ā the words slipped out too naturally. too easily. and the second they did, the room changed.
chan went still. the flashlight from his phone cast shadows across his face as his eyes locked onto yours with dangerous intensity.
your pulse skipped. his gaze dropped briefly to your mouth before lifting again. slowly. oh, he knew exactly how to make you less stubborn.
ācareful,ā he said quietly. your breath caught despite yourself.
but instead of backing down, you tilted your head slightly. āor what?ā
his eyes darkened slightly at that. the storm outside seemed louder suddenly, rain hammering against the windows while the studio sat in near darkness around you.
chan leaned back slowly in the chair, one hand still holding his phone loosely against his thigh. āyou really donāt know when to stop talking.ā
you clutched the sweater against your chest. āyou say that like you arenāt the one constantly starting arguments with me.ā
ābecause you make it easy.ā
āor maybe youāre obsessed with hearing yourself speak.ā
he laughed quietly under his breath. āsee?ā he murmured. āthere it is.ā
āwhat?ā
āthat mouth.ā
heat crept annoyingly up your neck. you tried to ignore it. āyou mean the one that hurts your feelings every other day?ā you said sweetly.
āplease.ā his gaze dragged over you again, slow enough to make your stomach tighten. āif anything, i think you enjoy getting my attention.ā
you scoffed immediately. āyouāre unbelievable.ā
āyou came here soaked out of your mind during a storm.ā
āto see felix.ā
āsure.ā
āgod, your ego is exhausting.ā
āand yet you ended up alone with me.ā
the words landed heavier than they should have. you hated that your heartbeat reacted instantly. and chan noticed, your flushed face making him way more aroused than it should.
his eyes narrowed slightly, like he was studying every tiny shift in your expression.
āyou know what your problem is?ā you said, mostly to regain control of the conversation.
āenlighten me.ā
āyou think everybody wants you.ā
one corner of his mouth pulled upward. āyou saying you donāt?ā
your breath caught for half a second. just enough. his expression changed immediately the moment he noticed. to satisfaction? or interest? something far more dangerous underneath both.
āwow,ā he said softly. āthat almost sounded convincing.ā you glared at him. āyouāre insufferable.ā
āand youāre nervous.ā
āiām cold.ā
āright.ā his voice dipped lower on the word. you hated the way it affected you. hated the way the flashlight glow caught against his jaw, the way his eyes stayed fixed on you like he was trying to peel apart every reaction you had.
outside, thunder cracked again. you instinctively stepped closer to him. not close enough to touch. but close enough for him to notice.
a mistake. because chan's gaze dropped briefly to your bare legs before lifting back to your face.
āput the fucking sweater on,ā he said quietly this time. āwhy? worried about me?ā
his eyes held yours. āmore than i should be.ā
the room went painfully still after that. your pulse stumbled hard enough to make you angry.
you ended up leaving the studio an hour later once the rain calmed enough to be manageable again. not before chan practically shoved the sweater at you a second time after catching you trying to hand it back. āput it the fuck on,ā he said flatly.
āwow. so caring.ā
ādonāt flatter yourself.ā
you rolled your eyes, but you still wore it out into the storm. and annoyingly enough, by the time you got home, you realised it smelled exactly like him.
cedar wood and clean laundry. you hated that.
hated it even more when you caught yourself pulling the sleeves over your hands and burying your face into the fabric for half a second while kicking your shoes off near the door.
āoh, this is bad,ā you muttered to yourself immediately. because now your apartment smelled faintly like chan too.
meanwhile, back at the studio, chan sat alone in the chair staring at his phone like it had personally offended him. the power had returned twenty minutes ago. music played softly through the speakers again. but he hadnāt gotten any work done since you left.
his mind kept replaying the way you looked wearing his sweater. sleeves hanging past your hands.
your hair still slightly damp from the rain.
fuck.
he scrubbed a hand over his face aggressively. this was getting ridiculous. you were annoying. stubborn. mouthy. constantly arguing with him.
he did not fucking care whether you got home safe. so why was he still staring at your contact like a man possessed? his thumb hovered over the keyboard. stopped. started again. stopped.
donāt text her. seriously. donāt. youād never let him live it down.
he tossed the phone onto the desk. picked it back up thirty seconds later. āfor fuckās sake,ā he muttered.
before he could overthink it again, his fingers moved.
chan: Ā« got home okay? Ā»
he stared at the message the second it sent, immediate regret settling in. what the hell was wrong with him? his phone buzzed less than a minute later. and despite himself, his heart kicked hard against his ribs.
Ā« no actually. died halfway there. Ā»
his mouth twitched instantly. god. there it was again. that stupid rush every time you answered him.
Ā« tragic. hope my hoodie survived though. Ā»
you snorted softly to yourself while curling further into your couch.
Ā« barely. still reeks of your fucking ego. Ā»
he leaned back in the chair, smiling before he could stop himself, like an idiot.
Ā« you still wearing it? Ā»
your eyes narrowed at the message.
Ā« why? you miss it? Ā»
three dots appeared almost immediately. disappeared. appeared again. you stared at your screen way too intently.
Ā« maybe i just donāt trust you with my clothes. Ā»
heat crept into your face annoyingly fast.
Ā« relax. iām not trying to steal your precious hoodie. Ā»
Ā« already did. Ā»
your stomach flipped. you hated how much you liked this version of him. because somehow, over text, the banter felt even more entertaining. like all his attention narrowed directly onto you. you bit your lip before typing back.
Ā« you this annoying with everyone or am i special? Ā»
this time, his reply took longer. far longer. chan stared at the message for a while, jaw tightening slightly because the answer came too easily.
youāre the only person who talks back.
youāre the only one i think about this much.
youāre the only one who gets under my skin.
instead, he typed:
Ā« donāt let it get to your head. Ā»
a couple days later, you found yourself back at the studio again. mostly because felix had begged you to bring him lunch after claiming he was āseconds away from starving to death.ā dramatic.
you sat cross-legged on the couch while felix inhaled noodles beside you, rambling about some artist they'd been working with while music played quietly through the speakers.
you were halfway through making fun of him for nearly setting the break room microwave on fire earlier when the studio door opened.
and immediately, your attention shifted. chan walked in wearing all black, headphones hanging around his neck, one hand pushing through his hair tiredly before his eyes landed on you.
his expression barely changed. but his heartbeat did. fast enough to irritate him instantly. because there you were again, sitting comfortably in his space like you belonged there now. laughing, talking, wearing that exact expression that always made him want to argue with you just to keep your attention on him longer.
ālook who decided to show up,ā you said casually.
ālook who keeps invading my studio.ā
felix looked between the two of you with immediate interest.
chan dropped into the chair across from you before his eyes narrowed slightly. ādid you bring my hoodie?ā you blinked innocently. āno.ā his brows lifted. āno?ā
āthatās what i said.ā
āyou keeping it now?ā
you snorted softly. āmaybe i like it.ā
his gaze flickered over you slowly. "should i be worried?ā
ādepends,ā you said lightly. āyou emotionally attached to it?ā
ānot usually.ā
felix looked absolutely delighted. ājesus christ,ā he whispered to himself.
you ignored him. mostly because chan was still staring at you with that infuriatingly focused expression that made you feel overly aware of yourself.
āi can go get it right now if youāre gonna be dramatic about it,ā you said.
the smart response wouldāve been no. he knew that. he shouldāve said: donāt bother. itās just a hoodie. bring it whenever.
instead, his mouth betrayed him. āgo ahead.ā
you stared at him for a second before laughing in disbelief. āyou are such a fucking pain in the ass.ā
āyou took my hoodie.ā
āyou told me to wear it!"
ādidnāt say permanently.ā
you narrowed your eyes at him while felix openly watched the exchange like live entertainment. āsee?ā you muttered. āthis is exactly what i mean. you always need things your way.ā
āand you always pretend you donāt like giving me a hard time.ā
āi could think of a million things i'd rather do.ā
āsure.ā god, that smug look on his face made you want to throw something at him.
instead, you leaned back against the couch dramatically. āwell, too bad. iām not going home right now just because you snapped your fingers.ā
his jaw twitched slightly. āfine,ā he said after a second. āiāll pick it up tonight after the studio.ā
your heart stumbled instantly, hard enough to genuinely piss you off. because suddenly all you could think about was chan standing inside your apartment. wearing that look, talking to you in that low voice, being alone with you again.
you forced yourself to stay casual. āfine.ā but the word came out thinner than you intended.
his eyes stayed on you for one extra second too long before the corner of his mouth tilted upward slightly, satisfied. like heād already figured out exactly what that idea did to you too.
a little after eight, your phone buzzed. you stared at the notification longer than necessary.
Ā« address. Ā»
your thumbs hovered over the keyboard while your heartbeat steadily picked up speed. this was a bad idea. letting chan into your apartment, alone, at night, after whatever the hell had been happening between you lately, felt objectively stupid.
his hoodie sat freshly washed and perfectly folded on your desk like evidence of a problem you refused to acknowledge. you shouldāve just brought it to the studio earlier.
after another minute of overthinking, you sent him your address anyway. the three dots appeared almost immediately.
Ā« be there in thirty. Ā»
your stomach flipped. āthis is so fucking stupid,ā you muttered to yourself. and yet you still fixed your hair before he arrived. fucking pathetic.
exactly thirty minutes later, there was a knock at your door. of course he was punctual. you had no idea why the smallest thing about him annoyed you this much.
you grabbed the hoodie quickly before opening the door just enough to shove it towards him immediately. āhere. now leave.ā
chan looked down at the folded sweater in your hands before slowly lifting his eyes back to your face. ācute welcome.ā
āyou came for the hoodie. here it is."
instead of taking it right away, he leaned one arm against the doorframe casually. his gaze stayed fixed on you while he finally took the sweater from your hands. and then he noticed it. the scent. your detergent.
his fingers tightened slightly around the fabric. fuck. he hated how much he liked it. hated the immediate thought that crossed his mind.
you narrowed your eyes. āwhy are you looking at it like that?ā
ānothing.ā
āyouāre literally glaring at your own hoodie.ā
āiām thinking.ā
ādangerous hobby for someone like you.ā
his mouth twitched. there it was again. that tiny almost-smile that only ever seemed to appear around you. āyou washed it.ā
āobviously.ā
ādidnāt think you had it in you.ā
you scoffed immediately. āgod, youāre annoying.ā
āyou say that every time you see me.ā
ābecause it remains true every time i see you.ā
he laughed quietly under his breath before his eyes drifted past you briefly into your apartment. āyou gonna make me stand out here all night?ā
āthat was actually the plan.ā
ārude.ā
āyou'll survive.ā but despite the sarcasm, you stepped aside anyway.
the second chan walked past you, the atmosphere shifted. you shut the door quickly behind him before you could overthink the fact that you were now alone with him again.
his eyes landed on you again almost immediately. āyou nervous?ā he asked suddenly. you blinked. āwhat?ā
āyou keep fidgeting.ā you immediately stopped moving out of spite. āyouāre imagining things.ā
āam i?ā
āyes.ā
he hummed softly, unconvinced. āinteresting.ā
āwhat is?ā
āyou only get defensive when iām right.ā
āand you only talk this much when you want attention.ā his brows lifted slightly. "you think i want your attention?ā
you laughed once in disbelief. āplease. you practically orbit around me at this point.ā
that hit harder than intended. you could tell immediately by the way his expression shifted.
chan stepped closer slowly, enough to make your pulse spike.
ācareful,ā he said quietly. āyouāre sounding very confident for someone whose heart is racing right now.ā
your breath caught. āyouāre insufferable.ā
āyou already said that.ā
ābecause you keep proving it.ā
āthen tell me why,ā he murmured, eyes dropping briefly to your mouth, āyou still let me in?"
the tension snapped tighter instantly.
ādonāt flatter yourself,ā you said, though your voice came out weaker than intended. āyou came here for a hoodie.ā
āright.ā the way he said it made heat spread low in your stomach. because suddenly it very much did not feel like this was about the hoodie anymore.
the room felt unbearably small now. every sarcastic comment, every lingering glance, every argument between you two over the past weeks suddenly sat heavy in the air between you.
chan stayed close. close enough that you could see the tension in his jaw every time you opened your mouth again. which, naturally, only made you want to push him further.
āyou know,ā you said lightly, even though your pulse was completely betraying you now, āfor someone who supposedly canāt stand me, you spend an awful lot of time in my personal space.ā
his eyes narrowed. āyou think this is me trying to be close to you?ā
āi think youāre obsessed with annoying me.ā
a humourless laugh left him. ātrust me,ā he murmured, āif i wanted to annoy you, youād know.ā
your stomach tightened hard at the tone of his voice. but you still crossed your arms stubbornly. āwow. terrifying.ā
chan couldn't help but stare at your arms crossed over your tits. those goddamn tits. āyou should be scared.ā
āof what?ā
his gaze locked onto yours completely. āof how much iām trying not to lose my patience with you right now.ā
the words hit like a physical thing, your breath catching slightly. his expression darkened. āthere it is,ā he said quietly. you swallowed once. āthereās what?ā
āthat look.ā
āwhat look?ā
āthe one you get when you stop pretending you hate this.ā
heat flooded your face instantly. āyouāre delusional.ā
āam i?ā he stepped even closer. your back nearly brushed the edge of the counter behind you now. every instinct screamed at you to move. you didnāt. because despite the tension winding painfully tight in your chest, despite how impossible he was, you wanted him close.
āyou talk too much,ā chan muttered suddenly, eyes fixed on your mouth now instead of your eyes.
you scoffed softly, though it came out shakier than intended. āyet youāre always listening.ā
āthatās the problem.ā your heartbeat stumbled at his low voice. ādo you have any idea,ā he said slowly, āhow fucking badly i want to shut that smart mouth of yours?ā
silence crashed between you. your breath came shallow now. because suddenly all the tension between you two finally had a name. and judging by the way chan looked at you, heād stopped trying to deny it entirely.
you shouldāve stepped away. shouldāve said something sarcastic. something sharp. something safe.
instead, your eyes flicked briefly to his lips before you whispered, far too softly: āwhatās keeping you then?ā
that was it. whatever restraint chan had left snapped instantly. his hand caught your jaw almost desperately before he crashed his mouth against yours. like heād been holding himself back for weeks and finally lost the fight.
the kiss was all heat and frustration and ruined patience. you kissed him back immediately, fingers gripping the front of his shirt as his other hand braced against the counter beside you.
and god, chan kissed exactly how he argued: intense and demanding. like he tried to be in control even in the heat of the moment.
a quiet sound caught in his throat when you pulled him closer, like he couldnāt quite believe this was finally happening either.
his forehead pressed briefly against yours when he pulled back just enough to breathe, both of you visibly affected now. and then the idiot actually muttered: āstill think iām annoying?ā
you let out a breathless laugh despite yourself. āthe most annoying."
his mouth curved against yours again. āyeah,ā he murmured, already kissing you again, ābut you kiss me anyway?"
you snorted against his lips. "just trying to see whether your ego is justified."
a dark chuckle escaped chan's throat, his hands gripping your waist, pulling you flush against him, his erection pressing against your lower belly.
"think you can impress me with a hard cock?" chan's hands twitched at that. he wanted to smack that smug expression of your face so badly. wanted to make you shut that goddamn mouth of yours.
instead, he inhaled sharply, nostrils flaring. "watch it." he said through gritted teeth, trying to hold onto his last bit of self control.
"or what?" you replied confidently, looking up at him, smiling way too sweetly. chan's breaths came out heavier, his hips grinding against you instinctively.
"or i will show you exactly what this cock is capable of doing to you. and spoiler alert, you're not gonna like it."
you snorted at that. actually snorted, right in his face. "yeah? think you're gonna break me, channie?" the soft nickname on your lips were his complete undoing. his cock twitched, you felt it through the fabric. he placed his hands on the counter on either side of you, pulling back but caging you in. he could no longer be this close to you, he had to get his cock away from you. because he was about to snap.
"you have no idea what you're doing to me." he spoke, voice rough. a smug expression crossed your face, you leaned forward, breath hot against his ear as you whispered, "what if i know exactly what i'm doing to you?"
his hand shot up, grabbing your hair so hard it hurt, tilting your head back. you couldn't help yourself but moan out, legs clenching together. chan smirked, grip tightening in your hair, "you fucking like that? being manhandled? where's your fucking smugness now?"
you stared at him, hating how your body betrayed you. "fuck you, chan." you muttered. but that only encouraged him. he knew he had you.
"that the only comeback you can think of?" he mocked, his other hand now grabbing your jaw, holding your head in place. he pressed his body against you again. "c'mon, put that smart mouth to work. i dare you."
but you remained silent, breaths coming out in puffs as you tried to calm your racing heart. "where did your attitude go, hm?" he asked, pushing his leg between yours. he pressed his thigh against your core, making your breath hitch, looking at you with mocking eyes.
"you asked me if i think i can break you? yes, i can. tell me to stop and i will leave right through that door. but if you say yes to this, i will make sure you forget your own fucking name."
he waited. patiently. for any answer. for a simple yes or no. you blinked up at him, mind racing, until you finally nodded your head confidently. "is that a yes?" he asked, tone still mocking. "use your fucking words." his tone was commanding as ever. but he needed to hear it, needed your verbal consent.
"yesā" you choked out. and after that, all hell broke loose.
a low sound escaped chan's throat, his grip on your hair tightening, yanking your away from the counter and towards the couch. it hurt, the way he was handling you. he pushed you towards the sofa, finally letting go of your hair. "undress." he said, standing tall in front of you, arms crossed as he watched you. "i'm not gonna ask again."
your fingers trembled slightly as you started undressing yourself, eyes never leaving his. "for fuck's sake." chan muttered, clearly impatient. he smacked your hands away, basically ripping your clothes away. his hands roamed over your body, feeling your warm skin against his fingertips. you felt better than he could have ever imagined. he groaned, his mouth suddenly back on yours. the kiss was laced with desperation as his hands grabbed your tits, squeezing them through your bra before taking it off with skilled fingers. "fucking perfect." he muttered more to himself than you.
he pinched your nipples hard, needing to know how you react to it. you hissed, biting your lip, gaining a smirk from chan.
he pushed you down on the couch, standing tall in front of you. his thumb traced over your lower lip. "open." he grabbed your hair, tilting your head back. "tongue out." your jaw clenched slightly, not wanting to obey him, wanting to challenge him. but when his grip in your hair tightened painfully, you opened your mouth, sticking your tongue out. chan leaned forward, spitting into your mouth before sliding two fingers along your tongue. he moved them further into your mouth, his cock twitching in his pants.
"i'm gonna show you how to put that smart mouth of yours to good use, yeah?" he muttered as he started sliding his fingers in and out of you. you wrapped your lips around them, looking up at him. he pulled your hair harder, tilting your head further, retrieving his fingers from between your lips and smacking your cheek hard. "fucking answer when i'm talking to you."
your breath caught in your throat, eyes watering the slightest bit. "well right now, you're all big words and no fucking action." your snappy response earned you another slap against your cheek, coating it with your saliva that was still on his fingers.
"you fucking bitch." chan just shook his head, unable to believe that you still had the audacity to talk back. he yanked your hair. hard. moving you to lie on your back, head on the armrest of the couch. he pulled you further until your head was hanging over the edge.
he was already working on his pants, pulling them down, freeing his cock, right over your face. he gave it a few strokes, watching you. he didn't waste another second, tapping it against your lips. you smelled him, the saltiness of his precum coating his tip.
he didn't push in, not yet. he smeared his precum over your lips. "tap my thigh three times in a row if it gets too much. understand?" he asked, growing more impatient by the minute. you nodded. fucking nodded. "words, sweetheart." he said through gritted teeth.
"i understand." you said.
"good girl."
"don't fucking call me that. i'm not your good girl."
chan only grinned at that. "you'd rather i keep insulting you?"
"i'd rather you finally put that cock to use." you snapped back. he smacked your tit, making you flinch. "yeah, i fucking should. shut that goddamn mouth of yours for once."
and with that, he pushed his cock past your lips, his hips snapping involuntarily, shoving his length down your throat. "fuckā" he cursed loudly, watching your throat, how it took shape of his length. "holyā"
you immediately gagged around him, not having expected him to just shove his entire length in with no further warning.
and he fucking kept it there, making you choke, cutting off your air supply. you tapped his thigh three times, and he immediately pulled back, realising that he got caught in the moment. you immediately took a deep breath, coughing.
"you want to be treated like a fucking whore, then fucking take it like one."
"you're a fucking asshole, bang chan, you know that?"
a dark chuckle erupted from somewhere deep inside him. "yet you still take my fucking cock like you're my own personal slut." and before you could say anything, he rammed his cock back into your mouth, deep down your throat.
his hips moved in quick little thrusts, fucking your mouth till you couldn't breathe, pulling back to let you get some oxygen before repeating his movements. his hand reached for your throat, squeezing it, feeling the pressure of his own hand around his cock buried deep down.
you choked. hard. your body started jolting until he finally pulled out, a long strip of saliva still connecting your mouth to his cock.
"you're trying to fucking choke me to death?" your voice sounded hoarse, your throat so raw it hurt to talk. chan just grinned down at you, his fingers smearing your own saliva all over your pretty lips. you caught his finger, biting it.
"fuck! you bitch!" chan called in surprise, withdrawing his hand, connecting it to your cheek with a hard smack. and of all possible things you could have done, you fucking moaned at his action. "you're un-fucking-believable." chan muttered through gritted teeth.
"on your hands and knees." he ordered, voice way too calm for the storm inside him. you snorted. "don't fucking boss me around like that."
chan was losing his patience. he grabbed you, handled your body with a strength that left you breathless as he flipped you over on your stomach. "don't make me tie you the fuck up."
you snorted again. fuck, it drove him wild. he wanted to punish you for fucking breathing. "be my guest. i don't own any ropes."
a slow, wicked grin spread on chan's face. "oh, trust me. i can get very creative." and with that, his hands left you and you heard him wander off. you turned your head to the side, watching him waltz around your apartment like he fucking owned the place.
"what the fuck are you doing?" you snapped, already shuffling to get up.
"if you dare move even a fucking inch, i'm gonna spank your ass till it's burning red." your breath hitched at his words. but that still didn't stop you from rising to your feet and following him. who did he even think he was?
you found him in your bedroom, picking up a belt that was stored neatly in one of your drawers. he looked ridiculous. going through your stuff, half naked, his stupid cock still glistening with your saliva.
you stood there, butt naked, crossing your arms over your chest. "stop fucking going through my stuff."
"why? hiding something you don't want me to find?"
you snorted, "no. just don't like fucking assholes going through my things."
he walked past your bed, opening the drawer of your nightstand. "oh my god! you have no fucking respect!"
you knew what he would find. and you couldn't care less. he held up your pink vibrator a few seconds later, grinning like he found a precious treasure. "cute." he muttered.
"oh wow, blame a girl for owning a goddamn vibrator."
chan turned around, standing in front of you, vibrator in one hand, belt in the other. "you get yourself off with this thing?" he asked, eyebrows raised.
"yes." you replied confidently but couldn't suppress the soft flush spreading from your neck to your face. chan grin only widened. his eyes travelled past you, landing on a light scarf hanging over the back of your desk chair. "perfect." he muttered, walking past you to grab it. "remember how i told you not to fucking move?"
you rolled your eyes, "remember how i told you not to boss me around?"
chan came up behind you. you could feel the heat radiating from his body. he threw the vibrator and the scarf on the bed. your eyes followed the items. "you know, that scarf is actually my favourite, if you ruin itā"
"don't care." he cut you off, grabbing your wrists, yanking them behind your back harshly. he tied the belt around them, making you gasp.
"and the only thing i plan on ruining," he moved his hands up your arms, fingertips ghosting over the skin, giving you goosebumps. "is you."
his lips connected to your shoulders, leaving a few kisses till he reached your neck. his arms snaked around you from behind, pulling you flush against him, his cock hard against your butt. he bit your neck hard, making you hiss, before sucking the flesh, making sure to leave a fucking mark.
he pulled back slightly, watching the skin change colour, grinning in satisfaction, before repeating it a little further up. your ass ground against his cock, making him suck your skin harder.
"fuck, you like getting marked like a fucking whore?" he whispered against your skin, his hands squeezing your tits, thumbs brushing over your nipples, making you moan. "chanā"
you moaning his name like that was his complete undoing. he needed more. needed more of you moaning his name, screaming it.
he grabbed the small vibrator from the bed, turning it on and guiding it over your hardened nipples. you pressed yourself harder against him, soft moans now constantly leaving your lips. he started grinding his hard cock against you, moving the vibrator down to your cunt, running it over your clit lazily. you arched your back, your hips starting to move against the toy. "chan, pleaseā" you couldn't suppress the soft whimper, no idea where the sudden needy tone came from. but it made him lose his mind.
he threw you on your bed, yanking your ass up before you could even gather yourself, your hands still tied tightly behind your back.
he started wrapping your scarf around your thighs in figure 8s, tying them together. once he was done, he took a step back, admiring the view. you turned your head to the side, pressed against the mattress, ass in the air. you tried to get a glimpse of him. he stood there, swallowing hard, just... watching you.
"you're a fucking weirdo, bang chan."
his eyes didn't move away from your bare core, "shut up or i will gag you." he said as his eyes finally met yours. he moved closer to the bed, leaning forward, brushing a few loose strands of hair out of your face. "if anything gets too much, you use the word 'red' and i will stop immediately, okay?" you blinked at him a few times. the fact that he still ...cared, despite the hatred, despite you riling him up constantly, made something warm settle in your chest. "okay."
his hand started caressing your butt cheeks, way too softly. the serious expression on his face was replaced by a smirk. and then he smacked you. hard. you couldn't move, hands tied together, thighs tied together. all you could do was flinch.
"you should learn to fucking listen. if i tell you not to move, you don't fucking move." another smack. you opened your mouth, wanting to protest. he cut you off with another deliberate slap. "don't you fucking dare talking back right now." he said, making you grin. fucking grin.
"godā" he shook his head, his next smack making you wince from the sting. and then his finger just entered you with no fucking warning. you moaned out loud in surprise, moving back against his touch.
chan let out a dark chuckle. "you're so fucking desperate, it's pathetic." he said, his finger moving in and out of you with ease. "so fucking wet."
his free hand slapped your ass again, so hard it left a handprint. he added a second finger, curling them inside you, making you moan involuntarily. "fuck, chanā"
his cock twitched at you moaning his name again. fuck, that did things to him. "again." he muttered, teeth clenched, trying to keep any bit of self-control. "moan my fucking name again." he pumped his fingers faster, curling them at just the right spot, his name leaving your lips in soft moans, driving him insane.
he dropped to his knees, pulling his fingers out of you and burying his face into your cunt. "fuck!" you cried out, body jolting forwards. he grabbed your hips harshly, holding you in place as he fed on you like a man starved.
"tastes so fucking good." he groaned against you, his tongue swirling around your clit a couple of times before licking up to your entrance, pushing inside you. he reached for the vibrator again, turning it on, bringing it to your clit, while his tongue moved in and out of your hole.
you ground your cunt against him, moaning shamelessly as you felt your orgasm build up. "chanā" you moaned and he knew. he wanted to deny you the orgasm, wanted to edge you, to make you feel as desperate as you always made him feel. but he couldn't. not when you were moaning so sweetly. not when your cunt was grinding against his face so desperately.
your legs started trembling and he threw the vibrator away. it scattered on the floor somewhere as chan grabbed your hips harder, fingers digging into you so hard, they'd leave bruises. he held you in place, burying his face deeper inside you.
"just fucking come on my face already." he murmured into you, big hands moving to your ass, squeezing the cheeks harshly.
you tried to hold back your orgasm, not wanting him to feel even the slightest amount of pride for making you come. and he noticed. noticed the way you tried to hold back.
"for fuck's sake!" he groaned, pushing two fingers back inside you, curling them right where you needed them, making you cry out.
"stop being so fucking stubborn." his fingers pumped into you relentlessly, hitting your g-spot again and again, making you see stars, head spinning. until you finally could no longer hold back. with one last flick of his tongue over your clit, you came undone. he guided you through your orgasm and you could feel his fucking grin against your cunt.
"that's it." he murmured, clearly satisfied with himself. "just shut the fuck up." you snapped. bad idea. he smacked your cunt so hard, it made you lose balance, collapsing onto the mattress. with your legs and hands still tied, you couldn't lift yourself up, legs still shaking from the intensity of your orgasm.
chan just chuckled darkly behind you, giving his cock a few pumps, watching you being completely at his mercy. he's been dreaming about this, fantasising about it. his eyes wander over your body, spotting every goddamn mark he left. bites, hickeys, fingerprints. he loved it. but he needed more.
he reached forward, grabbing your hair and yanking you back. his breath was hot against your ear, his cock pressing against your ass. "i'm gonna fuck you now, yeah? fill that pretty little cunt. mark you properly."
he gave you a few seconds to protest, but you didn't. you were still catching your breath, body still trembling. he let go of your hair, starting to undress himself. you didn't want to look. you knew he was handsome as fuck, didn't need a proof of that. but you couldn't help turning your head, watching him over your shoulder. fuck.
"stop staring." he said, not even looking up as he neatly placed his clothes over the chair at your desk. your eyes traced his toned body, all the way to his perfect ass. goddamnit.
"don't fucking flatter yourself." you snorted, but your words lacked any bite. chan ignored it, standing behind you, cock fucking throbbing and all. "ass up." he ordered. you struggled against the restraints, trying to move back onto your knees.
"fucking pathetic." chan murmured as he gripped your hips and pulled you up. his hands sprawled over your butt cheeks, squeezing them. you hissed. they still hurt from earlier.
chan just watched you for a while, with you getting impatient. "stop staring." you repeated the words he just threw at you, grinning to yourself. his hands flinched against your butt cheeks, ready to smack the shit out of you, but he took a deep breath instead.
he spit down on his cock, using one hand to spread his saliva over it, before pushing inside you with no further warning. "fuck!" you cried out, jolting forwards. "godfuckingdamnit chan!"
you were so fucking wet, he just slid right in, all the way. he gritted his teeth, trying not to think too much about how fucking good you actually feel. trying not to think about how he actually, finally, has his cock buried inside your fucking cunt. trying not to think aboutā fuck. his cock twitched inside you, realising how your walls are clamping down on him.
it pissed him off. how good you felt. how warm you were. how fucking wet. how much he wanted you, even though he finally had you.
he grabbed your hair, wrapping it around his hand, yanking you back forcefully, his cock buried to the hilt. he yanked until you were pressed against his chest. "i'm not gonna last long if you keep clenching your fucking walls around me."
your soft moans turned into a snort. "who's pathetic now? you haven't even fucked me properly, channie."
he lost it at the sweet nickname on your lips. his free hand smacked your ass. hard. grabbing your hips. the grip in your hair tightened as he started moving. his hips snapping brutally, each thrust into your sensitive cunt making you whimper.
"you drive me fucking insane." he murmured against your neck before biting down hard, making you cry out in surprise. he groaned against your skin, keeping a steady rhythm. you cried out his name again, and again, making his head spin.
he let go of your hair, forcing you to fall onto the mattress, grabbing your hips, fucking deeper into you. his pace brutal and intense. until your legs could no longer hold you up. they shook so violently, you collapsed onto the mattress.
but he didn't stop. he adjusted to the changed angle within seconds, pushing your hips further down, hips slamming against you, fucking you into the mattress. he moved one hand between your shoulder blades, the other staying on your hip, almost his entire weight holding you down.
"chanā" everything was overwhelming and the familiar knot started tightening in your stomach. his cock rubbed against that sweet spot deep inside you, making your walls clench violently around him as you came hard.
chan cursed under his breath, your orgasm triggering his own. his thrusts become sloppy, desperate to fill your cunt with his load. desperate to fucking breed you.
with a guttural groan, he stilled deep inside you. his arms shook slightly as he emptied himself into you. you felt it, his thick load warm inside you. "fuck, that's it." he murmured almost inaudible, his hips doing small micro thrusts.
he removed his hands from you, placing them on the mattress beside you. but he didn't pull out. not yet. he reached for the belt around your hands, undoing it, freeing you.
you were both breathless, panting heavily. chan's hand reached for your face, swiping some loose strands away. "you okay?"
your body was sore. you were hyper aware of every mark he left on you, your skin burning. but you nodded. the intensity of both your orgasms was enough to make up for the soreness.
he pulled out slowly, sitting back, watching you. your legs were still tied together, looking absolutely perfect to him.
when his cum started dripping out of you, his eyes widened, addicted to the view. "fuck," he groaned, fingers catching the thick liquid, smearing it over your cunt. when more started dripping out, he groaned.
he collected every drop, pushing two fingers inside you. "chan?!" you called out in surprise, but his name died on your lips, turning into a moan. his mind was fucking gone, as he started fucking his cum right back into you with his fingers.
"fucking appreciate the load i gave you." he said, voice dark. he smacked your ass, fingers pumping in and out of you, pushing his cum back inside.
"don't lose a single fucking drop or i'll have to fill you up again."
and right then, fucking his seed back into your cunt, having you whimper at his touch, moan his name with a broken voice, one thing became perfectly clear to him. that he didn't want this to be a one time thing. already too obsessed with the way your body reacts to his.
The Grumpy Girlfriend Protection Program | One-shot
Pairing: Jungkook x (f.) Reader
Genre: sunshine bf x grumpy gf, golden retriever! jungkook, black cat! reader, office worker! reader, veterinary student! jungkook, fluff, comedy, thriller, mystery (slight), action, angst.
Summary: Jeon Jungkook has always been the sunshine in every room; warm, kind, and completely oblivious to danger. Luckily, you, his grumpy, overprotective girlfriend have made it your personal mission to keep him safe. But when the threat shifts to you instead, Jungkook proves that even sunshine can scorch, and for you, heād burn.
Word count:Ā 22.8k+
Warnings: reader is very protective, themes of stalking and obsession, usage of drugs (not reader or jungkook), fight scene, violence, multiple flashback scenes.
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A/N: hugeeee thanks to my dear friend sy (@btswit7 ) for going through my fic and suggesting edits! ilysm. sorry this took so long for me to write. i swearrr this fic was supposed to be fluffy, cute and around 10k words but I got carried away š (not sorry for that). i might've absolutely butchered the tattoo shop scene pls forgive me (I've never been to a tattoo shop before idk how it works) this is also my first time writing an action scene it prolly sucks but wtv.
The sun hung high in the cloudless sky, casting a golden glow over the city. A gentle breeze drifted through the streets, the warmth of the morning wrapped around you like a comforting embrace, just the right kind of day that practically demanded an escape from the ordinary. And what better way to spend it than sprawled out on a checkered blanket, a basket full of food beside you, and your ever-so-enthusiastic boyfriend, Jungkook, grinning at you like this was the best idea in the world?
Thatās right. It was picnic day. After a gruelling week at work, all you wanted was to stay in bed, sleep until the afternoon, have a late lunch, and then (ideally) go right back to sleep. But Jungkook, being the ever-optimistic, early-rising, productivity-loving man that he was, thought weekends were best spent on morning picnic dates at whatever random park he had decided on that week.
There was nothing you hated more than disappointing your sweet boyfriend, so cancelling the picnic dates altogether wasnāt an option. After extensive negotiations (read: you groggily whining while he laughed and refused to budge), you managed to compromiseāmorning breakfast dates became brunch dates. Because letās be real, every extra second of sleep counts.
On the way to your picnic, you were stopped by a teenage boy, probably 17 or 18, who practically shoved a clipboard into your faces. With the practised enthusiasm of a seasoned salesman, he introduced himself, flashing a grin as he extended a hand in greeting. Then came the pitch.
āDonations for a local animal shelter,ā he announced, voice laced with urgency. A shelter you had never heard of.
āThe puppies and bunnies are all sick, sir, and the kittens are underfed,ā he continued, his face contorting with the sheer heartbreak of it all. The kind of expression that would probably work on unsuspecting souls. Jungkook, being Jungkook, was already pulling out his wallet. And you were having none of it.
Before he could hand over a single bill, you yanked the wallet straight out of his hands. Jungkook blinked at you, stunned.
āDid you even check if itās a real shelter?ā you asked, unimpressed.
Jungkook glanced at the boy, then back at you. āLooks pretty real to me.ā You sighed, taking a look at the "official website" the scammer eagerly pulled up on his phone. One glance was all it took.
āThatās a Wix template, you dumbass,ā you deadpanned, shooting Jungkook a look. And to drive your point home, you dialled the actual shelterās number. A moment of silence.
Then, like clockwork, the boyās phone started ringing. The scammer stiffened, eyes wide with panic. And then, without as much as another word, he bolted down the street before you could report him to someone.
Jungkook pouted, stuffing his wallet back into his pocket. You rolled your eyes. āI canāt believe you almost fell for that.ā
āOne of these days,ā he muttered, crossing his arms, āyouāre gonna stop me from donating to a real shelter.ā You snorted, nudging his shoulder as you started walking again. āYeah, well, until that day comes, Iāll keep saving you from getting scammed by guys who probably spent five minutes on Google slapping together a fake charity.ā
Jungkook huffed, kicking a loose pebble down the sidewalk. āHe had a clipboard. People with clipboards always seem legit.ā
āOh, right, because clipboards are the universal sign of trustworthiness,ā you deadpanned. āNext time, Iāll be sure to scam you with one myself.ā
He shot you a playful glare. āIād see through you in a second.ā You smirked. āWould you, though?ā
Jungkook opened his mouth, then shut it again, squinting at you like he wasnāt entirely convinced. You just grinned, patting his arm. āExactly.ā
You sit cross-legged on the checkered blanket, arms crossed, watching as Jungkook digs through the picnic basket like a child on Christmas morning. Heās practically vibrating with excitement, pulling out sandwiches, fruit, and what looks like an obnoxiously yellow thermos you donāt remember packing.
You squint. āDid you sneak in banana milk?ā
Jungkook pauses, looking entirely unrepentant. āNo.ā You stare. He stares back. The thermos stares between you, the undeniable evidence of his crime.
Finally, he grins. āOkay, maybe.ā
You let out a slow exhale, reaching for one of the sandwiches while he happily pours himself a cup of his beloved banana milk.
āI donāt get how you function sometimes,ā you mutter, unwrapping your food.
āI function beautifully,ā he corrects, flashing you a smile thatās far too bright for someone who just lied to your face. āYouāre just too grumpy to appreciate it.ā
You roll your eyes. āRight. Because nothing screams āfunctioning adultā like getting scammed five minutes before a picnic.ā Jungkook gasps dramatically, clutching his chest. āI was being charitable!ā
āYou were being a prime target,ā you deadpan. He huffs dramatically, taking an exaggerated bite of his sandwich as if itās the ultimate form of protest. Cheeks puffed out like a bunny, he mumbles through his mouthful, āYou stress too much.ā
You raise a brow. āI wonder why.ā He ignores your sarcasm, swallowing before continuing, āMaybe if youāā He suddenly stops, mid-thought, his eyes lighting up with a spark of mischief.
Oh no. Youāve seen that look before. It never leads to anything good.
"You should feed me."
You nearly choke on your drink. Coughing, you set your cup down with a thud and blink at him. āWhat?ā Jungkook leans forward, resting his chin in his palm with the most infuriatingly smug expression. āYou know,ā he drawls, wiggling his eyebrows, āsince you like taking care of me so much.ā
You stare at him, unamused. Then, without breaking eye contact, you take the smallest, most unimpressive bite of your sandwichājust to spite him.
Jungkook groans, slumping back. āYouāre no fun.ā
āYou knew that when you fell in love with me.ā
His lips curve into something thoughtful, eyes flickering over your face like heās considering something. Then, in one swift motion, he reaches over and swipes a strawberry from your plate, popping it into his mouth before you can react.
You gasp. āJungkook!ā
He grins, entirely unapologetic. āYeah, but I like a challenge.ā Without hesitation, you swat his hand, aiming for another grab. He yelps, laughing too hard for someone who just got smacked, dodging your next attempt with the reflexes of a seasoned strawberry thief.
"Unbelievable," you mutter, shaking your head. "A menace to society."
Jungkook only grins wider. "And yet, you still love me."
And just like that, itās the both of you, bickering, teasing, him being too soft, and you pretending you donāt secretly like it. Despite everything, youāre glad he dragged you here. Because for all his nonsense, for all the chaos he brings into your life, Jungkook makes the world a little brighter.
You hated Monday mornings with a burning passion. If you walked into work and saw someone being all cheerful and optimistic, youād have the overwhelming urge to dump ice-cold coffee over their head, just to make their day as miserable as yours. Of course, you wouldnāt actually act on that particular intrusive thought. Not unless you had a sudden desire to get fired.
Every day, it was the same soul-sucking routine. Log into your computer, answer emails, prepare for meetings, and trudge through an endless list of mind-numbing tasks that make you question all your life choices. You were staring blankly at your screen, fingers moving mechanically as you typed up a report when your phone buzzed.
Kook š°š [11:10 AM]: Miss me yet?
Your fingers pause on the keyboard. Buzz.
Kook š°š[11:10 AM]: Or are you too busy being all serious and grumpy at work?
Kook š°š[11:11 AM]: Bet youāre smiling right now, though.
You bite your lip. You are not smiling. Absolutely not.
āOkay, what is that face?ā
Jiminās voice cuts through your concentration like a knife. You snap your head up to find him leaning against your desk, arms crossed, a knowing smirk already in place.
āThere is no face,ā you say quickly, locking your phone screen and shoving it away. Jimin gasps dramatically. āOh my God, itās him, isnāt it?ā
You groan, rubbing your temples. āI swear toāā
āOhhh, it totally is!ā Jimin snatches your phone before you can react, scrolling through the notifications like he has every right to be nosy.
If thereās one person who never lets you live in peace, itās Jimin. Coworker, best friend, professional pain in your ass, heās all of the above, wrapped in a smug little package. You first met him when you started this job, and somehow, between the forced team projects, shared complaints about the boss, and mutual hatred for monday mornings, you ended up stuck with him for life. Not that youād ever admit youāre grateful for it.
Unfortunately, he knows it anyway.
āJimin, I will end you.ā
But itās too late. Heās already grinning like the devil himself. āLook at you. Getting all giddy over a text. My, my, how the mighty have fallen.ā
āIām not giddy.ā
āOh, you absolutely are.ā He mimics your earlier expression, clutching his phone to his chest with a dreamy sigh. āOh, Jungkook, my sweet precious sunshine, text me more. I canāt possibly get through this workday without knowing youāre thinking about me.ā
You throw a stapler at him.
He dodges effortlessly, laughing. āRelax, lover girl. Itās cute. Gross, but cute.ā You huff, snatching your phone back. āI hate you.ā
āNo, you donāt.ā Jimin plops down in the chair next to you, still smirking. āNow tell me, whatās golden boy up to?ā
You stare at the screen for a moment, fingers hovering over the keyboard before you eventually settle on a simple reply.
You [11:14 AM: Okay.
ā¦Okay, maybe you are smiling a little.
Jimin sees it immediately. And you already know youāre never going to hear the end of it.
The moment you step into the break roomāfinally free from Jiminās relentless smirking, you let out a breath and pull out your phone, scrolling through your recent calls before dialling Jungkook. It barely rings twice before he picks up, his voice warm and teasing, like he already knew youād call.
āHey, baby,ā he greets smoothly, amusement lacing his tone. āMiss me already?ā
You roll your eyes, setting your lunchbox on the table with a thud. āIn your dreams, Jeon.ā
Flipping open the lid, the rich, savoury aroma of bibimbap immediately washes over you. The vibrant colors of the ingredients are neatly arranged, looking almost too perfect to eatāalmost. You can tell Jungkook took his time making it, carefully placing each topping exactly where it should be, ensuring it looked as good as it tasted.
Your heart does something traitorous in your chest, but you ignore it. Jungkook chuckles at your silence, clearly pleased with himself. āI assume this is your way of telling me my cooking is amazing?ā
āNot even close,ā you say, grabbing your chopsticks. āJimin wouldnāt shut up about you, so I figured Iād call and annoy you instead.ā A deep, rumbling laugh comes through the speaker, the sound sending warmth curling through your stomach. āMhm. Sure, love. You couldāve just admitted you wanted to hear my voice.ā
Your eye twitches. āThatās notāā
āShh, no need to be shy. I wonāt judge.ā You groan, tilting your head back against the chair, but the small smile tugging at your lips betrays you. Heās impossible, and worse, he knows it.
āWhatever,ā you mutter. āWhat are you doing this weekend?ā
āMmm.ā Thereās some shuffling on his end, followed by the faint rustling of sheets like heās lying down and getting comfortable. āI was thinking⦠instead of our usual park picnic, you could come with me to get my sleeve reworked.ā That makes you pause, chopsticks hovering mid-air. āOh?ā
āYeah,ā he says, voice a little more casual. āItās been a while, and I wanna touch up some parts. Maybe add something new.ā
You lean back in your chair, considering it. Youāve seen his tattoos up close plenty of timesātraced them absentmindedly, let your fingers follow the inked lines whenever he had an arm wrapped around you. Thereās something mesmerizing about them, the way they flow seamlessly over his skin, each design an intricate part of him.
You definitely wouldnāt mind watching the process.
āThatās fine with me,ā you say after a beat. Then, under your breath, you mumble, āBut if the artist messes up, Iām fighting them.ā Jungkook snorts. āOf course you will.ā His voice takes on that teasing lilt that makes you want to reach through the phone and flick his forehead. āYouāre so cute when you get all protective.ā
Your face heats up instantly. āOh my god, eat your lunch.ā
āI will. But only if you say you love me first.ā You nearly choke. āExcuse me?ā
āYou heard me.ā His grin is obvious, even through the phone. āSay it, and Iāll go eat.ā You huff, glancing around the empty break room just to make sure no oneās around. Then, in the lowest possible whisper, you mumble, āā¦Love you.ā
A beat of silence.
And then, even quieter, āLove your bibimbap too.ā
Jungkook hums, unreasonably satisfied. āLove you too, baby. Now go eat before Jimin catches you blushing.ā Your eyes widen, and you hang up immediately.
Unfortunately, when you turn around, Jimin is standing in the doorway, arms crossed, looking far too smug for your liking.
āSo,ā he drawls, tilting his head. āHowās Jungkook?ā You groan, slamming your head onto the table. You are never going to live this down.
Jiminās laughter echoes in the room, pure evil.
Jungkookās apartment is the kind of place that makes it dangerously easy to never leave. Itās cozy with warm lighting, soft blankets draped over the couch, and the faint scent of vanilla and fabric softener lingering in the air. You tell yourself thatās the main reason you always find yourself here instead of your own place, but, if you were being completely honest, there are a few other factors at play.
For one, his snack collection is legendary. His kitchen cabinets are stocked with an endless supply of goodies, including a lifetimeās worth of Twinkies, your weakness. And then thereās Jungkook himself, but youāre not about to admit that. Especially not to him.
Curled up on his couch, you lazily flip through his Netflix, eyes scanning titles without really registering any of them. The ambient noise of the apartment, the hum of the heater, the occasional rustling of pages from Jungkookās workspace, only adds to the drowsy comfort settling over you. Just as youāre about to give up on finding something to watch, Jungkook suddenly plops down beside you, sketchbook in hand.
The cushion dips under his weight, and you barely manage to suppress a startled flinch. He doesnāt say anything at first, just leans back against the couch with a content sigh, flipping the sketchbook open across his lap. You glance at him from the corner of your eye, curiosity piqued despite yourself.Ā "Okay," he says, grinning as he settles beside you on the couch. His fingers drum against the edge of his sketchbook before he flips it open, glancing at you from the corner of his eye. "Wanna see what Iāve been working on?"
You nod, humming in interest. "Mhm. Sure."
The moment the pages spread out before you, your breath catches. Intricate designs fill the book, some half-finished, others shaded to perfection. There are fine, precise lines, bold strokes, and an almost obsessive attention to detail in every drawing. You can tell he's poured hours into this, into crafting something that isnāt just art but a reflection of himself.
"Damn," you murmur, fingertips tracing lightly over the paper. "You did all these?" Jungkook grins, his dimples making an appearance. "Yup," he says, clearly pleased with your reaction.
You take your time flipping through the pages. Thereās a sketch of a skeletal hand doing the rock on sign, a detailed microphone showcasing his love for music, lyrics from his favorite songs inked in elegant script, and the word Bulletproof scrawled in a graffiti style, right beneath it, a note written in his unmistakable handwriting: cover-up for eye tattoo. And then, sitting proudly in between these edgy, personal pieces, is a woozy face emoji.
You huff out a small laugh. His tattoo ideas range from deeply meaningful to outright ridiculous.
But then you pause. Nestled between his designs is a rework of his tiger lily tattooāhis birth flower. But entwined around it, curling gracefully between the petals, is another flower. Chrysanthemums.
Your birth flower.
The realization sinks in, slow and warm. Jungkook goes still beside you, barely breathing. You donāt miss the way his fingers twitch, or the way his ears turn bright red when he realizes that you understood. Then, like a man caught in the act he snatches the sketchbook away, snapping it shut so fast you barely have time to process it.
"Ahaā! Anywayā" He clears his throat, ears burning. "That one wasnāt, uhāI wasnāt supposed to show you that yet."
Your lips twitch. "Mhm. Jeon, I see what you did there."
"What?" he says too quickly. "Itās just, you know, it looked nice with the lilies." His voice cracks. You arch a brow. "Looks nice? Thatās all?" Jungkook nods a little too fast. "Yeah. No big deal."
You donāt believe him for a second.
So, naturally, you lean in, lowering your voice just enough to watch him squirm."You sure about that, baby?"
Jungkook.exe has stopped working.
With a groan, he buries his burning face into your shoulder, mumbling something incoherent against your sweater. You laugh, warmth blooming in your chest, fingers threading absentmindedly through his hair. Yeah. No big deal.
The weekend sun was just beginning to climb when Jungkook pulled up outside your place, the low hum of his car engine a familiar sound by now. You barely had time to lock your door before he leaned over, effortlessly pushing the passenger door open with that usual bright grin of his. āMorning, baby,ā he greeted, fingers drumming lightly on the steering wheel. Without missing a beat, he leaned in, pressing a soft kiss against your cheekāwarm, lingering just a second longer than necessary. āYou sleep well?ā
You slid into the seat, closing the door behind you with a huff, eyes narrowing at him. āNo, because someone was blowing up my phone with memes and āfun factsā about toxic tattoo inks at two in the morning.ā Jungkook had the audacity to look proud. āI just thought you should know! What if they use cheap ink, huh? Gotta protect this masterpiece.ā He gestured vaguely at his arm, where his tattoos peeked out from under the sleeve of his shirt.
You sighed, clicking your seatbelt into place. āJust drive.ā
As he shifted gears and pulled onto the road, you let your gaze wander around the car, taking in the familiar scent of his cologne, the faint hum of the engine, and the steady rhythm of the music playing low through the speakers. His hand, warm and absentminded, found its usual place on your thigh like it belonged there, thumb tracing gentle patterns against your skin. It was peaceful. The kind of easy, comfortable silence that only came from knowing someone so well.
But then, something caught your attention.
Your eyes drifted to the backseat, where his sketchbook sat, slightly ajar as if hastily tossed there. A few loose sheets stuck out from the pages, filled with the intricate designs youād seen before. You reached for it instinctively, but before you could grab it, the scenery outside made you pause.
ā...Wait.ā Your brows furrowed as you looked out the window. The streets werenāt familiar, the route different from what you expected. You turned back to him. āThis isnāt the way to your usual place.ā Jungkook hummed, like heād been waiting for you to notice. āWeāre trying a new one today.ā
You turned to him, suspicious. āWhy?ā
His grin widened, full of mischief. āJin got a job there.ā That took you a second to process. āSeokjin?ā
āMy cousin, yeah.ā Jungkook drummed his fingers against the steering wheel, glancing at you briefly before turning his attention back to the road. āHeās a receptionist now. Lured me in with staff discounts.ā You scoffed, shaking your head. āSo, let me get this straightāhe got a job there yesterday, and today youāre already showing up to cash in?ā Jungkook gasped, all faux offense, clutching his chest as if youād just wounded him. āI would never use my dear cousin like that.ā
You gave him a deadpan look.
His lips twitched, the act crumbling instantly. āā¦Okay, maybe a little,ā he admitted, flashing you a boyish grin. āBut hey, cheaper tattoos, and I get to support my hyung? Win-win.ā You rolled your eyes, unable to stop the amused smile pulling at your lips. āDoes he even know weāre coming?ā
āHe does,ā Jungkook replied, his grin not fading. āHe actually told me to wait for him before I get started with the consultation.āĀ
And thatās how you and Jungkook ended up stuck in the lobby of the tattoo shop, waiting for over thirty minutes for Jin to show up.
Jungkook exhaled loudly, rolling his shoulders before pulling out his phone and dialing Jin for the sixth time. His other hand absentmindedly tugged you closer by the wrist, a small, unconscious habit of his whenever he was growing impatient. āJin said heād be here soon,ā he muttered, eyes flickering to the entrance yet again, as if willing his cousin to walk through the door. āTold me to get comfy and wait.ā
You smirked, shifting slightly in your seat. āHe did? So, naturally, heās gonna be late.ā Jungkook groaned, tilting his head back against the couch. āHe promised, okay? Swore he wouldnāt ditch me this time.ā
āThatās cute.ā You patted his thigh mockingly. āYou still believe him.ā Jungkook shot you a halfhearted glare before flicking his gaze to the empty reception area for what had to be the hundredth time. His foot bounced impatiently against the floor, but before he could make another complaint, the sound of a door opening drew both of your attention.
A woman with sleek, silver-dyed hair emerged from one of the back rooms, her sharp gaze scanning the lobby before landing directly on Jungkook. Her expression immediately shifted into a perfected customer-service smile, one that didnāt quite reach her eyes. She crossed her arms, tilting her head slightly. āWhat are you here for?ā
āSleeve rework,ā he replied casually, rolling his shoulder as if to emphasize the ink beneath his sleeve. āYouāre the one getting the sleeve reworked?ā she asked smoothly, completely ignoring your presence. āSeokjinās cousin, right?
Jungkook nodded, his own expression polite but confused. āYeah, but he isnāt here yet. Jin told me to waiāā
āOh,ā she cut in, her lips curving just slightly, a little too knowing. āWell, thatās okay. Iām sure he wouldāve referred you to me anyway. I could start taking care of you now.ā
Something about the way she said it made your jaw clench.
Jungkook, oblivious as ever, only hummed. āUh, I mean⦠I guess we could start the consultation?ā
You didnāt like the way she was looking at him.
As she moved closer, the glow of the overhead light caught on her name tagāNari. The name meant nothing to you, but something about her demeanor put you on edge.
Jungkook settled into the chair, stretching his arm out as Nari prepped her station. You remained seated across from him, phone in hand, pretending to scroll while keeping a close eye on the exchange. Nari pulled on a pair of gloves, her movements fluid and practiced as she leaned in, examining Jungkookās inked skin. āYour ink is solid,ā she murmured, fingers ghosting over the intricate designs. āWhoever did this knew what they were doing.ā
Jungkook grinned, clearly pleased with the compliment. āYeah, my old artist was great. Just wanted some refinements, you know?ā
āMm,ā Nari hummed in agreement, grabbing a marker to outline a few areas. Her gaze lingered on his arm longer than necessary, her lips curving slightly. āYouāre adding new work too, right?ā
Jungkook nodded. āYeah, just some floral details around the tiger lily.ā
That was supposed to be the end of it. But then Nari tilted her head, eyes flickering up to his face before dropping back to his arm, and subtly, but not subtly enough she licked her lips.
āI love doing florals on guys,ā she said, voice dipping into something softer. āThereās just something about the contrast, you know?ā
Your grip on your phone tightened. Jungkook, completely unaware of the shift in tone, simply lifted his arm to show her the faded edges. āYeah, I wanted to add some chrysantheāā
Before he could even finish, Nari reached out, fingers wrapping around his arm, her touch lingering.
āOh, your skin is so nice,ā she murmured, smoothing her fingers over the defined muscle as if she were admiring it rather than prepping it for work. Your eye twitched.
Jungkook blinked, a little startled by the comment but still too polite to pull away. āUh⦠thanks?ā Nari only smiled, nails grazing his forearm ever so slightly as she adjusted his position. āGood canvas makes all the difference.ā
You swore you could hear your patience snapping like a twig. Jungkook looked slightly uncomfortable but still handed over his sketchbook, flipping to the page with his design. āThis is what I had in mind for the rework,ā he said, tapping the paper.
Nari barely glanced at the intricate details before tilting her head, her gaze flickering back to him instead. āYou drew this yourself?ā
Jungkook nodded. āYeah.ā
āWow,ā she hummed, leaning in slightly, the corner of her lips quirking up. āThatās impressive. Not many clients walk in with this level of detail.ā From where you sat, you rested your chin on your hand, unimpressed.
Jungkook offered a small, polite smile. āI just like having a clear idea before I commit.ā Nari's smirk deepened. āThatās really attractive,ā she mused, fingers skimming the edge of the sketchbook instead of actually turning the page. āA guy whoās artistic and decisive? Rare find.ā
You blinked. What.
Jungkook cleared his throat, shifting in his seat like he wasnāt quite sure how to respond. āUh⦠thanks?ā Nari finally flipped to the next pageāthough at this point, it felt more like a courtesy than genuine interest. āAnd you did all of these?ā
Jungkook nodded again. āMhm.ā
āThatās insane,ā she gushed, dragging her fingers over the lines like they were worth framing. āYou could easily be a tattoo artist yourself.ā Jungkook chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck. āI donāt think I have the patience for it.ā
āThatās a shame,ā Nari sighed, her fingers lingering a little too long on the sketchbook. āWith hands like yours, I bet youād be amazing at it.ā
Your expression went flat. Jungkook just coughed into his fist, visibly flustered. āUhāā
You snapped before you could stop yourself. āIf youāre done with the consultation, I think you should get started with the sketching.ā Your voice was even, but the words were clipped. āUnless this is just a fan club meeting now.ā
That made Nari pause.
Jungkook turned to you, lips twitching as if he was trying not to laugh.Ā Nari dared to send you a sharp glare, like you had just interrupted something sacred. But she grabbed a fineliner anyway, her movements slow and deliberate, as if making a point.
You didnāt waver. Arms crossed, you kept your gaze locked on her hands, watching every unnecessary adjustment she madeāeach one turning into soft, lingering touches against Jungkookās skin. It was infuriating, the way her fingers skimmed his arm like she had every right to.
And then she bit her lip.
A coy smile played at the edges of her mouth, subtle but unmistakable. Jungkook, completely oblivious as always, remained relaxed in the chair, only wincing slightly when the cold surface of the fineliner pressed against his skin.
You were far from relaxed.
Shifting in your seat, you clenched your jaw, fingers curling against your arms. Maybeāmaybeāshe was just a touchy person. Maybe you were overanalyzing this. Maybe it was nothing.
āSo,ā Nari began, her voice light and conversational, ādo all your tattoos have a meaning?ā Jungkook, still staring at the ceiling like this was any other consultation, nodded. āMost of them, yeah.ā
āWhat about this one?ā She tapped the tiger lily, her fingertips trailing over the ink just a little too leisurely. Jungkook smiled, unaware of the way your patience was fraying. āThat one represents passion, confidence⦠all that stuff. Itās also my birth flowerā
Nari hummed, like she was committing that information to memory. āAnd the chrysanthemums?ā
At this, Jungkook hesitated. For the first time, he flicked his gaze toward you, something unreadable passing through his eyes. Your posture stiffened, waiting. He cleared his throat. āThey mean a lot to me.ā
Nari tilted her head, expectant.
You leaned forward, expectant.
But Jungkook just chuckled lightly before answering, āTheyāre my girlfriendās birth flower.ā His tone was proud, almost smug, as if relishing the chance to say it out loud. A smirk tugged at your lips. That should be enough to shut this down, enough for her to finally get the messageā
Except Nari barely reacted.
If anything, she just hummed again, dragging her eyes across his arm like she hadnāt even heard him. āHm. Bet theyād look really pretty on you,ā she mused, her tone as sweet as syrup. Then, without missing a beat, she added, āThen again, I bet a lot of things do.ā
Your head snapped up. Jungkook tensed slightly but played it off with an awkward laugh. āUh⦠thanks?ā
Oh, hell no.
Maybe it was the way she said it. The way her voice dripped with something just a little too sweet, like she wasnāt just appreciating his tattoos but the person wearing them. Maybe it was the fact that her fingers were still lightly dragging along his forearm, slow and deliberate, like she had every right to touch him like that. Or maybeājust maybeāit was the fact that Jungkook, ever polite, ever oblivious, wasnāt saying anything to stop her. Either way, your patience is officially gone.
You leaned forward, resting your elbows on your knees, voice smooth but sharp enough to cut. āSo, is this your usual customer service?ā you asked, tilting your head. āOr is my boyfriend just getting the VIP treatment?ā
Nari barely spared you a glance. āOh, donāt worry. I take very good care of my clients.ā Your smile was saccharine, all teeth. āI bet you do.ā
Jungkook shifted, fingers gripping the armrest as if bracing himself. āBabyāā You ignored him. āI thought professionalism was a basic requirement for tattoo artists. But I guess itās optional here, huh?ā
Nariās smirk twitched, but she held her ground. āIām just making conversation.ā
āRight.ā You nodded slowly, voice dripping with faux understanding. āBecause flirting with your client while his girlfriend is sitting right here is so normal.ā
Jungkook, bless his clueless heart, looked between the two of you like heād just walked into a battlefield with no armor. His lips partedāhe should say something, anything, should try to calm you down before things escalated, but the words never came.
Because truth be told, seeing you like this, so protective and so fierce was kind of hot.
Nariās eyes narrowed, her confidence flickering just a little. āI wasnāt flirting.ā You let out a mock gasp, pressing a hand over your chest in exaggerated horror. āOh, my bad.ā Your tone was syrupy, dripping with fake innocence. āI must have misheard when you basically drooled over my boyfriend while I was sitting right here.ā
Nari let out a sharp huff, her irritation finally surfacing. She set the fineliner down with a little too much force, her expression caught somewhere between disbelief and condescension. āLook, do you want me to finish this or not?ā
You opened your mouth, already armed with a sharp retortā
āNo.ā
Jungkookās voice cut through the air, calm but unwavering.
Nari blinked. āWhat?ā
Jungkook rolled his shoulder back as he sat up straighter, his usual easygoing expression replaced with something unreadable. āIāll get it done somewhere else.ā
She scoffed, crossing her arms. āSeriously? Just because sheās insecure?ā
Oh. That did it. A slow, burning heat unfurled in your chest. The audacity, the sheer nerve to say something like that when she had been the one crossing every possible line. You barely registered standing up, only aware of the way your pulse pounded in your ears as you took a step forward.
āExcuse me?ā
But before you could let loose, Jungkook was already moving. His hand found yours, his grip warm and steady as he gently pulled you back. āLetās go,ā he murmured, his voice low but insistent. Nari rolled her eyes, leaning back in her chair like she couldnāt care less. āYour loss.ā Jungkook didnāt bother responding. He just grabbed his jacket, intertwined his fingers with yours, and led you out of the shop without a single backward glance.
The second the door shut behind you, the tension that had been coiling in your muscles finally snapped.
āI swearāā you started, still fuming, but Jungkook sighed, squeezing your hand in his. āI know, baby,ā he said, his voice softer now, the warmth of it cutting right through your frustration. āI know.ā
You exhaled sharply. āShe was touching you.ā Jungkook let out a low chuckle, rubbing his temple. āI literally had no idea she was flirting.ā
āYou never do.ā
That earned you a grin. Jungkook tilted his head slightly, leaning down just enough that his nose nearly brushed yours. His eyes locked onto yours with a familiar fondness. āBut you do.ā His voice was teasing, but there was something else there too. Something softer. Something that made your breath catch, just a little.
You scowled, but he just wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you close. āJealous?ā he teased. You scoffed.Ā
His smile turned fond. āCute.ā You smacked his chest. āShut up.āĀ
Jungkook barely flinched at the hit, his grin only widening. He tightened his hold around your waist, pulling you in until there was hardly any space left between you. āThatās not a no,ā he murmured, his voice dipping just enough to make your stomach flutter. You narrowed your eyes, tilting your chin up defiantly. āI wasnāt jealous.ā
Jungkook hummed, unconvinced. His fingers skimmed over the small of your back, the touch light but deliberate. āMhm. Sure.ā
You huffed, crossing your arms. āShe was unprofessional.ā
āTrue.ā
āAnd disrespectful.ā
āVery.ā
āAnd her eyeliner was uneven.ā
Jungkook snorted, finally breaking into a full laugh. āOkay, now youāre just being mean.ā You shrugged, feigning nonchalance, but the way he was looking at you, like you were the most amusing thing in the world made your face heat up. His laughter faded into something softer, something unbearably fond. āYou know youāre cute when youāre all worked up, right?ā
You scowled, jabbing a finger into his chest. āI said shut up.ā Jungkook grinned, catching your hand with ease before lacing his fingers through yours. āMake me.ā
Your breath hitched. His gaze flickered to your lips for the briefest second, and suddenly, the air between you shiftedā
āYou guys done with the tattoo already?ā
A loud, familiar voice shattered the moment like glass hitting the pavement.
Both you and Jungkook turned your heads in unison, only to find Jin standing a few feet away, looking between the two of you with an expression far too amused for your liking. Jungkook groaned, running a hand down his face. āHyung, seriously?ā
Jin blinked. āWhat? I was just asking.ā His gaze flickered over Jungkookās arm, eyes narrowing as he took in the faint ink lines still marking his skināthe rough sketch of the tattoo, untouched by the needle. His brows furrowed.
āWait. You didnāt actually get it done?ā
Jungkook huffed, crossing his arms. āNo. Because the tattooo artist was too busy flirting with me.ā
Jinās face twisted in confusion. āHuh?ā
You, still somewhat bristling from the whole ordeal, rolled your eyes. āShe was all over him. Barely even looked at his designs before trying to eye-fuck him.ā JInās jaw dropped. āWait, are you serious?ā
Jungkook nodded, his expression flat. āDead serious.ā Jin winced, rubbing the back of his neck. āDamn. I had no idea she was like that.ā
At least he had the decency to look sorry.Ā
Jin sighed, rubbing his temple dramatically. āAlright, fine. Since I unknowingly threw you both into the lionās den, I owe you.ā He clapped his hands together. āLunch is on me.ā Jungkook raised a brow. āYou? Paying for food? Willingly?ā
Jin scoffed. āI can be generous, you know.ā
You snorted. āThatās new.ā
Jin ignored you. āCome on, letās eat. My treat. Think of it as compensation for the mess I accidentally dropped you into.ā
Jungkook hummed, pretending to consider. āI mean⦠if youāre paying, Iām definitely ordering the most expensive thing on the menu.ā
Jin rolled his eyes. āAs if you wouldnāt do that anyway.ā
Jungkook just grinned. āTrue.ā
You laughed, your earlier irritation melting away. āAlright, fine. Youāre forgiven. But only if I get to pick the place.ā Jin groaned. āWhy do I feel like Iām about to regret this?ā Jungkook laced his fingers through yours, his thumb brushing against your skin. āBecause you probably will.ā
Jin sighed but motioned for you both to follow. āHurry up before I change my mind.ā With that, the three of you headed off, leaving the unpleasant encounter behind in favor of good food.
Nari leaned against the counter, arms folded tight as she glared out the shopās large window. Outside, you stood near the curb, your gaze fixed on Jungkook and Jin as they chatted. You werenāt speaking, just watching with that quiet, unreadable expression. But somehow, that made Nari even angrier.
āUnbelievable,ā she muttered under her breath.
āWhat is?ā
The question came lazily from the man who had just strolled up beside her. He shook out his wrists after finishing with his last client, pulling off his gloves and tossing them into the trash. His attention remained casual, uninterested until Nari gestured toward the window with a sharp tilt of her chin.
āHer.ā
His eyes followed her gaze. His posture was still loose, still easygoing until he saw you. For the briefest moment, his entire body went rigid. His casual demeanor cracked, just slightly, before he smoothed it over with a slow smirk.
āHuh.ā
Nari, oblivious to the shift, let out a scoff. āShe threw a whole fit because I was being nice to her boyfriend. Completely embarrassed me in front of him and acted all possessive, like I was some kind of threat.ā She tapped her nails against the counter, still glaring at you through the window. āAnd now, thanks to her little tantrum, he refuses to get his tattoo done here.ā
The man hummed, tilting his head. āJealous girlfriend type, huh?ā
āExactly.ā Nari huffed before turning to him with a slow, calculating smile. āYouāre good at handling people, right?ā He lifted a brow. āDepends on what you mean by āhandling.āā
She leaned in, lowering her voice conspiratorially. āDo you think you could⦠I donāt know, do something about her? Save Jungkook from her?ā For a moment, he didnāt respond. His gaze flicked back toward the window, settling this time on Jungkook himself.
And just like that, his smirk thinned.
Jungkook stood beside Jin, hands in his pockets, his head tilted slightly as he listened to whatever Jin was rambling about. But every so often, his attention shifted to you. The way his fingers brushed absently over your back, the way his expression softened whenever he glanced your way, like keeping you close was second nature.
The manās fingers curled into a fist. āFigures,ā he muttered under his breath.
Nari frowned. āYou know him?ā A sharp exhale. A shake of his head. āNot personally. But I know of him.ā
She perked up at that, her curiosity piqued. āOh?ā
His tongue ran over his teeth, jaw working as he leaned against the counter. When he spoke again, his smirk had returned but there was nothing amused about it. āLetās just say⦠I have unfinished business with her.ā
Nari blinked at that, lips parting slightly as she took in the underlying venom in his tone. Then, as if catching on, she let out a slow, delighted hum. āWell then,ā she murmured, turning back to the window, watching you through narrowed eyes. āWouldnāt it be fun to mess with her a little?ā
His gaze never left you. He watched as Jungkook reached out, tugging the sleeve of your jacket into place with an unconscious sort of familiarity, the kind that spoke of years spent together.
The kind of familiarity that should have been his.
The corner of his lips lifted, the smirk sharpening into something colder. āOh, sweetheart.ā His voice was smooth and teasing, laced with something far more sinister.
āIād love to.ā
You groggily blink your eyes open, immediately regretting it as the soft glow of the morning filters through your curtains. Too bright. Too early. Too⦠awake. You bury your face into your pillow, grumbling incoherently, unwilling to leave the comforting warmth of your bed. Itās Sunday. A day meant for sleeping in, doing absolutely nothing, and ignoring all responsibilities.
Then, you feel itāthe weight of an arm loosely draped over your waist, the warmth seeping through your thin shirt. Your sleep-addled brain takes a moment to process before it clicks. Jungkook.
Right. He stayed over last night.
A sleepy sigh escapes your lips as you shift slightly, pressing closer to his warmth. His scent lingers on your sheets, wrapping around you like a second blanket. You peek up, still half-asleep, and catch the sight of him lying beside you, propped up on one elbow, his phone held in his free hand. The soft glow of the screen illuminates his face, casting delicate shadows over his sharp jawline. Heās already awake, completely engrossed in whatever heās scrolling through.
Too awake for your liking.
āFive more minutes,ā you mumble sleepily, voice muffled against the pillow. Your words slur together, more of a plea than a statement, as you instinctively nuzzle into Jungkookās chest, seeking warmth.
A deep chuckle rumbles from him, low and fond, the kind that makes your heart squeeze without permission. His arm tightens around you in response, fingers lazily tracing light circles against your back. āFive more minutes? Baby, you said that like⦠an hour ago.ā
You donāt respond, only snuggling deeper into his embrace, fully intent on ignoring him. Jungkook exhales dramatically, an exaggerated, put-upon sigh. āYouāre gonna sleep the whole day away.ā
āThatās the plan.ā
āYouāre literally wasting the morning.ā
āMm,ā you hum noncommittally. āNot wasting if Iām warm and comfortable.ā Jungkook pokes your cheek, a mischievous glint in his eyes as he tries to stir you. āCāmon, letās go out. We could get breakfast, maybe go on a walkāā
āNo.ā You blindly swat his hand away.
Jungkook groans, flopping onto his back in frustration. āWhy did I fall for someone lazier than me?ā You crack one eye open, just enough to see his pout. Smirking, you shift slightly and mumble into the pillow, āBecause Iām cute.ā
Jungkook huffs. āā¦I mean, yeah, but thatās not the point.ā
Jungkook finally manages to wrangle you out of bedāa feat that takes a ridiculous amount of whining, bribing, and sheer force of will. He practically drags you across the apartment, his grip firm around your wrist, ignoring every single one of your grumbles and half-hearted protests.
āYou are,ā you mumble as he steers you into the kitchen, āthe absolute worst.ā Jungkook snorts, already rummaging through the cabinets for coffee beans. āOh, Iām sorry. Was I supposed to let you rot in bed for eternity?ā
āYes.ā
Jungkook ignores you, expertly working the coffee machine like a man on a mission. You slump against the counter, still half-asleep, head lolling dramatically to the side as you watch him move around like an overly energetic golden retriever. Then, your phone buzzes on the counter. You lazily glance at the screen, skimming the weather forecastā
Rain incoming.
Your spine straightens, sleepiness vanishing in an instant as you whip your phone up to show Jungkook, shoving the screen in his face with an almost evil sort of glee. āOh no~ā you sing-song, tone dripping with faux disappointment. āLooks like we canāt go out.ā
Jungkookās brows furrow as he squints at the screen, reading the forecast. His expression quickly morphs from mild confusion to full-blown horror. āā¦It wasnāt supposed to rain today,ā he says slowly, almost like he can will the reality away.
āGuess we have to stay in.ā You sigh dramatically, clutching your chest like it pains you. āDamn. What a shame.ā
Jungkook groans, slumping against the counter like his entire soul has left his body. His dreams of a fun, eventful day were shattered. āYouāre lying,ā he accuses weakly. āThis is a personal attack.ā
You shake your head, voice dripping with fake sympathy. āI donāt control the weather, baby.ā
Jungkook glares. āBut if you could, youād make it rain every day, wouldnāt you?ā A smirk tugs at your lips. āAbsolutely.ā
Jungkook throws his head back with a dramatic, suffering groan, sliding down the counter like a man defeated. You watch him in amusement, lifting the coffee cup he had just made for himself and taking a slow, satisfied sip. The moment the taste hits your tongue, Jungkookās entire body snaps upright.
He watches, utterly betrayed, as you lower the cup with a pleased hum.
āā¦Did you just steal my coffee?ā
You blink at him, all innocence. āYou made this for me, didnāt you?ā
Jungkook scoffs, expression scandalized. āNo! I made it for me!ā
You shrug, taking another sip as you meet his glare with zero remorse. āTastes great, babe. Thanks.ā
Jungkook clutches his chest like youāve personally wounded him. āYouāre the actual worst.ā
āAnd yet,ā you hum, leaning against the counter with a satisfied smirk, āhere you are, hopelessly in love with me.ā
Jungkook stares at you for a long second, lips pursed. Then, without warning, he lunges. You yelp as he wraps his arms around your waist, lifting you with ridiculous ease and tossing you over his shoulder.
āJUNGKOOKāā
āNOPE,ā he interrupts, already marching towards the living room. āIf I canāt have fun outside, Iām gonna make you suffer with me inside.ā You kick your feet uselessly, fists pounding against his back as he effortlessly carries you away. āPut me down, you muscle bunny!ā
Jungkook only laughs, completely unfazed, before spinning on his heel and tossing you onto the couch like you weigh nothing. You land with a soft āoof,ā bouncing slightly against the cushions as he flops down beside you, stretching out like a starfish. āYou are so dramatic,ā you grumble, attempting to shove him away with your foot.
Jungkook just grins, easily catching your ankle and tugging you closer instead. āAnd yet, you love me anyway.ā
You huff, too lazy to argue.
Before you can protest further, he shifts, rolling onto his side and resting his head comfortably on your lap. His eyes flutter shut almost instantly, his breath evening out as he settles in like he belongs there. At first, you stiffen, but as the seconds pass, your fingers instinctively weave through his soft, dark hair. You barely even realize youāre doing it, the motion coming as naturally as breathing.
Jungkook hums at the feeling, half-conscious, but content. His face is completely relaxed and unguarded in a way that makes your chest ache. He looked so soft like this. So warm. So⦠safe. And something deep inside you just melts.
Your fingers slow, combing gently through the strands, nails lightly scratching his scalp. A soft scowl tugs at your lips. Because this? This is a version of Jungkook youād fight the entire world to protect.
Jungkook must feel your gaze because, after a moment, he cracks one eye open and peeks up at you. āYouāre staring,ā he murmurs, voice still laced with sleep. You blink, quickly masking your expression with a huff. To cover up the warmth creeping up your neck, you flick his forehead. āJust making sure youāre still breathing.ā
Jungkook snickers, stretching lazily. āAww, are you worried about me?ā
You cross your arms, unimpressed. āObviously. Youāre fragile.ā
Jungkook immediately bursts out laughing, full-bodied and carefree, his entire frame shaking against your lap. āMe? Fragile? Baby, I could bench press you.ā
You roll your eyes, completely unfazed. āYeah, well, I could stab someone for you.ā
Jungkookās laughter dies instantly. His eyes widen slightly, blinking up at you as if processing your words. Then, ever so slowly, a grin spreads across his face.
āā¦Okay, thatās really hot.ā
You scoff, flicking his forehead again. āPervert.ā
Jungkook just smirks, completely shameless. āWhat can I say? I like my girlfriend a little unhinged.ā You roll your eyes, but before you can retort, a deep rumble of thunder echoes outside.
Jungkook groans, throwing an arm over his face. āGreat. So we really are stuck inside all day.ā
You donāt even bother hiding your glee. āTragic.ā
With an exaggerated sigh, Jungkook shifts, burying his face into your stomach like a sulking puppy. You try to shove him off, but he only clings harder, grumbling nonsense against your his hoodie.
āYouāre ridiculous,ā you murmur, fingers idly threading through his hair again. Eventually, he shifts, lifting his head to look at you properly. His expression softens laced with something so fond it makes your breath hitch. He doesnāt say anything. Just laces his fingers through yours, absentmindedly tracing patterns against your palm.
Then, suddenly there's a sharp poke to your side and you jolt with a squawk, trying to wiggle away. āJungkook!ā He grins, eyes twinkling with mischief. āIf weāre staying in, we should do something.ā
You glare at him, still half-prepared to smack him upside the head. āLike what?ā
His smirk deepens. āYou know exactly what.ā For a second, you just stare at him. He stares back.Then, without breaking eye contactāhe grabs the game controllers.
Jungkookās sunshine boyfriend energy disappears the second the race countdown starts. Gone is the sweet, cuddly man who had been wrapped around you like a koala just minutes ago, now, heās leaning forward, brows furrowed, fully in the zone.
āLoser does the dishes in both apartments,ā he announces, rolling his shoulders like heās prepping for war. You scoff, cracking your knuckles for dramatic effect. āYouāre about to regret that.ā
The moment Lakitu drops the starting light, Jungkook launches forward like heās been possessed by the spirit of every pro gamer ever. Meanwhile, you barely get past the first turn without slamming into the barrier. You spam every single item box you can get your hands on, determined to take him down with sheer pettiness if not skill.
Then thereās a miracle. Jungkook is just about to cross the finish line when you hit him with a perfectly timed blue shell.
BOOM.
His character spirals into the air, crashing down just inches from victory. You zoom past him at the last second.
āIN YOUR FACE, JEON.ā You throw your arms up like you just won an Olympic gold medal. Jungkook stares at the screen in stunned silence. Then, slowly he turns to you. You suddenly get the feeling youāve made a terrible mistake.
āOkay, sweetheart,ā he murmurs, cracking his knuckles. āNo more playing nice.ā
The next race starts and you get absolutely destroyed.
Jungkook goes full demon mode, drifting around corners with terrifying precision, dodging every single attack like he can see the future. He launches red shells, banana peels, lightning boltsā you donāt even know how heās getting this many power-ups.
Itās a massacre. One round. Two rounds. Three. You lose every single one. By the end, your controller is nearly embedded into your palm from how tightly youāre gripping it. Jungkook, on the other hand, is lounging back against the couch, arms stretched behind his head, smug as hell.
He tilts his head, smirking. āDo you yield?ā
You scowl. āI hope you step on a Lego.ā
Jungkook just laughs, grabbing your wrist and yanking you into his lap before you can escape. The controllers are discarded, forgotten as you end up tangled together on the couch. His arms snake around your waist, holding you in place as you halfheartedly struggle.
Thenāhe boops your nose.
You blink. Once. Twice. Then groan, flopping dramatically against his chest. āI take back every nice thing Iāve ever said about you.ā
Jungkook only hums, smug and unbothered. āEven though you lost, I still think youāre the cutest.ā
You smack his arm. āI will actually fight you.ā
āMm. As long as itās not in Mario Kart, I like my chances.ā
Jungkookās phone buzzes against the coffee table, the vibration cutting through the comfortable silence. He lazily reaches for it, glancing at the screen. His brows knit together for a second before his face smooths over into a grin.
āOh, my momās planning a family dinner. She wants you to come.ā
You, mid-sip of your newly-made coffee, nearly choke.
āā¦Huh?ā
Jungkook tilts his head, amused. āWhat? You act like this is the first time sheās invited you.ā
You pause, tapping your fingers against the cup. His family liked you. You knew that. His mom always sent you home with extra food whenever you visited, and his dad made it a point to tease Jungkook about āfinally settling downā whenever you were around. Jungkook leans closer, watching you expectantly. āSo? Youāll come?ā
You exhale dramatically, pretending to be deep in thought. āā¦Maybe.ā
Jungkook narrows his eyes. āMaybe?ā
You smirk. āIāll go on one condition.ā
He leans in even more, suspicious. āWhat?ā
You set your cup down with a slow, deliberate motion. Then you look him dead in the eye. āā¦Admit that Iām better at games.ā
Jungkook snorts. āNot happening.ā
You grin. āThen Iām not coming.ā
Jungkook blinks. Then, before you can react, he pounces.
āYOUāRE COMING.ā
āJUNGKOOKāā
You barely have time to throw your drink onto the table before he tackles you down onto the couch, arms caging you in as he buries his face into your neck. His weight presses you into the cushions, his laughter muffled against your skin.
āYou little brat,ā he mutters, nuzzling into you. You squirm, but heās relentless, peppering lazy kisses against your jaw just to distract you.
āSay youāll come,ā he murmurs, voice laced with amusement.
āSay Iām better.ā
Jungkook grins against your neck. āHmm. How about thisāyou come to dinner, and Iāll let you win next time.ā You gasp, shoving at his chest. āLet me win?!ā
His laughter shakes both of you, but he doesnāt budge. āIām trying to be generous, baby.ā
āJungkook, I swearāā
The argument quickly devolves into a mess of tangled limbs and laughter, neither of you backing down. Jungkook is still half on top of you, his arms lazily wrapped around your waist, completely unwilling to let you escape. His warmth seeps into you, making it harder to even think about moving. You sigh, dramatically slumping against the couch cushions. āFine. Iāll go to dinner.ā
Jungkookās head snaps up instantly. āReally?ā
You roll your eyes, poking his cheek. āYeah, yeah. But Iām expecting VIP treatment.ā
Jungkook grins, wide and bright, before leaning in to press a soft, lingering kiss to your lips. āDeal.ā
Outside, the rain picks up, sheets of water blurring the world beyond the glass. The streetlights flicker, their glow reflecting off the puddles collecting on the pavement. But just beyond the window, Neither of you notice the figure standing on the balcony of the building across the street a dark silhouette barely visible through the downpour.
He watches. He waits.
The overhead lights in your office cast a dim, sterile glow, humming softly in the near silence. The usual buzz of the workplace has long since faded, leaving only the occasional click of your keyboard and the distant sound of the air conditioning whirring. You rub your tired eyes, exhaustion settling deep in your bones as you scroll through the last few emails of the day.
Just as youāre about to tackle the next document in your never-ending pile, your phone vibrates against your desk, the soft buzz cutting through the quiet. You glance at the screen, and a familiar name lights up:
Kook š°š [6:15 PM]: Still working?
Kook š°š [6:15 PM]: Come over after work?
A small smile tugs at your lips despite the fatigue weighing on you. You reach for your phone, letting your gaze drift to the towering stack of documents beside you before sighing. Thereās no way youāre finishing up anytime soon. With a resigned exhale, you type out a response.
You [6:16 PM]: Working overtime. Iāll text when Iām done.
His reply comes almost instantly, as if heād been waiting for your response.
Kook š°š [6:16 PM]: Itās late. Want me to pick you up?
Your fingers hover over the keyboard for a second before you shake your head, rolling your eyes fondly. It wasnāt like you werenāt capable of getting home on your own. The walk to your apartment was barely ten minutes, and youād done it countless times before without issue. You hated the idea of relying too much on someone else, even if that someone was Jungkook. He was always eager to drop everything for you, to take on your burdens like they were his own, and while a part of you adored that about him, another part resisted it. You never wanted to feel like you needed saving. You could handle yourself.
You [6:16 PM]: Iām fine. My apartmentās nearby, remember?
Thereās a brief pause before his next message comes through.
Kook š°š[6:18 PM]: At least text me when youāre home.
You bite back a smile, shaking your head.
You [6:18 PM]: Yes, yes, Mr. Protective.Ā
A second later, your screen lights up again with a message thatās nothing but a row of emojis. You let out a soft chuckle, shaking your head as you set your phone down. Stretching your arms over your head, you glance back at the unfinished work in front of you. The night is far from over, and exhaustion lingers in your limbs, but you push through.
Two hours later, the office is nearly deserted. Rows of empty desks stretch out before you, their monitors dark, abandoned by coworkers who were lucky enough to call it a day. Somewhere in the distance, the faint murmur of a janitor echoes through the halls, a quiet reminder that youāre not entirely alone. Still, the stillness feels heavy, pressing against your shoulders as you rub your tired eyes and blink at your laptop screen.
āStill here?ā
The familiar voice startles you, pulling you from your work-induced daze. You look up to see Jimin standing by your desk, a bag slung over his shoulder and an amused expression on his face.
You let out a sigh, leaning back in your chair. āUnfortunately.ā
He crosses his arms, leaning casually against the cubicle wall. āOvertime?ā
āYeah.ā You stretch your stiff fingers before clicking through your files. āTrying to get ahead of things since Iām taking a day off for Jungkookās family dinner.ā
Jimin raises a brow, clearly holding back a smirk. āYou? Taking a day off? Who are you, and what have you done with my workaholic friend?ā
You snort, rolling your eyes. āItās one day, Park.ā
āStill. Didnāt think youād willingly take time off for a boyfriendās family event.ā
You shrug, shifting your attention back to your laptop. āIām being a supportive partner. And also avoiding Jungkookās pout if I donāt go.ā
Jimin chuckles. āYeah, that tracks.ā He checks his watch, then nods toward the exit. āWell, itās already past eight. I can drop you offāmy carās in the basement.ā
You pause for half a second, tempted. It would be easy, safe. A quick ride home without having to walk through the dark streets alone. But something in you resists. Youāve always prided yourself on being independent, on handling things yourself. You werenāt about to start needing an escort home like some helpless protagonist in a thriller movie. Besides, your apartment wasnāt far, and you could take care of yourself just fine.
You shake your head. āIāve still got work left. Need to refine a client presentation before tomorrow.ā
Jimin frowns, clearly debating whether to push the issue. āYou sure? I donāt mind waiting.ā
You give him a small, reassuring smile. āGo home, Jimin. Iāll be fine.ā
He hesitates for a moment longer before exhaling in defeat. āAlright. Text me when you get home, yeah?ā
āI will.ā
Satisfied, he ruffles your hair in a way that makes you swat at him, laughing as he dodges your weak attempt at retaliation. āNight, workaholic,ā he teases before heading out, his footsteps fading down the hall.
And just like that, youāre alone again, the dim glow of your laptop screen casting long shadows across your desk.Ā
Itās nearing eleven o'clock by the time you finally leave the office, exhaustion pressing down on your shoulders like a weight you canāt shake. The automatic doors slide shut behind you, sealing the building in eerie silence. Outside, the streets stretch before you, quieter than usual, the world dipped in shades of silver and black under the dim glow of the streetlights.
The scent of rain lingers in the air, damp and heavy, even though the drizzle had stopped hours ago. The pavement glistens under the flickering glow of streetlights, reflecting the distorted shapes of the empty road ahead. A chilly breeze whispers through the deserted streets, curling around your skin like invisible fingers. You shiver, tugging your coat tighter around you, telling yourself itās just the cold. You exhale slowly, watching your breath fog in the night air, and begin your walk home. Itās not farābarely a ten-minute walk. Youāve done this route countless times before. It should feel familiar. Safe.
But tonight⦠something feels off.
At first, itās just a small shift in the air, a faint prickle at the back of your neck that strange, creeping sensation of being watched. It crawls up your spine, makes the hair on your arms stand on end.
You shake it off, adjusting the strap of your bag. Youāre just tired. Paranoid. Thatās all. The streets are always eerie this late of course they are. Thereās no one around, just the distant hum of traffic blocks away, the occasional flicker of a neon sign from a closed shop. But then when youāre halfway home, just as you pass the turn near the old bookstore you hear it.
A faint, subtle sound, a footstep, echoes just a second too late after your own. Your breath catches in your throat as you freeze, and the sound stops too. The silence is suffocating, pressing in from all sides. Slowly, so painfully slowly, you turn to glance behind you.Ā
Nothing.
Just an empty sidewalk, stretched too long and too dark behind you. The streetlights buzz faintly, their glow flickering, casting strange, distorted shadows on the wet pavement. Your own heartbeat pounds against your ribs, a heavy drumbeat in the stillness. You swallow, trying to shake the feeling creeping under your skin. Youāre imagining things. You have to be. The city is full of noises like cars in the distance, leaves rustling, a stray cat darting between alleyways. Thatās all it is.
Still⦠your fingers tighten around the strap of your bag as you push forward, steps quicker now. But the feeling doesnāt go away. It lingers. Pressing against your skin like static, buzzing at the edge of your awareness. Youāre not alone.
You almost pull out your phone. Almost. Jungkook would pick up in an instant and heād tell you to stay on the line, that he was coming to get you. But you donāt.
Because what would you even say? Hey, I think Iām being followed, but Iām not sure, and I donāt want to sound like an idiot? No way. Jungkook would freak out, and you werenāt about to send him into a panic over something that was probably nothing. So instead, you pick up your pace, each step sharper, more urgent. The streetlights above seem dimmer now, their glow barely cutting through the shadows pooling at the edges of the road.
Your building is just a few turns away. You make it past the first one, then the second. Then you hear it againānot just a sound this time, but a shift, a presence. Someone is there. Your heart hammers as you whip around faster this time.Ā
Nothing.
Your own shadow stretches long on the pavement, its shape warping under the flickering lights. The alleyway to your right is yawning and dark, a gaping mouth of blackness that seems to pull at the edges of your vision. Your pulse is a thunderous roar in your ears.
Youāre not imagining this. This is real.
And now, your body knows it too and every instinct is screaming at you to move. So you do.
You rush forward, walking as fast as you can without breaking into a sprint. Your breath quickens, your fingers curling into fists, every nerve in your body on high alert. Just a little further. Just one more turn.
And then finally your apartment building comes into view, looming in the darkness like a beacon. Relief crashes over you so forcefully that you nearly stumble. You donāt turn around again. You donāt want to know if someone is standing there. Watching.
You force yourself to stay calm as you punch in the buildingās entry code with unsteady fingers, stepping inside the safety of the lobby. The door shuts behind you with a heavy click, locking out the night.
You practically rush inside, the cool air of the lobby offering little comfort as your fingers tremble over the keypad. Your breath is shallow, coming in uneven gasps as you punch in your passcode. The numbers blur slightly in your vision, whether from exhaustion or the lingering tension clawing at your mind, youāre not sure. The beep of the lock disengaging feels deafening in the stillness. You push the door open, stepping inside so quickly that you nearly stumble over your own feet. The door swings shut behind you with a soft but final click, sealing you in the safety of your apartment. Or at least, thatās what you tell yourself.
For a moment, you just stand there, listening. Nothing but the hum of your refrigerator, the faint creak of the building settling, and the sound of your own breathing, ragged and uneven in the silence. You donāt stop moving until every lock is in place.
Click. Click. Click.
Each one echoes louder than it should, like an affirmation that you are, in fact, secure. That no one followed you. That no one is outside, waiting. Still, the unease gnaws at you, refusing to settle. So, you make your rounds. Checking. Double-checking. Triple-checking.
You pull the curtains shut, firmly, ensuring no sliver of the outside world can seep in. You check the windows next, pressing your fingers against the glass, as if expecting to feel warmth from another presence, a breath on the other side. But thereās nothing. No shadow moving in the darkness, no faint imprint of something or someone having been there.
Finally, with a deep breath, you force yourself to move, shedding your coat, kicking off your shoes with sluggish movements. The exhaustion from the long day crashes down on you all at once, dull and heavy. Your limbs feel leaden as you shuffle toward your bedroom, every step slower than the last.
The warmth of your bed is almost enough to chase away the unease, the mattress soft, inviting and safe a stark contrast to the cold anxiety curling at the edges of your consciousness. You exhale, forcing yourself to relax, letting your body sink into the familiar comfort of your sheets.
But even as your eyes grow heavy, your mind refuses to let go completely. That nagging sense of being watched still lingers. Faint but present. And just before sleep claims you, a final thought slithers through your mind.
What if you werenāt imagining it? What if someone was still out there? Watching. Waiting.
Jungkook drives with effortless ease, one hand lazily gripping the steering wheel while the other taps against the radio in rhythm with the song playing softly through the speakers. The hum of the engine blends with the melody, filling the quiet space between you, neither of you needing to speak. The road stretches ahead, endless and open, disappearing into the horizon. A faint trace of salt lingers in the air, creeping in through the half-open window, a quiet reminder that youāre getting closer to Busan.
You sit in the passenger seat, your gaze flickering between the blur of passing scenery and the man beside you. The steady motion of the car, the warmth of the moment, it all feels oddly soothing. After days of unease, of tension wound so tightly in your body that even sleep felt like a battle, you finally feel yourself exhale.
āCanāt believe you actually agreed to take a day off for me,ā Jungkook teases, his grin nothing short of triumphant as he spares you a glance. āIs this what love does to people?ā
You roll your eyes, but the small smile tugging at your lips betrays you. āOne time, Jeon. Donāt get used to it.ā
Jungkook chuckles, shaking his head like he doesnāt believe you for a second. His smile spreads wide, bright enough to make your chest ache with something unspoken. He reaches over without hesitation, his fingers giving your knee a playful squeeze before returning to the wheel. The touch is fleeting but warm, grounding in a way you hadnāt realized you needed.
You should tell him.
The past few days have been unbearable due to the creeping paranoia, the feeling of eyes tracing your every move and the subtle shifts in your apartment that made your skin crawl. Itās like living with a shadow just out of reach, something you canāt see but can feel pressing in from the edges. You donāt scare easily, but this has been different.
Your fingers twitch against your lap. One word. Thatās all it would take. Jungkook would listen like he always does. Heād furrow his brows, tilt his head in that concerned way he does, and tell you not to brush it off. Heād probably get all worked up, insist on staying over, refuse to let you out of his sight.
And yet, looking at him now being so carefree, his bunny-like smile tugging at his lips as he taps his fingers against the beat makes you hesitate. Heās happy. Peaceful. This moment is untouched by the weight sitting on your chest, and for once, you donāt want to taint something good.
So you take a slow breath, forcing yourself to relax against the seat. You tell yourself itās fine. That youāre just being paranoid. That if anything truly happens, youāll deal with it.
You exhaled slowly, willing yourself to stay in the present, to focus on the soft hum of the radio, the rhythmic tap of Jungkookās fingers against the steering wheel. But the memory pulled at you, dragging you under before you could stop itā
You had come home after another long day at work. Your shoulders were aching from hours spent hunched over your desk. You had barely registered the familiar scent of your apartment as you pushed the door open, the soft creak echoing into the stillness inside.
Everything had looked normal at first.
Your shoes sat neatly by the entrance, exactly where you had left them. The kitchen counter was cluttered with the remnants of that morningās rushed breakfast.
But the air had felt⦠different. Slightly off. As if someone had been there. Your heartbeat had stumbled, picking up speed before you could rationalize it. You had told yourself it was nothing. Just the exhaustion making you paranoid.
And yet, as you had stepped further inside, you couldnāt shake the feeling that something was wrong. The sound was the first thing that struck you. Cheerful, repetitive, out of place.
Your TV was on.
Not just on but playing Mario Kart. The character selection screen looped in the background, the upbeat jingle clashing against the heavy silence that filled your apartment. You hadnāt touched your console in days. Not since you and Jungkook played together last Sunday. Your pulse quickened.
Your eyes flickered to the couch. It had been moved just slightly. Barely an inch out of place, but enough for you to notice.
A slow, creeping unease settled into your bones as you stepped further inside, your movements cautious. Your apartment wasnāt large. There werenāt many places for someone to hide. And yet, your skin prickled with the overwhelming sensation that something or someone had been here.
Your breath hitched as your gaze fell on your bedroom door, slightly ajar. You had closed it that morning. You were sure of it. With measured steps, you pushed the door open fully. And thatās when you saw it.
Your bedācompletely in ruins. The sheets were tangled, pillows tossed carelessly, the once-smooth blankets now bunched in the center as if someone had been lying there. Your stomach twisted with unease because this morning, just before leaving for work, you had made your bed. Yet now, the sheets were rumpled, disturbed in a way that sent a chill crawling up your spine. Someone had been here.
Your pulse thundered in your ears as you took a shaky step back, your eyes darting around the room. Everything looked normal aside from the bed, the couch and the TV but the air felt wrong. Tainted. Like someone had occupied this space in your absence.
Your mind raced as you checked the locks. Still in place. No broken windows. No signs of forced entry.
So howā Your breath hitched as a thought struck you. With trembling fingers, you grabbed your phone and immediately dialed Jungkook. He picked up after a few rings, his voice slightly breathless, like he had been running. āHey, baby. Everything okay?ā
You swallowed the lump in your throat, gripping the phone tightly. āYeah,ā you lied, forcing your voice to stay steady. āWhere are you right now?ā
"Still at the clinic," he answered easily. "Was assisting with a surgery on a Pomeranian. Poor guy had a blockage so it took longer than expected." Your stomach dropped.
If Jungkook wasnāt here⦠then who was?
Your fingers curled around your phone, knuckles whitening as you fought to keep your breathing even. āGot it,ā you said, trying to sound casual. āJust checking.ā There was a pause. Then, Jungkookās tone softened. āYou sure youāre okay?ā
āYeah.ā Another lie. āIāll see you tomorrow.ā Before he could press further, you ended the call.
The only sound left was the distant loop of Mario Kart, mocking you.
The weight of the memory lingered, suffocating, but the warmth of the car, the low hum of the radio, and Jungkookās familiar presence slowly pulled you back. You blinked, staring at him.
Jungkook was happily rambling about his momās cooking, hands moving animatedly as he drove. āāand she always makes extra, like extra extra, because she knows I eat a lot. But now sheās even more excited since youāre comingāoh! She even tried making those cookies you loveāā
His voice was light, full of an excitement you didnāt want to taint. A small part of you wanted to tell him. But another part, the part that didnāt want to see that deep crease of concern on his forehead, didnāt want to take away his peace, told you to keep it to yourself. For now.
You turned your head, looking out the window, watching the scenery blur past. You didnāt notice the way Jungkookās eyes flickered toward you, his brows knitting together for just a moment before he forced his usual smile back onto his face.
Jungkook pulled into the driveway, parking with practiced ease. You had been here more times than you could count, yet there was always something comforting about stepping into his childhood home like the faint scent of home-cooked meals wafting through the air and the familiar sight of the wind chime swaying gently by the door.Ā Ā
Jungkook turned to you with a grin, one hand still resting on the steering wheel. āMom probably made enough food to feed a small army.āĀ Ā
You chuckled, already knowing that was true. āShe always does.āĀ Ā
Before you could even step out of the car, the front door swung open, revealing his mom waving enthusiastically. āYouāre finally here! Hurry, come in before the food gets cold!ā His mom pulled you into a hug the second you stepped inside, squeezing you tight.
āYouāve lost weight,ā she huffed, pulling back just enough to inspect you with a critical eye. āAre you eating properly?ā
You laughed, but before you could respond, his dad stepped forward with a warm smile, offering a firm handshake. āItās good to see you again,ā he said, his voice as steady and kind as ever.
āItās good to see you too, Mr. Jeon,ā you replied politely. āMrs. Jeon, thank you for having meāā
Before you could finish, his mom smacked your arm lightly, her expression scandalized. āYah! How many times do I have to tell you? Itās Mom and Dad.ā
Your face heated instantly. āR-Right. Sorry⦠Mom.ā
Jungkook snickered under his breath at your obvious embarrassment, and his mom beamed, clearly pleased. āThatās better,ā she said, linking her arm with yours as she led you further inside. āYouāre family, sweetheart. No need for formalities.ā
The house smelled incredible of rich simmering broth and freshly cooked rice. The warmth of it all settled deep in your chest, making you realize just how much you had missed this. As you stepped into the living room, your gaze landed on a few baby toys scattered near the couch, a soft blanket draped over the armrest. Before you could ask, his mom sighed.
āJunghyun and his wife wanted to come with the twins, but the girls were too fussy today.ā
Jungkook pouted dramatically, crossing his arms. āI still havenāt met my nieces.ā
His mom shook her head, unimpressed. āYou could visit them, you know.ā
The dining table was packed with dishes his mom had gone all out, as always. Various side dishes, steaming hot soup, perfectly grilled meat, and a mountain of rice sat invitingly before you. It was a feast, one you had grown familiar with over the years, yet it never failed to impress you. Before you could even reach for anything, Jungkook was already piling food onto your plate, stacking it with precision. āEat,ā he said, his tone leaving no room for argument. āYou know the rules.ā
His mom beamed, clearly pleased. āAt least someone in this house listens to me.ā
You chuckled, picking up your chopsticks, but the moment was shattered when your phone lit up beside your plate, vibrating with an insistent ping. You glanced down, your stomach twisting into a knot.
Your pulse quickened. The messages came one after the other.
Unknown [1:10 PM]: You think you can stay safe by staying away from here?
Unknown [1:10 PM]: You think heās gonna save you?
Unknown [1:10 PM]: I am always watching you, doll.
Your breath hitched. Cold fingers of unease crawled up your spine, but you forced yourself to stay composed. Your hands thankfully didnāt shake as you turned your phone upside down and set it to silent. Jungkook had noticed. His gaze flickered to the screen before you flipped it over, his brows knitting together in quiet concern. He looked like he wanted to ask, but you didnāt give him the chance.
The vibration had caught his parentsā attention too. āOh dear, is that work?ā his mom asked, concern lacing her voice.
āYeah,ā you lied smoothly, forcing a small smile. āJust some messages I need to deal with later.ā
You werenāt sure if Jungkook believed you, but he didnāt press. Instead, he reached out under the table, squeezing your knee reassuringly before focusing back on his food. You tried to do the same, pushing down the paranoia clawing at your chest.
Dinner flowed with easy conversation. His parents asked about your work, laughing when Jungkook grumbled about how much time it took away from him. They also teased him relentlessly about how attached he was to you.
āThree years, and he still acts like youāre going to disappear if he looks away,ā his dad joked, shaking his head fondly.
You snickered, nudging Jungkookās foot under the table.
But Jungkook just shrugged, completely unbothered. āCan you blame me?ā he said simply, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
Dinner continued with warmth and laughter, his parents seamlessly shifting the conversation to Jungkookās studies.
āSo, howās school going?ā his dad asked, scooping some more rice onto his plate. āThird year already, huh? Feels like just yesterday you were running around pretending to be a zookeeper.ā Jungkook groaned. āDad.ā
His mom chuckled. āWhat? You were obsessed with animals. You even tried to ārescueā the neighborās cat by sneaking it into your room.ā
You gasped dramatically, turning to Jungkook. āWait, I didnāt know about this!ā
Jungkook sighed, shoving a bite of food into his mouth like he could physically escape the conversation. āThat was years ago.ā
His dad laughed. āAnd now look at you, halfway to becoming a real vet.ā
āNot halfway,ā Jungkook corrected between bites. āBut yeah, itās been tough. Classes are intense, and the practicals are even harder. Two days ago, I had to assist with a surgery, and letās just say I wasnāt prepared for how long it would take.ā
His momās eyes softened with pride. āYouāll be amazing, sweetheart. Youāve always had such a big heart for animals.ā
Jungkook ducked his head, ears tinged pink. You smiled, nudging his foot under the table again. āSheās right, you know. Youāre going to be an incredible vet.ā
Jungkook glanced at you, his bunny-like smile appearing for just a second before he returned to his food. But the warmth of the moment did little to push away the unease creeping up your spine. The phone lay silent beside your plate, but you couldnāt shake the eerie feeling.
Just as the conversation was settling into a warm, familiar rhythm, the front door slammed open with the force of a small explosion.
āThe prodigal son returns!ā
Jungkook groaned, not even bothering to look. āWhy. Are. You. Here.ā
Jin strutted in like he was making a grand entrance at an award show, tossing his jacket onto the couch with an unnecessary flourish. āHeard there was food,ā he announced before turning to you with a smirk. āAnd obviously, I had to make sure my dear cousin hasnāt scared you off yet.ā
Jungkook scoffed. āYou scared me off first.ā
Jin ignored him completely, already making a beeline for the dining table. His mom, unfazed by the theatrics, clapped her hands together. āOh, perfect timing! Sit, eat.ā
āDonāt mind if I do,ā Jin said cheerfully, dropping into the seat beside you. He grabbed a pair of chopsticks like a warrior unsheathing his sword, ready for battle.
āSo,ā he drawled, nudging you playfully. āThree years and you still havenāt run for the hills? Impressive.ā
You smirked, taking a sip of your drink. āIāve considered it.ā
Jungkook gasped dramatically, clutching his chest like you had personally stabbed him. āBetrayal! In my own home!ā
āTechnically, itās our home,ā his mom corrected.
āExactly!ā Jin said, pointing his chopsticks at Jungkook before shoving a mouthful of rice into his mouth. Jungkookās dad, ever the composed one, leaned back in his chair and regarded Jin with an amused shake of his head. āSo, howās the tattoo shop? Are you still working reception?ā
Jin waved a dismissive hand. āOh, that? I quit.ā
Jungkookās mom sighed, as if she had already seen this coming.
Jungkookās dad pinched the bridge of his nose. āJin, you just started that job.ā
āYeah, and I just quit that job,ā Jin said brightly. āBut donāt worryāIāve moved on to better things.ā
Jungkook raised a brow. āShould I even ask?ā
āI now work at a pastry shop.ā Jin declared, as if he had just announced a groundbreaking scientific discovery.
Jungkook blinked. āYou?ā
āYes, me.ā
Jungkookās dad sighed. āJin, you have to start thinking about stability. You canāt keep jumping from one job to another like this.ā
Jin only laughed, waving him off like the thought of responsibility was a foreign concept. āOh, please. Stability is boring. I get bored too fastāI need thrill, excitement, the rush of something new.ā
āYou sell croissants,ā Jungkook deadpanned.
āAnd I do it with flair,ā Jin shot back, popping a piece of fried chicken into his mouth. āSpeaking of which, I brought some samples! The head baker said they were too āexperimentalā for customers, but I figured you guys would appreciate my artistic vision.ā He reached into his coat pocket because of course he carried pastries in his coat pocket and plopped two small, questionably green muffins onto the table.
Jungkook recoiled. āWhat is that?ā
Jin grinned. āMatcha and kimchi fusion.ā
Jungkookās dad sighed again. His mom simply patted Jinās hand, as if she had long since accepted his chaotic ways. Jin wipes his hands dramatically after placing down his abomination of a pastry creation, then immediately turns to you with a mischievous glint in his eyes.
āSo,ā he starts, leaning in with the air of someone about to cause chaos. āOn a scale of one to dear god, someone save me, how difficult is he to live with?ā
You barely have time to react before he fires off another.
āAny plans to upgrade from āboyfriendā status?ā Jin asks, voice dripping with faux innocence.
Jungkook chokes so hard on his food that you have to thump his back. His mom gasps in concern, while his dad just continues eating like this is any other Thursday night.
Jin smirks in triumph. āAh, so is there a wedding?ā
Jungkook, still recovering, glares murderously. āYou are so not invited to the weddingāā
Jin claps his hands together. āConfirmed!ā
Jungkook doesnāt hesitate. He grabs a spoonful of rice and hurls it straight at Jin. Jin dodges like a seasoned warrior. āOh, itās war now.ā
A second later, a piece of kimchi smacks Jungkook right in the cheek. Jungkook gapes at Jin. āYou did notāā
āOh, I did.ā Jin wiggles his eyebrows before launching another attack. What starts as a petty sibling squabble escalates into all-out warfare. Jungkook lobs a dumpling; Jin retaliates with a piece of radish. Rice goes flying. You duck just in time to avoid getting hit by a rogue piece of tofu.
āJeon Jungkook!ā his mom shrieks, voice cutting through the chaos like a knife. āKim Seokjin!ā
They both freeze mid-throw, like guilty kids caught red-handed.
His dad sighs, a long and tired sigh, the kind that speaks of years of dealing with this exact scenario. He calmly reaches for his drink. āCan we please have one dinner without someone launching food across the table?ā
Jungkook and Jin exchange glances.
Then, as if telepathically synchronized, they both lift their chopsticks and point at each other. āHe started it.ā
You snort. His mom groans. His dad sips his tea in silent resignation.
The night air is crisp, carrying the distant hum of crickets and the occasional rustling of leaves in the trees that line Jungkookās backyard. The stars above twinkle through gaps in the branches, their light soft and distant. Out here, away from the cityās chaos, everything feels quieter like the world has shrunk to just the two of you. Jungkook slips an arm around your waist, pulling you close. āSorry about him.ā
You chuckle, leaning into his warmth. āI like him. He makes things interesting.ā
āInteresting until heās grilling you.ā
āTrue,ā you admit, grinning. āBut I can handle him.ā
Jungkook huffs a quiet laugh, resting his chin atop your head. You exhale, letting your eyes flutter shut for a moment, savoring the security of his presence. Itās moments like these that make you forget the paranoia and the unease clawing at the edges of your mind.
But it never truly leaves.
The feeling of being watched. The weight of unseen eyes crawling over your skin. The messages youāve ignored all night. They all linger in your mind. You glance up at Jungkook. Heās still smiling, talking about how his mom packed you extra leftovers. āShe thinks you donāt eat enough,ā he says fondly, shaking his head.
You should tell him.
The words sit heavy on your tongue, pressing against your teeth. One sentence, and it would all be out in the open.
But you donāt.
Instead, you nod, forcing a small laugh. āShe really doesnāt take no for an answer, huh?ā
āNever,ā Jungkook confirms, squeezing your waist. His touch is warm, grounding. But even that warmth doesnāt reach the cold pit in your stomach.
āJungkook!ā His dadās voice calls from inside. āCome here for a second.ā
Jungkook groans, reluctant to move. āStay here, Iāll be back,ā he murmurs, pressing a quick kiss to your forehead before disappearing inside.
The moment heās gone, the silence presses in. You hesitate before pulling out your phone, unlocking it with a swipe of your thumb. The notifications are still there, messages from Unknown piled up like unanswered warnings.
The last one catches your eye.
Unknown [1:10 PM]: I am always watching you, doll.
Your breath stutters.
The phone suddenly feels heavy in your hands, like a weight dragging you down into something inescapable.
No.
Your pulse pounds in your ears, drowning out the gentle chirping of crickets, drowning out reason. A suffocating sense of dread settles in your chest as you stare at the word, doll. There was only one person who ever called you that.
Only one voice that had whispered it against your skin, had laughed it into your ear, had let it drip from his tongue like a slow poison.
Kim Taehyung.
The room was thick with the stench of alcohol and sweat, the air heavy with cigarette smoke that coiled toward the ceiling in lazy spirals. Dim lighting flickered from a dying bulb, casting long, distorted shadows across the stained walls.
Taehyung sat slouched in a tattered armchair, his body sinking into the worn-out fabric. His limbs felt like lead, the weight of intoxication pressing down on him, making his movements sluggish, his thoughts hazy. A half-empty bottle dangled loosely from his fingers, the condensation dripping onto his jeans, but he barely noticed.
Around him, his friends were strewn across the room in various states of intoxication, some laughing at nothing, their voices slurred and senseless, while others lay sprawled out, lost to the world. Taehyung exhaled a slow, heavy breath. Everything felt distant and detached until a stray thought cut through the fog: you.
His lazy smirk faltered. His fingers twitched against the armrest, tightening before relaxing again. His vision blurred at the edges, but the memories were sharp. Unwelcome. Unrelenting. His jaw clenched. He willed himself to push it away, drown it in the haze, let the high carry him somewhere else. But it never worked.
It never did when it came to you. His body was here, slouched in a torn armchair, but his mind was somewhere else. Three years ago.
"I donāt love you anymore."
The scent of espresso and warm pastries was suffocating. The quiet hum of conversation around them felt like static in his ears. But none of it fucking mattered. Not when you were sitting across from him, staring at him like he was nothing.
The words barely registered at first. His mind lagged behind reality like a glitching tape, playing back a version of events where this wasnāt happening.
"What?" His voice was sharp, disbelieving. "What the fuck did you just say?"
Your gaze didnāt waver. "I said I donāt love you."
The words cut. They didnāt hit all at once they sank in slowly, like a blade sliding between ribs.
Taehyung laughed. "Bullshit."
He leaned forward, jaw tight, fingers curling into the edge of the table. "Youāre being dramatic. You always do this shit when you want attention."
Your expression didnāt change, but something about it made his stomach turn. You werenāt crying. You werenāt shaking. There was no hesitation or guilt or any of the things he had relied on to keep you in line. This wasnāt like before.
Your voice was flat. "You ruined this, Tae. You ruined me."
His laugh was louder this time, bitter and sharp. "Oh, so Iām the villain now? After everything I did for you?"
"Everything you did to me."
His breath stuttered.
And then you kept going. You fucking kept going.
"You controlled me. You isolated me. You made me feel like I was insane every time I called you out on your bullshit."
His hands curled into fists. "Oh, fuck offā"
"You threatened me, Tae. You threw shit. You punched walls, grabbed me so fucking hard I had bruises for days. And every time, youād crawl back, begging, saying you didnāt mean itā"
His teeth clenched, fury bubbling beneath his skin. "Because I didnāt!"
"You dangled your own life over my head like a leash."
His blood turned cold, the first sliver of panic slicing through the rage that had consumed him moments ago. He wasnāt winning. The realization struck hard. His grip tightened on the table, nails digging into the cheap wood as if he was bracing for impact. You werenāt supposed to fucking say that. You werenāt supposed to know.
He forced a laugh, but it came out desperate. "And what, you're suddenly a fucking therapist? Psychoanalyzing me like Iām some fucking monster?"
Your voice was quiet, but it sliced straight through him.
"I donāt need to psychoanalyze you, Taehyung. I lived through you."
The air left his lungs. His vision blurred at the edges, rage and panic clashing, drowning him.
All of a sudden, āhisā name fell from your lips like a gunshot.
Jungkook? That pathetic little nerd? The one he used to shove into lockers, humiliate just for the fun of it? The same one who flinched if someone raised their voice too loud?
He let out a breathy, disbelieving laugh, but there was nothing funny about this. His hands shook from the effort of holding himself back.
"So thatās what youāve been doing, huh?" His voice was sharp, venomous. "Nursing him back to health after I fucked him up?"
You exhaled, shaking your head, unimpressed.
Then, he snapped. "You fucked him, didnāt you?"
He spat the words like a curse, like they burned his tongue. Even as he said it, he knew you wouldnāt. You were a self-righteous bitch with all your morals, your bullshit standards. You wouldnāt dare. But the thought of it, the idea of you with him made his head spin, made his vision go dark at the edges.
His voice dropped to a hiss. "That little fucking loser? You let him touch you? You let himā"
His hands ached. He wanted to grab you, to shake you, to make you look at him.
"Heās a pussy, doll." His voice cracked, something wild and desperate bleeding through. "He wonāt take care of you like I did."
You scoffed, expression unreadable. "You never took care of me, Tae."
"What the fuck does he have that I donāt?" His voice rose, teetering between fury and desperation. "Tell me."
You just stared at him, and that lookāthat fucking lookā
It was over.
It was fucking over.
Panic clawed at his ribs, lodged itself in his throat, made his vision blur and his hands shake. So he did what he always did when he lost control.
"Iāll kill myself if you leave me."
The words came out fast and sharp, a desperate lifeline thrown into the storm. It had always worked before, always made you hesitate, always made you stay. But this time, you simply exhaled a breath of relief, as if you had finally broken free.
And then, for the first time, you smiled.
"Look at you." Your voice was soft. Almost pitying. "Still trying to manipulate me."
Something inside him snapped.
His vision blurred, his body moved and the next thing he knew, the coffee cup on the table was in pieces, shattered porcelain scattering across the floor.
You stood, your chair scraping against the tile. Unbothered.
You walked away. No hesitation. No tears. No fucking remorse.
And for the first time, Taehyung had nothing.
Nothing left to say. Nothing left to hold onto.
The cigarette burned down to the filter, searing his fingers. He didnāt flinch. Taehyungās jaw clenched, knuckles turning white as his fists curled against the armrest. The high didnāt feel so numbing anymore, just agitating. His skin felt too tight, his thoughts too sharp, too loud.
For almost a year, he had drowned you out with drugs, alcohol, distractions, anything to blur the edges of what you had done to him. To make himself forget the way you walked away without looking back. But the moment he saw you again it all came rushing back.
The obsession. The hunger. The need to undo it all.
You thought you walked away for good?
No. You were always his. Even when you hated him. Even when you ran. And now he was going to take back what was his.
One way or another.
After returning from Busan, you stayed over at Jungkookās place.
You didnāt want to sleep alone. Not after the messages. The number was blocked now. You hadnāt received anything since. But still⦠you didnāt feel comfortable going back home yet.
Jungkook hadnāt questioned it. He just smiled and let you in, happy to have you around. But the more time you spent with him, the harder it became to ignore the guilt settling in your chest.
Because Jungkook didnāt know.
You hadnāt told him about the messages. About the unease creeping up your spine every time your phone vibrated. About the name that had resurfaced in the form of a single word:
āDoll.ā
It shouldnāt have meant anything. Anyone could use that word. It was common, impersonal.
But not to you.
Not when you could still hear his voice saying it. Not when you remembered how it had dripped from Taehyungās lips sometimes sweet, sometimes cruel.
āBe good for me, doll.ā
āYou know I only act like this because I love you, doll.ā
āYouāre nothing without me, doll.ā
The thought alone made your stomach churn. You werenāt even sure if it was him. Maybe it was just paranoia. Maybe it was just a coincidence.
Yeah. It had to be. So you pushed it down, shoved it into the corners of your mind where you didnāt have to look at it. You told yourself you were keeping this from Jungkook to protect him.
But now, as you sit at your office desk, your mind is miles away from the reports in front of you. You tap your pen against the surface, gaze unfocused.
You donāt notice Jimin watching you from across the room until he finally speaks.
āEverything okay between you and Jungkook?ā
You blink, snapping out of your daze. āWhat?ā
Jimin leans against your desk, arms crossed, expression unreadable. āYou seem off. Thought maybe you two had a fight or something.ā
You force a small laugh, shaking your head. āNo, nothing like that. Everythingās fine.ā
Jimin doesnāt look convinced. His sharp gaze lingers for a second too long, like heās waiting for you to crack. But he doesnāt press.
And youāre grateful for that.
Lunchtime rolls around when you finally check your phone.
The morning had been filled with client meetings, thankful for the welcome distraction. For a few hours, you managed to keep your mind from spiraling. But the moment your screen lights up with a string of unread messages from an unknown number, reality crashes back in.
Your stomach plummets.
Unknown [10:28 AM]: Did you really think blocking me would make me disappear, doll?
Unknown [10:28 AM]: How cute. Almost as cute as you playing house with your little pet.
Unknown [10:29 AM]: Speaking of pets⦠your boyfriendās been working so hard. Diligently studying to save all those poor, dying animals.
Unknown [10:30 AM]: How pathetic.
Unknown [10:31 AM]: Wanna see?
Your breath catches.
The next message has three images attached. With shaking fingers, you tap them open.
First image: Jungkook in class, focused, scribbling down notes. Second image: Him in the lab, sleeves rolled up, handling equipment with practiced ease. Third image: Now. Jungkook at lunch, head slightly tilted as he listens to someone, chopsticks resting in his hand.
Your blood turns to ice as your vision tunnels, the world narrowing to a single horrifying realizationāJungkook is right there. Someone⦠no, not just anyone. It has to be Taehyung. He is near. He is watching. And if he is close enough to take these photos, then he is close enough to do something worse. Your phone nearly slips from your grip as pure, heart-stopping terror crashes into you. Jungkook is in danger. The first message was sent almost an hour ago, which means Taehyung has been near him this whole time. Watching him. Stalking him.
Your first instinct is to call the cops. Your fingers hover over the dial pad, heart hammering until your screen lights up again. As if he had been waiting for you to see his messages.
Unknown [12:01 PM]: I know what youāre thinking, doll.
Unknown [12:01 PM]: Call the cops, and Iāll slit your pretty boyfriendās throat right where he sits.
Your breath locks in your chest, hands trembling so violently you almost drop your phone.
No. No, no, no.
You donāt think you just move.
You bolt out of your office, barely registering Jimin calling after you. His voice is distant, but you canāt stop. You donāt have time. You race to your car, hands fumbling with the keys as you throw yourself into the driverās seat. The second the engine roars to life, youāre speeding down the street, ignoring every traffic rule, every red light.
Thereās only one thought pounding in your skull, louder than the frantic beat of your heartā
Get to Jungkook. Now.
You pull up to Jungkookās university, barely throwing the car into park before shoving the door open. Your legs feel unsteady as you rush out, breath coming in sharp, uneven gasps. Your hands tremble as you fumble with your phone, fingers slipping as you dial Jungkookās number again and again. No answer. You try once more, the ringing tone stretching unbearably before it goes to voicemail.
The campus is alive with movement students chatting, laughing and going about their day, blissfully unaware of the sheer terror gripping you. You push through the crowd, scanning faces wildly, your heart pounding against your ribs. Where is Jungkook?
People glance at you, their whispers buzzing at the edge of your hearing, but you donāt care. You try his number again. Still nothing.
A sickening thought slithers into your mindā What if Taehyung already got to him? What if youāre too late?
Finally, your eyes land on him.
Jungkook stands in the courtyard, laughing with a couple of friends, completely oblivious to the danger shadowing him. The world around you blurs as relief crashes over you like a tidal wave.
Alive. Unharmed.
Your knees almost buckle, the tension in your body unravelling just enough for you to let out a sharp, shaky exhale. Your breath stutters as the panic begins to subside, but the urgency still thrums beneath your skin. Then Jungkook sees you.
His laughter dies mid-sentence, his brows knitting together in concern as his eyes rake over your disheveled form. His friends glance at you curiously, but Jungkook is already moving toward you.
"Y/N?" His voice is gentle but urgent. "Whatās wrong?"
You shake your head quickly, forcing a weak, unconvincing smile. "Itās nothing," you say, voice tight. "But we need to leave. Now."
Jungkook blinks, his confusion evident. "What? I have an afternoon lecture."
You tighten your grip on his wrist, desperation seeping into your voice. "Jungkook, please. We need to go home."
His brows draw together, concern deepening in his soft gaze. "Why?" His voice remains gentle, but there's a quiet insistence beneath it. "Whatās going on?"
When you donāt answer, Jungkook exhales softly before taking your hand, leading you away from the courtyard and into a quieter corner. His touch is firm but never forceful.
"Y/N, talk to me." His voice is barely above a whisper, but thereās an edge of worry to it. "Whatās wrong?" His dark eyes search yours, trying to unravel the truth you refuse to say.
You swallow, avoiding his gaze. "Itās nothing, I swearā"
His jaw tightens, his fingers twitching at his sides. "Thatās not true."
Jungkook doesnāt raise his voice, but the frustration is clear. He takes a slow step closer, his warmth now suffocating. "Youāve been acting different for weeks. Distant. Jumpy. And now you show up here looking like youāve seen a ghost and expect me to just go along with it?"
You flinch at the quiet intensity in his words, but still, you donāt answer. Jungkookās voice rises just a little, but the hurt in it is undeniable. āDo you not trust me?ā
You bite your lip, guilt pressing down on your chest like a heavy weight. āOf course I do, Jungkook, itās justāā
āThen tell me.ā His fingers rake through his hair, his brows drawn together, frustration flickering in his dark eyes. But his voice stays soft, laced with something almost pleading.
āIām not a child, Y/N.ā
The words land harder than you expect, sinking deep. Silence stretches between you, thick with unspoken truths and the weight of his quiet disappointment. You know you should tell him. You should warn him. But⦠you canāt.
Jungkook exhales slowly, his jaw tightening as he watches you struggle with whatever it is youāre refusing to say. His frustration is evident, but his voice remains gentle, laced with quiet insistence.
āIām not leaving until you tell me whatās going on,ā he says firmly. āIf you wonāt, Iāll just stay here.ā
Your stomach drops. No. He canāt stay here. Not when you know Taehyung is watching. āJungkook, please,ā you whisper, gripping his wrist tighter.
āThen tell me, Y/N.ā His gaze softens, but the unwavering determination in his eyes sends a surge of panic through you. You have no choice. You have to tell him somethingāanythingājust to get him to listen.
āSomeoneās been watching you,ā you admit in a rush, your voice barely above a whisper. āI donāt know who, but itās not safe.ā
Jungkook stiffens. His expression shifts from frustration to shock, then to something unreadable. āWatching me?ā he echoes. āY/N, whatāwhy wouldnāt you tell me earlier?ā
You look away, guilt gnawing at you. āI didnāt want you to worry.ā
He sighs, rubbing the back of his neck. Heās still skeptical, still confused, but he can see the genuine fear in your eyes. And that alone is enough to make him give in.
āAlright,ā he finally murmurs. āLetās go.ā
Relief washes over you, but just as you think youāve convinced him to leave, your phone vibrates. It's another message.
Unknown [12:17 PM]: Ah, there you are, doll. So desperate to save your boyfriend? Cute. But Iām not done playing yet.
Your breath hitches.
Taehyung is watching you right now. Your fingers tighten around your phone as your eyes dart around the campus, paranoia seeping into your every movement.
Jungkook immediately catches the way your face drains of all color. His fingers gently close around your wrist before you can react, his other hand swiftly taking your phone from your grip.
āJungkook, waitāā
But itās too late. His eyes scan the message, and you feel his entire body go still. His brows knit together, his lips parting slightly as he rereads the words, processing the threat laced between them.
āWhoā¦ā His voice is quiet at first, controlled. Then, a little sharper. āWho the hell is this?ā
You swallow hard, panic clawing at your chest. You shouldāve been more careful. But now thereās no avoiding it. Jungkook looks up at you, eyes searching. āY/N,ā he says softly, but thereās an undeniable firmness in his tone. āTell me.ā
You take a shaky breath, forcing the words out before you can hesitate.
āI⦠I think itās Taehyung.ā
Jungkook blinks. For a moment, he just stares at you like youāve said something completely incomprehensible. Then, he shakes his head, a disbelieving scoff leaving his lips.
āTaehyung?ā He lets out a breath, his brows furrowing. āNo. Thatās impossible. We havenāt seen him in years.ā
You can see the way his mind is racing, trying to rationalize it, trying to convince himself that it canāt be true. But then piece by piece it all starts to click. The way youāve been acting. The paranoia. The half-truths. Everything makes sense now.
Jungkookās expression shifts, his grip tightening slightly around your phone. He looks at you again, this time with quiet intensity. āTell me everything.ā
You take a deep, unsteady breath and finally let it all out. Every message. Every chilling threat. The way Taehyung has been watching, lurking in the shadows, getting closer and closer. How youāve been living in constant fear, too terrified to sleep, too paranoid to breathe. How you blocked him, but he always found a way back. The photos of Jungkook the proof showing that Taehyung has been near him all along.
Jungkook doesnāt say a word. He just listens. His hands slowly curl into fists at his sides, his jaw tightening, but his eyes stay locked on you, soft and unwavering. By the time you finish, your throat is tight, and your vision blurs slightly. You blink rapidly, forcing back the tears threatening to spill. You quickly wipe at your eyes before Jungkook can notice.
But he does.
Without a word, he steps forward and wraps his arms around you, pulling you into his warmth. You freeze for a second, startled, but then you let yourself sink into the embrace. His arms are strong and steady, anchoring you as if heās shielding you from everything thatās been haunting you.
āItās okay,ā he murmurs, his voice softer than ever. āYou donāt have to hold it in, Y/N.ā
Your breath shudders. āI-Iām fine,ā you whisper, even though your grip on his hoodie tightens. Jungkook shakes his head slightly. āNo, youāre not. And thatās okay.ā His hand runs up and down your back in slow, soothing motions. āYou donāt always have to be strong on your own.ā
Something in you cracks at his words. A single tear slips down your cheek, and this time, you donāt wipe it away. Jungkook holds you tighter, his voice firm but gentle. āYou shouldāve told me sooner.ā
āI know,ā you whisper. āI was scared.ā
āI get that.ā He exhales, resting his chin lightly on top of your head. āBut youāre not alone in this. Iām here now. And I wonāt let him hurt you.ā
When you finally pull away, his hands stay on your shoulders, grounding you. Now, you have to decide.
Go to the police? Itās the logical choice, but Taehyung already made it clear what would happen if you did. Jungkookās life isnāt something youāre willing to gamble with. Confront Taehyung yourself? Itās reckless, dangerous, and probably a mistake. But part of you feels like itās the only way to put an end to this.
Jungkook watches your face carefully, reading the thoughts swirling in your head. Then, his jaw tightens, his voice steady but firm. āIf you think Iām letting you do this alone, youāre out of your mind.ā
For the first time in weeks, the suffocating loneliness eases because no matter what happens next, Jungkook is with you. Suddenly your phone vibrates again.
Unknown [12:51 PM]: Such a heartwarming moment. But how far will he go to protect you?
And then another message. A photo.
Itās a picture of you and Jungkook. Right now.Ā
Heās still here.
"Y/N?" Jungkookās voice is soft but sharp with concern. "What is it?"
You turn the phone toward him, and the moment he sees the message, his entire body stiffens. His jaw clenches, fingers curling into fists. His voice is low but firm when he speaks.
"Weāre leaving. Now."
You donāt argue.
Jungkook grabs your wrist, pulling you through the crowd of students, his grip tight but reassuring. Your heartbeat pounds in your ears as you scan the area frantically, eyes darting from face to face.
But you donāt see him. He could be anywhere.
Jungkook doesnāt slow down until you reach his car. He unlocks it in a rush, practically shoving you inside before slamming the door shut behind him. His hands grip the steering wheel tightly, his knuckles turning white. Only when he locks the doors and exhales a shaky breath does he turn to look at you.
"Heās here, Y/N." His voice is quiet, but thereās an edge to it.
You swallow hard, gripping your phone. "I know."
Jungkook starts the car. "Weāre going home. Then we figure out our next move." You nod, but the unease lingers.
Because Taehyung isnāt done playing yet.
Jungkook paces the length of his living room, fingers running through his hair in frustration. You sit on the couch, gripping your phone tightly, going over every possible option. Jungkook is still talking, still trying to come up with a solid plan but his voice fades into the background as your eyes remain glued to your phone screen.
Unknown [1:37 PM]: Come alone. Midnight. Your apartment.
Unknown [1:37 PM]: Donāt make me repeat myself, doll.
Your grip on the phone tightens. Your pulse roars in your ears. If Jungkook sees this, thereās no way heāll let you go. Heāll insist on coming with you. And thatās exactly what Taehyung wants, a reason to hurt him. Swallowing hard, you quickly lock your phone and shove it into your pocket before Jungkook notices.
āY/N?ā
You snap back to reality to find Jungkook watching you carefully. āYeah?ā
āI was sayingā¦ā He sighs, running a hand through his hair. āMaybe we should stay at a hotel tonight. Just in case. I donāt want you anywhere near that apartment if Taehyungās been watching you.ā
Your stomach churns with guilt, but you shake your head. āNo. I think we should just stay and act normal. If we start running now, heāll know weāre scared.ā
Jungkookās eyes darken. āWe are scared, Y/N.ā
You force a small, tired smile. āBut we canāt let him know that.ā
He exhales, clearly frustrated but unable to argue. āFine. But Iām not letting you out of my sight.ā You nod, pretending to agree.
But deep down, you already know that the moment Jungkook falls asleep tonight, youāre leaving.Ā
Alone.
Itās a little past midnight when you finally slip out of Jungkookās apartment.
You hesitate at the door, glancing back at his sleeping form. Even in the dim glow of the bedside lamp, you can see the tension on his face. He had been restless for hours, his body stiff with unease, as if sensing that something was wrong.
You had pretended to fall asleep just so he could relax. It worked eventually. But now, as you step out into the cold night, a bitter weight settles in your chest.
Jungkook would never forgive you for this.
But this is the only way.
You move quickly, keeping to the shadows as you make your way to your apartment. The streets are eerily quiet, the distant hum of the city muffled by the pounding of your heart. Every step you take feels heavier like you're walking toward something inevitable.
Suddenly you hear aĀ second set of footsteps.
You donāt have time to react before a hand clamps over your mouth, muffling your startled gasp.
Before you can struggle, an arm wraps around your waist in a vice-like grip, dragging you off the sidewalk. The world tilts as you're yanked into a dark alleyway. Your pulse hammers against your ribs as you thrash against the hold, but itās uselessm his grip is unyielding, effortlessly strong.
A low, deep chuckle brushes against your ear, sending a sickening shiver down your spine.
"Took you long enough, doll."
Taehyung had grown impatient waiting for you to show up. Without warning, he forcefully turns you to face him, his grip unrelenting. The sudden contact sends a jolt of fear through you, and seeing him again after all these years feels like being doused in ice water.
Time has changed him, but not enough. His face is still achingly familiar from the sharp jawline, the tattoos that snake up the expanse of his neck to the piercing eyes that burn with something much darker.Ā
A part of you always knew this day would come. You had told yourself that the way Taehyung left without so much as hurting you was too good to be true, but maybe, just maybe he had realised he was in the wrong and disappeared into the past like a bad dream. But now, standing here with his breath hot against your skin, you realize how foolish you were to think heād ever let you go.
"You thought I wouldnāt come back for you?" he whispers against your ear, his voice sickeningly soft.
Your breath stutters. You try to shove him away, but heās faster amd stronger. His grip tightens as he forces you back, slamming you against the cold, unforgiving brick wall of the alley. The impact knocks the air from your lungs, and before you can recover, his fingers press into your jaw, tilting your face up toward him.
The streetlamp above casts a sliver of light over him, illuminating the twisted smile on his lips.
"I gave you everything, and you threw me away for him?"
Resentment drips from every word, his voice cracking with something raw.
"I shouldāve taught you a lesson years ago."
Your heart hammers in your chest, panic locking your limbs in place. But before you can even reactā
A force rips Taehyung away from you, sending him crashing onto the pavement with a brutal thud.
Jungkook stands over him, breath uneven, fists still clenched from the impact. His usual softness is nowhere to be foundāhis expression is cold, lethal.
āYou thought I wouldnāt notice?ā His voice is quiet, but thereās an edge to it that makes the air feel heavier.
Taehyung chuckles darkly. āI knew youād come running.ā
Jungkook doesnāt take the bait. His eyes flick to you, scanning for any sign of injury, before settling back on Taehyung with something dangerously close to disgust.
āYou donāt get to lay a hand on her,ā Jungkook says, his voice steady. āNot now. Not ever.ā
Taehyung chuckles again, pushing himself up with an air of arrogance. He rolls his shoulders, cracking his knuckles as if this is all a joke to him.
"You?" He scoffs, eyes glinting with amusement. "Defending her?" His gaze flickers to you, sharp and accusing. "I bet she never even told you what she did to me."
Jungkook doesnāt flinch nor does he hesitate. His voice is calm, unwavering. "She didnāt do anything." He steps forward, eyes locked onto Taehyung like heās daring him to try again. "I know sheās mine. And I know youāre just a lying, manipulative piece of shit."
Taehyung's smirk vanishes.
In a flash, he lunges.
Jungkook barely dodges, twisting to the side just in time, but Taehyung is relentless. He moves fast, and Jungkook isnāt a fighter he doesnāt have brute force or years of experience throwing punches. But what he does have is speed, quick reflexes and the sheer, unshakable will to protect you.
A fist catches Jungkookās side, making him stagger back, but he barely registers the pain before Taehyung moves toward you again.
And thatās when Jungkook stops thinking.
His hand finds a broken pipe lying in the dirt. In one swift motion, he grips it tight and swings, slamming it straight into Taehyungās stomach.
A sharp gasp rips from Taehyungās throat as he doubles over, coughing violently. But heās not down. Not yet.
Jungkook doesnāt wait. He reaches for you, his fingers wrapping firmly around your wrist. His eyes meet yours, urgent and fierce.
"Run."
The pounding of your footsteps echoes against the pavement, your lungs burning as you push yourself to keep running. The night air is thick, every breath heavy with exhaustion and fear.
Behind you, Taehyung is gaining. His ragged breaths cut through the silence, his footsteps unrelenting.
āYou think you can run from me?ā His voice is sharp, twisted with amusement and fury. A metallic glint catches the dim streetlights indicating he has a knife now.
Panic seizes your chest.
Jungkookās grip tightens around your wrist. He doesnāt slow, doesnāt hesitate just yanks you sharply to the side. Your vision blurs as he drags you toward a dark, skeletal structure.
A construction site.
You stumble into the half-built building, weaving through stacks of bricks and steel beams. The scent of dust and concrete fills your lungs as you press yourself into the shadows, trying to quiet your frantic breathing.
Jungkook releases you only to crouch down, scanning the ground. His fingers curl around a rusted wrench, heavy in his grip. Itās not much, but itās something.
āStay behind me,ā he whispers, his voice steady despite the fear you know he must be feeling. Your heart slams against your ribs. Your thoughts are spiralling. You should have been more careful, quieter when slipping out of the house. You can't believe you're the reason Jungkook is in danger, that he is the one standing between you and the threat. It should be you protecting him, not the other way around.
The footsteps slow. Taehyung has followed you inside.
A chilling silence settles over the space.
Then, a low chuckle.
āYou canāt hide forever.ā His voice is laced with amusement, the scrape of his knife dragging along metal making you flinch. āCome on, Jungkook. You really think you can protect her?ā
Jungkook doesnāt move, his stance solid, wrench gripped tightly, shoulders squared. The tension is suffocating, every second stretching unbearably. You donāt dare breathe. Then Taehyung moves. The knife slices through the air.
Jungkook barely dodges, instinct driving his body before his mind catches up. The blade misses him by inches, but thereās no time to think, theres no time to breath, only react.
With everything he has, he swings the wrench. It connects hard against Taehyungās wrist.
The knife clatters to the ground.
But Jungkook doesnāt stop this time.
His fist collides with Taehyungās jaw, the impact ringing in the empty construction site. The force of it sends Taehyung staggering back, his body slamming against a stack of bricks. Heās weak now, unsteady, but still smiling like heās enjoying this.
And then, in a last, desperate attempt, he speaks.
āYou really think youāve changed, Jungkook?ā Taehyung breathes, voice laced with mockery. He spits blood onto the dust-covered ground, laughing through the pain. āYouāre still the same pathetic kid I used to toy with. Weak. Spineless.ā
Jungkookās breath hitches.
āYouāll never be enough for her.ā
The words land heavier than any punch ever could. For a split second, Jungkook falters. The old wounds, the taunts, the bruises, and the humiliation come rushing back. The memories claw at the edges of his mind, threatening to pull him under.
He remembers the way they used to laugh at him, the cruelty in their voices, the way they looked at him like he was nothing. Like he would always be nothing. He was the loser, the punching bag, the boy who never fought back. Every insult had carved itself into his skin, every shove had left something deeper than just bruises. They made him believe it. That he was worthless. That he would never be enough.
And then there was you. You. The only light in the darkness, the only person who had ever looked at him without disgust. He fell so hard, so helplessly in love with you, even though you belonged to Taehyung. It was cruel, really. The way fate played its hand. You were Taehyungās girlfriend, yet you were the only one who saw Jungkook. The only one who stood up for him when Taehyung and his gang pushed him down. When he was at his lowest, you were there, offering kindness.
But how could you have chosen him? Him? A pathetic loser who had spent years as the butt of every joke, the weakling who was too afraid to fight back. He hears the echoes of their laughter, the mocking whispers that still live inside his head. Maybe they were right. Maybe he really is nothing. Maybe you made a mistake choosing him.
Taehyungās voice is smooth and insidious, wrapping around him like a noose. The doubt, the shame, the years of self-hatred it all pulls him under, dragging him back to a place he swore heād never return to. His fists loosen at his sides, his body feels too heavy, like heās sinking into the past, like he's losing himself all over again.
But thenāyou.
You, standing behind him. The warmth of your presence, the unwavering belief in your eyes. The way you never once hesitated to love him, to choose him. His heart pounds against his ribs, pushing away the suffocating weight of the past.
No. No.
He is not that boy anymore. He is not weak. And he will not let Taehyung twist his mind, not when he has you to protect.
The hesitation vanishes as Jungkook moves, striking once, then again, each blow fueled by something raw, something deeper than angerāsomething desperate. His jaw is clenched, muscles taut, as if he is holding back years of something buried deep inside, something he never let himself feel until now. You have never seen him like this. Then another hit. And another.
His knuckles split, blood dripping onto the cold concrete, but he doesnāt stop. He canāt stop. Not until Taehyung stops moving.
The only sound left is Jungkookās ragged breathing. His chest heaves, his hands shaking.
His eyes, dark and unfocused, burn with an intensity you have never seen before. It is not just fear, nor is it just anger. It is something far more terrifying in its certainty, something that does not waver, something that does not break. It is an unrelenting, all-consuming protectiveness, the kind that leaves no room for hesitation, no space for doubt. And the most haunting part of it allāyou know he did it for you.
āJungkook.ā
Your voice is sof t but it cuts through the chaos like a blade.
He freezes.
His chest rises and falls in uneven bursts, his knuckles raw and bloodied. His grip on the wrench trembles, muscles locked so tightly you wonder if he even hears you.
Then he looks at you, and in that moment, something inside him fractures. The fury that had burned so fiercely in his eyes splinters, crumbling into something far more fragile: fear. But it is not fear for himself. It is for you. For what could have happened. For what he almost became.
You take a step closer, carefully, like youāre approaching a wounded animal. His breathing is ragged, his body strung so tight it might snap. But he doesnāt move away when you reach for him.
Fingers brushing against his wrist, you gently pry the wrench from his grip. His hand is still trembling when it slips from his grasp, clattering onto the ground.
āItās over,ā you whisper, your voice steady even as your own hands shake. āIām okay.ā
Jungkook swallows hard, his throat working around unspoken words. The wail of sirens cuts through the heavy silence, distant but growing closer. Someone must have heard the commotion and called the police.
Taehyung groans from where he lies sprawled on the ground, too weak to move, too beaten to fight. But you barely spare him a glance.
Jungkook exhales shakily, his entire body trembling with the aftermath of it all. His fists are still clenched, his knuckles still bleeding, but his eyes are different now.
They are not just the eyes of your sweet, oblivious boyfriend anymore.
He steps closer, hesitant, hands hovering over your arms, your waist, checking, searching, needing to convince himself that youāre still here. That youāre real.
āI couldāve lost you,ā he breathes, his voice rough, breaking at the edges.
The weight of his words settles deep in your chest.
You reach up, cupping his face, your thumb skimming over the small cut on his cheek. He flinches at the touch, but not from pain he just wasnāt expecting something so gentle.
āBut you didnāt,ā you murmur.
Jungkookās breath shudders out of him. His lashes flutter shut for a second, his jaw tightening like heās holding something in, something overwhelming, something too big to put into words.
Then, in a voice so quiet, so broken, it almost shatters you
āI was so scared.ā
And just like that, everything collapses.
The rage, the adrenaline, the fear everything he had forced himself to carry, to bury, it all crumbles in one breath.
You donāt hesitate. You pull him into you, arms wrapping around him, and he clings back just as tightly. His grip is almost desperate, his fingers pressing into your back like heās afraid youāll slip away if he lets go.
Then, suddenly, he tilts his head down, capturing your lips in his.
The kiss is not careful. Itās not soft.
Itās raw. Desperate. Heavy with the weight of everything left unsaid.
His lips press against yours with an urgency that steals your breath, like heās trying to pour everything he feels into this moment. His hands tighten around your waist, pulling you impossibly closer, as if he wants to lose himself in you, in the feeling of you alive and warm in his arms.
Your fingers tangle in his hair, anchoring him to you, and he sighs into your mouthāa broken, trembling sound that sends a shiver down your spine.
When you finally pull back, foreheads pressed together, Jungkookās breath is warm against your skin, uneven and ragged.
Heās still shaking.
And you hold him tighter, letting him feel it all.
The flashing red and blue lights spill across the pavement as the police cars screech to a stop.
Jungkook pulls away just enough to look at you, his hands still cradling your waist, like heās reluctant to break contact. His eyes search yours, and for the first time since this nightmare began, you see something unshakable in them.
Taehyungās screams cut through the air as he thrashes against the officers, his wrists locked in cold steel. His voice is hoarse, spewing empty threats, venom dripping from every syllableā
āThis isnāt over!ā he snarls. āYou think you can take her from me?ā
Jungkook doesnāt react. He doesnāt even spare Taehyung a glance.
Instead, he lifts a hand, brushing his fingers lightly against your cheek, grounding himself in the fact that youāre safe.
His voice, when he finally speaks, is low, steady. A quiet promise.
āI wonāt let anyone hurt you again.ā
And for the first time you believe him.
Because this isnāt the same Jungkook who was oblivious, who used to let things slide, the one who always saw the good in people even when they didnāt deserve it.
This is the Jungkook who stood his ground.
The Jungkook who fought for you.
And if the world ever tried to take you away from him again, he wouldnāt hesitate.
The park is quiet, bathed in the soft glow of late morning light. Birds flit between the branches, their songs blending with the gentle rustling of leaves. A cool breeze brushes against your skin, carrying the scent of freshly baked pastries from the open basket beside you.Ā Ā
Jungkook sits across from you on the checkered picnic blanket, absently poking at his croissant with a fork. His knuckles are bandaged and a faint bruise lingers on his cheek just below the strip of medical tape.Ā Ā
You watch him, waiting.Ā Ā
He hasnāt said much about it. But the way he holds himself now, shoulders squared just a little more, gaze a little steadier it feels different.Ā Ā
āYou know,ā you start, plucking a strawberry from the fruit bowl and tossing it into your mouth. āFor once, I wasnāt the one saving your ass.āĀ Ā
Jungkook snorts, shaking his head. āDonāt remind me,ā he mutters, but thereās a small, lopsided smile tugging at his lips. āIām still getting used to it.āĀ Ā
āYou should be proud,ā you tell him, shifting onto your knees so youāre closer. āNot just because you fought. But because you didnāt let him win.āĀ
Jungkook exhales, rolling his jaw like heās still processing the weight of it. āI used to thinkā¦ā He hesitates, gaze flickering down to his hands. āThat Iād never be the kind of guy who could protect someone. That Iād always be the loser who let things slide.āĀ Ā
You reach out, fingers curling over his bandaged knuckles, squeezing gently. āYou were never a loser, Jungkook.āĀ Ā
You trace a light touch over the bruise on his cheek. āAnd if youāre measuring strength by how many fights you win, youāre missing the point.āĀ Ā
Jungkookās lips twitch, his fingers tightening around yours. āOh yeah? And whatās the point, then?āĀ Ā
āThat you were strong even before this,ā you murmur. āYou didnāt need to throw a punch to prove that. But I think⦠you finally see it now, donāt you?āĀ Ā
He doesnāt answer right away, but the tension in his shoulders eases. Then, with a soft chuckle, he tilts his head and smirks. āSo what youāre saying is⦠youāre swooning over me right now.āĀ Ā
You roll your eyes, but your laugh gives you away. āUnbelievable. One heroic moment and your ego skyrockets.āĀ Ā
āWhat can I say?ā He shrugs, feigning nonchalance. āIām basically a knight in shining armor now.āĀ Ā
You groan. āYouāre literally covered in bandages, Jungkook.āĀ Ā
āBattle scars,ā he corrects smugly.Ā Ā
āYou are soāāĀ Ā
He cuts you off with a kiss.Ā Ā
His lips taste like the strawberries you were just eating, but thereās something else too, something warmer. The quiet relief of knowing youāre here. That youāre safe. That you chose him, again and again.Ā Ā
When you finally pull away, Jungkook rests his forehead against yours, exhaling quietly. āI wouldnāt hesitate,ā he murmurs. āIf it ever happens again. If the world ever tries to take you away from me.āĀ Ā
Your heart clenches. You press a kiss to his bruised cheek, whispering against his skin. āI know.āĀ Ā
For a while, you just sit there, basking in the quiet hum of the park, in the way his fingers stay laced with yours. The past still lingers, but it doesnāt hold you down.Ā Ā
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ąØą§ ā Bang Chan
Chan wouldnāt confess because he finally ābuilt up courage.ā If anything, heād confess because heās exhausted. Not tired of you ā tired of pretending heās unaffected by you. Youād become too involved in his life without either of you noticing. Heās calling you between schedules, sending unfinished songs at unreasonable hours, asking what you ate that day like itās part of his routine. At some point, the line between friendship and something else stops existing for him, and it frustrates him because he knows better than anyone how dangerous feelings can be when your life is already complicated.
So he tries being rational about it. He tells himself heās just attached to you because youāre comforting, because youāre familiar, because youāve been there too long to lose now. But then he catches himself waiting for your replies during busy days, rereading messages when heās stressed, thinking about how badly he wants your attention specifically, and suddenly the situation feels impossible to ignore.
The actual confession would be messy in a very Chan way. Not dramatic, not smooth, just honest in a way that sounds almost accidental. Heād start talking about something completely unrelated before admitting he thinks he relies on you too much. Then that would turn into him admitting he wants to tell you everything first, good or bad. Then eventually heād just stop trying to soften it and admit he likes you in a way that stopped feeling friendly a long time ago. The scary part about Chan is that when heās sincere, heās really sincere. No joking, no teasing, no leader persona. Just this exhausted honesty that makes it obvious heās been carrying the feelings alone for a while.
ąØą§ ā Lee Know
Minho would hate the fact that he likes you. Not because thereās something wrong with you, but because he values control over himself more than anything, and suddenly heās reacting emotionally to stupid things that shouldnāt matter. You reply late and heās irritated for the rest of the evening. You cancel plans and he acts indifferent while internally feeling genuinely disappointed. Someone flirts with you in front of him and suddenly heās quieter than usual, sharper around the edges. The worst part is that heād realize how obvious heās becoming before you do. Minho is very aware of himself, which means every soft look, every unnecessary favor, every moment where he gives in too easily around you would make him feel exposed.
Unlike Chan, Minho wouldnāt slowly open up emotionally. Heād get more sarcastic instead. More teasing. More annoying on purpose because itās easier to provoke reactions from you than admit he actually cares what you think of him. But eventually even he gets tired of himself. Tired of acting irritated every time someone assumes youāre dating because secretly he wishes they were right. So one day heād just say it very plainly. No buildup. No awkward speech. Heād admit that being around you stopped feeling casual for him a while ago, and now every time you treat him like ājust a friend,ā it annoys him more than it should. And then heād look away immediately after saying it because despite how composed he acts, vulnerability still embarrasses him badly.
ąØą§ ā Seo Changbin
Changbin wouldnāt realize heās in love with you through emotional introspection. Heād realize because everyone around him is sick of hearing your name. He talks about you constantly without noticing it. Every conversation somehow circles back to you. Someone mentions food? Youād like this place. Someone sends him a song? It reminds him of you. Someone asks about his day? Somehow youāre involved in the story. The members would catch on embarrassingly fast, but Changbin would genuinely think heās acting normal until someone points out that he smiles differently whenever you text him.
What makes Changbin different is that he wouldnāt become quieter around you after catching feelings ā heād become worse. Louder, clingier, more attention-seeking. Heād want your reactions all the time because your approval starts affecting him too much. Compliments from you would stay in his head for days. If you laugh at one of his jokes, he suddenly becomes the funniest person alive. And when he finally confesses, it wouldnāt come from careful planning. It would happen because he accidentally says something too honest and canāt take it back afterward. Heād probably admit that youāve become the first person he wants to share things with, and then realize halfway through talking how serious he sounds. The difference with Changbin is that once the truth is out, he wouldnāt really hold back anymore. Thereās no cool distance with him. If he loves someone, itās obvious, overwhelming, and impossible to miss.
ąØą§ ā Hwang Hyunjin
Hyunjin would fall in love with the details of you before he even notices you as a whole. The expressions you make when youāre annoyed. The way your voice changes when youāre tired. The specific things that make you laugh. Heās observant in a very dangerous way, especially with people he cares about, so once he starts paying attention to you too much, the feelings become unavoidable. But unlike Changbin, Hyunjin wouldnāt express it openly at first. Heād internalize everything. Romanticize everything. Conversations with you would replay in his head later while heās alone, and suddenly heās wondering why one specific look from you ruined his entire mood for the day.
The problem with Hyunjin is that he feels things deeply but hates looking emotionally exposed. So instead of confessing quickly, heād spend months trapped in his own head trying to decide whether the friendship is worth risking. Heād analyze every interaction, every touch, every possibility that maybe you feel the same way too. And when he finally confesses, it wouldnāt sound casual at all because Hyunjin isnāt capable of being emotionally casual with people he truly loves. Heād say it carefully, almost quietly, like heās admitting something heās been hiding from himself too. Not in an exaggerated poetic way ā just painfully sincere. Like someone finally admitting theyāre tired of pretending their feelings are smaller than they really are.
ąØą§ ā Han Jisung
Jisung would become unbearably obvious after realizing he likes you, but heād also somehow stay in denial at the same time. One day heās treating you normally, and the next heās suddenly hyperaware of everything you do. Your attention starts affecting him in embarrassing ways. If you praise him, heās energetic for the rest of the day. If you seem distracted around him, he overthinks it for hours. Heād start acting weirdly nervous too, which would confuse you because Jisung is usually comfortable around you. Suddenly heās talking too fast, interrupting himself, getting flustered when you compliment him back.
What separates Jisung from the others is that his feelings would make him genuinely restless. He wouldnāt know how to sit with them quietly. Heād try distracting himself, joking through it, pretending nothing changed, but eventually the pressure gets to him. And his confession wouldnāt be smooth at all because once Jisung gets emotional, he starts rambling uncontrollably. Heād probably confess by accident during a conversation that had nothing to do with romance, then immediately keep talking because silence makes him panic. Half the confession would just be him exposing himself unintentionally ā admitting how long heās liked you, how obvious everyone else apparently thought he was being, how annoying it is that you affect his mood so much. And honestly, the sincerity would hit harder because of how unplanned it sounds.
ąØą§ ā Lee Felix
Felix would treat you gently long before he realizes heās in love with you. Thatās why the shift would take him so long to notice. He already cares deeply about people naturally, so at first he wouldnāt understand why you specifically feel different. But eventually heād notice that his entire day revolves around whether you seem okay or not. Your mood affects him immediately. If youāre stressed, heās worried. If you seem distant, he starts wondering if he did something wrong. Heād become emotionally attached in a very quiet, steady way that sneaks up on him completely.
Unlike the others, Felix wouldnāt fight the feelings once he recognizes them. Heād be scared of confessing, yes, but not ashamed of loving you. Thereās something very emotionally straightforward about him when it comes to caring for people. So when he eventually tells you, it would sound incredibly genuine because he wouldnāt try making himself seem cooler or less vulnerable than he actually is. Heād admit that loving you stopped feeling avoidable a while ago. That being around you became the safest part of his life without him noticing when it happened. And the thing about Felix is that when he speaks sincerely, people believe him immediately because nothing about him feels performative.
ąØą§ ā Kim Seungmin
Seungmin would notice the change slowly, and honestly, heād resent it at first. Not because he dislikes you, but because heās the type to keep his emotions under control, and suddenly youāre ruining that without even trying. Heād catch himself checking his phone too often waiting for your messages, replaying conversations in his head while pretending heās above things like that. The annoying part is that heād still act completely normal outwardly. Same teasing, same dry comments, same unimpressed expression whenever you say something ridiculous. If anything, heād tease you more after developing feelings because it gives him something to hide behind.
But Seungminās problem is that heās too attentive for his own good. Once he cares about someone romantically, he notices everything. Heād remember offhand comments you made months ago. Heād pick up on your moods before you say anything. Heād quietly start adjusting himself around you in ways you wouldnāt notice immediately, like staying awake longer because he knows thatās when you usually want to talk, or saving certain stories because he specifically wants to tell you later. And the confession itself would be surprisingly calm. No panic, no dramatic emotional breakdown. Just Seungmin finally getting tired of pretending his feelings arenāt obvious. Heād probably admit it during an ordinary conversation, almost casually, except his voice would sound more careful than usual. Heād tell you that somewhere along the way, you stopped feeling easy to be around because now every interaction means too much to him. And afterward heād immediately try acting like he didnāt just completely change the friendship, even though youād be able to tell heās nervous from how quiet he suddenly gets.
ąØą§ ā Yang Jeongin
Jeongin would handle having feelings for you terribly, mostly because he wouldnāt know what to do with himself afterward. Heās expressive by nature, so hiding emotions has never really been his strength. The moment he realizes he likes you, everyone around him would probably figure it out too because suddenly heās reacting to everything you do. If you give him attention, heās in a good mood for hours. If you seem closer to someone else, he gets visibly irritated even while insisting heās fine. And because heās younger emotionally than some of the others, the jealousy would genuinely catch him off guard. Heād hate realizing how much your attention matters to him.
What makes Jeongin different is that his feelings would make him softer rather than nervous. Heād start following you around more naturally, always finding reasons to stay close to you longer than necessary. Thereās something very instinctive about the way he loves people, so instead of overthinking every interaction like Hyunjin or trying to suppress it like Minho, heād just slowly become more attached until itās impossible to ignore. But the actual confession would still embarrass him badly. Heād probably blurt it out during a moment of frustration after holding it in too long, then immediately regret how direct he sounded. Not because he regretted liking you, but because now you know, and suddenly he feels exposed in a way heās not used to. If you liked him back, though, his entire face would change instantly. Jeongin has one of those expressions where happiness reaches his eyes immediately, and after that, he wouldnāt bother pretending to be subtle anymore. Heād get clingy fast, completely comfortable acting like your person once he knows heās allowed to be.
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ā [ āļø ] Hi angels !! domestic boyfriend!joonie was requested by @gottafightwhentheysaybehave !! Your wish is my command my love !! Namjoon has actually been like doing things to me lately - all these clips of him in a tanktop and sweating has me... feeling things. But any-whom !! I hope you all like and enjoy this !! Happy reading !!
before tour boyfriend!namjoon :(
ā gets thoughtful before tours instead of emotional about it. suddenly heās spending more time beside you in comfortable silence, like heās trying to soak in the feeling of home before leaving again
ā leaves little reminders of himself around the apartment without realizing it. books stacked beside the bed. hoodies over chairs. half-finished notes in his handwriting tucked into random places :(
ā the type to stand in the kitchen late at night talking to you about absolutely everything before he leaves. music, life, fears, dumb observations, future plans. conversations with him always somehow feel endless
ā buys you books before tour starts because āyouāll think of me when you read this partā
ā definitely writes things in the margins too :( underlined sentences that reminded him of you or tiny āthis is usā notes beside paragraphs
ā starts sleeping closer to you before leaving. one arm heavy across your waist while he reads until he falls asleep halfway through the page
ā acts composed the morning he leaves but keeps pausing before walking out the door like his body physically doesnāt want to go yet
during tour boyfriend!namjoon :(
ā sends you long paragraphs at random hours because something reminded him of you and suddenly he has a lot to say
ā the type to send pictures of ordinary things instead of glamorous tour stuff. a museum he visited. rainy sidewalks. coffee cups. trees he passed during walks :(
ā facetimes you while sitting on hotel floors surrounded by his open laptop, unfinished lyrics, and clothes he still hasnāt unpacked properly
ā likes hearing about your day in detail. not just āit was good.ā he wants the small parts too. what you ate. what annoyed you. what made you laugh
ā sometimes goes quiet after concerts because the adrenaline crash makes him miss home harder than usual
ā admits he misses sleeping beside you more than he expected :( says hotel rooms always feel too cold and unfamiliar no matter how nice they areĀ
ā sends voice notes while walking alone at night coming from the gym after schedules. low sleepy voice mixed with city sounds in the background
ā keeps one of your sweaters draped over hotel chairs during tours because it makes unfamiliar rooms feel a little softer somehow
ā when he canāt sleep he rereads old conversations between you two instead of texting because he knows youāre probably asleep
after tour boyfriend!namjoon :)
ā coming home with him feels grounding :) like the entire apartment relaxes the second he walks back into it
ā stands in the doorway for a second after getting home just looking around quietly before smiling to himself like āokay. iām backā
ā absolutely the type to pull you into the kitchen while he makes coffee in the morning just so he can stand there talking to you sleepily while sunlight comes through the windows
ā domestic routines become sacred to him after tour :) museum dates. grocery shopping together. sitting on opposite ends of the couch reading while your feet touch
ā gets soft seeing all your little habits again. the way you organize things. the mugs you always use. hearing you moving around in the mornings
ā spends the first few nights back tangled up beside you talking until late because thereās too much he wanted to tell you in person
ā honestly looks happiest doing the most boring things with you :) game nights, watering plants together, sitting quietly while music plays from the tv in the apartment
ā after tour he loves you in an even steadier way. calmer. deeper. like every time he comes home to you he remembers what parts of life actually matter most
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For once, you get to take care of the one who takes care of everyone.
The keys jingled in Chanās hand when everyone spilled out of the restaurant in a laughing, stumbling mess.
Not drunk drunk ā just loose with the night. Warm from soju and beer, cheeks flushed pink, voices louder than usual, every joke suddenly the funniest thing anyone had ever heard.Ā
Three rental cars waited beneath the streetlights, still dusty from the beach parking lot earlier that afternoon.
āOkay,ā Changbin announced from the other side of the lot, pointing dramatically. āStrong team with me.ā
āYou mean loud team,ā Seungmin said.
āYou mean nightmare team,ā Jeongin corrected.
You ended up in the second car exactly where youād expected: Han was already climbing into the backseat, somehow still carrying snacks in his hoodie pocket (and probably in his cheeks as well), Felix sitting beside him with his seatbelt half twisted, and Chan standing by the driverās door, rubbing one eye with the heel of his hand.
He looked beautiful in the soft, ugly parking-lot lighting. Which was unfair.
Cap low over his forehead. Sleeves pushed to his elbows. Hair messy from wind and seawater. His smile was there, touched with the kind of tired happiness that comes after a day well spent.Ā
Heād only had one drink hours ago and switched to water after, but the day had been long ā sun, swimming, driving, making sure everyone was where they needed to be, checking maps, checking reservations, checking on members, checking on you every ten minutes like you might evaporate.
You stepped closer. āBaby.ā
His head lifted immediately. āHm?ā
āLet me drive.ā
His eyebrows rose. āYou wanna drive?ā
āYou're tired. And I'm sober too.ā
āItās okay. I can do it.āĀ
āI know that you can,ā you said softly. āBut you donāt need to. Youāre tired.ā
āIām fine.ā
āYou just tried to unlock the car with the house key.ā
Chan let out a soft laugh, head dropping for a second, and you saw it then: the real exhaustion under the playful refusal. The kind he always ignored.
You reached for his wrist.
His fingers turned instinctively, fingers sliding through yours like they belonged there.
Your voice dropped so only he could hear.
āChris.ā
That did it. It always did.
His eyes flicked to yours.
You reached up, face leaning in towards his, and smoothed a thumb under one of his eyes. āYouāve been taking care of everyone all day. Please let me take care of you for twenty minutes.ā
Something in his expression shifted.
Small. Barely there.
That look he only got when you slipped past the leader everyone knew and spoke to the man underneath it all.Ā
He glanced down at your joined hands, thumb brushing once over your knuckles. Then he sighed through a smile and leaned his forehead against yours.Ā
From the backseat, Felix made a scandalized little sound. āTheyāre being cute again.āĀ
āThey can do that any other time,ā Han whined. āI wanna fall into bed.āĀ
Chan huffed a laugh through his nose and pulled back.
āYou sure?ā
āMhm.ā
āYou know the route?ā
You nodded and held out your hand.
After a second, he dropped the keys into your palm.Ā
āOkay.ā
You smiled and tipped your head towards the passenger side. āGo on then.ā
Chan blinked at you once, clearly too tired to argue, then shuffled around the front of the car without protest.Ā
As he turned, you gave him a light, friendly smack on the butt.Ā
He stopped mid-step and turned back, scandalized. āHey.āĀ
āPassenger princes donāt talk back, baby,ā you said sweetly, opening the driverās door.Ā
Chan shook his head under his breath, smiling now despite himself, and slid into the passenger seat.Ā
You settled behind the wheel, adjusting the seat back from where Chan had it too far for your comfort. His cologne lingered in the fabric, mixed with salt air and the faint scent of sunscreen.Ā
From the backseat, Han gasped dramatically. āSheās driving?āĀ
āOh, youāll survive,ā you said, fixing the rearview mirror until Han's face appeared in it. āIf not, youāre also welcome to walk back.āĀ
He slumped lower in his seat, arms folding across his chest in exaggerated sulkiness. ā āwas just saying, your driving is kind of scary.āĀ
āYou donāt even have a license,ā you said, starting the engine. āSeatbelt, Jisung.āĀ
āThatās why my opinion is pure,ā Han said, reaching for the seatbelt with a pout. āUnbiased. Untainted by experience.āĀ
Felix laughed so hard he immediately yawned afterward, eyes watering.Ā
Chanās mouth twitched, trying not to smile.
āāāāā
Five minutes later, Han was dead aleep.
The road curved dark and quiet along the coast, the sea only visible in flashes between trees.
Chan sat in the passenger seat with the chair leaned farther back than he ever let himself do.Ā
But he kept looking at you.
Every time you glanced over, his eyes were already there.
He had one arm folded across his middle, the other tucked between you on the center console where his fingers occasionally squeezed yours. Not out of nervousness, but out of habit.
The boys in the back had gone from loud to silent with shocking speed.Ā
Han was asleep first, cheek smushed against Felixās shoulder, mouth slightly open.Ā
Felix lasted another three songs before his head tipped sideways onto Hanās hair.Ā
You glanced in the rearview mirror and nearly laughed.
āLook.ā
Chan turned his head.Ā
His smile came slow and helpless.
āThey always act tough,ā he said quietly, āthen become babies after one drink.ā
You smiled as well. āYou gonna carry them inside later?ā
āThe hell I will.ā
You hummed innocently. āBut theyāre your babies.ā
āTheyāre adults,ā he said at once. āHeavy adults. They just happen to complain a lot and expect to be pampered.āĀ
āYou raised them that way.ā
āI did not.ā
āYou absolutely did.ā
He gave a soft scoff but didnāt argue harder than that.Ā
Sleep was already pulling at him now, loosening every sharp edge. Without the need to steer, navigate, count heads, answer questions, make decisions, remind people to hydrate, remember where everyone left their bagsā
There was nothing left for him to hold up.
No leader face.
No responsibility voice.
Just your boyfriend, warm, happy and slowly falling asleep in the passenger seat.Ā
His thumb traced over your knuckles once. Twice.
āYouāre staring,ā you murmured.
āIām appreciating.āĀ
āYou should rest those eyes, not look at me.ā
āCanāt help it. You look really pretty when you drive.āĀ
You laughed under your breath. āThatās the sleep talking, babe.āĀ
āNo.ā His eyes were half closed, voice low and certain. āBeen thinking it for ten minutes.āĀ
āShouldnāt you be resting?ā
He leaned his head back against the headrest. āCanāt.ā
āWhy?ā
āLike looking at you.ā
You stopped at a red light. The intersection was empty, traffic signal glowing red over the quiet road.
You looked over at him again.Ā
He was already looking at you.
Slowly, he lifted his free hand.
His fingers brushed your cheek first, palm settling there gently like he wanted to hold your face for a second before anything else. His thumb swept once across your cheekbone, slow and absentminded.Ā
Then, he leaned across the console and kissed you.
Soft.
Unhurried.
Sleepy in the sweetest way.Ā
You froze for half a heartbeat before kissing him back, one hand tightening on the wheel, the other moving to rest on his shoulder.
He was warm, lips slow and gentle on yours.
As he pulled away, your stomach flipped so hard it made you forget where you were.Ā
When you opened your eyes, it took you a second to remember the car, the road, the sleeping passengers.
You turned your head.
Han was still dead asleep against Felix, entirely unaware of the world.Ā
Felix hadnāt moved at all, breathing deep, arms wrapped around his folded jacket like a stuffed animal.Ā
You let out a slow breath and looked back at Chan.Ā
Who looked impossibly soft like this.
Hoodie half-zipped. Curls messy beneath his cap. Lips parted slightly with sleepiness.
And his eyes ā so full of love ā it made something in your chest ache.
āTired?ā you asked softly.Ā
āNo.ā
āClose your eyes.ā
āCanāt.ā
āWhy?ā
āNeed to make sure everyone gets home safe.ā
Your chest ached in that familiar way.
Even now.
Even here.
Even with his members unconscious in the back and the day finally over, he was still holding the invisible strings of everyone elseās comfort.
You reached over and squeezed his arm.
āIāve got them,ā you said. Then softer, āIāve got you too.ā
He went very still.
Then exhaled like heād been waiting all day to.
When the light changed, you gave him one last smile before turning back to the road and easing the car forward.Ā
āYouāre cute,ā he mumbled after a minute.Ā
āYouāre delirious.ā
āProbably.ā
āYou happy?ā you asked.
āMhm.ā
āWhy?ā
He leaned his head against the window, still watching you.
āMy girlfriendās driving me home~ā
You snorted. āThatās all it takes?ā
āSheās pretty.ā
āChristopher.ā
āShe smells nice too.ā
āYouāre half-asleep.āĀ
āIām in love.ā
The words came so simply, so sleep-heavy and sincere, that your chest tightened.
You squeezed his hand.
āGo to sleep.ā
āYes, maāam.ā
He squeezed your hand back once, then his grip loosened as sleep began pulling him under, yet still holding onto your hand like he didnāt know how not to.
SYNOPSIS:Ā A girl raised on scripture, an arranged engagement, and a digital god of sin, she was never supposed to click on. You only wanted one secret before the wedding. One night. One mistake. But he doesn't do 'just once.' Now your rebellion has a name, and it won't let you go.
GENRE:Ā dark romance | cheating | smut | thriller | slow burn
You shouldn't have come straight from church. The scent of incense still clung to your hair. The white dress brushed your knees modestly, sleeves soft against your wrists pure, untouched, obedient. You looked like you belonged under stained glass, not beneath flickering neon. The club doors opened and heat swallowed you whole. Music pulsed through the floor. Lights cut through the dark like blades. Bodies moved without shame, without prayer, without apology.
And there you were. White in a room full of sin.
"Y/N!"
Hana's voice carried over the bass as she waved you over from the VIP booth. She looked you up and down the moment you reached them. Her smile widened. Then her nose scrunched.
"Oh my God," she laughed, grabbing the fabric of your sleeve between her fingers. "You came dressed like the Virgin Mary." The table erupted in laughter. You slid into the booth anyway, smoothing your dress calmly. "I just came from church."
"We know," one of the others snorted. "We can see that." Hana leaned closer, lowering her voice teasingly. "Did you at least pray for our sins too?" You rolled your eyes, but you were smiling. The waiter arrived. Hana ordered shots before you could object.
"You're engaged," she reminded you, lifting a brow. "You're basically almost married. Isn't this your last chance to do something stupid?" You took the glass when it was pushed toward you. The liquid burned on the way down.
"I don't do stupid," you replied softly.
Hana tilted her head. "That's the problem." Another drink came. Then another. The music grew louder. Or maybe your thoughts did.
They teased you about your father, about his church donations, his charity galas, his polished speeches about morality while negotiating business deals behind closed doors.
"Saint by day. Shark by night," someone joked.
"And you," Hana added, nudging you, "are his perfect little angel." You smiled again. That soft, trained smile. But inside, something twisted.
You were tired of being perfect. Tired of white dresses and folded hands. Tired of pretending the engagement didn't feel like a contract. Like ownership.
"Just once," Hana said, leaning in conspiratorially. "Do something rebellious. Something no one would expect from you." Your fingers tightened slightly around your glass. Rebellious. The word felt heavy. Because rebellion in your world wasn't just sneaking out. It wasn't drinking. It wasn't dancing.
"Hana," Kevin suddenly cut in, pointing at her with lazy curiosity, "didn't you say you went to Jessi's birthday last week?"
Hana paused mid-sip, eyes widening. "Oh my God," she laughed, nearly choking on her drink. "I completely forgot to tell you guys. That got everyone's attention. She set her glass down dramatically, lowering her voice even though the music swallowed half her words.
"It wasn't just a party. It was private. Invitation-only. Jessi rented out the top floor of this hotel and-" she grinned wickedly, "-she hired entertainment."
Minseo raised a brow. "Entertainment?"
Hana nodded slowly. "Sexy men. Like... unreal. They looked like celebrities."
"P*rnstars, you mean?" Minseo snorted, leaning back against the booth.
Hana snapped her fingers. "Exactly." The table erupted into laughter and whistles.
"They weren't just guys," Hana boasted, her eyes wide and glassy. "They were art. Jessi was in the middle of it all, just... completely unraveled. It was filthy, it was loud, and it was the best night of my life. I think I'm still sore."
Kevin let out a low whistle. "That's insane."
"She didn't care who judged her," Hana added, shrugging. "It was her birthday. She said if men can do stupid bachelor parties, she can have her own version."
Minseo laughed. "Iconic." You didn't laugh. You just listened.
Jessi. Sweet, soft-spoken Jessi from university. You pictured her in some dim hotel suite, music low, strangers' hands on her waist while she threw her head back without worrying who would find out. No fear. No guilt. No consequences.
"Apparently she was the boldest one there," Hana went on. "Completely fearless. Filthy, honestly. But in a fun way." The word lingered in the air.Ā Filthy.Ā You glanced down at your white dress. Your entire life had been curated to look untouched. Clean. Holy. Even your engagement had been arranged like a contract sealed with polite smiles and handshakes. You were meant to walk down an aisle pure and grateful.
And Jessi? She hired men whose faces probably lived on hidden tabs and late-night searches. Men who belonged to fantasy, not family dinners. "Can you imagine?" Hana said, nudging you. "You at a party like that?" The group burst out laughing at the thought.
"Y/N would faint before the first song starts," Kevin teased.
Hana tilted her head at you, studying your expression more carefully now. "You're thinking about it," she said softly.
You looked away, lifting your drink to your lips.
When Hana grabbed your phone, the intrusion felt like a physical violation, but the website she flicked through a dark, sleek interface of profiles and unapologetic desires lingered in your mind even after you snatched the device back.
"Look," Hana said, her tone softening but her eyes remaining sharp. "Just one night. No strings. No Bible verses. Just skin, breath, and forgetting who you're supposed to be. I know a guy. Or use an app. But do something before you wither away."
You looked at the group, at Kevin's smirk and Minseo's expectant gaze. The 'Good Girl' armor you had worn for years suddenly felt too tight, suffocating the pulse that was now thrumming in your throat.
"Fine," you whispered, the word tasting like copper.
"What was that?" Kevin leaned in, cupping his ear.
"I said fine," you said louder, your grip tightening until the glass threatened to shatter. "I'll do it. Arrange it, Hana. Or I'll find someone myself. But I'm done being the punchline."
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The rain began to smear the neon lights of the city into bleeding streaks of oil and light as you slammed your car door shut. Your chest was heaving, the air in the vehicle tasting like leather and the bitter copper of adrenaline.
Hana's 'perfect guy' was currently buried face-first in a stranger's neck at the VIP bar, his hands roaming over her with a practiced, hollow hunger. If you hadn't seen the photo Hana sent, the sharp jawline, the specific silver ring you would have walked right into his trap. You would have let that mouth, currently slick with another woman's saliva, touch yours. You would have let his skin, probably already layered in the sweat and scents of a dozen club flings, press against your own.
A text from him. "Where r u? I'm waiting near the booth." You didn't even give him the satisfaction of a block. You let the notification hang there, a rotting piece of digital trash.
Then, the other notifications started to bleed through. The website Hana had forced open was now a persistent, pulsating itch on your lock screen. It was a sewer of desperation and cheap thrills:
"Single MILF nearby... feeling lonely?"
"Daddy issues? I can fix that for a price."
You went to swipe them away, your thumb hovering over the 'Clear All' button, when one caught your eye. It wasn't loud. It wasn't colorful. It was just a black icon with two letters:Ā JK.
"Lonely tonight? Mature men ready now."
You clicked it. You told yourself it was curiosity, but the way your heart hammered against your ribs told a different story. The profile picture was a masterclass in shadowed temptation, a glimpse of a broad, ink-covered shoulder, a hand with prominent veins gripping a glass of dark amber liquid, and a jawline so sharp it looked like it could draw blood.
You scrolled down, but the screen was a sea of blurred, tantalizing shapes.
A glimpse of a muscular torso arched in a dark room. The suggestion of a mouth pressed against a neck.
Captions that read:Ā "Whatever you crave, I provide. No judgment. No names. Just the heat."
To see the truth behind the blur, you had to pay.
You stared at the 'Subscribe' button. Money was never the obstacle; your family's accounts were deep enough to buy the club you just fled. But this was different. This was paying for a fantasy, paying for a man who promised to be exactly what you needed, without the messy, cheating reality of the guy you just left behind.
You pulled out of the parking lot, your thumb hovering over the screen. You'd look at his 'content' when you got home. You'd see if JK was worth the investment or if he was just another lie wrapped in a pretty package.
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The silence of your bedroom was deafening, a sharp contrast to the pulsing chaos of the club you'd just escaped. You kicked off your heels, the silk sheets of your bed feeling like a cool, mocking caress against your skin.
With a trembling thumb, you hit Subscribe. The transaction cleared instantly, a drop of water in the ocean of your family's wealth and the digital veil lifted.
The blur vanished, replaced by high-definition sin. Your breath hitched. He wasn't just handsome; he was a visceral assault on the senses.
One photo showed him leaning against a stark white wall, shirtless and unbothered. His skin was a map of dark, intricate ink that disappeared beneath the waistband of low-slung black boxers. The fabric was strained, the heavy, unapologetic bulge casting a shadow that made your throat go dry.
Another shot was a close-up of his tatted hand, thick veins and scarred knuckles possessively gripping himself through the cotton, as if marking his own territory.
Then came the shower shot. His hair was slicked back, dripping diamonds of water down a chest that looked carved from marble. He was sitting on a velvet chair, legs spread wide, his boxers pulled down just far enough to reveal the deep, lethal carve of his V-line. It was a jagged invitation into the darkness.
He looked into the camera with a heavy-lidded gaze, his silver lip piercing catching the light as he pulled his lower lip between his teeth. It wasn't just a pose; it was a challenge.
Your phone vibrated, the haptic feedback buzzing against your palm like a heartbeat. A direct message popped up.
JK:Ā "Hey, princess. I see you lurking. I'm glad you decided to pay the entry fee. The view is better from the inside, isn't it?"
Your heart thudded. Before you could even think of a reply, another message followed, dripping with a casual, expensive arrogance.
JK:Ā "For the real show, check the link below. And if you want to talk... my inbox is always open. As long as your wallet is as heavy as your curiosity."
You clicked the link, expecting more suggestive teasers. Instead, the screen exploded into motion.
This wasn't just 'content.' These were professional, high-production scenes of raw, unbridled intimacy. You watched, paralyzed, as JK, the man who had just called you princess, commanded the screen. He was a force of nature, his tattooed body slick with sweat as he moved with a feral, rhythmic intensity.
He wasn't just a model; he was a pornstar. A top-tier, high-demand performer whose every groan and movement was documented for thousands of paying voyeurs.
You saw him dominant, his eyes darkened with a hunger that felt terrifyingly real, his hands pinning a woman's wrists above her head as he took what he wanted. He looked nothing like the polished men in your social circle. He looked like the end of your reputation and the beginning of the best mistake of your life.
You stared at the empty text box, the cursor blinking like a taunting heartbeat.
You:Ā Hi there.
The moment the message sent, you threw the phone face-down on the silk duvet as if it were a live grenade. What are you doing? you hissed to yourself, staring at the ceiling. You were a woman of status, a woman with a ring on her finger, and yet you were reaching out to a man who made a living out of every primal, unfiltered instinct you had been taught to suppress.
Bzzzt.
The vibration against the mattress made you jump. You hesitated, then crawled toward it.
JK:Ā Just 'Hi'? A girl with a wallet like yours usually has more to say, Princess. Or are you just shy because you've been watching my videos?
Your face flushed a deep, stinging crimson. He was blunt. No pleasantries, no dancing around the fact that you'd just spent the last hour watching him ruin women on camera.
You:Ā Maybe I'm just selective.
JK:Ā I like selective. It makes it more fun when I finally get you to beg. Tell me... what are you wearing right now? Are you touching yourself while you think about what I did in that last clip? I bet you're soaking wet just imagining those tattoos against your skin.
The rawness of his words hit you like a physical blow. It was filthy, direct, and completely devoid of the 'gentlemanly' mask every man in your life wore. You felt a rebellious streak flare up. You didn't just want to be a fan; you wanted to be the one in control of the interaction.
You tapped the Tip button. $500. >Ā You:Ā Less talking. More showing.
There was a long pause. The "typing..." bubbles appeared and disappeared. You had caught him off guard. A man like him was used to being the predator, but you were playing a different game.
JK:Ā $500 just for a greeting? You really are a spoiled little thing, aren't you? You want to see what that money buys you?
Bzzzt. A notification flashed: New Media Received.
You clicked it, your breath hitching in your throat. It was a mirror selfie, taken in a dimly lit bathroom. He was wearing nothing but a pair of thin, heather-grey sweatpants, the kind of fabric that hid absolutely nothing.
He was leaning against the counter, a bright red lollipop caught between his teeth, his lips slick and stained. But your eyes dropped lower. The grey fabric was stretched tight, a massive, unmistakable bulge straining against the seam, thick and heavy. You could see the distinct outline, the sheer weight of him demanding release.
JK:Ā "Do you like the view, Princess? Or do I need to pull these down so you can see exactly how much you're affecting me? I haven't even started yet... and I'm already wondering how you'd taste."
You gripped the phone so hard your knuckles turned white. The Good Girl was gone; there was only the woman in the dark, staring at a digital god of sin and wondering just how much more it would cost to make him yours for the night.
You were about to type something reckless when the three dots appeared again. This time, his tone shifted. The raw, unfiltered heat was still there, but a sudden streak of professional caution cut through the filth.
JK:Ā "Hold on, Princess. Before I slide these off and show you exactly what that $500 just bought... I need to know who I'm playing with. I've had too many eighteen-year-olds trying to play grown-up games, and I'm not interested in babysitting. I also get guys in my DMs thinking they can handle a man like me. I'm straight, I'm a Dom, and I like to know exactly whose mind I'm breaking."
He was drawing a line in the sand. He wasn't just a body; he was a man who took up space, demanded truth, and controlled the narrative.
JK:Ā "So, tell me. How old are you? And what exactly am I looking at on the other side of this screen? Give me a reason to keep this video recording."
Your heart hammered against your ribs. You looked at the diamond engagement ring on your left hand, a symbol of a life that felt like a gilded cage. You weren't a girl. You were a woman, suffocating under the weight of expectations.
You:Ā I'm 26, JK. And I'm definitely a woman. A woman who is tired of being told what she can and can't want.
The "typing" bubble was instant.
JK:Ā "26... perfect. Prime. Old enough to know the damage I can do, and young enough to want it anyway. And a woman? Good. Because the things I want to say to you next... a man couldn't handle them."
Bzzzt. Another notification. New Video Attached (0:15).
You tapped it with shaking fingers. The lighting was low, the camera focused entirely on his waist down. He was still in the grey sweats, but his hand those large, tattooed fingers hooked into the waistband. You heard the low, gravelly sound of his voice, a dark rumble that vibrated through your phone's speakers.
"See this, Princess? This is what happens when you talk back to me."
Slowly, agonizingly, he began to peel the fabric down. The camera caught the deep ridges of his hip bones, the dark hair trailing down into the shadows, and then the release. The grey fabric dropped, and for a split second, you saw the raw, pulsing reality of him, thick and heavy, before he cut the feed.
JK:Ā "That was just the teaser. If you want the full 10 minutes of me taking care of myself while I say your name... it's going to cost you more than $500. But I think you've got the taste for it now, don't you?"
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The cool air of the en-suite bathroom hit your flushed skin, but it couldn't chill the fire burning beneath the surface. Your hand was still trembling as you set the phone on the marble counter. The screen was dark now, but the ghost of JK's low, gravelly voice, moaning your name into the speaker as he took himself to the edge replayed on a loop in your mind.
You had actually done it. You had paid a stranger to ruin your composure, touching yourself to the rhythmic sound of a man who didn't even know what your face looked like. The Good Girl wasn't just cracked; she was shattered.
Next day, the transformation was complete. The disheveled woman on the silk sheets was buried under layers of designer silk and heirloom diamonds. You stood before the mirror, the heavy weight of your engagement ring back on your finger, looking every bit the pristine daughter of a political dynasty.
A high-stakes gala where business deals were signed in blood-red wine.
As you stood in the grand foyer, flanked by your father's imposing presence and Seokjin's possessive hand on the small of your back, your clutch bag vibrated.
Buzz. Buzz.
You ignored it, keeping your chin high as you greeted a senator.
Buzz.
Under the pretense of checking the time, you stole a glance at the screen.
JK:Ā "Princess. I'm feeling generous tonight... or maybe just restless. I'm available for your 'entertainment' for the next hour. Want to see what I can do with my hands when I'm thinking of you?"
The sheer audacity of the text, the filthiness of his offer sent while you were surrounded by the elite 'saints' of your world made your breath catch. He was a digital demon whispering in your ear while you played angel for the cameras.
You looked up at Seokjin. He was discussing quarterly projections, his face a mask of bored perfection. He didn't know the woman standing next to him had spent her afternoon watching a pornstar come undone. He didn't know that right now, in your purse, a man was offering to show you things that would make this entire ballroom faint.
You felt a surge of power. For the first time, you weren't the one being controlled.
You didn't reply. You didn't even unlock the phone. You let the notification hang there, unanswered. JK might be a god in his digital kingdom, but here, in the world of power and pearls, he was nothing but a distraction you had bought and paid for. You weren't going to give him your attention just because he asked for it.
You slid the phone back into your bag, the "typing" bubbles likely still flickering in the dark. You had a role to play, and for tonight, the only thing that mattered was the cold, calculated perfection of being Seokjin's future wife.
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Jungkook tossed his phone onto the leather sofa, the screen dimming on the silence of your chat. He didn't pace; he didn't fret. At thirty-two, he had moved past the age of chasing validation. He was a man built of muscle, ink, and a decade of performative sin, and he knew exactly how the game was played.
He remembered being twenty young, hungry, and possessing a body that the industry wanted to colonize. Back then, the lights felt like a spotlight; later, they felt like a dissection. He had become a household name in the darkest corners of the internet, a titan of the screen who could command a room with a single look. But the reality had been a grind of faked moans, sterile sets, and the exhausting tax of staying aroused for a camera crew while burying his own soul.
He had walked away from the contracts and the forced chemistry, but he couldn't walk away from the reputation. He became his own master. He curated his past, uploading vault footage and shot-from-the-hip content to exclusive sites where the elite came to play.
He had seen it all. He had been the 'daddy' for broken girls, the secret thrill for bored socialites, and the wrecking ball for marriages that were already crumbling.
Then there was you. 'Princess.'
Most of his new subscribers were predictable, bratty teenagers using their parents' credit cards or lonely men hiding in the shadows. When you first started throwing hundreds of dollars at him for a simple greeting, he had pegged you as a bored kid with a trust fund. He had almost felt a flicker of annoyance; he wasn't a toy for children.
But then came the revelation. Twenty-six.
A woman. A grown woman with a voice that sounded like she was starving for something real, even through a text. That changed the math. You weren't just looking for a thrill; you were looking for a transformation. And as he stared out his window at the city skyline, he felt a predatory curiosity he hadn't felt in years. You were rich, you were mature, and you were currently ignoring him while you played your part in a world of high-society lies.
He liked a challenge. And he especially liked breaking good things to see what they were made of inside.
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The drive home was conducted in the stifling, climate-controlled silence of Seokjin's silver sedan. The leather smelled of expensive citrus and ambition. Outside, the city blurred into a streak of grey, but inside, the tension was a physical weight. Your parents had stayed behind to finish a round of late-night networking, leaving you in the capable hands of your future.
Seokjin drove with a one-handed, effortless precision, the light from the streetlamps dancing off the sharp crease of his suit trousers.
"The merger looks solid," he began, his voice smooth and devoid of any real warmth. "Your father was impressed with the way you handled the Senator tonight. You looked the part. Dignified. Untouchable."
He didn't look at you as he spoke; he was already three steps ahead, calculating the next move on the chessboard of your lives.
"I've been meaning to talk to you about the timeline," he continued. "Once the wedding is finalized in June, I'll be moving our primary operations overseas. London, most likely. Maybe a stint in Singapore. It's the only way to truly scale the family brand."
He wasn't asking. He was informing you of your new itinerary. You were an asset to be moved, a piece of luggage wrapped in silk and diamonds. You nodded, your gaze fixed on the window, listening to him drone on about logistics and tax havens, while the ghost of a tattooed hand and a red lollipop burned in the back of your mind.
When the car pulled up to the gates of your family's estate, the engine cut with a quiet, expensive hum. Seokjin turned to you then, his expression softening just enough to be considered "affectionate" by his standards.
"You've been quiet tonight," he noted, reaching out to tuck a stray hair behind your ear. "Are you nervous about the move? Don't be. You'll have everything you need there. More than you have here."
"I'm just tired, Jin," you lied, the words feeling like ash.
"Get some rest, then," he said. He leaned in, his lips pressing against yours. It was a kiss that was perfectly practiced polite, dry, and entirely devoid of the hungry, visceral heat you had felt pulsing through your phone only hours ago. It was the kiss of a business partner sealing a deal, not a man claiming a woman.
"I'll call you tomorrow about the venue," he whispered against your mouth before pulling away.
You watched the red glow of his taillights disappear down the driveway. The house was silent, a hollow museum of your family's status. You walked inside, the click of your heels echoing on the marble floor.
The house was silent, your parents still tangled in the web of the party. You kicked off your heels in the foyer and retreated to your bedroom, the shadows of the large room feeling like a sanctuary. You reached into your clutch and pulled out your phone.
JK's last message was still there, glowing in the dark.Ā 'Available for your entertainment.'
The contrast between Seokjin's sterile overseas transition and JK's raw, unapologetic filth was too much to ignore. You didn't just want a distraction; you wanted to burn the bridge between who you were and who you were supposed to be.
You:Ā I need you to make me forget everything about tonight. Name your price. Whatever the amount, I'll pay it. Just... don't stop.
You didn't expect an immediate reply. It was late, and a man like him surely had other clients to attend to. But the notification popped up before you could even set the phone down.
JK:Ā "Whatever the amount? Careful, Princess. You're talking to a man who knows exactly how to bleed a bank account dry. But money isn't what I'm craving right now."
Your heart skipped.
JK:Ā "I've been watching your silence for the last three hours. You were somewhere, weren't you? $2,000 for a live call. Right now. No scripts. No filters. I want to see exactly where you are and what you're willing to do to earn my time."
He wasn't asking. He was demanding. And for the first time in your life, you found yourself reaching for the "Pay" button without a single second of hesitation.
The screen of your phone was a void of black, but your speakers were alive with the sound of his breathing low, steady, and dangerously calm. You sat on the edge of your bed, the silk of your dress pushed up to your hips, your heart hammering a frantic rhythm against your ribs. The thought of your face, the face of a a corporate bride-to-be appearing on his screen was a death sentence.
Then, his video feed flickered to life.
You gasped, the sound muffled by your hand. Jungkook was sprawled across a messy bed, the sheets a dark, tangled contrast to his glowing, tattooed skin. He was completely naked, one arm tucked behind his head, flexing the thick bicep covered in intricate ink. The camera angle was unapologetic, looking down the length of his hard, sculpted torso to where his heavy length lay resting against his thigh.
He leaned in closer, a dark, knowing smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.
"Why, Princess? Are you scared of revealing yourself?" His voice was a gravelly vibration that seemed to pulse right between your legs. "Are you hiding a face I'd recognize? Or are you just shy because you know exactly what I'm going to make you do?"
"I'm not turning it on," you whispered, your voice trembling. "Just... do what I paid for."
Jungkook let out a low, dark chuckle that sent shivers down your spine. He didn't push further; he liked the power dynamic of the mystery. His free hand traveled down his chest, his thumb grazing his nipple before sliding down the ridges of his abs.
"Fine. Keep your secrets," he groaned, his eyes darkening as they stared into the blackness of your side of the call. "But if I can't see you, I need to hear you. I want to hear the fabric of that expensive dress rustling. I want to hear your breathing get ragged. Tell me, Princess... what do you want me to do to myself while I think about breaking you?"
"I want to see you play," you breathed, your own hand sliding tentatively beneath the lace of your underwear. "I want to see... everything."
"Direct. I like that," he said, his hand finally closing around himself. He started a slow, rhythmic slide, his head falling back against the pillow. "I'm imagining you right now. I bet you're sitting on the edge of that big, lonely bed, your legs spread for me. Spread them wider, Princess. Touch yourself."
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The video call became a fever dream of filth and friction. The sight of him, his veins popping in his forearms as his grip tightened, his jaw clenching with every upward stroke was a visceral assault.
"God, you're so loud in my ear," he hissed, his pace quickening, the sound of skin hitting skin echoing through the line. "Are you wet for me? Tell me how much you want this sticky, filthy mess all over you."
"Shut up," you gasped, your eyes rolling back as you reached your peak, the image of his tattooed body moving with feral intensity driving you over the edge. "Just... don't stop. Don't you dare stop."
"I'm not stopping until I hear you shatter," he growled, his voice dropping into a guttural roar as he watched the black screen, imagining the ruin he was causing in your high-society bedroom. "Give it to me, Princess. Tell me who you really belong to tonight."
You couldn't hold back anymore. The friction of your own fingers, the sight of his head lolling back as he reached his limit, and the sheer, forbidden thrill of the moment snapped something deep inside you. You let out a broken, high-pitched moan, your body arching off the bed as the first wave of a violent climax hit you.
"God... JK," you gasped, his name slipping out like a prayer and a sin all at once.
The sound of his name seemed to trigger the end for him. On the screen, his muscles corded, his veins bulging in his neck as his grip tightened into a final, desperate rhythm. His jaw locked, a low, animalistic growl vibrating from his chest as he finally came, the raw evidence of his release slicking his abdomen and his tattooed hand.
He stayed like that for a moment, chest heaving, his skin glistening with a film of sweat under the dim lights of his room. He looked utterly wrecked, a man who had just given everything to a black screen.
The silence that followed was deafening. You lay there, your dress ruined and hiked up around your waist, your breath coming in shallow hitches. The reality of what you had just done the sheer filth of it, the distance between this and the cold, sterile life Seokjin offered felt like a physical weight.
Jungkook finally opened his eyes, blinking slowly at the camera. He reached out, his thumb grazing the lens as if he were trying to touch the woman behind the darkness.
"You're a quiet one after the storm, aren't you?" he murmured, his voice honeyed and rough.
He didn't ask about your life. He didn't ask who you were or why you were hiding. To him, you were just a high-paying fantasy, a voice in the dark that needed him. He had no idea about the diamond ring sitting on your nightstand or the political merger that was currently dictating your future.
"Same time tomorrow?" he asked, a ghost of a smirk returning to his lips as he began to reach for a towel to clean himself up. "Or did I finally give you enough to keep you satisfied for a while?"
You didn't answer. You couldn't. With a trembling hand, you reached out and tapped the red 'End Call' button, plunging the room back into a cold, suffocating silence.
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The air in the cathedral was thick with the scent of aged frankincense and the heavy, suffocating weight of tradition. Sunlight filtered through the stained glass, casting vibrant hues of ruby and sapphire across your folded hands, but you felt none of the peace the priest was droning on about.
You were kneeling between your mother, who was draped in modest Chanel, and Seokjin, who looked like a saint carved from marble. His eyes were closed, his profile sharp and perfect. To the world, you were the picture of piety, the cherished daughter of a dynasty, preparing to enter a sacred union.
Inside, you were a riot of sin.
Your thighs ached from the tension of the previous night's call. Every time the choir hit a high note, you didn't think of angels; you thought of the way JK's voice had dropped into that guttural, animalistic growl when he watched you peak through the screen.
The small clutch purse on your lap vibrated.
It was a sharp, jagged intrusion into the silence. Your mother cut a sharp glance toward you, her perfectly arched brow twitching in warning. You offered a tight, apologetic smile and slipped your hand into the bag, your heart hammering against your ribs like a trapped bird.
You knew you shouldn't. Not here. Not in front of the altar. But the hunger was a physical itch you couldn't scratch.
You shielded the screen with your palm, the brightness biting into the dimness of the pew.
JK: Thinking about how you sounded last night.
JK: Bet you're being a good girl right now, aren't you? Sitting somewhere pretty, pretending you don't have a filthy mind.
A heat, sudden and violent, bloomed at the base of your throat. You shifted in the hard wooden pew, the wood creaking, a sound that felt like a scream in the silent church. Your mother cut a sharp, questioning look at you. You offered a tight, strained smile and looked down at your lap, your fingers trembling as another notification popped up.
It was an image.
You shouldn't have opened it. Not here. Not under the eyes of the saints. But curiosity was a hunger you couldn't starve.
The photo loaded. It was a mirror selfie, taken in what looked like a dimly lit bathroom. JK was wearing nothing but grey sweatpants hung dangerously low on his hips, his hand curled around the back of his neck to flex the heavy muscle of his shoulder. His hair was damp, falling over his eyes, and he was biting his lower lip, that same lip you had watched him wet with a red lollipop.
The caption read.
JK: I'm bored, Princess. Saturday feels too far away. Tell me what you're wearing. I want to know exactly what I have to take off you before I show you what $2,000 actually buys.
The unholy thoughts hit you like a physical blow. You could almost feel his tattooed fingers tracing the zipper of your dress, pulling it down to reveal the virginity you were planning to hand him like a sacrificial lamb. The irony was suffocating, here you were, surrounded by prayers for your soul, while your heart was racing for the man who promised to ruin it.
"Y/N," your mother whispered, her hand resting on your arm. Her touch felt like ice. "Are you alright? You're flushed. You're shaking."
"I... it's just the incense, Mother," you choked out, the lie tasting like ash. "It's a bit stifling in here."
You looked back at the phone one last time. The image of his sculpted torso, the V-line of his hips disappearing into the fabric of his pants, burned into your retinas. You felt a coil of heat tighten deep in your belly, a visceral ache that made the church feel like a cage.
You typed back with a daring you didn't know you possessed, your thumb hovering over the keys as the choir began to sing.
You: I'm in church, JK.
You: And you're making it very hard to pray.
A second later, his reply came, and you nearly dropped the phone.
JK: In church? Perfect.
JK: Kneel down for me then, Princess. Tell God I'm the one coming for you on Saturday. And tell him I don't plan on being gentle.
You snapped the clutch shut, the metallic click echoing too loudly in the hollow space. Your breath was ragged, your heart hammering against your ribs like a trapped bird. You looked up at the crucifix at the front of the hall, but all you saw was the dark, hungry gaze of a man who didn't care about your soul, only your body.
Saturday wasn't just a date. It was a countdown to a total eclipse of the life you had been forced to lead. And as the congregation stood for the final blessing, you realized you weren't praying for forgiveness. You were praying for the week to end.
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The air in the garden was thick with the scent of peonies and overpriced champagne. Everything, from the silk ribbons tied around the topiary to the macarons on the tiered trays, was a precise, aggressive shade of blush pink. It was beautiful, curated, and utterly exhausting.
Seokjin stood beside you, looking every bit the heir to an empire in a tailored cream suit that made his shoulders look impossibly broad. He held a glass of sparkling cider, his posture perfect, his smile appearing and disappearing with the mechanical precision of a shutter.
"A girl," he remarked, his voice low enough only for you to hear. "It's good for the family lineage. Softens the brand's image. My cousin, Hana, has always been savvy about these things."
You nodded, feeling the weight of the pink silk dress you'd been instructed to wear. "She looks happy, Jin. It's a celebration, not just a branding opportunity."
He chuckled, a dry, polite sound. "In this family, darling, they are one and the same."
Hana, glowing and draped in chiffon, glided over to you both. "Y/N! You look stunning. Pink really is your color," she chirped, kissing both of your cheeks. She leaned in closer, her eyes sparkling with a mix of genuine excitement and family expectation. "So, I hear the wedding is set for June. Just think, in a year or two, we could be throwing one of these for you and Jin. Can you imagine a little Seokjin running around?"
Your stomach did a slow, nauseating somersault. "We're just focusing on the merger, the wedding, right now, Hana," you managed to say, your smile feeling like it was held up by wires.
"Of course, of course," she winked. "But don't wait too long. We need to keep the dynasty strong."
As they descended into a conversation about offshore investments and the guest list for the upcoming charity gala, your mind drifted. The pink balloons began to look like blurred spots of light. You were bored no, you were suffocating. This was your life, a series of gender reveals, sterile conversations, and softening the brand.
As the afternoon wore on, the fun began. There were games involving guessing the baby's birth weight and advice cards for the new parents. You sat at a circular table with three other corporate wives who discussed nothing but interior designers and the local private school rankings.
Seokjin was a few yards away, locked in a deep conversation about tax-free zones with his uncle. He didn't look back at you once. He knew exactly where you were, exactly where he'd left you.
You picked at a pink cupcake, the frosting too sweet, your mind drifting. You looked at the pink ribbons tied around the trees and thought about how everything in your life was being pre-packaged. The color of the nursery, the city you'd live in, the man you'd wake up next to.
"Everything alright?"
You looked up to see Seokjin standing over you. He checked his watch, a habit he couldn't break even at a family party.
"I'm just a bit drained, Jin," you said, echoing the same lie you'd told him in the car. "The sun is a bit much."
"We'll leave after the final toast," he said, patting your hand. It wasn't a gesture of comfort; it was a promise of an end to the social obligation. "You've done well today. My aunt was very complimentary of your poise."
Poise. To him, you were a well-behaved pet.
As the "It's a Girl!" confetti cannons went off, showering the lawn in a blizzard of pink paper, you stood there clapping politely. The sight was objectively beautiful, but you felt nothing but a hollow ache for something messy, something unscripted, and something that didn't require a Pay button even if that was the only way you knew how to find it.
You followed Seokjin toward the car, your heels sinking into the manicured grass, a dignified bride-to-be who was secretly counting down the seconds until she could be alone in the dark.
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You stood before your full-length mirror, two dresses draped over the velvet chair behind you.
The red dress was a statement. It was bold, a "femme fatale" armor that screamed of the woman you were trying to become sensual, confident, and unapologetic. But as you held it up, it felt like a costume.
Then there was the white dress.
White was your signature. Your closet was a graveyard of ivory, cream, and pearl the color of purity, the color of a bride. Choosing the white silk slip dress felt like a deliberate act of sabotage. You wanted him to see you in the color of innocence just before you let him ruin it. You pulled the silk over your head, the fabric cool against your skin, sliding down your curves like a secret. No bra, just lace-trimmed stockings and the frantic thrum of your heart against your ribs.
The hotel was a discreet, high-end establishment on the edge of the city, the kind of place where the staff was paid for their silence. Your hands shook as you pressed the button for the penthouse floor.
When you reached the door, you hesitated. Your reflection in the polished brass of the room number looked like a stranger pale, wide-eyed, and desperate. You knocked, the sound muffled by the thick carpet of the hallway.
The door swung open almost instantly.
The camera hadn't done him justice. In person, Jungkook was an overwhelming physical presence. He was in a black silk button-down, the top three buttons undone to reveal a glimpse of the intricate, dark ink sprawling across his chest. His hair was pushed back, and the light caught the glint of the silver rings in his ears and the sharp, silver stud in his lip.
His dark eyes raked over you, slow and deliberate, moving from your trembling lips down to the hem of your white dress. He didn't look like a service you had paid for; he looked like a predator who had finally cornered his prey.
"You're late, Princess," he murmured, his voice a low, gravelly vibration that settled deep in your bones. He stepped back, gesturing for you to enter. "And you're wearing white. Are you trying to remind me of what I'm taking from you tonight?"
The door clicked shut, sealing out the world and its expectations. The room was dim, lit only by the amber glow of the city skyline through the floor-to-ceiling windows.
"I... I was nervous," you admitted, your voice barely a whisper. "I didn't know if I'd look the same to you in person."
Jungkook walked toward you, his movements fluid and predatory. He stopped inches away, the scent of expensive tobacco and something dark and masculine filling your senses. He reached out, his hand, covered in the intricate tattoos of a snake and a crown, sliding up your arm. The contrast of his ink against your pale, pristine skin was startling.
"You look better," he hissed, his thumb grazing your jawline before hooking into the corner of your mouth, tugging your lip down slightly. "The camera didn't show me how much you tremble when I touch you."
He didn't waste time with the polite, dry kisses. When his mouth crashed against yours, it was a claim. It tasted of hunger and heat. His lip piercing dragged against your skin, a sharp, metallic sensation that sent a jolt of pure electricity through your nerves.
The room felt smaller now that the door was shut, the air thick with the scent of his cologne and the dangerous, electric hum of his presence. You stood by the foot of the bed, your fingers fumbling with your clutch until you managed to pull out your phone. With a few frantic taps, you hit 'confirm.'
The $2,000 left your account, a digital sacrifice to the man standing before you.
"It's sent," you whispered, your voice thin.
Jungkook didn't even glance at his phone. He took a slow, deliberate step toward you, the silver rings in his ears catching the light. He looked at you not like a client, but like something he had finally hunted down.
"You think I care about the notification, Princess?" he murmured, stopping so close you could feel the heat radiating from his chest. "I've got plenty of money. But having the pristine, high-society bride-to-be standing in my room, shaking because she wants to be touched by a man like me? That feels like winning a trophy I wasn't supposed to have."
He reached out, his tattooed hand cupping your cheek, his thumb dragging across your bottom lip. "So, how do you want to start? You paid for the time. Tell me how you want me to ruin you."
"I... I don't know," you breathed, your heart hammering against your ribs. "I've never... I've never done this."
A low, dark chuckle vibrated in his chest. "You don't know? After all that talk on the phone?" He leaned down, his lip piercing cold against your ear as he whispered, "I like that. A blank slate."
He didn't wait for another word. He gripped your waist, his large hands sinking into the ivory silk of your dress, and guided you back until your knees hit the edge of the mattress. With a gentle shove, he sat you down and then eased you back until you were lying against the pillows, your dark hair splayed out like a halo.
Jungkook hovered over you for a second, his dark eyes raking over your body with a proprietary hunger. Then, he dropped to his knees between your legs. The movement was so sudden, so worshipful yet dominant, that you gasped.
He didn't look up. Instead, he gripped the hem of your white dress and slowly slid it upward. The silk bunched in his tattooed hands, revealing your trembling thighs, inch by inch, until the fabric was gathered at your hips.
He leaned in, pressing a searing, open-mouthed kiss to the soft skin of your inner knee. His breath was hot, sending a violent shiver straight to your core.
"I'm here to please you, and I'm getting paid a lot of money to do it right," he murmured against your skin, his voice muffled by your thigh. He moved higher, his tongue tracing a line toward the lace of your underwear, his nose brushing against the heat of you. He looked up then, his jaw sharp, his eyes hooded and dark. "Tell me what you want, Princess. Give me an order."
Your hands found the mess of his dark hair, your fingers curling into the strands. The dignified version of you was dead. The girl who belonged to Seokjin was gone.
"I want you," you choked out, your hips instinctively arching toward him. "Please... I just want you."
"Good girl," he growled, a jerkish, satisfied smirk pulling at his lips.
He stood up just long enough to shed his shirt, his muscular torso a map of dark ink and raw power in the dim light. He crawled over you, his weight a welcome pressure, pinning your wrists above your head with one hand.
"I'm going to be your favorite mistake," he promised, his mouth crashing onto yours with a visceral, filthy intensity that tasted of leather, metal, and the end of your innocence.
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Jungkook loomed over you, his eyes dark with a predatory focus as he pinned your wrists to the headboard with a single, tattooed hand.
"You're so tight," he rasped, his voice dropping into a guttural register. "Just looking at you like this... I can tell you've been holding your breath for years."
He didn't give you a chance to answer. His free hand traveled up your torso, the rough texture of his calloused palms dragging against the smooth silk of your dress until he reached your breasts. He didn't hesitate; he squeezed firmly, groaning at the soft, heavy weight of you in his hand. With a flick of his thumb, he caught your nipple through the thin fabric, rolling the sensitive peak until a sharp jolt of pleasure shot straight to your core.
You let out a broken moan, your head tossing back against the pillows. "JK... please..."
"Please what?" he taunted, his smirk returning, sharp and cruel in the best way. He leaned down, his teeth grazing the shell of your ear before he moved to your neck, sucking a dark mark into the skin. "Tell me exactly what you want me to do to these."
He didn't wait for your stuttered reply. He used his teeth to snag the neckline of your dress, pulling the white silk down until your breasts were bared to the cool air of the room. He stared at you for a long beat, his chest heaving. Then, he dipped his head, taking one aching peak into his mouth. The sensation was overwhelming, the wet heat of his tongue, the sharp scrape of his lip piercing, and the rhythmic suction as he nursed you like he was starving.
"God, you're so responsive," he hissed against your skin, moving to the other side, his hand sliding down to the damp lace between your thighs.
He began to play you like an instrument he'd spent a lifetime mastering. His fingers found your center, circling and dipping with a relentless, expert friction that had you sobbing his name. Every time you neared the edge, every time your breath hitched and your back arched, he would stop. He would pull his hand away, watching you crumble in frustration.
"Not yet," he whispered, his eyes burning into yours. "I want you so desperate that you'll forget your own name. I want you begging for the ruin."
He edged you again and again, his mouth never leaving your skin, his hands mapping every inch of your trembling body until you were a raw nerve, weeping and pleading for him to finish it.
Finally, he sat back, stripping off the rest of his clothes with a fluid, impatient grace. He looked like a god of ink and sin as he moved back between your knees. He positioned himself at your entrance, the blunt heat of him pressing against your virginity.
"Look at me," he commanded, his voice thick.
You opened your eyes, blurred with tears of pleasure, to find him watching you with a terrifying intensity.
"This is the part you can't take back," he murmured, his hands sliding under your hips to tilt you up. "This belongs to me. Not the businessman. Not your father. Me."
With one slow, heavy thrust, he broke through.
A sharp gasp escaped your lips, your fingers digging into his biceps, tracing the ridges of the tattoos that covered his skin. It was a searing, full sensation, a stretching ache that quickly began to melt into a deep, thrumming heat. Jungkook stayed still for a moment, his forehead pressed to yours, his jaw clenched so hard the muscles jumped.
"Breathe, Princess," he grounded out, his thumb catching a tear on your cheek. "Just breathe for me."
As the initial sting faded, replaced by a blossoming, primal hunger, he began to move. It wasn't the polite, measured rhythm of a gentleman. It was a hard, unapologetic pace that made the bed frame groan and your vision swim. Every thrust was a claim, the sound of skin hitting skin echoing in the quiet room.
You were lost in the friction, the silver glint of his piercings, and the way his name felt like the only word left in your vocabulary. As you spiraled toward a violent, soul-shattering peak, you realized you hadn't just paid for a night; you had paid to finally feel alive, even if it meant burning everything else to the ground.
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The room was silent, save for the hum of the air conditioning and the rustle of ruined silk. You felt heavy, your body aching in places you hadn't known existed, marked by a man who was now watching you from the shadows of the pillows.
You stood by the edge of the bed, your back turned to him as you stepped into your lace underwear. Your fingers trembled as you reached for the ivory dress on the floor. It was wrinkled, a far cry from the pristine garment you'd arrived in, much like yourself.
"Running away so soon, Princess?"
Jungkook's voice was a low, gravelly vibration. You glanced back. He was sitting up, completely naked, the sheets pooled at his waist. The morning light caught the sharp lines of his tattoos and the glint of his piercings. He looked devastatingly unbothered, his jaw shadowed by stubble, a dark lock of hair falling over his eyes.
"I have to go," you whispered, pulling the dress over your head. The silk felt cold against your sensitive skin. "This... tonight was... it was what I needed. But it's the last time we'll see each other."
A dry, dark chuckle escaped his throat. He reached for a pack of cigarettes on the nightstand, his movements fluid and predatory even in his stillness. "The last time? You paid two grand to have me break you open, and now you're acting like we just had a polite coffee."
"I'm serious, Jungkook," you said, finally turning to face him as you zipped the side of your dress. Your voice gained a desperate edge. "The merger is moving forward. My wedding to Seokjin is in June. I can't risk this. I can't risk you."
Jungkook paused, a lighter sparking in his hand. The flame illuminated the hard, jerkish tilt of his smirk. He took a slow drag, exhaling a cloud of grey smoke that curled around his head like a halo.
"Seokjin," he repeated the name like it was a bad joke. "The man who kisses you like he's signing a contract. You really think you can go back to that? After how loud you were screaming my name an hour ago?"
"I don't have a choice," you snapped, grabbing your clutch. "This was a distraction. A final act of rebellion. But on Monday, I go back to being the woman I'm supposed to be."
Jungkook stood up then, uncaring of his nudity, and walked toward you. He stopped just inches away, the scent of tobacco and sex clinging to him. He loomed over you, his presence suffocating. He didn't touch you, but the heat from his body made you want to melt right back into the sheets.
"June is a long way off, Princess," he murmured, leaning down so his lip piercing almost brushed your ear. "You've tasted what it's like to actually feel something. You think you can survive three months of silence with him? You'll be back. You'll get bored, or lonely, or just plain hungry for the way I make you hurt."
"I won't," you lied, stepping back toward the door. Your heart was thudding against your ribs, a frantic, rhythmic warning.
"We'll see," he said, his eyes darkening. The "care" he'd shown earlier was gone, replaced by a cold, possessive streak. He didn't like being told 'no.' He didn't like being a chapter that was closing.
You didn't say goodbye. You couldn't. You turned and walked out of the room, the click of your heels on the hotel carpet sounding like a funeral march.
Behind you, Jungkook didn't follow. He leaned against the doorframe, naked and etched in ink, taking another long drag of his cigarette. He watched your retreating back through the haze of smoke, a dark, knowing smile tugging at his mouth. He knew the truth you weren't ready to admit: you hadn't just bought a night of pleasure. You had bought a hunger that a man like Seokjin could never satisfy.
As the elevator doors closed, the last thing you saw was the red glow of his cigarette in the dim hallway, a small, burning warning of the fire you had started and couldn't put out.
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The days following that night were a blur of suffocating tradition. Jungkook had gone silent, a ghost in your digital world, and you tried to convince yourself that the $2,000 had finally bought you peace. You threw yourself back into the role of the perfect daughter, the Untouchable Princess of the Min political dynasty.
Tonight, you are at a gala for your father's re-election campaign. The ballroom is a cathedral of gold leaf and forced laughter. You are wearing a champagne-colored gown, modest, floor-length, and expensive. It feels like a shroud.
"You're doing well, Y/N," your father whispers as he steers you through a crowd of donors.
You offer a practiced, porcelain curve of your lips to a local Governor, nodding at the right intervals, while inside, you feel hollow. Your skin still feels the phantom heat of tattooed hands; your ears still ring with the sound of a voice that was anything but stable.
Miles away, in a dimly lit apartment that smells of stale smoke, Jungkook is slumped on a leather sofa. The only light in the room comes from three different monitors. One shows a live feed of the gala, a social media broadcast from a local news outlet.
He zooms in on your face. He watches the way you tilt your head, the way you hold your champagne glass with a poise that looks like it would shatter if he so much as whispered your name.
"Liars," he chuckles, the sound dark and jagged in the quiet room. "Every single one of you."
He reaches for his phone, scrolling through the private folder he has dedicated to you. He knows things Seokjin doesn't. He knows you hate the taste of the expensive truffles served at these events, preferring the street-food spicy rice cakes you used to sneak as a teenager. He knows your favorite color isn't the dignified white you wear for the public, but a deep, bruised violet.
He knows the exact shade your skin turns when you're pushed past your limit.
He stares at the screen, at the way your dress clings to the hips he claimed only nights ago. The memory of your first time, the way you gasped, the way you were so tight and terrified and then so utterly wrecked, hits him like a physical blow. He feels the familiar, heavy throb in his veins, a visceral hunger that the money didn't satisfy. It only made him want to own the soul behind the bank account.
He stands up, his hand moving to the waistband of his dark sweats. He doesn't just want you; he wants to haunt you in the middle of your perfect life.
Back at the gala, your clutch vibrates against your ribs.
You excuse yourself from a conversation about tax reform, retreating to a quiet alcove behind a velvet curtain. Your heart is already racing before you even see the screen. You know that vibration. It's the rhythm of a disaster.
You open the app. Your breath hitches.
It's a photo. Unapologetic. Raw. Filthy.
It's a close-up of him, his hand gripping the thick, straining bulge beneath the fabric of his pants. His tattooed knuckles are white from the pressure, and you can see the dark v-line of his hips. It is a violent intrusion of reality into your gilded cage.
Followed by a text:
JK: I see that fake smile you're giving everyone, Princess. It's pretty. But we both know what you look like when you're crying for me.
JK: I can't stop thinking about how you felt. How you tasted. I'm sitting here getting hard just watching you pretend for the cameras.
JK: You said it was the last time. But you haven't blocked me yet, have you? You're still holding onto the leash I put on you.
You lean your head against the cold marble wall, your eyes fluttering shut. The sound of the orchestra in the ballroom feels miles away. All you can feel is the phantom weight of him, and the terrifying realization that while you were trying to forget him, he was busy memorizing every way to destroy you.
You don't reply. You can't. But you don't delete the photo, either. You just stand there in your champagne silk, shivering in the heat of his obsession.
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The silence of your bedroom is stifling, a stark contrast to the thrumming energy of the gala you just fled. You don't even bother unzipping your dress; the champagne silk feels like a straitjacket as you pace the length of your hand-tufted rug. The glow of your phone is a jagged blade in the dark, cutting through the carefully constructed peace you've tried to build over the last forty-eight hours.
Your thumbs fly over the screen, fueled by a mixture of terror and a lingering, traitorous heat.
You: Stop sending me those. I have already made it clear that this needs to stop.
You hold your breath, watching the three dots dance. He's there. He's always there, lurking in the digital shadows of your life.
JK: But i thought this just started.
JK: Common Y/n you can't forget me just like that, I need a good farewell don't I?
JK: I have done everything you asked me to do for money.
The mention of the money makes your stomach flip. It was supposed to be a shield, a way to keep it a transaction. But in his hands, that paper trail has become a tether. He's reminding you that he knows your secrets, that he's seen the princess at her most vulnerable, and that he has the receipts to prove it.
You: What do u want now?
You sit on the edge of your bed, the same bed where you've spent the last two nights staring at the ceiling, haunted by the memory of his ink-covered skin. The reply comes instantly, as if he's been waiting for you to crack.
JK: Can we meet one last time please?
You stare at the word please. Coming from him, it doesn't feel like a request. It feels like a challenge. It feels like a predator offering a hand to the prey, knowing she's already halfway into his mouth.
You: I can't. Seokjin is coming over tomorrow for a formal dinner. My father is watching me. The security...
JK: I don't care about the security. And I definitely don't care about Seokjin.
JK: One last time, Princess. A real goodbye. No screens. No "Pay" buttons. Just us.
JK: Unless you're scared that if I touch you one more time, you'll realize you can't actually go through with that wedding in June.
The words burn. He's poking at the bruise, finding the exact spot where your resolve is weakest. You look at the vanity mirror, at the 'Untouchable Princess' reflected there, and then back at the phone. The obsession in his tone is palpable a dark, heavy weight that seems to pull you toward the screen.
He knows you. He's spent the last few days dissecting your life from afar, watching your polite smiles and your public purity, and he's decided he's not done being the one who stains it.
JK: I'll be at the old pier at midnight. The one near the warehouse district.
JK: Come alone. If you don't show up, I might just have to drop by that formal dinner tomorrow.
It's a threat wrapped in a plea, delivered with the jagged edge of a man who has decided that if he can't have you as a client, he'll have you as his captive audience.
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Ā·Ā Part 1 (Appeal 1-7)
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Silver. Silver rings on long, dexterous fingers, silver necklace around the neck that held his head way too high, and silver tongue in his mouth home to all kinds of sinsā¦Ā
Ask anyone who that guy was, and they would grunt his name due to their raging urge to either kill him or fuck him.
It wasnāt the sheer thrill of breaking the rules that drove Chris to the convoluted world of crime. He let himself ride the waves of his bad decisions to see where it would eventually take him. He ended up crashing his surfboard into the shores of opioids, and he liked it there. Simple as that. No tragic backstory or anything.Ā
Not only was he great at what he did, but he also possessed exquisite mastery over the arts of the tongue. He could walk right off anything just by talking his way out of it, which made him the singular common denominator unifying their rival clans. He had haters just because he existed, and rightfully so, to be frank.
āThey got Jake.ā
Now imagine the absolute field day the aforementioned bitter foes had when they heard the shit hit the fan for Crown Street.
āWhat are our options? Give it to us straight,ā boss man Oliver demanded from their lawyer.
āJake has priors. This doesnāt look good,ā Johnnie stated bluntly. āIf he talks, this time around heās getting locked up for at least ten years with no chance of parole, if not a life sentence.ā
Chris held his head between his hands, utterly frustrated and internally cursing Jakeās ass off for not being more careful. For not being more patient. For having this stupid compulsion to prove himself.
To whom, bro, we all fucking know what youāre capable of!
āIs there nothing we can do?ā Chris appealed emphatically. āIām not gonna let the kid rot in that hellhole.ā
Johnnie leaned back in his chair and looked him dead in his eyes, albeit with a defeated expression.
āHypothetically speaking, if someone else with no priors on paper owns up to it, I can negotiate a deal for as little as five years.āĀ
āHow the fuck is five years little?!ā Oliver yelled while slamming his fist on the circular ebony table.
āUnder these circumstances, it actually is. Youāre lucky weāre not trying to dodge a death penalty here,ā Johnnie declared. āAll you gotta do is find someone to take the rep. Play nice, and they can get out on parole in a year or so.ā
Fascinating thing, loyalty. Things that would never even pop up in your wildest dreams, it would make you do without blinking an eye. What was there to even think about when you knew someoneās fate was lying in your hands?Ā
Especially if that someone meant the world to you.
āIāll confess to it.ā
āChris. No.ā
āWhatās the alternative, huh? Heāll get jumped before 3 p.m. on his first day,ā Chris countered immediately. āJohnnieās always had our back. If this is the lesser of the two evils, Iāll do it. He says I can be out in a year.ā
āBut what if you canāt?ā Oliver implored him to see reason. āThis is jail time weāre talking about, mate, not fucking community service.ā
He didnāt even have to say anything. One look into his eyes, and Oliver knew what that meant. Once he set his mind to something, it was impossible to talk Chris out of it no matter how obvious the end result was. He was one of those people who had to experience things firsthand, either to brag an āI told you soā or to finally acknowledge what a horrendous mistake he had made.
āYou already know Iām well-versed in the arts of surviving, brother.ā
That very sentence he formed ended up being the one he had to serve. Luckily for him, it at least had a full stop at the end although it ran on for several pages. He didnāt care. Anything to protect one of his own.
Stay strong.
Kia Kaha.
I will prevent disease whenever I can, for prevention is preferable to cure.
That was the oath you had taken. Well, you had to because apparently some guy named Hippocrates was extremely triggered by the concept of perjury some centuries ago. So either swear to it and make the unbreakable vow, or rip your fucking diploma in half. That piece of paper had cost you a whole lot of money with a good deal of your sanity in the process, so no, thank you very much.
It wasnāt the sheer nobility of the profession that drove you to become a doctor. If the design of the human body and mind had fascinated you this much, why not make a career out of getting super intrigued by the total length of an average adult humanās blood vessels? Out of all the places you could have picked, you took a job at a maximum security prison as the chief attending physician because, hey, multiple birds with one stone.
I will remember that I remain a member of society, with special obligations to all my fellow human beings, those sound of mind and body as well as the infirm.
Nobody told you to take on the challenge of serving the most āinfirmā crowd available, but you did it anyway. What better setting to practice your craft than a correctional facility after all?
āIām leaving. Will you be home by dinner?ā
āWeāll see.ā
Not even a āHave a good first day, sweetheartā. Fuck that, not even a curt āGood luckā.
The awkward tension between you and your husband wasnāt always palpable enough to cut with a knife. Not that anything specific happened to cause that, but somewhere along the way, something indeed snapped, and you started growing apart day by day. Maybe it was the unbearable heaviness of the mundane, coloring your entire marriage in the bleakest shade of gray. The affection? Gone. The desire? Gone. You were nothing more than two roommates at this point because you didnāt feel like doing anything for him anymore. Why bother when it was one-sided? Why bother getting a gift for someone, imagining how happy it was going to make them when they couldnāt even care less? Why get upset when they didnāt react exactly in the way you pictured they would? No one put a gun to your head to get the said gift in the first place, which meant they didnāt owe you shit, did they?
When it was your spouse in question, it felt like he did. For wasting years of your life, trapping you in a loveless birdcage if not for anything else. Cue the unsolicited commentary and advice from the spectators of your life.
āWhy do you keep doing this to yourself?ā
āGet a divorce.ā
āYou canāt fix him. Just walk away.ā
How fucking easy it was to tell someone to make a drastic change in their life in a split second⦠Would you stop drinking coffee just because someone told you to? Fuck no. You had to believe it wasnāt doing you any good anymore. Everyoneās tolerance to change was different, after all; some welcomed it with open arms, and some avoided it like the plague. In any case, only when you felt confident about your eventual decision, only when you felt ready, then and only then would you make the change.Ā
Because nobody was going to go through the consequences on your behalf if shit went south, nor were they going to take the blame for your prospective unhappiness with the outcome.
I will not be ashamed to say āI know notā...
It was fine. Your marital bed, which was empty most nights, was not your place of work. Breaking an oath within the confines of your suffocation was not going to harm anyone.
Other than yourself.
Inmate 8MS3HF92.Ā
That was Chrisā name for the past ten months. Nothing that could humanize him, merely letters and numbers. Another statistic to quote in recidivism reports maybe.Ā
The only time he would be reminded of his identity was when his prison family addressed himāthey were the circle of people showing him the ins and outs of navigating the hell simulator with as little damage and as much profit as possible. To all the guards, to the warden, to everybody else, he was just āinmateā.
Not for long, though.
He had only one instruction. Do not beef no matter what and survive, and that was exactly what he had been doing. His itinerary was quite straightforwardāhe was going to endure this for two more months, go up against the parole committee, be super charming, then get the hell out. He was probably going to return here within his first hour as a free man for beating the shit out of Jake, though.
If he had the balls to press charges against his Yoda, that is.
Chris took particular, not to mention excessive pride in the way he operated. Getting your own hands dirty was for amateurs. If he wanted something, he would talk his way into it. If he detected a threat, he would orchestrate the subtlest of feuds to have someone else get rid of it on his behalf. Obviously, āon his behalfā did not mean that you would do it in full awareness that this was in his best interests. He would pitch it to you in such a manner that youād have no choice but to believe the threat was actually posed to you.
Prison was like a gangsterās LinkedIn. The most lucrative connections they could possibly have were right under his noseāof course he wasnāt going to waste the opportunity to bring in more business to Crown Street. After several rounds of meet and greets within his first month, he had successfully outlined the entire food chain and finally located where the drug ops ran from. Getting himself assigned to any other place was unequivocally out of the question.
āWork detail assignments. Fang, youāre working in the kitchen.ā
What a pleasant surprise! Everybody, act shocked.
Smooth talking gets you only so far, of course. Put this man in a room full of his hardcore fans, and he would still manage to make a few enemies. That was both the curse and the blessing of being a charmer. If you didnāt annoy the fuck out of somebody for no reason, then you were doing it wrong.
ā¦which was exactly why the closer his freedom date approached, the more intolerant his fatemates became. That was the tradition of this place. Youād go through the hazing when you were about to graduate, not during the first week of school.
āFang. A word,ā Andrei beckoned him towards the storage shelves right before lunch service.
It was of utmost importance for Chris to stay in the head honchoās good graces until his hearing. The past ten months had been a very trying test of willpower for having to constantly repress the urge to jump this motherfucker, and patience was not exactly his strong suit. He wiped his hands on his apron and followed suit behind him.
āWhatās up, boss?ā
āWe were expecting a little delivery from the commissary two days ago,ā he snarled at him, piercing holes into his forehead with his ice-blue eyes. āWhat the fuck is up with that, pretty boy?ā
āYeah, about that,ā Chris scratched his nape with a look feigning an apology like he was oh so sorry. āWeāre experiencing a little hiccup. Should come in no later than Friday, though.ā
āThatās not what we agreed upon.ā
āI know, but Iām also leaning on other people here. I canāt exactly go out to personally bring in your heroin now, can I?ā
Andrei cornered him against a wall and slammed both his hands on either side of him. As if Chris was some white-collar criminal only in here because his lawyer dropped the ball on his tax evasion case. Everybody with common sense would know it took a bit more than that to intimidate Fang.
āYour whore ass gets on my last fucking nerve, you know,ā he flashed his half-rotten teeth. āMaybe your goddamn smug face needs some work done, huh?ā
āIf you think I need work done, you clearly havenāt looked in a mirror recently.ā
So much for holding it togetherā¦
It was like a blackout that lasted for only two seconds. The words just jumped out of his lips before he could catch them in the air. The loud sound of glass crashing alerted the two guards on the floor, prompting them to dash towards the kitchen.Ā
āBreak it off! Break it off now!!!ā
Chris might have managed to dodge getting his throat ripped, but a large piece of glass still made its way to his chest area, cutting a wound open below his left collarbone. A couple of centimeters more to the south, and he would have secured an early parole in a goddamn pine box. He was immediately escorted to the infirmary to get patched up, which he found fucking hysterical. There couldnāt be anything more ironic than nursing someone back to health just so they could rot some more. He was anxiously shaking his legs while sitting on that gurney for someone to appear, washcloth still pressed on the bleeding wound and annoyed out of his mind.
āYo doc, can we get this shit over with already?ā he yelled towards the back of the room. āI kinda need to be somewhere right now.ā
āPlease excuse the tardiness to your schedule, Your Majesty. Weāre a little shorthanded around here.ā
Whoaā¦
Chris briefly wondered whether he actually died of blood loss on the kitchen floor because why the fuck else was he seeing an angel clad in white, not to mention in this soul-sucker den?
āWho the fucā? IāI meanā¦ā
āItās fine, Iāve been called worse,ā you responded without looking away from the incident report in your hands, then met his eyes at long last. āIām the new chief attending physician. Pleasure to make your acquaintance, Inmate 8MS3HF92 that got jumped in the kitchen.ā
āPretty name, huh? Itās French,ā he quickly gathered his wits and grinned in response, ābut they call me Fang for short.ā
āFang,ā you snorted at the juvenile-sounding moniker. āBecause you didnāt get your wisdom teeth out, orā¦?ā
āItās because you should let the sleeping wolves lie, beautiful.ā
You knew what you were getting yourself into when you started working here, and your contract with Hippocrates included one thing in its essence: Help the sick and do no harm. In that particular moment, however, you crassly fistbumped him for blessing you with this Olympian eye candy shamelessly flirting with you for a change. Yes, this was an inmate in front of you, but all your suppressed urges could register was a pair of thick forearms adorned with bulging veins, long fingers pressing on his wound, and thighs spread wide almost invitingly. Telling you⦠To come closer⦠Then get on your knees⦠And thenā¦
Well, if you were anywhere else but a prison, that is.
āTake it off, please.ā
Chris felt a hard kick in his chest when you uttered those words, unable to register your request and just looking at you blankly with lips parted in surprise.
āYour top,ā you pointed your pen at his wound, āso that I can examine the injury.ā
āRIGHT! Of course.ā
He removed the clothing as told, but never in your entire professional life did you have to contain something so primitive threatening to rear its head inside you. You bitchslapped your lizard brain pretty hard to remind yourself once again that this was a goddamn patient you had to attend to, not some man you were trying to pick up at a bar.
If only you knew that you werenāt actually alone in this struggle.Ā
Your perfume⦠It was November, but you smelled like summer. Chris didnāt have much to hold onto, but you smelled like hope. Your latex-clad hands were running all over his chest, and he didnāt give a fuck that it was on his wound. His touch starvation was at such dangerous levels that trying to control the erection growing between his legs was harder than refraining from murdering motherfuckers in this place. To top it all off, the angel before him looking like that?Ā
It was an enigma how he managed not to cum in his pants right then and there.
You finished stitching his wound in complete silence as he watched you with his lips slightly parted, and only when you informed him you were done was he able to come back to reality.
āCome back next week, okay?ā
And once he managed to snap out of it, Chris instantly wore his other personality on his sleeve as a knee-jerk reaction.
āSay youāre gonna miss me, and I can come back tomorrow,ā he smugly grinned. You eyed him from head to toe with brows furrowed in confusion.
āTo get your stitches removed, Fang,ā you scoffed. āYou can go back to your easy bake oven now.ā
So you werenāt easily charmed. No matter. He happened to fucking love the chase.
Chris left the infirmary that day with a stupid smile glued to his lips, full-on launching the crescent craters adorning his cheeks and secretly hoping you found dimples attractive in a man.Ā
One borrowed touch was all it took. He found himself counting down the days to get his stitches removed instead of his parole hearing. All of a sudden, the walls werenāt closing in on him as much anymore. His breathing was still a little irregular, but seemingly for different reasons rather than the humidity crawling in the stone walls.
He was having trouble sleeping no matter how much he forced himself to because his mind just wouldnāt shut up about you. If only⦠If only he could fall asleep, maybe he could see you one more time.
One day. Three days. Five days. And finally back to the infirmary again.Ā
God, if that didnāt feel longer than the time he had served thus farā¦
āHey, doc!ā
You looked up at the unusually chirpy voice that most certainly did not belong to the dismal backdrop of this place. It was the stitches man that looked more like a sculpture with a little chip on it.
āFeeling good today, are we?ā you brightly smiled at him at the expense of giving him a mild heart attack while wearing your gloves to check the healing of his scar. āDid you get some good news?ā
Chris actually had a snarky comment ready to go, but as soon as your hand brushed against his, he felt a sudden jolt and completely forgot what he was going to say.
āFish tacos⦠for lunch.ā
You couldnāt help but heartily laugh at the unexpected answer, effectively stopping his heart for about three seconds.
āI take it youāre very easy to please, Fang.ā
Yes. Fucking yes. Just let me borrow your lips once, and Iāll die the happiest man.
As you got to work with a pair of tweezers to remove his stitches, Chris watched you completely awestruck as if he was appreciating a piece of fine art, right-click-saving everything he could observe about you into his mind. Your brows that creased whenever you were focused on something, your beautiful lips you licked every now and then, your hair that looked like it was made of pure silk, your skin that most certainly felt like velvet to the touchā¦
God, youāre like a queen.
āAll done,ā you smiled again, apparently adamant to kill him before he could even walk out of that door, and got up from the stool in front of him. āDonāt run around with scissors, okay?āĀ
āThank you.āĀ
The gratitude was pretty much redundant since this was your job. You were literally on payroll to take care of people, but it still made your heart swell because the stitches man was the first person ever to thank you for your services.
āI uh⦠Iāll see you around. I guessā¦ā he stared at his feet by the door somewhat abashed.
āI hope not. That would mean you injured yourself again,ā you giggled and gently squeezed his shoulder. āStay out of trouble.ā
Oh, I donāt think so, my queen.
That night, Chris tossed and turned in his bed for what felt like hours to him. The first unprotected touch you shared without a layer of latex between his skin and yours burned like hell on his shoulder. If only⦠If only he could fall asleep, maybe he could see you one more time.
But he didnāt actually have to wait for that when you were all that he could see whenever he closed his eyes. So he did. He manifested you right next to him on his bed, and his hand moved inside his pants as if it had a mind of its own.Ā
There you were. Your attention completely on him, your tongue glazing your lips every now and then. Why were you licking them, though? Was it because you also felt your throat getting dry? Was it because you also wanted to press them against his?
Fuck, Iād kill to feel those lips on me.
Your face. The way the corners of your mouth curled when you smiled at him. The way you slightly squinted your eyes when you were focused. Was that what you looked like when you were turned on, too?
I want you. God, I want you bad.
Your poise. The way you carried yourself. Firm steps, determined voice, quite obviously not taking shit from anyone. Grace materialized. A literal queen. His queen that he wanted to dedicate his entire life to.
I wanna be the floor you walk on. Fucking step on me, christ!
Just your sheer beauty. The way you oozed sexiness without revealing any piece of skin. The way you moved. The way you knew exactly what you were doing. Did you also know what exactly pleased you? Did you know all the things he was willing to do just to please you?
āFUCK!ā
Chris didnāt even care about the hefty mess he made on himself as he arched on that god-awful mattress. The convulsions rippling throughout his body as he came were a different kind of intense. Up until that moment in his life, he had climaxed infinity times either with the assistance of third parties or all by himself, sometimes manifesting as an unimpressive shiver and some other times mind-numbingly hard.
But not once, never once, did it feel like surrendering his soul to someone.
If it is given me to save a life, all thanks. But it may also be within my power to take a life; this awesome responsibility must be faced with great humbleness and awareness of my own frailty.Ā
Above all, I must not play at God.
Chris wasnāt aware of what the Hippocratic oath entailed, nor did he have to take it. Ergo, he was free to āplay at godā all he wanted whenever the fuck he saw fit. Like when he overheard the Irish circle indulging in a little locker room talk as he was watching TV with his own entourage.
āHave you seen the doctor chick yet?ā
āComplete cumdump material. You just know she likes it dirty, sassy-ass bitch.ā
Every time Chris felt the onset of a rampage coming on, his mind would switch to autopilot and give him a singular commandāfucking remove yourself from the environment if you want to see that parole committee. Yet the loud, sleazy waves of laughter blasting right behind him triggered him so hard that it took the willpower of a temple full of monks not to scatter this OāConnell lowlifeās brains out. God knows he came this fucking close to doing it, and he actually would if he wasnāt repeating the same thing to himself over and over again like a lunaticās mantra.
Hold it. For her.
For her.
For her.
For her.
For her.
For her.
He could live with burning his parole chances, but not with not seeing you for an entire month if he went to the hole. He clenched his teeth to the brink of cracking them to put a leash around his urges and jumped to his feet.
āWhere are you going?ā Noah asked him.
āTo hit the weights, mate. Iāll catch you later.ā
Technically, he didnāt lie. He was indeed going to the gym, but not necessarily because his body craved that post-workout dopamine release. It was two in the afternoon, which meant someone was in the middle of some deadlifting.
āPaco!ā he opened his arms like he was greeting a friend coming back from active duty. āThereās my main man.āĀ
āWhatās good, Fang?ā
āCanāt complain. Canāt complain,ā he walked behind the bench. āHere, let me spot you.ā
Chris lent a hand with the presses as if that was the sole purpose of his visit all along and put the weights back in their place once Pacoās loud grunt punctuated the set. He offered a towel to the man sweating like he had been doing soilwork under the scorching sun, then kneeled beside him, speaking in a hushed tone like he was about to reveal top-secret information.
āListen, you know youāre my brother, right?ā
āDamn straight, man. Ride or die.ā
āSomething came to my attention, so I thought Iād let you know,ā Chris glanced over the gym door and turned his attention back to Paco again. āYou and I both know the guards didnāt just have an epiphany one day with all that sawdust they have for a brain. Someone ratted you out about the phone thing.ā
āAnd if I find out which son of a bitchā¦ā Paco almost ripped the towel to shreds, but when he saw the knowing grin on Chrisā face, his fury suddenly vanished. āNo shit, you know.ā
Chris slowly nodded.
āYou didnāt hear it from me, but a little bird told me OāConnell cut a deal with the guards,ā he tsked in disapproval. āShit, we all believed it, but turns out he let them beat the shit out of him in exchange for keeping the phone for himself.ā
āThat MOTHERFUCKERā¦ā
ā¦and score. Now all he needed to do was pour some gas on the fire and start roasting his marshmallows over the magnificent arson he had just committed.
āEveryone is talking on the DL that he is out to colonize your outside resources, mate. Iād put a burner on his ass before he could even plan to do something if I were you,ā Chris placed his hand on Pacoās shoulder and gave it a firm squeeze. āYou know where to go to take back whatās yours. Find me if you need anything, yeah?ā
āI owe you one, bro. I wonāt forget this.ā
Poof! That easy. It was astounding how none of these dumbasses knew how to burn sugar as brain fuel, so nobody ever questioned anything. In Chrisā defense, it took a lot of actual snitching for the ploys to work. Trust needed to be earned first; respect naturally followed. Now he could just sit back, relax, and watch the altercations unfold as the tension between the parties escalated through the roof.Ā
Because he never got his own hands dirty. And now that this little wrinkle was ironed out, he could channel all his attention to the only thing that mattered.
You.
Chrisā only chance of catching a glimpse of you was to come to you in the infirmary. It wasnāt the fucking yardāof course the guards would never let him leave the wing unless he absolutely needed medical attention, so he needed to get a little creative to put on successful performances. If that meant cutting open some wounds to get some stitches, so be it. If it took standing in front of the ventilation grates right after a freezing-ass shower, so be it. You were worth risking pneumonia, infections, even fucking death. If youād smile at him just once, he was going to be cured and reach immortality anyway.
āDoes it hurt when I press here?ā you gently sank your fingertips into his chest after listening to his breathing.
āI canāt tell. Do it again.ā
āYou realize this is a medical examination, Fang, not foreplay.ā
āSays you,ā Chris mischievously smiled. āYouāre very much getting to second base with me right now.ā
You applied pressure to the area right under his jawline sharper than your scalpels to check for swelling, then grabbed a throat swab for a strep test.
āOpen wide.ā
āShouldnāt I be telling you that?ā
āBangā¦ā
āYeesh! Pulling out the government name and everything,ā he raised his hands in surrender. āDonāt be mad, Iāll behave.ā
You got your sample for a throat culture and went back to the back of the room to properly label it. Chris sat there in silence for some time and spoke with a soft voice that almost didnāt belong to him.
āI donāt know why the fuck you care this much, but Iām grateful that you do, you know?ā
āItās my job to care,ā you responded without looking at him.
āI know, butā¦ā he trailed off and took a moment to find the proper words. āNobody else ever cared about me unless I was useful to them. Youāre the first.ā
Unless your eyes were deceiving you, when you looked up at him, you saw something glinting in his gaze in a faint shade of pink, terribly reminiscent of yearning. It was just a glance. It was nothing. It didnāt mean anything.
But it still made something thump really hard in your chest.
He slowly got up to his feet, approached you with careful steps, and placed a chaste kiss on your cheek, releasing one butterfly after another in the pit of your stomach with each second he lingered there.
āI owe you my life,ā he gently brushed his fingers on your skin before heading back to his wing again. āThought you should know.ā
This was Chrisā third time in the infirmary within a span of two weeks. How the heck this man even functioned in a cartel while hurting himself this much was appalling, really.Ā
Maybe he didnāt, and that was what landed his ass in prison in the first place.
āWhat is it this time, Fang? Tripped on a flat surface?ā
āI figured youād like to see your favorite inmate,ā his face lit up like a Christmas tree at your sight. āIs that so bad?ā
āYeah, thatās not a thing, and donāt say that ever again,ā you furrowed your brows, mildly nauseated. āWhat do you have for me today?ā
Chris spread his legs wide to show you the cut on his inner thigh, blood oozing from it now dried.
āI wasnāt being careful with the knives during kitchen duty. Gotta be fast to feed so many people on time and whatnot.ā
You put on your latex gloves, the supply of which was frequently used for Chris nowadays, and examined the wound closely.
āLooks like a clean cut, but youāll need stitches again,ā you observed, then retorted while preparing the suture. āJust bring a pattern or something next time so I can tattoo it on you. At least itāll look pretty. Drop your pants.ā
Chris was tremendously lucky you were facing away from him as he gulped that thickly, experiencing a sudden case of cottonmouth. He knew the remedy to that was hidden between your lips, of course, but that was neither here nor there, and certainly not to be brought up right that second. On any other Tuesday, he was the most shameless motherfucker that ever walked this earth, but at that moment, he was somehow feeling extremely self-conscious about putting himself on display for you.
His rabid heartbeat was about to choke him to death.
You pulled a stool right in front of him to get to work, your instruments neatly placed on the surface right next to you. When you locked your eyes on your target, you got momentarily furious at yourself for wondering whether his thighs were always this sculpted or if he shaped them out during his time here. Heaving a deep sigh, you penetrated his skin with a needle to proceed with stitching his wound, but that wasnāt when he hissed.Ā
That sharp inhale manifested itself when you placed your hand on his inner thigh.
āAm I hurting you?ā you looked up at him questioningly.
āNothing I canāt endure.ā
Fucking RICH!
Of course he was going to lie his ass off. He wasnāt about to confess to your fucking beautiful face how he was barely enduring the lack of your lips on his on a daily basis. How it made him go so crazy that he was constantly on the brink of killing someone. How that contact just now went straight to the synapse connected to his X-rated inner mind theater and prompted a chain reaction reaching all the way down to his cock. One slip, and you were going to notice it. You were not supposed to notice it. Not yet. Not yet. NOT before he laid the groundwork first!
āA little pussy of you to gasp at a little needle when youāre in a fucking prison, donāt you think?ā you broke into a taunting smirk.
āYou usually swear this much?ā he chortled in slight surprise at your commentary.
āHelps you gangstas check yourselves around me,ā you replied with a firm voice, your eyes still glued to his thigh. āDoesnāt seem to work on you that much, though. You keep showing up here like this is a restaurant.ā
āSo what? Is it a crime to want to be tended to?ā he responded with a knowing grin. āI like it when you take care of me. I donāt think thatās grounds for violating my parole chances.ā
Like you were the one to talk. You wished you could help the smile he elicited out of you as if you were two people flirting over drinks at the aforementioned restaurant.
Fucking charmer.
āDonāt you think we got a little more than a Hippocratic relationship going on here, doc?ā
His words landed like a nuclear bomb in your office, and Chris noticed that pause in your movements even though it didnāt take any longer than two nanoseconds. A sign. The sign he had been looking for all this time. To prove to himself he wasnāt delusional. It was true, wasnāt it? It was true, and this was the indisputable evidence.
āYou shudder when you touch me,ā he turned it up a notch.
āBang, stop.ā
āExactly. I make your heart stop, donāt I?ā he scooted just the tiniest bit closer. āYou know itās true.ā
His voice turned deeper all of a sudden like he was trying to get a message across. It didnāt matter whether that message was in a glass bottle floating its way into obscurity without a proper address attached to it. Extremely lucky for him and to your endless misfortune, however, it indeed made its way to the intended addressee.
āSorry to burst your bubble, but Iām married,ā you looked away in panic.
His face dropped ever so slightly, barely noticeable to the naked eye.Ā
You wereā¦Ā
Married?
But⦠But that didnāt necessarily mean anything. Otherwise, why would you spend all this time with him, alone for that matter, running your hands all over him and getting fucking goosebumps because of it? Your playing house thing was just a formality, wasnāt it? You had only stated an unprompted fact. Like how it was Tuesday and the weather was bleak and there was tapioca pudding for lunch. That wasnāt an invitation for him to make himself scarce. Otherwise you would tell him to. Otherwise you would yell at him. Otherwise you would strike him in the face instead of getting heart palpitations like what the FUCK?!
āDoesnāt take a genius to conclude itās not a disgustingly happy one,ā he commented in a stoic voice, completely contrary to the violently raging storm inside him turning everything to dust. āIs it because he works so late? Doesnāt cherish you like you should be?ā
āItās none of your business.ā
He continued examining your face while you kept stitching him up as if the answer was written there somewhere. Because it was. It always was.Ā
Nothing told the truth like someoneās averted eyes.
āOr is it because heās out a little too much? He doesnāt come home for dinner anymore?ā
Fuck.
You involuntarily flinched. Of course you didāeveryone would when you pressed salt on the wound.
āSo thatās why,ā he tilted his head and continued, more pleased than he should have been. āWhy do you even put up with that when heās out fucking someone, calling her all sorts of vile things? Do you still let him go down on you with that mouth when he comes home?ā
āMaybe it worked out for the best that I donāt need to worry about anyone going down on me with that mouth,ā you hysterically laughed in response and handed him the antiseptic, trying to brush away the interrogation over your failing marriage. āHold this.ā
āWhatās that supposed to mean?ā
āIt fucking means you need to know the taste of something to crave it. Christ,ā you mumbled through your clenched teeth, then heaved a deep sigh to calm yourself. āThis should heal nicely.ā
His eyes widened upon your words as if you had just told him he was getting out the next day.Ā
āWait, so you⦠Like, youāve neverā¦ā
As you were putting your instruments away, you put on an applause-worthy performance, acting like you werenāt even slightly aware of your face burning up to the tip of your ears. Chris, on the other hand, was trapped between feeling somewhat endeared versus some type of weird relief.
And extremely turned on thinking about the noises he would have you make if he dropped to his knees for you right about now.
āFuck me, you really donāt know what itās like to get your pussy licked, do you?ā he started laughing in earnest.
As much as you were annoyed out of your mind, you didnāt answer and returned to the stool to clean around the wound in silence since nothing intelligible was going to come out of your mouth anyway. So what if no one ever went down on you? What was so funny about it? It most certainly didnāt warrant mocking to the extent of bullying. Would you throw a maniacal laughing fit right at his stupidly gorgeous face if he told you he never got his dick sucked? Where the fuck were his manners? What were you even doing looking for manners from an inmate?
Yet even though his question was rhetorical, he kept pressing for a reaction out of you.
āItās fucking phenomenal. Nothing quite like it,ā he continued his verbal torture. āEspecially when you have someone eating your pussy like theyāre gonna fucking die if you donāt cum in their mouth. It takes a woman like you to work up that kind of appetite.ā
āHow would you know how it feels?ā you loudly scoffed to ignore the buzzing sensation below your waist. āDo you have a secret clit I donāt know about?ā
āI fucking wish, but I have references instead,ā he discreetly licked his lips. āThey would tell you all about the first-degree murders I committed with my tongue. I can give you their numbers if you wanna confirm.ā
He was adamantly painting you this tantalizing picture and forcing you to look at it, infesting your mind with the image of himself between your legs. Slowly killing you with curiosity so that you would snap and find out for yourself if it was really the kind of infernal experience he was making it out to be.
And unfortunately for you, it was fucking working.
āBut youāre not terribly upset with me, are you?ā he faked a pout which quickly turned into a smirk again. āBecause this doesnāt bother you as much as you believe it should.ā
You were wondering whether Chris had somehow managed to install wires in your mind, shamelessly narrating your own thoughts back at you. Your heart almost stopped when he touched the stray strands of hair right in the intersection of your nape and your ear.
āSee? Why else would you close your eyes when I touch you?ā
He placed his hand on your cheek, concerningly warm to the touch courtesy of his relentless flustering attempts. You knew what your rational reaction was supposed to be, and you were desperately looking for the whereabouts of your sanity to fucking act on it, butā¦
Butā¦
You found yourself leaning into his touch instead, not a shred of courage present in your soul to open your eyes and look at him. You heard a soft rustling sound, then a source of heat approaching your way, and thenā¦
A kiss.
So soft but unbearably intense. So warm but sending jolts down your spine. So tender but lethally passionate. Asking for permission to stay a while longer, begging you to please please not send him away, and it was gaining speed like a plane was about to take off with his fingers getting tangled in your hair. His tongue clashing with yours, your lips consuming his, pairs of hands trying to find their way to the otherās face.
If you didnāt take the last exit right about now, you were fucking doomed.
āNo!ā you pulled away from him hurriedly as if someone had electrocuted you, panting hard to catch your breath. āGo. Weāre done here.āĀ
āAre we?ā he flashed an unconvinced smile.
āYou donāt have to come in every time you sneeze. Just⦠Grow a pair and learn to be fucking careful,ā you quickly made your way to your desk to occupy yourself with filling out patient forms.
āI would hold that thought if I were you,ā he got up to his feet to make his way back. āThis is a prison after all. The only place worse than here would be the third circle of hell.āĀ
Right before he left, he stopped right behind your chair, leaned in, and breathily whispered.
āWhen I come in to get my stitches removed,ā he placed the softest of kisses on your ear, āweāll pick this up where we left off.ā
Chris was perfectly aware playing doctor with you was not a sustainable plan at all. He had to find a way to position himself around you strategically so he wouldnāt have to remind you of his existence every five minutes.Ā
And he had to do it fast before he inflicted fucking permanent damage on himself.
āAn idea, boss,ā he nonchalantly uttered one night, bouncing a ball against the cell wall. āDonāt you think it would be more lucrative if I was in the infirmary instead? Itās literally the stash of this entire fucking prison. Kitchen just aināt it anymore.āĀ
āThatās out of the blue,ā Noah creased his brows. āWhere did that come from?ā
āOut of the blue? Have you missed the memo on our feud with the Vices? They want my ass on sight,ā he turned serious all of a sudden. āIf Iām out of the wing, at least I wonāt have to constantly look over my shoulder. Itās either this or Iāll have to hide in the hole, and Iād like to avoid solitary if I can, thank you very much.ā
Chris liked to think that he was smarter than most, if not all people, but there was something he wasnāt quite able to conceal from Noah, a family man to two beautiful girls. He could read anyone like the damn book in his hands, and Chris should have known those hawk-like observational skills were a byproduct of being a father, not a veteran gangbanger.
āAnd you swear this has nothing to do with the doctor lady?āĀ
He continued with his reading as if he hadnāt said what he just said, stunning Chris hard enough to lose the ability to form coherent sentences.
āItās⦠Iām⦠NāNot reaāā
āFang,ā he immediately stopped Chris before he could even attempt what was sure to be a convincing argument. āFake it to whoever the fuck else you want. Not to one of your own.ā
Chris briefly contemplated whether there was any chance at all that he didnāt have to confess to it. He was either going to get ruthlessly mocked for being so stupidly vulnerable, or get a good beating for having too much time on his hands to waste on teenage crushes. What was even the point of denial anyway? Noah had already caught on to his less-than-pure motives.Ā
His fingers inadvertently touched the wolf tattoo on his inner left arm, and he heaved a sigh so filled with yearning that it colored the stone walls into an even bleaker shade of gray.
āShe seeped through me, mate,ā he sighed with a broken smile. āShe lives under my skin like a fucking tattoo.ā
But that night, Chris learned that when you shared a moment of honesty with decent men, sometimes all you got in return was a comforting pat on the shoulder.
āLooks like you grabbed the tiger by the tail this time, brother,ā Noah solemnly spoke while pointing at his ink. āOr in your case, a goddamn wolf.ā
The guardsā voices echoed in the narrow hallways to announce lights out. As Chris clasped his hands under his nape to spend yet another night staring at the ceiling, Noah put his book under the tremendously uncomfortable pillow and got under the sheets.
āDonāt get your hopes up,ā he whispered to his right once the guards passed by, ābut Iāll see what I can do.ā
āFucking seriously?!ā
āI said donāt get your hopes up,ā a loud hiss bounced off the walls. āTry to get some sleep.ā
āYou know I canāt.ā
āInsomnia going strong?ā
āWhen did it ever not?ā
āYou never know,ā Noah turned to his side and pulled his blanket up. āMaybe you should try counting doctors so sheāll come visit you in your dreams.ā
Chris wished it worked that way, but even the slightest possibility of seeing you was enough to curl his lips into a smile.
āFang? What are you doing here?ā
It had been a while since you last saw Chris, which meant some banter exchange over whatever klutzery he dabbled in this time was long overdue. Much to your surprise, however, he not only looked very much in one piece for once but also responded with an uncharacteristically straight face.
āShift in work detail. Iāll be working here from now on.ā
No dimple charms cranked up to the maximum. No attempt to aggressively hit on you. A paranoid thought crept up in your head, debating whether someone saw you during⦠that, and he got reprimanded for it. Otherwise, why would he abruptly distance himself from you?
Why did the stench of disappointment raid the room all of a sudden?
āDoing what?ā you kept an equally āprofessionalā composure.
āHelping you?ā he shrugged. āDid you forget the day we first met?āĀ
He was referring to your annoyed greeting when he visited your royal chambers for the first time, and his heart melted a little when you averted your eyes from him. Maybe youād never stopped thinking about it either. You called him Your Majesty that day, and Chris kept replaying those words in his mind all day, every day ever since then. It wasnāt⦠It wasnāt what you said but how you said it. Just the thought of being your king, living his life to serve his queen, loving her, cherishing her, pleasing her, and protecting her from all harm in the worldā¦
If only you knew how much he was willing to give up just for a shred of thatā¦
āHow you snapped at me because you were shorthanded around here?ā he jogged your memory. āJust dump whatever menial labor and paperwork you have on me. I know how to read.ā
His originally planned maneuver was to be less aggressive in his advances towards you. Heād figured just being close to you would be enough to keep him pacified for the time being, and he could work his way up from there. Find that rift in your defenses to slowly pour himself into you. Sure, it could take some time, but he was willing to wait it out so that he couā
Day 3 of breathing the same air as you, and he was on the brink of having to check into a fucking psych ward already.
It was as if you owned the leash to his rotten soul, and he was getting antsier by the minute that someone was going to notice his biggest weakness was carelessly walking around out in the open like that. He had never felt like this before about anything or anyone, having trouble breathing because of some invisible weight constantly pressing on his chest. He didnāt doubt his affection for you for one second, but the more he saw you, the more he heard your voice, the more he was exposed to you in some way, the more the one emotion he didnāt know he could feel started flowing through the cracks of that stone he had for a heart.
The unmitigated shame of how ferociously he was lusting after you.Ā
One look at you, and he was about to faint. One whiff of your scent, and he was pushed to the limits of his self-restraint. He was thoroughly consumed with the urge to kiss you, to touch you, to hold you in his arms, to taste the salt on your skin⦠God, he would fucking die if you moaned his name. He would lose whatever remained of his sanity if you said you wanted him back. He knew you deserved pure-white love, and he could never give you that with all the stains he bore, but he could rewrite everything you thought you knew about euphoria. He could make you soar to the heights you never thought were possible. He could love you so hard that you would hear his devotion to you coursing through your veins. He could if you let him.
And he could swear he felt it the day he kissed you. He could feel in his heart of hearts that you wanted to.
If you werenāt the slightest bit interested in him, then you should have immediately pulled out the rejection card, but you didnāt. You didnāt. You kissed him back. For quite a bit. If that didnāt mean your marital status didnāt mean jack shit to you, then what did? Why would it even matter when you were so obviously unhappy anyway? He could make you happy.Ā
He could make you so happy if you let him.
Five days. Seven days. Nine days. Veiled glances. Stolen touches. Your scent in passerby winds. Craving. Denying. Pretending. Yearning.Ā
Yearning.Ā
Yearning.
He forced it to the absolute limit of his patience. Honest.Ā
But a man in love was just the politically correct way to say a deranged maniac.
āNeed a hand with that?ā he made his way to the desk you were standing in front of.
āFelt lonely by the file cabinet?ā you quipped with a little smirk as you kept labeling documents.Ā
āYes.ā
You just wanted to bounce snark off of each other to end the tiring day on a somewhat lighthearted note, however lighthearted it could be in a place like this, but the unexpected solemnity in his voice caught you off guard. You stopped trying to cram a piece of paper in a sheet protector and looked at him.Ā
Chris had been too quiet lately. His eyes were clouded with something akin to sorrow, and it didnāt suit him at all. The only thing fit for that face was crescent moons and the dimples that chipped away at his dangerousness.
Your chest was about to collapse for how hard invisible hands were wringing your heart.
āDid⦠something happen?ā you quietly asked.
āWhat do you mean?ā
āYouāre a bit aloof,ā you channeled your attention to the papers again. āLike⦠thereās something wrong.ā
āNo, everythingās fine.ā
You knew he was lying, but you werenāt sure why. Was it just because he didnāt feel like talking to you, or was heā¦?
He wasnāt trying to shelter you from worrying or anything, was he?
āAre you expecting any visitors?ā you attempted to change the topic. āItās visiting day tomorrow.ā
āNot really.ā
āNot even your colleagues are coming to see you?āĀ
āI think youād also agree that would be playing tic-tac-toe with landmines,ā he spoke with an utterly straight face, heaving a longing sigh right after. āItās not like I can ask for a conjugal visit with my standing, soā¦ā
It felt like you shoved a finger in a socket when he suddenly brought it up. Did that� Did that mean�
āYou⦠have a girlfriend outside?ā your lips rendered the question before you could press āabortā.
āWould you be jealous if I did?ā he responded with another question mark, eyes glued to the papers in his hand, but he was so damn amused that he couldnāt help his devilish smile.
āTsch, why would I be?ā you sneered, horribly failing to veil your interest in that minuscule piece of information. āYou said you canāt ask for it with your standing, so I assumed there is someone you could ask for if your standing was good.ā
When he finally looked up, Chris saw just how deep the creases were between your brows, shoving paper after paper into sheet protectors. Your jaw was slightly clenched, your nostrils were flared, and you were exhaling a bit too loudly from your nose.
Oh, god, you were jealous.
You were jealous.Ā
Of him!
He was so happy that he thought he was going to die from heart failure right then and there.
āOr Iām just saying shit to test your reaction,ā he uttered in a voice filled with the mirth you were used to.Ā
Only when you saw how smugly he was grinning to himself did you realize how busted you were. You suddenly felt the need to drink a gallon of water all by yourself to put out the fire your embarrassment set on your cheeks.
Why were you this disturbed by the mental image of him with another woman anyway?
āWould you come to the visiting days if we were married?ā he nonchalantly asked.
āWho wouldnāt visit their loved ones?ā you put on a fantastically convincing performance through your small panic fit.
āWould you ask for a conjugal visit with me?ā he continued his questioning, hands still busy with sorting out documents like this was some regular conversation topic over tea, but his smile was slowly fading.
Even a man of his composure had his limits because he was a goddamn human being. A human being with needs taking over his sanity. He wanted to be held. He wanted to be kissed. He wanted to hear sweet nothings in his ear from the woman who committed arson on his soul.
He wanted to be the first to know her taste and keep going until he passed out from fatigue.
āWell, uh⦠Er erhm, itāsāitās important for the family ties toāāĀ
āFuck the family ties,ā he interrupted, visibly annoyed. āIām asking if you would want to be with me.ā
You finally locked eyes. That gaze held so much meaning that you were concerned he was going to hear how you were whimpering inside.
āYes, I would,ā you answered with calm resolve.
āWould youā¦?ā
He took a moment to look for the right words, staring at the papers again. He was turning into this gigantic puppy right before you with how nervous he was, and it was tightening your chest even more.
āWould you miss me enough toā¦ā he acted like how thickly he swallowed was no big deal at all, ā...want to touch me?ā
Your blood pressure hit berserk levels, but at the same time just why the fuck was he this endearing?
āItās⦠only nānatural that⦠I would miss my husband,ā you shrugged it off. āI mean, wouldnāt you want to sleep with me?ā
Chris stole a glance from the clock on the wall to call his time of death.
Were you even aware what kind of a fucked up sentence you had just formed?! Him. Sleeping with you. Wouldnāt he want to sleep with⦠with you? You needed to stop. You needed to fucking cut it out before he dropped to his knees and beg you to crawl into his ribcage.
āYou can earn up to forty hours here on good behavior,ā he spoke with odd tranquility as if your sheer beauty alone wasnāt burying him alive. āBut if weāre alone in the same room for that long, I assure you weāre not sleeping.ā
Weāre not. Not āwe wouldnātā, he said weāre not. Like you werenāt even talking hypothetically anymore. Like you were actually in that private room with him.
Even a gallon of water couldnāt save you now because the fire had jumped to the highway of your body, and your embarrassment was rapidly morphing into shame. Even shame wasnāt enough to contain this insanity possessing you, mind and heart alike, because something always always burned much more brightly and fiercely than that.
Lust.
āIt may not be forty hours, but weāre still alone in the same room for that long, donāt you think?ā you carefully stacked the sheet protectors into the red folder in front of you and loudly locked the clip. āEvery day, for that matter.ā
The chill that licked his spine when he held your gaze made him shudder. Your eyes had fully darkened, and you were looking at him almost daringly. You werenāt smiling, but the way your tongue discreetly swiped across your lips was simply diabolical. You werenāt touching him, but you were choking him to death. You werenāt kissing him, but you were taking his breath away.
He was about to go clinically insane if he hadnāt already.
āAre youā¦ā he narrowed his eyes, fully aware he might be taking his last breath any minute now, ātrying to tell me something?ā
āNo, nothing,ā you shrugged, feigning ignorance.Ā
Oh, please. He knew you meant something. He knew you meant exactly that, but it was driving him up a wall that you just wouldnāt confirm it.
āIf weāre not sleeping, then what?ā you asked as casually as you could manage, pulling up a new sheet protector. āDo you wanna play checkers or something instead?āĀ
You sly little minxā¦
He knew full well that you were trying to get him to say things to you. You werenāt looking at him, just filing away with your attention fully on the documents in your hands, and this was the first time Chris felt jealous of goddamn paper. You were still faintly smiling, though. Why were you smiling? Why were you smiling if your intention was not to drive him crazy, huh?Ā
God, he was trying. He was really trying to control his urges, but youā¦Ā
You were fucking enabling him.Ā
āOh, I want to play alright.ā
He put down the papers in his hands and slowly walked behind you. Your eyes followed him as he moved, your breath hitching in your throat. You really should have been sitting down instead of standing because your knees were about to give way any second now.
āBut being away from you that long, locked up in here⦠Iām a literal caged animal, you know,ā he stood right behind you and put his hands on the desk, trapping your body under him. āIām so touch-starved, itās killing me.ā
He gently touched the strands of stray hairs on your nape again, knowing damn well what it did to you. Your eyes fluttered close feeling his body that close to you. Close enough to forfeit all control over your reins.
You would kill to feel him closer than your veins.
āTouch me once, and youāll be lucky if I donāt rip your clothes off,ā he whispered into your ear, his voice slowly changing colors as he kept talking. āIām that feral over you.ā
You were getting so wet that the weak ass support your morals were standing on was about to collapse. One move, and you would be resting your head on his shoulder, perfectly putting your neck on display for him to kiss.
āItās cute that you think I wonāt rip your clothes off first,ā you reciprocated his serve.
He let out a heavy exhale, growing a lot more excited than heād be able to control. He had no idea where that courage came from, but⦠No, actually he did. It came from you flirting back. It came from how you couldnāt keep your eyes open when he was close to you.Ā
It came from the fact that he knew you belonged with him, and you fucking knew it, too.
He put his hands on your waist, subtly pressing himself against you. You almost let out a moan when you felt how huge he was on your ass. Maybe you didnāt need to be locked up within stone walls to feel how touch-starved you also were. You were touch-starved every minute of every day, wishing the man you were developing dangerous cravings for would just jump the gun, when even the one you were legally bound to wouldnāt. You tried talking yourself out of it. You tried so hard, but himā¦
Himā¦
āIād be offended if you didnāt,ā he placed a chaste kiss on your neck, ābut what kind of a man am I if I donāt take care of my girl first?ā
My girl. Take care of. Words you had never heard before. Words you had never heard even in hypothetical contexts, and he was declaring them into your ear like they were martial law.
āShe spends all those nights alone in our bed. Touching herself, thinking of the nights I devoured her. Maybe more than once on the nights she misses me a little too much,ā he ran his hands up your sides, dangerous enough to make your heart stop. āWhich is why, when I finally get in bed with her again, she orders, and I do. Thatās why I exist. Anything she wants.ā
āAnything?ā
āAnything.ā
You imagined it. You imagined missing Chris in your bed. You imagined curling up in his remaining clothes to still feel his scent on the tip of your nose. You imagined cumming to that scent. You imagined sending your cum-soaked panties to him as a souvenir. Maybe he could cum on it and send it back to you, and that would be how you wrote love letters to each other.
You imagined a man crazy enough to go to prison for you and asked you to wait for him, but you didnāt have to imagine being in love with him.
āWhat if all I want is just to tease you?ā you leaned into him a measure so you could properly feel his hardness. āCan you handle not getting your release in your caged animal state?ā
āIf it pleases you,ā he reached for your chest and cupped your breasts, āwho the fuck am I to say no?ā
The breath you let out was so sharp, there was no way you could plead ignorance anymore. He knew you wanted him. You knew you wanted him. And you wanted him to hold you tighter. Harder.
In a chokehold.
āBut arenāt you frustrated?ā you asked him in a whisper.
Still heavily breathing down your neck, his hands slid down again, this time all the way under the skirt of your dress. Fuck, your thighs were so soft. It was fine if you didnāt let him do anything else; he could make do with just kissing them for hours.
āFrustrate me more if you like it,ā he spoke in whispers, but each word came out like a threatening hiss, each one written with kisses on your neck. āI have a thing for that.ā
You couldnāt help how hard you swallowed.
His hands were sliding up your thighs now, exploring the neighborhood of the castle he actually wanted to reside in. Every time he got a bit too close to your pussy, you were clenching so hard that he could feel it right on his tip as if you were both naked.
You wanted him, too, he knew. You wanted him, too, and he was forcing himself to remember how to be a gentleman about it because all he could think of was how he wanted you in the worst ways.
āYouāre⦠okay with only taking care of me?ā you slightly turned your head to your left.
āOkay with it?ā he chuckled, melting you with the caramel notes of his subdued laughter. āYouāre my fucking everything. Thatās the sole purpose of my entire life.ā
You were in complete disbelief over what his mere words were inducing in you, appalled that you would even consider something like this. This beautiful demon with that silver tongue of his⦠You were trying. You were trying to remind yourself that there were obligations that you needed to fulfill. Professional ones. Marital ones. Both of which were draining the fucking life out of you.
Both of which were making it next to impossible to resist him.Ā
āThen what ifā¦?ā you gulped, breathing unstable. āWhat if all I want you to do isā¦?ā
He knew exactly what you meant just from the way you couldnāt verbalize it. You were giving him a terrible case of cuteness aggression, making him want to drown you in kisses.
āThen thatās all Iāll do for those forty hours,ā he promised, tone nonchalant but intent heavier than your own wedding vows. āIāll spend it all eating your pussy.ā
āChrisā¦ā
Chris. You called him Chris. Not Fang. Not inmate. The one thing, the only thing that he was being deprived of just so he would forget he was a human.
āThis is all your fault,ā he finally dared to cross the line, very very gently caressing your pussy no matter how hidden it was from him under layers of fabric. āYou have this⦠grip on me.ā
And he had this grip on you.Ā
The softest kisses on your neck. Kisses on your cheek. You were ending his life even though all you did was just exist, and he was afraid to open his eyes and look at you.
āI told you to let the sleeping wolves lie, but what do you do instead?ā he pressed his head on your shoulder. āYou walk into the den barefoot. You lie down right next to the wolf itself.ā
āThen why doesnāt it kill me?āĀ
He smiled to himself, placing a very soft kiss on your temple as if his intentions were as pure as they could ever be.Ā
āLoyalty,ā he sighed in defeat. āTo its master.ā
His whispers in your ear felt like they were blasting from loudspeakers, sending an immediate shockwave to your core. Even a woman of your poise had her limits because you were a human being after all. A human being with needs that werenāt catered to for what seemed like forever taking over her sanity, and if you didnāt take the last exit right about now, you were fucking doomed.
āI know what youāre thinking,ā he reached for the waistband of your underwear, ābut you need to say it first.ā
The exit was collapsing along with all your defenses against him. You were just headed towards the cliff you were going to drive off of. You knew you were.
But you stopped caring.
āChrisā¦ā
Chris. You called him Chris. Not Fang. Not inmate. The only thing reminding him that he was a man, but if he couldnāt breathe the same air as the woman he would burn this world down for, he was nothing.
āSay it,ā he caressed the soft flesh of your mound, unable to move an inch more. āSay it, and Iām yours.ā
Fuck the exit.Ā
You slammed on the gas pedal with all your might and drove past it, leaving a trail of dust clouds behind you.Ā
You turned around and dove right into his lips headfirst. He immediately grabbed your waist and sat you down on the desk, kissing every piece of bare skin within his line of sight. You wrapped your legs around his waist, holding onto him tight. He was burning up under your touch. He dragged the bust of your dress down and kissed all over your chest, filling his lungs with as much of your sweet scent as he could. God, how much he had longed for this. This. This. This was the very thing, the only thing that kept him alive.Ā
āTouch me, Chris.ā
JUST WHAT THE HELL WAS YOUR PROBLEM, HUH?!
You grabbed his hand and placed it on your thighs again, asking him to make a move. His eyes widened in disbelief, still unsure if he was allowed to do what he was losing his damn mind over, but when you made him grope you hard, he finally took the fucking hint. He spread your legs as wide as he could and dropped to his knees, groaning like he was in pain just because he was this close to the meaning of his life.
Everything had boiled down to this moment.
He hooked his fingers behind your underwear and slid it to the side, repeating to himself over and over again that he was not a goddamn animal as he stared at your mouthwatering wetness. But maybe he was a little. Werenāt all human beings animals after all? Animals ruled by their instincts. And his instincts were goading him into claiming you for himself for the longest damn time. No, not to own you. Just to mark you. So that heād know who to eviscerate if they dared to breathe the same fucking air as you.
He buried his head between your legs, and your entire life flashed before your eyes.
A ball of pure fire had formed in your loins, and with each lick on your soaked folds, a chunk of it was being cannonballed into your veins. You were spiking a lethal fever with acute onset lust, delirious with the intensity of the pleasure this man was inducing in your body. Those full, gorgeous lips wrapped around your clit, lazily sucking on you, obscene sounds bouncing off the stone walls every time he slurped on your cunt⦠It was impossible to stay sane. It was impossible to go on with your life as the woman you were five minutes ago. You put one hand on his head, caressing his hair as he worked his magic, and with each loving stroke, Chris was falling irretrievably in love with you.
You wanted to wreck this prison to the ground when the siren went off in the distance signaling headcount.Ā
He immediately jumped to his feet, as frustrated as you were for not being able to give you your happy ending, and helped you fix yourself in case a guard would drop by your office.Ā
āLooks like you got your wish, but I dare you to frustrate me more next time,ā he stole a kiss from your lips and made his way back extremely reluctantly. āYou owe me forty hours, and Iām gonna collect every⦠single⦠one.ā
He might not have seen the ending of the movie, but Chris was still on cloud nine that he was there to catch the trailers. He skipped dinner that evening so that your taste on his tongue wouldnāt be laced with anything else, but with every passing hour, his euphoric high was receding, leaving that void to be filled with something else. Something ugly.
Something urgent.
āHey, I gotta ask you something,ā Chris approached Jack after dinner, ābut Noah cannot know about it, deal?ā
āIs everything okay, mate?ā Jack looked at his former bunkmate with concern.
āDoes Liv still do custom work?ā
Jackās face changed all of a sudden, half-surprised, half-entertained.
āBullet or blade?ā he grinned.
āYes,ā Chris replied curtly, compulsively checking the gate for Noah. āI have a job for her, but itās not a message. She has to make it look like an accident.ā
ā„ Reblog & drop your feedback to get him obsessed with you.
Author:Ā @kpopfanfictrashā as part of theĀ Ā Deadly Intentions collaboration with @underthejoonāā @lamourcheā @floralseokjinā @prolixitaeā @btssmutgaloreā and @taetaetrashhhāĀ
Creative Contributor: @taetaetrashhh for organizing the collab and this wonderful moodboard!
Pairing: Yoongi / Reader (third person)
Genre: Hellhound!Yoongi / Magical!Reader / High Fantasy
Word Count:Ā 30,868
Rating/Warnings:Ā 18+ for mature themes and sexual content. Character death depicted (not main). Violence depicted in both fight scenes and flashbacks. Unprotected sex.Ā
Summary: Ā Y/N has always known she was different. A ward in a city where all know their name. A girl apprenticed to a blacksmith. And a shadow-singer āĀ a magical being who controls the night and sees all within. Even those who would prefer not to be seen.
A/N: There is some Welsh mythology referenced to within the fic, but it is by no means canon.Ā [ CROSS-POSTED TO WATTPAD HERE ]
summary: after going through with an arranged marriage to please his parents and secure his inheritance of the family business, kim taehyung thinks heās got it all figured out. he doesnāt. apparently just being married to you isnāt enough, not when everybody and their mother can pick up on the fact that the two of you absolutely loathe each other. but taehyung wants his inheritance one way or another, so he decides that desperate times call for desperate measures: the two of you need to fall in love, and you need to fall in love fast.
{enemies to lovers!au, arranged marriage!au, rich kids!au}
pairing: kim taehyung x female reader
genre: fluff, angst, smut (what!!)
est. word count: 30k
a/n:Ā well well well. long time no see, i suppose. i know you guys have been waiting months for this fic, and i have been spending months slaving over it, but itās finally here!! itās coming !!! holy shit itās literally almost here!!! and the best news of all, itās not just my baby. itās @kinktaeāās too!!! yes, thatās right folks, rose has very kindly offered to write the smut in this fic, so you guys are getting fed fed. please make sure to give her lots of love for me !!!! if you are uncomfortable with reading smut, please know that weāve structured the story so that itās not imperative you read it in order to fully grasp everything. we hope you enjoy!
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āYou do realize that our marriage isnāt going to suddenly go away, right? That weāre going to have to keep doing this for the rest of our lives?ā You remind him, eyebrows raised. Thereās a part of you that genuinely thinks heās completely forgotten that your marriage is permanent.
min yoongi have seen it all. tasted them all. and fucked more women - humans, nymphs, succubus and whatnot - than the years his past lives have lived.
and to be quite frank, heās getting tired of it all.
that is, until he met you.
corny, but true.
you were nothing but a human child. weak with too short of legs that always begged him to āwait! hey, mister!ā until his ears would almost bleed and heād still hear your pitter patter of steps and heart racing from running after him.
[2:03 am] minho groaned under his breath as you tightened your limbs around him, snuggling your face into his neck. "god, you're heavy." he muttered, shaking his head slightly as he hiked you further up his back.
"am not." you retorted, words muffled on his skin, accompanied by a soft giggle that tickled against him. "and nobody said you had to carry me home, i can take care of myself."
"how would you have gotten home, love?" minho asked, the evident smug tone in his voice was not lost on you in your drunken state.
you lifted your head, squinting your eyes as your vision started swimming, so you could rest your chin on his shoulder. "i could've walked." you pouted.
"oh? do you want me to set you down, baby? so you can walk?" he asked, stopping in his tracks and letting his grip slacken.
"no~" you whined, pressing your face back into his neck and tightening your hold on him.
minho snorted, tightening his hold on you as he started walking again. "you're like a koala, my sweet baby koala that needs her minnie to take care of her." he cooed, picturing the blush that he knew was dusting your cheeks.
"minnie~" what would have been a whine was slurred out in a sleepy haze, your lips ghosting over the nape of his neck. despite being half-asleep, your grip on him hadn't slackened in the slightest.
"yes, baby?" he teased, turning his head as if to look at you.
you paused, smiling against his neck before leaning up to press a sloppily placed kiss on his cheek. "i love you."
minho grinned, shaking his head, knowing that you were minutes away from passing out on him. "i know, baby."
⦠genre: college!au, best friends to lovers!au; angst, fluff
⦠pairings: reader x minho
⦠word count: 17.4k
⦠description:Ā lee minho crashes at your apartment four out of seven days in a week, but youāre the crashing for him.
⦠warnings: explicit language, mentions of alcohol, suggestive, slow af burn
⦠a/n:Ā hello after 4 months of not writing !!! self-quarantine brings out the best in me (due to lack of responsibilities) & hereās the fic Iāve been working on for the past week; I hope you like it :)
one.
Lee Minho tells you that he drowned his AirPods during that one campfire social by the beach and that he canāt afford to buy a new pair because heās a dirt poor, money-starved college student who survives solely off of Shin Ramyun and its complementary mushroom flakes.
You know this because 1) heās mentioned it before during the ten-minute break of your three-hour-long marketing lecture and even got the professor involved in a heated discussion about Appleās obligation to make all of their product lines waterproof for maximum customer brand loyalty, 2) the past several calls with him have been staticy and demonic sounding, and 3) he actually FaceTimed you during his grocery trip last weekend and asked whether he should buy two five-packs of Shin Ramyun or one. You said one, but youāre pretty sure Minhoās too fucking weak to pass up on that two-for-one deal.
So here you are, grocery shopping on a Friday night (because youāll never wake up early on a Saturday morning) and listening to your best friend wail about his misfortunes through the phone as youāre slapping every watermelon you come in contact with.
Hey, someone reposted the things you do not know: www(.)wattpad(.)com/841597776-exo-imagines-chanyeol-x-reader-1
hi anon. thanks so much for bringing this to my attention. i will be filing a DMCA take down to get this removed. i really appreciate you for taking the time to tell me.
to all my writer friends:Ā
this wattpad userĀ https://www.wattpad.com/user/vverrkwannĀ has three collections of fanfic regarding EXO, Shinee, and NCT.
@optimizche one of your fics is included in the EXO list under Chanyeol x reader 4. @nunchiwrites hey babes xx your fic has been listed under chanyeol x reader 2. @ninibears-erigom my love :( you have a fic here under kai x reader 2. @mint-yooxgi i know you write for taemin so it might be worthwhile looking at the shinee book.
the DMCA takedown was completed this morning and the user is officially deleted. iāve seen a few comments that the user replied to messages and apologized, which is more than iāve seen users on wattpad do previously.
i rarely, RARELY speak about my job but i think, in this instance, itās important. i will not specifically say what my job is, but i am daily working with intellectual property, copyright, and the digital millennium copyright act. i have seen so many writers on this post express their upset that they donāt actually know how to file a DMCA takedown request and usually are just left messaging users who repost or copy their work. so here are a few things for you to note:
- your original created works, be that gifs, fanfiction, graphics, art etc are considered intellectual property. these works are legally protected and, if you want, you can leave a copyright notice on your page notifying that you do not grant permission for you work to be reposted, changed, spun-off, etc. this also can include translation. over the years i have denied several requests for my works to be translated. trust me. it counts.
- the DMCA covers anything that is digital, and therefore every website will have some form of acknowledgement or form for you to utilize to file a take down request should you find your work on another platform. things to note:
1. only YOU, the original creator, can file a takedown request on your own behalf. you can only file a takedown on behalf of another party if you are the authorized agent (attorney/power of attorney/parent if original owner is under 18) or the original author has granted explicit written consent which can be proved in court of law
2. i recommend you maintain a record of all drafts and posting histories. in many cases, especially in fanfiction, you will need to prove where YOU uploaded your work to create a timeline of ownership. i keep a record of dates and time stamps all my fics were posted. i have an external hard drive that contains only my original work should anything ever need to be proven. i know i sound crazy but it is serious.
3. you will always be required to provide an email or a phone number, in most cases you will be required to provide both. this is because some websites (tho for fanfic i have not seen any do this) will put you in contact with the reposter. this is the ONLY time i will ever be in contact with someone who copies or reposts my work because, as part of the DMCA, the email correspondence is recorded and can be proven.
on wattpad, you can file a DMCA takedown by either googling OR scrolling to the bottom of the story and clicking the ... on the bottom by all the share options. you will see REPORT as the last option. this is the DMCA form. please make use of it.
wattpad takes anywhere from 8-48 hours to respond to these because they are legally required to do so in these time frames. this is not the first time iāve filed a DMCA with wattpad. they are very responsive.
if you are ever creating, writing, editing, or even thinking of engaging in fan works on tumblr or AO3 or even wattpad i am imploring you to know your rights. you have them. you are protected.